Chapter 3

CPOV

In the time Ana and I have been together she has never once called me crying so I know something is seriously wrong. I think back and try to think of things that could have happened to upset her. I come up empty. I can't think of one person that is bold enough to make my baby cry, so I know someone from our school did not upset her. I'm really trying to figure it out but I just keep drawing a blank. I know I'll worry myself to death if I keep thinking the worse, but I can't help it. She only cries when she's really hurt so I know it's something big . I think about happier things instead. Like the very first day we met and I learned that she can touch my bare chest. The only person who is able to touch me is my sister Mia, and even then I always have my shirt on. I think thats because I knew her since she was a baby. I always loved her and knew she would never hurt me. I always see sadness in my mothers eyes whenever Mia would touch me and she couldn't but I can't help it. After I met Ana I tried to let my mother touch me with my shirt on first but it always burned so we just stopped trying. I realise that I am now calm enough to at least try to make it to my baby in one piece. I pull up in front of Ana's house park which I'm sure I'm in the street but I don't care because my baby needs me the other fuckers can go around. I sprint from my car to the door and pound on it until she opens the door. When she opens I see her eyes are red and swollen from crying, I immediately take her in my arms and tell her that everything is it's going to be okay. She pulls out of my hold and just stare into my eyes searching for what I don't know, I kiss her soft plump pink lips. They are always so soft after she's been crying. She grabs my hand and leads me into the living room, I sit on the couch and pull her into my lap, "What is it baby" I kiss the side of her temple and tighten my arms around her. She lays her head down on my shoulder and say

"Can you talk to me about the future. Where do you see us in ten years? Do you think we'll get married and have a family"

I look at her puzzled then my face changes from impatience to confusion to anger why won't she just tell me whats bothering her."Ana fuck the future tell me why you're crying now. Did someone do or say something to you because you know I won't stand for anyone upsetting you in anyway"

"Christian calm down you know you practically have everyone guy in the school afraid to look at me and the girls no not to fuck with the girlfriend of Christian Grey so to answer your question no. No one has not done anything to upset me now will you answer my question? How do you see our future". I know that she stalling because she thinks whatever she has to say will upset me. I know I won't get it out of her if I keep pestering her so I play along and begin to tell her about the future I have dreamt for a year and a half,

"Well"I say sitting back in the couch and turning her side ways in my lap so I can see her face. I kiss the side of her head and begin again. "We will attend Harvard just like we've talked about. After graduation I'll take my business plan to my father and hopefully he'll give me the initial investment. You'll go into publishing even though you won't ever have to work because I know GEH will be successful, but that's your dream and I'll support you in whatever you decide to do." I kiss her plump lips and continue "We'll get married after we graduate Harvard but engaged when you turn eighteen." She interrupts me

"You want to marry me after college?!".she exclaims

"I'll marry you right now if I thought our parents would consent to it. I place a kiss on her lips and continue. I'll buy you a house on the sound because you've always wanted to live by the water, but we'll demolish the existing house and have our dream home built from the ground up. It'll have lots of rooms and a huge backyard for our kids to run around in". When I mention kids I feel her stiffen and when I look into her eyes I see they are glossy again with tears and I am to lose it. Before I can scream for her to tell me why she keeps crying she speaks very softly I almost miss it through her sobs.

"You really want a family" I kiss her again and reply

"With you Ana I want it all, the house the kids and the dog. Now will you please tell me whats wrong?" I'm trying to remain calm then I feel her getting up and I think she's trying to avoid answering my question so I pull her back to me.

"Christian I just need to get something off the table and It'll explain everything.". I let her up and She comes back but sit next to me instead of on my lap and hands me three white sticks all with two blue lines on them.

"ANA WHAT THE HELL AM I LOOKING AT AND WHAT THE FUCK DOES THESE LINES MEAN" I finally lose it and throw the sticks across the room. She starts full out sobbing. It's breaking my heart, and I immediately regret blowing up at her because obviously this is hard for her. She crying so hard it's hard to understand what she saying. All I can make out are the words period, emotional, something about her weight, baby, and her saying I'm sorry over and over. I begin to talk to her softly again. "Please baby tell me whats going on, and try to calm down because I can't understand you. What are you sorry about." I start wiping her tears and she chokes out

"I...I'm P...Preg...pregnant" My hands immediately fall into my lap and I gasp in shock out of all the things she could have told me I never expected this to come out of her mouth.

