Chapter three.
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One entire night of long restless sleep lots of crying and millions of unanswered phone calls from Edward Later,I was pulling back up into the school parking lot, i wanted to get here early so i could get a space away from him, people will surely notice that something is wrong, everyday that he doesn't pick me im parked next to him its just the way its always , however its time for change.I parked as far away from the school as i could ,I came early to beat most of the people here so i could find refuge in the music room. Our school was very musically talented every body here sang or played or danced, it was kind of the thing you needed to do to fit in, i sang and played but no way in hell could i dance, Alice was a dancer, Jasper played better than anyone i knew, and Edward you might ask what does he do, stupid question people hes perfect he does all three, a triple performer .
I found refuge in music, it was where i could express my feelings i could sing my songs about my life or about other things, this morning just felt like playing so i sat to the black piano and let my fingers wake my body up. The song was hollow and low, it sounded scary and nervous, because that was what i was i was scared. ive always been Edwards girl never anything more how i was supposed to become my own person I can do it, i just needed to stay confident.
I had my black leggings on with my grey uggs topping it off with an over sized white shirt that said, "your just not my type" and a smiley face , i guess nobody was my type. Id never ever done anything or been on another date with anyone other than Edward well its not like he took me on dates but you know what i meant, but to be honest i think that was the last of my worries dating someone.
I looked outside the window and the school was filling up everyone was here its was fifteen mintues until classes started so i knew hed be here.
I needed to find Alice shed left about 500 miss calls last night and i just couldn't drag my self out of bed to answer the phone or her messages Jasper had rung aswell. Sitting and thinking about it i had no other friends, Alice was the only girl who didn't want to sleep with Edward for obvious reason, therefore she was the only girl who wanted to be my friend other whispered behind my back and steered clear of me in case i blacken their eyes for sleeping with Edward. Boys didn't speak to me or befriend me because Edward would have blackened their eyes, his excuse was because he was protecting me from being used by them "dirty mother fuckers". Shame he didn't punch him self in the face.
I hadn't told my parents that me and Edward were no more, they'd would flip and try to get us to reconcile and i could never tell them the truth because they would fall out with their life long friends the Cullens.I wouldn't do that plus it looked bad on the company. Me and Edward always showed up in news papers and magazines for being a hot young couple, thats another thing i hated about my parents company's fame and Edwards.
When the bell rang i had to suck it up, i had music first which i could do this i could deal with it, I took not bullshit from anyone any more especially Edward Cullen.
Sitting down I looked at the door very impatiently Edwards seat was next to mine as was the same in every class we had together. Just as i thought he wouldn't turn up i was thanking the gods, he sauntered through the door looking rushed and tired he had circles under his eyes, his face looked like he couldn't be bothered to shave this morning and he his hoodie and jeans looked wrinkled with his hood up covering his hair which im sure must be as bad as ever if hes hiding it.
Mr jones was our teacher and he began the lesson as Edward slumped next to me, going to kiss me on my cheek as he does every morning i moved out of the way and slapped his hand away when it went to rest on my thigh, he wasn't taking me seriously he thought id have got over it by this morning well have i got news for you buddy i most certainly have not.
He huffed and rolled his eyes ignoring my behaviour, thats when i tuned into what the teacher was saying... "and today i would like to hear a little piece from everyone of you so i can start assigning jobs for the summer concert coming up" great fanfuckingtastic. As every year it would be the same Edward would sing jasper would back, Tanya and her cronies would sing. A few of the dancing groups would perform.
Alice would steel the show with something and people like me, well we'd be back stage doing the lighting or something usefully. I had only ever sang in front of Alice never anybody else i had enormous stage fright, but then i saw this as my chance my chance to show him and everybody else i don't need Edward Cullen, i am my own person and i can make my decisions i can over come my fears. He asked a few students first then it was Edwards turn.
He stood up huffing and walked to the front of the class room, he picked up his guitar and sat down fiddeling with it tunning, then he began to play and the words slipped out like hot liquid gold... that voice did things to me that not even a doctor could explain.
I need you, boo, I gotta see you, boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
And I need you, boo, I gotta see you, boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
Hey, little mama, ooh, you're a stunner
Hot little figure, yes, you a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class all your own
he was looking right at me, eyes blaxzing
And, ooh, little cutie, when you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops, you're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that youre mine
You are one of a kind
And you mean to me what I mean to you
And together, baby, there is nothing we won't do
Cause if I got you I don't need money
I don't need cars, girl, you're my all
And, oh, I'm into you
And, girl, no one else would do
Cause with every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
his eyes never left mine... the slowly slid closed tipping his head back with a cheeky grin
And now I know I can be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life
Who feel what I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you
With you, with you, girl
With you, with you, with you
With you, with you, oh girl
I don't want nobody else
Without you theres no one left and
You're like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I can not wait now
Hey, little shorty, say you care for me
You know I care for you, you know that I'll be true
You know that I won't lie, you know that I will try
To be your everything
Cause if I got you I don't need money
I don't need cars, girl, you're my all
And, oh, I'm into you
And, girl, no one else would do
Cause with every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life
Who feel what I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you
With you, with you, oh
With you, with you, with you
With you, with you, yeah
with every line he picked another girl to look at grooming them with his voice his meaningless words.
And I will never try to deny
That you are my whole life
Cause if you ever let me go I would die
So I won't front
I don't need another woman
I just need your all or nothing
Cause if I got that then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day
I need you, boo, I gotta see you, boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
They need their boo, I gotta see you, boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
And, oh, I'm into you
And, girl, no one else would do
Cause with every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life
Who feel what I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you.
He stopped and his head slung down his breathing erratic, i could feel the dampness around my eyes it was so easy to believe he was talking to me so easy to forget.
He stood up and smile at all the clapping girls and i knew the faces and emotions in that song were fake and all for their entertainment, he was going to get laid for sure today now, he sat down smirking at me, i just ignored him as the teacher called my name every year i play a piece on the piano and people clap respectfully well this year you watch. this year i was going to become my own person... deep breath Bella heres your chance.
I placed my fingers on the right keys and began shaky but confident...
Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care?
It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning, the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?
i looked around at the shocked faces then closed my eyes and let the song take over my emotions my body my soul.
Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?
It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run
The breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?
I looked up and directly looked into Edwards eyes... i threw my head back letting the emotion spill over in to the song
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar
You called me sugar
Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
Will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight
The class erupted into clapping and hooting, Edwards jaw was scraping the floor and for once in my life i was in control and on top of the world. Then the teacher poped my bubble by saying " my god bella you just have to sing at the concert this year". effectively killing my buzz... well only slightly