"Wakey, wakey little brat! Time for school!!" Groggily, I opened my eyes. Who the hell…? Ah… Damn Caius. I pushed myself off of my bed. While in the hospital, Caius, Lucian, and Austin finished furnishing out house while Jasper –reluctantly- kept me company. Let's just say Jasper is eternally scared of me and I do know he will follow me to the ends of the earth because I told him what Caius told me. Caius was throwing me an outfit for the day. He rounded on me. "Go get showered and dressed and ready for a brand new day, my little Princess!!" he crooned. I stared at him incredulously. What a moron. With a long, suffering sigh, I stood and accepted the clothes he shoved in my arms and went to take a shower.

I stood under the shower head and turned the water on hot. What happened next shocked me and I screamed –and I can say this proudly- like a little girl. WHY WAS THERE NO HOT WATER?!?!! I heard Caius cackling from the other room. Well, at least I'm awake. I screamed again then dealt with it. Half an hour later, I got out of the shower. My body was very numb. I dressed in whatever the crap Caius threw at me, applied my usual make up –one eye green eye shadow, the other silver, eye liner, and a light coat of blush-, and skipped out of the bathroom. Downstairs, Caius was making eggs but also holding out my cell phone for me. I took it, put it on silent, and sat at the table. We were waiting for Jasper and his family to get here in Jasper's brother's Jeep. I gratefully took the eggs Caius made, as he'd only been making bacon and I dislike any form of pig cooked greatly. Do not inquire as to why. I ate my eggs in silence and stood, ultimately landing on my face with my lovely broken footed orangutan grace. I heard Caius snicker.

Shut it, Vampire Boy, I snarled at him in my mind as I stood. I should've known I couldn't make it a whole hour without biffing up.

I didn't say or think anything, Princess, replied Caius as the doorbell rang. He helped me stand and we both went to the door. Austin must've left hours ago.

"Pansy!!!" Jasper said. His eyes fell on Caius. "Caius…"

"I'm excited to see you too, Jasper," Caius remarked dryly as the three of us walked to the Jeep. How all five Cullen kids, me, Caius, and Lucian were going to fit, I will never know. Yeah, so I do know. Emmett, Jasper's oldest brother, is driving, his girlfriend Rosalie is in the passenger seat, Jasper's youngest brother Edward is sitting behind Emmett, his girlfriend Bella in his lap, Alice is sitting in the middle, probably going to be in Jasper's lap on the way there, and Lucian was standing in the very back. I stepped lightly forward and smiled.

I addressed Lucian and Caius. "Lucian, you can sit in Caius's lap! I'll stand!" I joked. They gave cries of outrage. I waved my hands in surrender and waited for Jasper and Alice to get situated. "I'm joshing you guys. Of course you can't sit in Caius's lap. HE'S MINE!!!" I yelled while Caius got situated. Everyone looked at me funny. I glared at Jasper as I climbed into the cold lap of Caius. I relaxed against his chest as the Jeep began moving and shot Jasper a glare. "Don't look at me like that," I said shyly, trying to guilt him. It worked. Whoa. AWESOME! I patted his shoulder consolingly. "It's okay, Jasper. I don't eternally hate you for being mean to me… Though I may eternally hate you for crushing my bag of Funions. That was the only haunted bag I could find in Wal-Mart."

No one made any comment, so I stared at the sky as the Jeep rolled.

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The news was a great shock to me after school. I don't know how to handle this turn of events. I really, truly do not understand how to handle it. I am… Confused… It doesn't make sense… It won't sink in. I can't believe it. The Cullens and Caius are all staring at me expectantly. I… How could this be true? He was well when I last saw him… I saw him not fifteen minutes ago. How… How…? Who…? What in heaven's name is going on? First me then him?! It… He can't be… He shouldn't be… He… He can't abandon me! He can't, he can't… He can't!!! I felt the burning of tears stinging my eyeballs. They're still staring at me. I… I need him. He can't have abandoned me… Not like this… Not… Not now… Cieux… Me… Even, at some point, Michael… We need him… How in the world am I supposed to take this? What am I supposed to feel?!