"P...p...pregnant" I stammer. Standing I start to pace and pull at my hair. She hates when I do this and always tell me I'm going to be bald by the time I'm thirty but this moment is worthy of losing a few hairs. "How did this happen? Your on the pill"

She has managed to calm down to sniffling and hiccups and says "do your remember the first time me made love".

I scoff "Ana this is hardly the time to be thinking about sex" I stop pacing and just stand there looking in her bloodshot eyes.

"I think thats when it happened. That's when our baby was conceived. Do you remember I had the flu and was taking antibiotics"

"I'm still not seeing how this happened Ana you were still taking you pills while you were sick right?" I say tugging at my hair again.

"Of course I was but I forgot about the doctor's warning about them being ineffective when taken with other drugs. Christian they didn't work since I was taking the medication for to flu too. I'm so sorry Christian this is all my fault". Now she's crying again I'm about to tell her its okay we'll get through it when she speaks again. "I understand if you don't want our baby I'll just get help from my father and you'll never have to hear from us again. I will never ruin your future because I was careless with protection. I love you too much Christian" she meets my eyes and I know she can see the disbelief and hurt in my face. Do she really have so little faith in our relationship that she thinks that I can just abandon her and our child. I finally sit next to her grab her hands from her face and kiss each one of her knuckles before staring into her eyes. A few minutes go by and I speak "I can never just walk away from my child or you for that matter and it hurts me that you think I could just walk away from what we built in almost two years" she tries to apologize yet again but I continue to speak " Please stop apologizing this is not your fault. We both should have been more careful. Baby, Before I knew what was going on I promised that we'll get though whatever it was together and I still intend to keep that promise. I promise you Ana I will stand by you and we will love and raise our baby together. " I start to kiss her lips multiple times each one lasting longer than before. I pull her into my arms and whisper how much I love her while kissing her hair.

"So you're not mad"? She asks quietly.

"No baby I'm not mad" I assure her.

"No one knows but us and I think I'm about two months along." she pauses "I don't want anyone else to know yet. I want to keep it a secret as long as possible. I also want both of us there when we tell our parents."

"Our parents are going to be angry with us Ana, and people are going to talk no matter when they find out, but I'll keep it quiet until you're ready for people to know. You will have to be ready because every is going to have an opinion. Will you be able handle that" I ask her

"Yes I will, and I know our parents will freak but our daughter will be loved no matter what. Even if we're the only two people who she'll receive it from".

I kiss her forehead again "Daughter" I look down at her questioningly.

"Yes daughter I know she's a girl, she looks down and softly pats her belly where our baby is growing. After a minute she continues" and is that the only thing you got from what I just said" she looks up at me. I softly kiss her lips "I heard every word you said and you're right if no one excepts her then she'll have enough love from just the two of us." I feel her nod against my chest where she laid her head and I continue "you know this is not going to be easy don't you. You're only a sophomore and I'm a junior. School is going to be harder with a child but think its going to motivate us to get though it and become that much greater if not for ourselves then for our little girl. To give her a life full of opportunities, and one where I can gives her everything she could ever want and never have to hear the word no.. She hits me in the chest and laughs "you are not going to make our child a brat" She says playfully then turns back serious.

"Christian I know this is not going to be easy but I know that I can do this with you, and I'm sorry for doubting your love for me and any child we'll have rather it is now or twenty years from now. I know you will love us and however many more we will have in the DISTANT future. " I laugh and pull her into my lap and kiss her long and hard. "You're right I do love you." I caress her stomach "Both of you" She looks lovingly into my eyes and we kiss. I feel all the doubt worry and fear melt away, and the only thing we can feel is the love we have for each other. I know this isn't going to be easy but knowing this won't stop me from doing everything I can to make it as less stressful for her as possible. No matter what happens and who is against us.

Author's Note:

Thanks guys for all the reviews from the previous two chapters. I'm glad that you're loving the story so far and I hope you like this chapter as well. As always enjoy your reading and please tell me what you think!

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