True Feelings
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, unfortunately.
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Chapter 3
I'm in the bastard's house and I need help. Where am I supposed to stay for the day? Am I really allowed on here? Won't the people in this house say that I'm not supposed to be here? And anyway, if I stay here, I'm gonna get extra punishments for staying at the infamous Uchiha's mansion. I feel like crying right now. Well, not in front of Uchiha but I just wanna cry so badly! I bite the bottom of my lip to stop me from crying. That doesn't even help me, I already have watery eyes. Wait. Uchiha's going off to find a room for me to stay. I quickly wipe my watery eyes as much as I can until Uchiha gets back.
"You okay to go in my room?" He says getting back.
WHAT?! HIS room!
"Wha-what?!" I shout.
"You got nowhere else to go so you'll have to stay in my room."
"…" I'm speechless. He just goes on ahead and carries me up the damn stairs. Damn this day. Why does it have to be me?! Why?!
Before I know it, I'm already in his bed. I don't feel too good. As a matter of fact; not feeling good as in I feel sick. What's wrong now? I feel like I'm heating up? Oh crap. It was raining last night when I was trying to walk the dog at night. Since I had crutches and no umbrella, it took me aged to get home! And then I got told off for making the floors wet. I don't think I should let Sasuke know about the fever. But I'm bad at keeping illnesses. Can this day get any worse?
Apparently, I spoke too soon.
"Hey, you look red." Sasuke says, letting out his hand to touch my abnormal forehead.
"Uhhh…" I mumble, hiding my face under the covers.
"Hey, stop doing that, I need to check your temperature."
"B-but I'm fine, really."
Shit! He touched my forehead!
"You have a fever!" He exclaims.
Yeah. Tell me something else I don't know. He runs out of the room and comes back in here with a white cloth with a container with water. I think its cold water. I guess I'm staying here longer than expected. He dips the cloth into the water and wrings it. He flops it onto my forehead and I sigh.
"You get sick too easily." He states.
"And so?" I reply back.
"Can you at least be a little nicer?"
"Apparently, I can't. I'm having one of my worst times of my life."
"Hello? You're staying at my house?"
"And so? What does that matter to me? I don't really care. I'm gonna get killed by a million fangirls when I get back to school. I'm gonna have the worst time of my life when I get home. I can't spend time with my real sister. My parents won't even allow me to see her or talk to her. This is one of my worst times of my life." I blurt out, nearly crying at the end.
Sasuke's speechless. I just turn round opposite him and I groan. Everything hurts so much. I could tell him more. If he asked, sure I'd tell him anything about my damned life. All I want is a happy life? Why can't I have it? Everyone's having their way with me. Why can't I get what I deserve? Maybe this is what I deserve. My voice feels croaky now. Ouch…
"I don't know why your parents keep you away from your little sister. You're family." Sasuke began. "I wonder why they do that to you…"
"Because," I answer.
"Because, by sister has an incurable disease. They can't help keeping me away from her. She'll probably never live at my age; that's why I'm trying to spend as much time with her as I can. But my parents think I'm killing her; killing every precious second with her. I even have damn stepsisters and a damned stepmother and she's the only real sister I got. My mother is gone; my father is getting meaner. I'm just having bad luck and a bad life. I don't see why I can't just die. In fact, to make it worse, my real sister's gonna die next year so I might get kicked out of the house… I just want to have a normal life…" I splutter in tears.
I don't give a damn about this. I don't see why I can just curse myself to death and say how lame and pathetic I am. Why can I feel something on my head? Sasuke put his hand on my head? Why? He just says nothing. There isn't anything in his dark onyx eyes. I can't tell anything from his face. It's just all plain. I don't see why girls get so biggy on him when he practically does nothing at home.
I'm sick of life. Can I die now? What the hell am I thinking! Live the best of it! Okay, I'll try. Unless if I die of this fever. Geez. Decide if I should die or not dammit!!
Okay, it's supposed to be the end of school now… What should I do?! Yeah sure the fever went down a bit but what should I do now?!
"I'll call your parents." Sasuke tells me and wanders off somewhere.
Alright then. Whatever. I don't care if I get punished the rest of my life. All I want to do is spend precious time with Ama-chan before she dies and that stuff. Why can't I though? And why do I keep asking the same questions? I seriously have nothing in my mind.
"You parents are coming to pick you up." Sasuke says, coming back.
"Crap!" I shout, slumping on the bed.
"I thought you hated it here."
"I do but coming home is even worse! I'm gonna get punished again."
"You parents don't sound like people who punish you badly."
"It's because they're talking to other people, especially Uchiha Sasuke. Duh. They're going to tell me off for bothering you when I'm in your house and if you tell them not to punish me; they'll punish me for saying all this to you!"
"Hn."
"Yeah, why bother telling you this stuff when you don't care?"
"I do."
"How?"
"Because I said I was going to try you out."
"I thought you were joking on a girl like me!"
"Well I wasn't."
"Well you sounded like it."
"Hn."
"Stop saying 'Hn'"
"Hn."
"Stop it."
"Hn."
"Say that again and I'll punch you in the face when we get back to school tomorrow."
"Ah."
"DAMN YOU UCHIHA!"
"I have a first name you know; use it."
"Why should I?"
"Because you should?"
"For what purpose."
"Because you're gonna be hanging out with me longer than usual."
"I'll call a lawyer."
"So what, mine will beat yours."
"And so? Why should I call you by your first name? I barely know you."
"Well just say it."
"Why?"
"I'll never say Hn in front of you again."
I admit, that word is pretty infuriating.
