Lil bit of angst.
John Paul ran his hands over Kieron's delicate face. It was still as soft as ever. And he was still as handsome.
Myra had been in a few times to see Kieron, and check up on her son. John Paul could tell his mother blamed him for Kieron's suicide attempt. It was obvious.
A tear trailed down the young man's face as he remembered the moment he found his lover, half dead, covered in vomit and sprawled out on the floor of the flat.
-Flashback-
He'd taken Craig's advice, and gone to see Kieron. He'd taken time to think about his relationship with the ex priest after Craig's departure, and he'd come to a conclusion.
He wanted to spend his life with Kieron, and if that meant getting a civil partnership – then so be it. He couldn't live without Kieron. He knew he couldn't.
The young man smiled, as he jogged up the last few steps to his former flat. Kieron will be thrilled to bits to hear John Paul's change of heart.
He soon reached the door which separated him from his lover. He sighed contently, before slowly unlocking the door, and letting himself in.
As soon as the door opened, his face drained of colour, and his heart stopped beating.
Kieron's body was sprawled on the floor. Vomit was all over his chin and fell onto the rug underneath him.
The boy ran to his side, pulled him up onto his knees, desperately repeating his name, and shaking him around.
"Kieron! Oh God! Kieron! Please...Wake up...common sweetheart...open those eyes...common..."
One hand subconsciously grabbed the phone that was lying in Kieron's limp hand, and dialled 999. He lifted the phone up to his ear, and spoke to the operator.
"Talk more slowly sir"
"K...K...Kieron! HELP HIM GODAMMIT. HELP HIM!"
"Sir! Tell us slowly – what's happened?"
"Kieron...He...tried to kill himself because of me ... please help...please..." John Paul sobbed down the phone, and lent forward so he was hugging Kieron's lifeless body.
"Stay calm Sir. I've traced the call, and there is an ambulance on the way."
"O...kay..."
The operator took John Paul through a few procedures to help prolong Kieron's chances of survival which the boy franticly attempted.
-End of Flashback-
John Paul's heart rate rapidly increased as he thought back to that night. The doctors said that he'd saved him. They said he got there at the right time, and if he we're any later, he would have been dead. He doubted that. The doctors we're probably saying that to make him feel somewhat guilty. They blamed him for Kieron's attempted suicide. Everybody did. And rightly so – it was his fault.
He never would have forgiven himself if Kieron had died. He wouldn't have been able to live with himself if Kieron had committed suicide because of him.