Alli
It's my fault.
"YOU DID NOTHING!" Mike Dallas' words echo through my head day and night now. I can't focus on anything; MIT, school work, friends…all I can do now is think about how me screwing up this time lead to a kid dying.
Just the thought of someone ending their life. Because they were so unhappy is unthinkable. All those times I was tutoring him, I could have just asked him, how're you doing? Would that have been enough? How much talking would we have to do before he realized that he wasn't alone? If only the poor kid knew about all the drama I had been through as a niner and a grade 10. Maybe if I had gotten a chance to know him, not just tutor him, I could have told him that its hard, life is hard. But it gets better.
I'd had boy drama and pressure from school and family, I knew what it was like to have a potential you had to live up to. I knew. So why did I stay quiet?
"I just want to go to sleep and never wake up." That one sentence, that one sentence should have opened my eyes to a problem. All the brochures I've read, that is like the number two warning sign. That sentence alone should have tipped me off. Instead I say: "Everyone has bad days."
I wish so much that his unhappiness was just another bad day.
I should have said something. I should have done something.
But what do you do when someone is so broken? How do you help them heal?
A/N - Alli's feelings I thought were great during this episode because they mirrored so much of how people would react to a suicide that they couldn't foresee. Overall I thought the writers really hit the nail on the head for this episode. Have being someone who has had this event happen in their lives, I could definitely relate to how all the characters were feeling.
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