I backed up slightly down the sidewalk, not paying attention to where I was headed, and with each step he joined me, two paces for every single pace I took. Panic filled my mind like a cloud of smoke entering the empty crevices in glee. His eyes were filled with a mix of something; determination, hurt, confusion, and wait and maybe even lust? 'Wait,' I thought cautiously 'now I not the time for hopes keep your head in the game'

"Kendall," James whispered as he caught my hand pinning me against the wall "I just want to let you know..." he whispered his breath lingering on my throat sending a chill down through out my body.

He leant in his forehead resting against mine, "I love you.." he whispered leaning in slowly his warm breath dancing down my neck to chill my body. He smiled, a breath taking smile, feeling the goosebumps on my arms.

I smiled leaning in "I-", but I couldn't finish before being cut off again."

"I love you," he whispered again, "but I don't know if I can love you like that..." he smiled slightly as my heart dropped and shattered on the ground. He waited for me to say something I guess, anything really, but I was to busy reaching inside myself at that empty hole in my chest.

"I want to be friends," added backing slowly away his hazel eyes glistening with an inner fire, "I know you understand." his smile growing slightly in hope. He reached a hand out to touch my shoulder, but I pushed him back.

"No!" I screamed a little loud now that I think about it, "I will not understand, I am tired of being the one who has to understand, who has to agree, but most of all I am tired of having to hide under what you, Gustavo, Kelly, for christ sakes even my Mom and Katie want me to be!"

James eyes grew and he winced keeping his smile large all the while, "I understand, I suppose I will see you later," He paused "later then." before hailing a cab climbing in and speeding off into the lights.

Carlos looked at me and smiled slightly "You learned how to say no?" he whispered punching me on the shoulder. I chuckled slightly in an attempt to get Carlos to shut up. Carlos nodded in understanding hailing our own cab and giving the address to the Palm Woods, smiling in glory at the fact that he finally remembered the address considering it was on Palm Woods Drive.

The ride home was a terribly awkward situation, luckily for both of us and the driver up front it only lasted 10 minutes. The ten minutes consisted of me picking my calloused fingers, Carlos polishing his helmet with his grey cotton shirt, and the long awkward sighs compared with the shared glances forming silent conversations.

After what seemed like forever the door clicked open and I was shaken into a revived state. My legs feeling as heavy as led, I got out of the leather seat, wrenching my hand free from a sticky soda stain on the sweat covered seats. When I was on the curb staring up at the building in defeat a velvet rage painting over my eyes at the thought of going in and facing the humiliation. Before I could continue however, Carlos wrapped his arms around me and kissed my cheek. My eyes widened and I looked down at him in surprise, he smirked and pulled me down to ear level.

"Okay, I have an idea, you see James is over there," he whispered nodding to the patio area, where James looked wide eyed from underneath his sunglasses at what he just saw, "I need to get Logan out of the longest walk-in closet ever and you need to get James to open the damn door of his."

I smiled knowing where he was going with this we nodded at each other and whispered at the same time "Jealousy."

Carlos smiled and whispered out of the corner of his mouth "Now wrap your arm at me and giggle I just said something cute and coupley." I smiled and laughed along with him, my arm sliding around his waist pulling him in close, normally I wouldn't admit this, but as I walked through the sliding glass doors Carlos was the smartest man I had ever met.

A/N OMG I AM SOOOO SORRY :C I had just started college and had gotten situated then my roommates found out what I was writing and made fun of me to death, then I got my own apartment finally and like just got settled in then It was the holiday season and I was visiting my mom :/ but I am back :D so take me back please :C