Waking up that morning was both pleasant and almost a nightmare to Ciel. It pleasant because had woken up blissfully alone and the nightmare part was that his bed sheets were almost completely soaked! Most of it was sweat and tears from when he was sleeping and the other part of it being wet was probably because of the fierce hot dream he had last night. He blushed furiously recalling the dream in full and vivid detail as he sat up taking a deep breath and takes another one until he was constantly taking deeply breathes. In his mind the dream came to him in flashes and it heated up his blood as he struggled to control his breathing, they dream was so vivid, Sebastian was kissing him just as fiercely as he had before Ciel fell asleep, Sebastian had let his hands wander all over the smaller boy kissing his along his jawline down his neck, his hands caressing Ciel's hips slowly in a sensual way moving following the path of his hands down to his hips and the way Sebastian had looked at him . . . . .It was a look that he longed to see on the butlers face in reality and then Sebastian had ended up taking his erection in mouth which had brought new sensations to the boy enough to that when he did climax it was hard enough to wake him up, but not before he saw this look on Sebastian's face, it was almost close to an adoring sweet look then he opened his mouth to say something when Ciel had woken up drenched in sweat,tear stains that traveled down his face and his sheets were soaked with the evidence of his arousal at the dream. Ciel stood up nearly trembling his legs shaking a bit, as he ran to the bathroom grabbing the sponge soaking it in water running back to the bedroom and stopped dead in his tracked when he saw Sebastian standing right in the middle of his room looking at the soaked bed sheets then up at Ciel who's face flushed a charming red and his heart leaped in his chest staring into the butlers red eyes.
"S-S-Sebastian what are you doing I did not hear you come in my room." Ciel says trying to sound stern but his voice keeps trembling enough so that it was evident his blush Sebastian didn't say anything he simply walked over to Ciel who took to shaking steps back fighting off his erection desperately but he was losing that battle and he closed his eyes tightly when the butler stopped in front of him and Ciel felt his gaze down at his hips then on his face as he blushed even darker and hard when he felt a cool hand press against his cheek making his eyes shoot open and a gasp burst from his lips. Sebastian stood in front of him their bodies just inches apart which made a little wave of wanting crossed over his body nearly making him shiver as he stared up into Sebastian's red eyes his blush darkening and he wanted nothing more than to have another fierce passionate kiss with the demon like they had last night, just thinking about it made his heart race, made him want to writhe with want and made him blush all the more darker from these emotions.
"I understand the mess that is your bed." He smiles just faintly, a slightly upturning of the corner of is mouth as he stared at Ciel. "I'll have your sheets cleaned right away, I'll clean them myself in fact if you'd rather spare anyone the details of whats on your sheets." While he said this though Sebastian stood evermore closer to the boy as his cheeks turned a darker red his heart thumping so hard it nearly shook his body as he stared up at Sebastian who just kept stroking his cheek softly and gently. Why wasn't he turning away like usual? Ciel faintly shivered against the coolness of Sebastian's hands who kept leaning lower and lower until his face was right in front of Ciel's who was trying to control his breathing remember the fierce kiss last night looking into Sebastian's eyes but he pulled away leaving Ciel feeling barren and cold like he never knew how hot and alive he could feel around Sebastian. With a little tiny cry Ciel practically pounced on the butler and locked his arms around his neck and kissed him with almost a feverish tinge to it as Sebastian stood there his eyes wide with shock looking down at the younger boy as his lips moved against him before he let out a soft groan kissing Ciel back with the same feverish longing in his body but then at that moment he snapped out of it as he had felt Ciel's tongue brush against his lip he pulled away quickly clearing his throat looking down his cheeks just a tinge pink. "I'll wash your sheets for you, my young lord, but. . ."
"Yes Sebastian?"
"We can't do that again."
Ciel immediately felt crushed his eyes widening just a bit as he felt the burn of tears and he turns his head bowing a bit squeezing his eyes shut tears slipping down quietly, why did he feel so hurt?
Sebastian's POV
He looked at Ciel's back the words had come out of him feeling like acid and he felt almost like he was crushing himself into dust as he sensed more than saw the tears of anguish and hurt slipping down Ciel's cheeks. He turned walking into his room pulling the sheets up and off bundling them up in his arms walking out the door when he heard a loud sniffle from the bathroom and he had to fight his own pain and anguish as he walked out nearly running down the hall towards the washroom and once he got there he shut his eyes tightly his body screaming wanting him to turn and go back, to go back to little Ciel, to pick him up and kiss him feverishly and deeply until they were both completely dizzy by the feel of it and then he clenched his hands hard squeezing his eyes shut much like Ciel had done and he takes multiple deep breathes nearly sinking to the floor. What was with him? He knew he had feelings for Ciel but this. . . .this was so intense, this feeling of pain and like he had hurt himself in the process of forcing those words out and he tried not to feel too hurt but knowing Ciel was probably crying up there nearly pushed him to running back up there. Ciel was doing something to him but he wasn't sure what it was, he found himself growing fond and loving the little things about Ciel, the way he could get defensive about something, his little faint smile that would play over his lips from time to time, his love for sweets but it was everything and the little things that was drawing Sebastian in when he knew he shouldn't be getting attached, that he would soon enough, devour his young masters soul once and for all.
"Sebastian?"
"Yes Finny?"
"I want to ask you a question, if you don't mind."
"Sure whats the question."
"Well...We all want to know, me Mey-Rin, Bardroy and Tanaka we. . . We want to know how exactly you feel for the young master."
