Meredith sighed. She should do something, instead of sitting at the table, thinking about how her life was ruined. Talking about dark and twisty. So she got up and made some tea. After that she did the laundry and then she sat down again. Lately she had had the feeling she should do something with her life. But that just made her feel guilty. Move on with life and just forget about Emily? Never. She had talked to Derek about it and he had said that she shouldn't go do something instead of Emily, but because of Emily. And for Emily. She had looked at him with a weird look on her face. 'Like start an 'Emily foundation' or so?' she had asked him. 'Maybe...' he had said 'Maybe'. He had went to sleep after that but she couldn't. She had thought about the idea. But she had no idea with what purpose she would start such a foundation. And even when she knew.. it was scary. Starting something like that because of your lost daughter sounded... vulnerable. And like you could deal with it. And she couldn't. She couldn't deal with loosing Emily.