Twilight=Not Mine Also the Songs Included=Not Mine Also Credit to Marie Digby and Jillian Jensen in this chapter for their amazing musical skills.

My eyes fluttered open and I looked at the ceiling. After what seemed like forever I rolled to my side and looked at my clock. It read 3 am, shit I still have awhile till school rolled around. I might as well get up and start my new way of living. I took a shower, straightened my hair pin straight, then I put a blue bandana in my hair like a headband. I got dressed in a t-shirt, leather looking skirt, and ankle leather boots. I had smoky eye makeup and red lipstick. I looked at the clock, it read 5 am. I still had time, so I went to my piano and continued to work on the lyrics to the song I was working on. Ever since they left I have been trying to live, therefore I am finally letting my song out. Maybe it will work out maybe it won't only time will tell on this one. I started to sing from the chorus, and then onto the verse I was currently working on.

"I start again and whatever pain may come. Today this ends. I'm forgiving what I've done. I'll face myself, to cross out what I've become. Erase myself, and let go of what I've done. What I've done. "

I sang the song over and over till I felt comfortable with it. I saved the lyrics on my laptop, along with the recording of the piano to it. I refuse to record my own voice, for the fact of I don't know, just a feeling. It was now time to go to Forks High. Cue the fake happiness. I hoped into my midnight blue Audi, yes I got a better car deal with it, and I was off. I stepped out into the open, breathed the fresh air and made my way into the school. Faces looked at me, but I did not care one bit. It seemed like everyone was ignoring me. I continued on to my classes. Lauren was glaring, again like I cared. At lunch it was one of those rare nice days so I went over to the bleachers and sat by myself because well apparently I'm a virus now.

My lunch was going swimmingly, until I went and dumped my food. Lauren came up with her posse behind her. Jessica and Angela were there but looked like they didn't like what was about to go down. Here comes the fun all, let's see what happens. I really need to see a therapist, my inner monologues scare me sometimes. I'm narrating my own life, I don't think that's normal. There I go again, and again. I shut my inner self up and turned my attention to Lauren and the others.

"Hey all, here is miss invisible." Lauren snarled.

"What do you want, I don't want any trouble." I said.

"Stop trying to fit in with those clothes, we all know you're a know nothing who drove away the hottest guy in school." She continued to "joke" around. I started to walk to my next class. They followed me for awhile. I turned around.

"Don't you have anything better to do?"

"Actually yes, but I just wanted you to know that no one will ever care for you. You drive every one away with your ugly face and boring life. The hell even Jessica looks better than you. Edward didn't want you, he never did it was all just a game to him. You were just his little pet to play with until he got bored. How does it feel to be thrown away like the trash you are?" Lauren sneered.

"You don't know anything. That's not true." I quivered a little bit, tears starting to form. Lauren grabbed my bag and rummaged through it. She pulled out my lyric book. I tried to grab it.

"Give it back Lauren!"

"Oh, you want to be a singer and songwriter, now do you? Well an ugly talentless loser like you will never succeed. I mean look at these lyrics, they suck. Just give up and work at fast food restaurant already. That's all you are good for anyway. Instead of trying to sing, maybe you should just start practicing the line you will say for the rest of your life, Hello may I take your order?" Lauren then proceeded to throw my backpack down the stairwell. I went to walk down after it and she tripped me at the last second. As I was falling I covered my face but hit my side. It hurt like hell. Lauren threw my lyric notebook in my face.

"Hey miss invisible, have a horrible life." Lauren proceeded then to walk away with her posse. Jessica and Angela looked back with hurt expressions. I just looked away so they wouldn't see the tears. I gathered my stuff and walked to my music class that I switched out for the study hall I had. Since I was new to the class I had to perform a song, whether it was original or someone else's song. I asked Mrs. Richards if I could have a little time so I could write an original and she said go on right ahead. So that brings me to the library where I am right now thinking. I don't want to use my new song because that is for the "gig" tonight, therefore completely new song from scratch. Come on Bella think, think. I opened my notebook, cleared my mind, and let out whatever came.