Jasper looks at me lovingly. "Pansy, I understand-"

Those words were enough to make me snap. I hate it when someone, even some empathetic BLOOD SUCKING LEECH, says "I understand." No one can understand another, even if they've gone through similar things! I may feel happy, with tears of joy burning at my eyes! How can he know? Doesn't he know my mind and feelings are Caius's as well?!?! Stupid vampire! I hate you… I hate you…

"I hate you!" I screamed at him.

"Pansy," Jasper spoke. His calm waves that flooded my system had no effect on me. "Calm down!"

"I HATE YOU!" I yelled at him. To me, no one existed except Jasper, whom I could take out my anger on. No one but Jasper truly understood, because he is the stupid empathetic vampire that, over the past month, I have come to love like a brother. Jasper understands. He knows I need him to let me be angry. He knows… I can see it in his eyes. Caius and my connection is nonexistent as I scream at Jasper. Jasper caught my wrists after about a half-hour of me screaming at him. I wonder where the others are. "I hate you… I hate you…" I sobbed against his chest as he pulled me to him in a brotherly hug. I feebly tried to push away from him, but I had no strength left in me. "I hate you…"

He tucked my hair behind my ear. "Pansy… Sh… I understand." My strength returned and I pushed him off of me. He did not resist. I shook my head, a fresh wave of tears coming.

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!" I screamed at him. He looked at me from his place sprawled on the floor of the hospital parking garage.

"Pansy!!!" Caius yelled. "Knock it off!"

"This behavior is quite unnecessary," Dr. Carlisle Cullen added. His wife, Esme, nodded. I shook my head rapidly.

"SHUT UP FOR GOD'S SAKE! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW?!? HUH?! WHAT DO YOU KNOW?!" I yelled. I could see in their expressions that they were glad we hadn't left the parking garage where my voice reverberated around us. I shook my head.

"You really do need to calm down though, Pansy," whispered Bella.

"SHUT UP!" I screamed. Without a second thought, I made a dash for Austin's truck. No one tried to stop me. I got into the truck Dukes of Hazard style and revved the engine. Silly Austin always did forget to take the keys from the ignition. Before I could drive, the passenger door opened. I waited until it shut and floored it out of the stupid parking garage.

Whoever climbed in the car with me rolled down the windows with the buttons on the dash and blasted my mixed CD that Austin loved. The song blasting out all four windows, five including the back one, was one of the few songs of mine Austin absolutely loathed –Breaking the Habit. I didn't care that I was speeding, nor did my companions. I just needed to get away from they who "understand". I didn't stop until I knew I was out of Forks. I gripped the steering wheel as I slammed on the brakes, the truck parked in two parking spaces on some sort of reserve. I finally broke down as Porcelain Heart blared out the windows.

I think my whole CD played one go-round before I pulled myself together. I took a shaky breath to calm myself and glanced over at who had accompanied me… Not who I expected. Edward and Rosalie. Probably because they haven't been in the story much… Edward, who was sitting next to me, reached over and ruffled my hair. "It's fine," he murmured soothingly like one would to an injured deer. "Would you like to go for a swim? Alice warned me of the events of the day, so Rosalie and I planned ahead." I looked out the window. It looked much too cloudy, but if Alice's vision said it would be fine, we could go. There were light traces of sunlight, but as long as there was not much, I guess Rosalie and Edward could go. I nodded and rolled up the windows and turned down the music before shutting the truck off. I tossed Edward the keys and he put them in the beach bag Rosalie was holding.

We all changed first and then walked to the beach. There were a bunch of kids already there, most of them looked native and what not. They were gathered around a bonfire with flames of a light blue hue. Rosalie and Edward led me about a mile from the kids and we all relaxed and "sunbathed". No sun, no sunbathing. Rosalie looked like a bloody model over there. She wore a gold colored bikini that accented her eyes and skin brilliantly. Edward's trunks were the same gold color. I feel no need to tell you what they forced me into –yes, both of them. Edward had to pin me down while Rosalie put it on me. They forced me into a green bikini with little yellow flowers all over. Stupid vampires anyways. I don't want to be one of them. I stood and stretched and tentatively walked to the water.

