A POV

Drew immediately shuffled us out to the front. I saw a black hearse parked outside. What the hell is that doing here. Drew was on his phone with a frustrated look on his face. He angrily slammed his phone shut.

"Why the hell don't they answer there phone. Isn't the whole freaking point of cell phones for emergencies!" Drew yelled at his phone.

I was pushed into the back of the van with the Clare girl. Drew went to the drivers seat while Eli sat in the passenger seat.

"May I ask why we are headed to the doctors," I asked really confused.

Clare looked at me with a strange look in her eyes. A mixture of sadness and something else. She looked scared. "Because Grace, you seem to have, um, lost your memory" she told me.

What? How could I have lost my memory I mean, apart from some things seeming slightly fuzzy, I can remember everything of the past fourteen years.

Drew whispered to Eli, "He still seems to be able to remember everything from when he was Gracie," I hope he realizes that I can hear him. And again with the calling me a 'he'.

"Maybe its like a short term memory loss. Or something" Eli whispered back.

"How does that even work?" Clare asked leaning forward. I am sitting right here, geez.

"I don't know," Drew replied.

"Grace how old are you," Eli asked looking back at me.

"Fourteen almost fifteen. Why?" I asked them.

"Short term," Eli said. He turned to Drew, "When did she become, you know?"

"She cut her hair short at the beginning of freshman year but she didn't completely change until the summer going into Sophomore year. Degrassi was the first school that she was like that" What does he mean 'changed'. What is he talking about. Ugh, I am so confused.

"When was Adam born though?" Clare asked. Oh my gosh. Someone better tell me who Adam is before I kill them. And seriously they need to stop acting like I am not sitting right here.

"Only about a month before school started. She started to really act like him before changing her looks and name during the whole summer though. I think when Grace thinks it is, is about fall of 2009. Right before she learned what she is," He explained.

What the Hell. I am Adam! Adam is me. What are they talking about how could I just decide to be a boy I mean it doesn't work like that. Well I mean I always thought that I was really a boy and I always hated being a girl, but you can't just decide to be a different sex. I am just a tom boy. Right?

"What are you guys talking about. Are you saying that I become a boy this summer or next or whenever. How does that work?" I asked them.

They all exchanged glances. Drew sighed as he pulled into the doctors office parking lot. He looked at me sadly.

"We need to tell her" Eli said.

"Wow this is going to be awkward" Drew said.

"Ok Grace the thing is that you are what is called an FTM. Female to male transgender. Thats why you think the way you do. Remember how you would always tell me how you wish you were a boy. Well thats because you have the mind of a boy even if you have a girls body. That time you had a crush on Abbey, you weren't being a lesbian, that was actually normal for people like you." He explained.

I was surprised, but thinking about it, it all made sense. I always knew that I had the mind of a boy, whenever I would hang out with Drew and his friends and get to act like a boy, it just felt natural.

"So that would explain all the boys clothes in my room" I said. They looked at me and smiled.

"Why do you guys think I lost my memory," I asked them.

"We don't know. I don't even know how a person can lose there memory. I mean doesn't that usually happen when someone gets in an accident. And you obviously don't remember what happened last night," Clare said.

"Wait a second. Last night you went to the Dot all alone. Dad told you to wait for me to go with you but you refused, saying that you wanted to just get the food and get back home. And then you just went straight to bed. Maybe something happened last night that made you loss your memory," Drew said.

"Weren't you saying that you head hurt?" Eli asked.

"Ok boys lets just get to the doctor and see what he says," Clare said saving me from all the questions. This was a lot to take in.

Ok so if it seems like I am explaining it wrong thats because I was trying to get into Grace's mind.

I could not type today so I am sorry if there is any typos. I made so many simple mistakes its ridiculous.

Also earlier today AJ Saudin tweeted me back and it just about made my life. If you don't know he plays Connor.

So today my school was allowed to wear cowboy boots, which we are normally not allowed to wear. It looked really tacky with my uniform but it was fun :) The reason we were allowed to do this was because our homecoming theme is Western. Which is kind of stereotypical considering where I live but whatever :)

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