'There's a girl who sits under the bleachers just another day eating alone. And though she smiles there is something she's hiding and she can't find a way to relate. She just goes unnoticed as the crowd passes by. And she'll pretend to be busy when inside she just wants to cry…'

I had a tune in my head and hurried to one of the schools music rooms to see how this sounded. I set up my phone to record which I usually don't do but I had ideas in my head on my way there and I needed to get them down while I had the tune still in my head. I started with the piano and let what come, come.

'There's a girl who sits under the bleachers just another day eating alone. And though she smiles there is something she's hiding and she can't find a way to relate. She just goes unnoticed as the crowd passes by. And she'll pretend to be busy when inside she just wants to cry…

And she'll say take a little look at the life of miss always invisible. Look a little closer, I really really want to put yourself in her shoes. Take another look at the face of miss always invisible. Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day when you'll ask her her name.'

I closed the song there not wanting to go any further for now. I looked up and was shocked to see someone standing there. I was even more shocked to see who it was.

"Alice?" I whispered. She looked at me, and then sprang. She left me there stunned at seeing her. Maybe it was just a hallucination. Yeah that's probably it. I went through my song for tonight. The rest of the day was more of boring school and being ignored. My mind though couldn't stay off the fact that I thought I saw Alice. I tried to shake it off while I drove home to get changed. I hoped out and got changed as fast as I could. I changed into thigh high brown leather boots, blue jeans, and a Three Days Grace tee shirt. I grabbed my packed piano and loaded into my car and was on my way to Port Angeles. I got to the place and went to go in with my stuff. I got stamped under 21 and was point to behind the curtains. I paid the manager the fee and got ready for my song. Apparently this is a contest tonight. Added pressure on cue. Deep breathes Bella. I looked out from behind the curtain, there are a lot of people. Deep breathes. The manager cued me to go on. I was the last one up. I took a final deep breathe. It was now or never. I hoped never came but went to the stage anyway.

"Hello everyone, my name is Bella and I'm going to sing a song for you. I guess you already knew that though since this is a singing competition." I got a couple of laughs. I looked at the crowd and saw Alice. I blinked a couple of times. She gave me the thumbs up. My mind was numb and my head was spinning. I had to continue though.

"This is an original song I wrote, obviously since it's an original, called What I've Done. It is about starting over, forgiving yourself. I regret things I have done in the past and am now facing it. I want to live again. This song is the first step. I hope you like it." I played the first few notes and forgot everything that was going on around me and just put my emotion into the song. (AN: If you want to hear the song, I will post the link on my profile.) On my last note, I opened my eyes and saw everyone clapping. I was awestruck for a little bit. I got off the stage and went back behind the curtains. Alice was there I started to go to her but then I heard the finalists being called, I listened.

"The final finalist and winner of this round is Isabella Swan. Let's hear it for her." I went out onto the stage.

"So our winner, will you perform one more song for us to close the night?" The manager asked.

"I will, if that's what you want." The crowd clapped while I got set up and the other contestants moved off the stage.

"This song is about how one little mistake haunts you, and how you try to cope with life. It is truly okay not to be okay." I started to play and sing out loosing myself in the lyrics. (An: This will be also on the profile.)

'I stare at my reflection in the mirror. Why am I doing this to myself? I'm losing my mind on a tiny error. I nearly left the real me on the self. No, no, no, no, no. Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars. Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. It's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising. Be true to who you are. Who you are. Who you are. Who you are. Who you are. No, no, no, no, no, oh. Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars. Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. It's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising. Be true to who you are."

I was slightly tearful. Okay let's be honest I was in tears. Everybody was speechless. I went behind the curtain and to the bathroom and cried. I was crying for awhile over Edward, Alice, okay the whole situation of what happened, my brain over thinking. I heard someone knock on the door.

"Bella?"

It was Alice.

Duh Duh Duh! Cliff hanger a little bit. Let me know what you think, or how this story is going. I have to say I was a bit emotional writing this, adding the music while writing this definitely is a difference in mood. Feedback is appreciated. I will update soon. I love you all! I hope that's not creepy .

Love always and emotions,

Bella Boo