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She closed the door trying to keep the tears inside. She knew he'd just promised to help her but when would she ever see them again? She only felt safe with them but why were they so important to her? For so long she'd just been relying on her survival instincts for her and the baby but now she finally felt like there was someone out there who could help. Only they'd just left.

Suddenly she felt an arm around her throat and tried to remain calm though fighting the fear that was crawling inside of her. She knew who it was but that didn't stop the fear. He'd regularly beaten her everywhere but the stomach if she'd stepped out of line or disobeyed him. In the end she'd given in and just done what he'd asked of her mostly for the baby's sake. She wouldn't let anything hurt her baby. Up until now her baby had been her only ally; all she'd had.

"You asked them to help you, didn't you, Anna?" he said gruffly pushing her against the door but being careful of her bump. There was no way he'd hurt this precious baby. He moved her so she was facing him as he got on his knees to worship this goddess he'd created. He lifted up her skirt while she tried to fight against him squeezing her eyes tight knowing full well what he was about to do. Ever since he'd got her pregnant all she'd been to him was a sex toy and an experiment.

This time though this time it was different. She felt the fight she'd long given up return to her. A voice she'd long since forgot came back to her. Come on, you can fight back! You're Aaron Hotchner! Wait what no! Oh god, no! That young agent was right. She was Aaron Hotchner! Oh god, this monster had forced her to become a woman against her will!

Anger coursed through her veins as she remembered that morning. That morning she woke up to find this monster had changed her privates to a woman's. The moment she'd realised he'd mutilated her and forced her to live under another identity. She remembered how he'd denied her suicide attempt by making her pregnant. The baby had been the only thing keeping her going and she wasn't going to let him lay one hand on her baby girl.

"They'll never set you free, Anna..." she heard the doctor say as she fought for him to keep his hands off of her. That's where you're wrong; she thought; they already have. "You'll continue to be the mother of my children. We'll have a whole house full of them."

That was the straw that broke the camel's back. Suddenly all she saw was red. He'd mutilated her body, raped her repeatedly as well as sexually assaulted her. He'd basically destroyed her life and stripped her identity. She wouldn't let him get away with it. She couldn't go on living like this. She had to end it. She had to end it tonight. She had to get out of here for herself and the baby and he had to pay. He had to pay for everything he'd done to her.

She had to get him off her. She couldn't let him have his way with her any more. She kneed him in the face and tried to escape a little afraid of how he'd react but she had to get out of this nightmare. She had to get out of here if there was a remote possibility of getting her old life back. If there was any chance of correcting everything he'd done to her and moving on with her life.

"I'll get you for that, you bitch," she heard Dr Norwood snarl but she refused to look back as she ran as fast as she could back to the study. She was too scared to look back. She'd never attacked him in retaliation before. She'd always struggled but never hit back despite he'd deserved it. After waking up from the shock of seeing he'd carved up her genitals and given her new ones she'd been too worried what he'd do next.

Suddenly she remembered the gun in his top drawer. If she could just get to it before he caught her in time she could protect herself. She didn't know if she'd use it but it would sure come in handy. She knew she'd use it if she had to. She wouldn't let him get away with anything further and he'd get what was coming to him over what he'd already done. She tried to run as fast as her pregnancy would carry her while she heard him getting back up.

Thankfully she reached the study and went in front of the desk looking through the drawers while she heard him coming down the corridor. She felt relieved as she felt her fingers curl around the cold hard steel of the doctor's pistol and brought it out of the desk. Old memories came flooding through her memory of how good she used to be with a gun and she suddenly felt a lot stronger and more confident. She looked up and saw the doctor so aimed it at him for protection.

Dr Norwood's eyes opened wide as he took Anna in with his gun. He'd heard all about Aaron Hotchner's skill with a gun and he looked at her alarmed. That was why before he'd managed to break her he'd always made sure she was in restraints. Surely she wouldn't shoot him though.

"Come on, Anna, you wouldn't really shoot me. We're friends; you and I," he tried to reason.

"My name's Aaron Hotchner and I am certainly not your friend," she answered steely narrowing her eyes and placing it on the trigger.

"It was only an experiment."

"You mutilated my body," Anna replied pressing the trigger hearing several shots ring out and the doctor slump to the floor. She soon placed the gun back down and stepped over to her captor praying to God he was now dead. Feeling no pulse she made her escape taking his car keys and ran out to his car.

Before she'd left she'd managed to pick up the notes that documented everything that Dr Norwood had done to her. There was no way she'd let anyone but perhaps Rossi or Reid see this. They were the only two people in the world she trusted to keep this secret she thought as she climbed into the car and began to drive off thanking that her bump wasn't too big for the wheel.

She needed help but she couldn't let any of this come out to anyone. She couldn't let anyone know her real identity apart from those who already knew. She knew she was going to be on edge until her body was restored to being a man but then what about the baby. She couldn't lose the baby. Up until now her daughter had been her only lifeline. She'd grown too attached to be able to cope losing the baby now. Was there a way she could have the baby and become the man she really was again? By god, she hoped so! She couldn't carry on living like this but neither could she lose her child.

She soon arrived at her old workplace though no-one had realised it was her thank god. It helped her get through that she'd found her old credentials in that book of notes but no-one had taken the time to look in her eyes and realise she was actually Aaron Hotchner. They'd just accepted that she was there to inform the BAU she knew where Aaron Hotchner was. Little did they know they were looking at him.

She looked around herself trying to control her breathing and calm her heart rate as she took in her surroundings. She was finally home but thanks to the damn doctor nobody recognised her. As soon as she entered the bullpen and saw her team hard at work everything suddenly turned black, but not before she and Reid managed to catch eyes, and she hit the floor with a thud.