Sebastian froze looking down at the soiled sheets in his hands his eyes widening and he suddenly felt a faint blush crawling up his neck that he fought to keep down off his cheeks and turned his back to Finny a thousand things rushing through his mind as he closed his eyes clenching his hands, swallowed hard the words the so desperately wanted to escape as he took a deep breath unclenching his hands and kept his eyes shut the black lashes making them stand out against his white complexion and he opened his eyes slowly looking down at the sheets again his eyes heavy lidded a fantasy slipping into his mind as Finny shifted his weight from foot to foot nervously. His mind began to wonder as he let out a low soft breath forcing the blush away as he looked over his shoulder at Finny his thick beautiful black hair hanging around and in his face as he looked at the other boy.
"The master is what he is. My master. I am his butler, why should there be more?" He looked down his gaze suddenly dark with something that would look like pain to anyone else and he didn't want Finny to see it at all deciding to let one piece of truth get out. "I. . . care for the young master, very very much. Now Finny will you please let me get to cleaning the masters sheets?"
"Yes sorry Sebastian!" Finny says his voice ringing around the room as he turned bolting out of the room leaving Sebastian to his thoughts.
Finny's POV
He ran up the stairs towards the main flood of the house where Bardroy, Tanaka and Mey-Rin stood waiting almost impatiently for him to come up the stairs back to them to tell them what he knows now. He fixed his blonde hair pushing it out of his turquoise eyes looking at them then gestured to the door and they all practically ran out of the place to the backyard as they all sat down on the ground, Bardroy leaning forward eagerly, Mey-rin was fidgeting slightly as Tanaka drank his tea like he usually did as he chuckled softly seeing their impatience. Finny looked around at their faces then let out a soft breath.
"I think from what Sebastian told me. . . I think he cares about the young master a lot, but I don't think he will be doing anything about that feeling though but I think the young master should know." Finny said all of this his usual happy attitude seemed to be gone replaced by a total and complete seriousness that made everyone around their little circle as they stared at Finny who let out another breath his golden brows furrowing deeply with a look that did not suit Finny at all. Then Bardroy spoke up for the first time since they sat down in the grass looking at Finny then down at the ground letting out a stream of smoke towards the skye holding the cigarette between his fingers carefully.
"Maybe we should tell the young master but then again we'd be violating Sebastian's privacy at the same time. The young master does deserve to know that's for sure but we cannot for the love of God violate his privacy, we're just servants after all! Its not our business to tell." Bardroy says looking down at the ground still flicking the cigarette in a little pile of ashes taking a deep breath then letting it out as Finny stares at him his brow furrowing even more.
"I agree with him, yes I do." Mey-rin says quietly which was also out of character for her as she clasps her hands together tightly looking down at her lap sitting still her eyes dark behind her glasses then she closes them and Finny turns to Tanaka waiting for his answer.
"I agree with everyone here, but. . . Ciel needs to know how Sebastian feels. It could turn our young master right around feelings wise, he could make a complete recovery and become that smiling boy that Lizzy talked about that day. We need to tell him yet it is not our place to tell him." Tanaka says in his full form staring at the cup then up around at the other three his gaze as intense and piercing as a hawks eye.
Tanaka-"
"We must let Sebastian himself tell the boy."
Then they all lapsed into silence and looked up at the sky praying silent that Sebastian will tell Ciel soon before it was too late for the boy to return any feelings for the butler if it was even possible for him too and they all sighed in unison.
Ciel's POV
Ciel sat in his study staring out the window looking down at the small circle out there consisting of Mey-Rin, Finny, Bardroy and Tanaka as he smiled faintly to himself staring at them. His tears from earlier had long since been gone as had the red puffiness to his eyes as he sighs sitting back in his chair closing his eyes stroking the patch over his left eye idly and opened his right eye half way as he stands up walking to the mirror ripping the patch off staring at his violet blue colored eye with the mark of his contract with the demon butler and he was staring deep into it when the knock on the door nearly made him snap out of his mind so fast his body jolted hard enough he was nearly knocked to the floor by his shock. He stood there not bothering to pretend to be doing something else when he noticed faint redness around his eyes making him glare when he also light blue shadows forming under his eyes making him blink a couple times looking at himself in the mirror when the door opens.
"Young master?"
"Yes?"
"Are...you alright?"
"Yes Sebastian I am fine." Ciel says it closing his eyes letting his hair fall over his marked eye not bothering to look at the butler and fought off his hurt feelings as he turned walking to his chair sitting down turning it towards the window again crossing his arms leaning back in the chair when he heard Sebastian's soft little sigh.
"Ciel. . .I know your angry with me but pushing me away like this is not going to help anything right now." Sebastian says softly before walking out the study door closing and there was only one thought running through his mind, his eyes wide as moons when a slow easy smile came over his face, a simple upturning of the corners of his lips as he looked up at the ceiling and the slow little smile became bigger and more pronounced until he was smiling like an idiot his cheeks turning a deep crimson. He knew only one thing on this planet could really make him smile this hugely for the first time in years and he closed his eyes fighting the chuckles that wanted to escape his face burning a brighter red and he relaxed into his chair. He just got Sebastian to call him by his first name and the rush of happiness was not something Ciel could fight, nor could he fight the blush or smile and it just made him fall deeper in love with Sebastian even though he knew he shouldn't he did and he did nothing to stop it letting waves of oblivion wash over him repeatedly.