Neither Edward or Rosalie stopped me. I walked into the water until it was up to my ankles. It wasn't as cold as I thought it would be. I trudged over to a rock that was in the shallows and perched on it, my feet splashing in the water. I let my mind wander…

All I could think of when this happened was Austin. Everything about him invaded all of my senses. The way he would tuck my hair behind my ears when I was a little girl. The way he tasted when I was five or six and kissed him on the lips playfully like all little girls do… The way he smelled when he hugged me and told me how much he loved me or how proud he was of me. The way his voice sounded when he was pleased with me. The way his whole face lit up happily when he saw me. Austin… My heart shattered when I realized I would no longer get to have these things in my life. It finally sunk in full blast… Austin Geraldo… My father… The only man I need in my life… Is dead… No longer would I hear the happiness in his voice when he talked about Dr. Cullen at dinner. No longer would I feel his warm touch when he tucked me into bed at night… No longer would I see the shining face of my father, Austin Perkins Geraldo. I didn't even ask how he died. It hurt me so, so, so much. I miss my daddy. I am proud to say that I AM a Daddy's Girl. No matter where Austin is… I am Daddy's Little Girl. I wrapped my arms around my middle and shuddered. I felt a new wave of tears hit me and I took a shaky breath.

"Werewolf at twelve o'clock, Pansy," I heard Edward call quietly. "Two." I wiped the tears away and jumped gingerly to my feet as two bulky figures came into view. Moments later, they joined our little rendezvous. I looked at them curiously. Twins, by the look of it. Edward nodded curtly at my thoughts. I smiled shyly at them both. They both grinned back. Oh! I see… One of them has red hair –the sun just hit his head- and the other brown… And the red head has blue eyes and the brunette green eyes. I inclined my head and sighed.

The red head stepped up. "Hey!" he said. "The name's Collin!" His twin jumped up beside him.

"Hello," he said quietly, quite a change compared to his brother. "I'm Collin's twin, I'm Brady." I think…Yeah, I totally like Brady better. He's cuter –sorry Collin- and quieter.

"Hey," I murmured. "I'm Pansy!" Something dawned on Collin's face. He glanced between Brady and I and grinned slyly. I raised a brow.

"Well," Collin said, "I just came over to… Say hi. I like meeting new faces. But, I must be getting back. Seth will have my head if I'm not there with him." Collin threw something like a longing look towards a boy with native skin color and distinctively shaggy, light brown hair. I smiled a small smile as he bounded off. That left Brady and I standing awkwardly together. I felt Edward's smirk and threw him a sneer. Brady blinked and turned around and shyly smiled to Edward and Rosalie.

"Brady," they said in unison.

"Hey guys…" he replied. I got bored with the direction of this conversation and clapped my hands animatedly together.

"OKAY!" I punched the air. "Let's go SWIMMING!!" It would help get my mind off of Austin as well… Brady grinned broadly and nodded. Before I knew what was happening, he'd picked me up and tossed me into the ocean and, when I resurfaced, he, Edward, and Rosalie had joined me.

Are you watching me Austin…? I miss you… Protect me and Brady and my friends from Heaven, please, please Daddy? I miss you…

Sorry –for those of you who LOVE him- for the Lack of Lucian (LOL… Lack of Lucian... LOL… Get it…? Hahahaha…. Yeah no.) But yeah, really sorry about the lack of him. And if any of you loved Austin –he was hardly mentioned-, sorry for killing him, but how else is Boss supposed to play with Pansy before the Yamanatsuba come in…?

Reviews are my homies… Review pleaaaase, so I know you like my story… Or constructive criticism. Please don't hate on me for putting them out of character. They live forever they MUST go stir-crazy once in a while, yeah? But I MIGHT put this story on HIATUS like everything else if no one reviews and what not…