"Whatever." I reply, crossing my arms."
"Well say it."
"I don't want to."
"Look, just do it."
"N. O. No."
The doorbell rings; oh joy. NOT!! My parents are here which is bad. I hate this. They're even worse than Sasuke. Damn! I said his first name! Well I did before. And so what chicken ass hair! –sticks out tongue-
Hey, what's happening here? Sasuke wants to talk to my parents privately? Holy crap! He's gonna say everything I said. Bye dinner. Geez, what should I do now? I'm nearly senior. Hey, I'm nearly a senior! Ha-ha! I can get my own room in the dorms! My parents said I could get one when I'm a senior! I guess they forgot about telling me that.
They're back! OMFG! How should I look like? Shocked? Normal? Depressed? Whichever one of them, I already made a face. Is this going to be some private thing? I don't really know. Wah!! I'm going to get punished! Huh? Why do they look sympathetic? Why are they going? Why is Sasuke tugging my arm? What the hell is going on? Somebody tell me!!
Geez… I'm sleeping over the bastard's house. Why? What did I do to deserve this? I'm sleeping in a spare room. I hope no-one finds me. Why am I staying here anyway? Maybe they were talking about this when Sasuke had a private talk with my parents. What could they have talked into making me do this? It was probably because my parents don't want me to stay at my house. More hatred on the eldest daughter. Why don't they care about me? I miss my real Okaa-san. She had to die of that damn illness. It's like my real family is falling apart from me…
First Okaa-san dies of an illness because she didn't take care of herself that much when she got sick. Then Ama-chan has an incurable disease and is going to die next year. For Kami's sake! She's too young to die! I wonder why Kami-sama chooses people who are purely good to die. I think it's wrong. Why? All my questions should cost a million yen. These are questions that you really need to think about. This is weird. This place is weird. This whole world is weird. Everything is weird. Humanity is weird. Weird is weird. Why is it even a word? Creepy…
I feel like crying right now. I want to ask myself a million questions. I wonder why Sasuke began to be so nice. I know he wanted to try me out but why did he suddenly change? It freaks me out. He's a jerk in school but here he's like… Snow White only boy version. Okay, maybe I shouldn't have said that. –shudders- That is actually really weird. Like I said, weird is weird. Sasuke's weird. Speaking of Sasuke, where is he?
Whoa!! I spoke too soon again. He just barged into the door.
"Do you wanna eat dinner?" He says.
I just give him a what-the-fuck face. Huh? I'm guessing he didn't know that I don't want to be seen by other people in the mansion. It would cause… well it would cause weirdness! I wonder why I keep saying that word. That's not the major subject right now! I need to say something.
"Do you want to eat your dinner in here?" He asks.
I'm saved! I nod lightly and he closes the door. Thank goodness. I feel much more relieved right now. What's the time anyway? Hmmm… Nearly seven o'clock. I think Hinata's eating dinner at this time. Tenten…. I'm not sure what she's doing right now. I think he got a new cell phone. Damn… I don't know her house number either! Man, I can't keep touch with her when she's gonna leave high school. What kind of friend am I?
Sasuke just came back- and why is he carrying two servings of dinner? Is he eating with me? No way that's gonna happen. Right? RIGHT?!
"You're eating with me?" I say, a bit dumbfounded.
"Hn." Was his response.
"Why?"
"You might be lonely."
"Lonely? What do you think-"
He. Just. Shoved. Food. In. My. Mouth. Why does he do all of this to me anyway?
"Geez…" I mumble.
"Deal with it." He says to me.
Like I have anything else to do with my life. This could get worse.
Later…
Bad thing Hinata called to check up on me. I had to tell her EVERYTHING. And I mean it. EVERYTHING. She had to get to uncomfortably close to me. So much to suss out secrets from me. Now he knows I'm temporarily staying at Sasuke's house and- whatever all the stuff I jut did today. I even included Sasuke being nice to me. That is not normal. That is totally out of average. She couldn't believe it either. Who would? Maybe some stuck up obsessed fangirl who would practically listen to any crap or junk about Sasuke. Actually, scratch that; they wouldn't even listen to the crap or junk when they're spacing out. –shrugs- Like I said who would believe it? His brother? Obviously.
I have to get back to school tomorrow and- HOLY (censored (again))!! Where's my school uniform?! Aw crap. This is bad, this is way bad. Where did it go? Did some perverted person get it while- nah that couldn't be? I was in here all day long. Maybe it was when I was changing my clothes when my parents gave me my stuff before I would definitely stay here temporarily. So then… Someone washed it. But who? I gotta tell Sasuke about this. What if I can't find my school uniform by tomorrow? Tsunade-sama has a really strict policy about school uniform… And I still wonder why the two people, who are not to be mentioned, are allowed to wear that hideous green spandex. Even Naruto has a thing for that sick clothing right now…
B-but that's not the pint right now! I need to find my dang uniform!
Eh? Sasuke's here. What's he carrying…?
My uniform!!
I just point and stare at my uniform helplessly. He just stares back and throws my uniform at me.
"My mother found this and washed it. Take care of it next time." He mutters.
"Thanks." I just say blandly.
"Hn."
And now he leaves. I think he's a softie! I don't know. He could be terribly mean inside or be perfectly nice. Haven't I already gone through this subject? –shrugs- I shrug too much. –shrugs- there I go again! –shrugs- Okay, now my body is acting on its on now. –shrugs-
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A/N: It's ten o'clock in the evening! I didn't miss the deadline! Yes! He-he. Period held me back. I hate that thing… Reviews are much appreciated!