Escape Chapter 3: Addicted, a twilight fanfic

Disclaimer: I still don't own twilight or the characters

I was frozen all the pain and hurt was coming back quickly and it was hard to breathe. Leah came down the stairs by the stage and grabbed my hand pulling me behind the curtain. She took one look at my face and knew I was falling into that black hole again. She held my face so I was looking into her deep brown eyes "Bella what's wrong?" her voice was calm but I could hear the panic. My eyes were starting to swell with tears about to spill "Leah I think..I think I saw Him" my voice cracking on end. Leah tensed up, went to the curtain and started looking around when she came back her face was blank.

She pulled me in a hug and squeezed tightly once she let me go she made me face her "Bella listen to me" I nodded my head "OK look this may be drugs talking but You are my sister and I love you... Don't let him get to you...Your better than that now!..Take all that hate and rage inside come out in the music...Sing to him...Let him know that you hate him and your not the same Bella he left..You my girl are one crazy ass bitch with one mean right hook". Leah was right I am not weak anymore and I would not...I will not let him get to me. I gave her a big hug and tried to lighten the moment "Your right...And if he is out there to hell with him...Oh and by the way its just the drugs talking...you said you loved me I always knew you wanted my body". We both started laughing Leah pushed me up the stairs and walked out on stage with the rest of the band. Quil in back flanked by Embry and Jake then Leah to my right and Sam on my left.

EPOV

We sat in the back at a booth. Emmet has been talking about this band for months and now we were able to see them. Emmet and Alice were bouncing with excitement. We were all there including the new member of our family Rain. She hanged on my side since she moved in thinking we were a couple. I told her that I would never love her but then one night she followed me hunting and well instincts took over and we had sex. Since then she hasn't left me alone. I feel so ashamed the only one I want touching me was Bella and I go and betray her. My family was talking about the band with our untouched drinks in front of us on the small coffe table (have to keep up appearance's). I was tuning every one out then I was hit with the most delicious smell..her smell. My family noticed it too we all tensed and looked around for my Bella. I saw her at the bar with three shots in front of her. What is she doing in a place like this?Why is she drinking? What is she wearing? I just want to run to her, cover her in kisses and never let go. I was so stupid to leave her she is my true love and I betrayed her over and over.

"Is that Bella?" Emmet asked...Whoa she looks HOT...I growled...Sorry Edward dont tell Rose.

"Alice why didn't you see this" I hissed at my sister. She cowered back as Jasper growled at me.

"I don't know but YOU are the one who said don't look for her future" Alice spat back.

"Look on stage...Werewolfs" Jasper stated as his face scrunched with the disgusting smell.

I looked at the stage and saw Jacob Black and surge of jealousy went threw me. Jasper sent a calming wave to me and I nodded at thank you to him. Bella was going towards the stage, Was she in band?. When she looked over the people in the club her eyes rested on us. I heard her gasp and her heart beat started racing. Then she was dragged behind the stage.

Soon she came walking to the front of the stage towards the mike laughing followed by a pretty Native-American girl who sat behind the keyboard to Bella's right. I knew the girl as Leah I read her thoughts...I hope your out their bloodsucker cause every song she wrote is about you and what you did to her...I caught flash's of Bella bleeding with a knife in her hand dripping with blood, Sam telling her no more cutting herself, then of Bella taking pills, Bella screaming at night, another flash of Bella in a bar fight...I closed my mind off I couldn't see anymore. My Bella would never do those things.

"We should leave" I said.

"NO" everyone shouted but Rain. Rain looked up at me "What's going on Eddie?".

Alice smirked "Yeah Eddie what's the problem?...We are staying I want to hear her sing".

I sighed I knew I was defeated and I wouldn't leave my family in a place with those dogs around. Plus, I wanted to hear my angel's voice again even if it broke my undying heart.

BPOV

I smiled at Leah and she nodded her head encouraging me. I grabbed the mike "Hey everybody how you doing?" loud screams ran threw the room. I smiled "Well I'm glad your pumped...Were gonna do some covers and throw in a few originals...but this first song goes to the amazing man behind the bar...Leo here's looking at you kid". I saw Leo laugh then give me a wink while the crowd went wild as we went into Rehab's -Bartender. After that we played a few more cover songs the crowd was eating it up. I looked back to my band knowing which song was coming next. Everyone gave me you'll-be-fine-look but surprised Embry surprised me as he smiled so big it looked painful then winked. I faced the crowd "Are you having fun" loud 'Hell-Ya's' and screams exploded back at me. "Good...this is one of ours I hope you like it" I took a deep breath and held the engagement ring that now hung on a long chain around my neck. I usually hid it only Leah knew I wore it and why. The music started and I put all my feelings in it Hell I wrote it because of him crossed my mind.

Addicted (Originally by Kelly Clarkson)

Its like youre a drug
Its like youre a demon I cant face down
Its like Im stuck
Its like Im running from you all the time

And I know I let you have all the power
Its like the only company I seek is misery all around

Its like youre a leech
Sucking the life from me
Its like I cant breathe
Without you inside of me

And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize Im never gonna quit you over time

Its like I cant breathe
Its like I cant see anything
Nothing but you
Im addicted to you
Its like I cant think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
Youve taken over me
Its like Im not me
Its like Im not me

Its like Im lost
Its like Im giving up slowly
Its like youre a ghost thats haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know Ill never change my ways
If I dont give you up now

I closed my eyes and saw his face clearly. His beautiful eyes, his crooked smile that my knees go weak. I saw every 'I Love You' and felt every touch. I gripped the ring tighter afraid to let go.

Leah joined me as she sang back-up

Im hooked on you
I need a fix
I cant take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
Ill handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then thats it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
2x

The crowd screamed and I was brought back. I opened my eyes and put the necklace back down my corset top smiling I said "Were gonna take a fifteen minute break...See ya when we get back". I felt the hole start to ache I needed a fix. I followed the band off stage the guys were sitting on the steps. Sam was holding Emily in the corner whispering in her ear I felt a twinge of jealously at their relationship. I had that once I sighed. Jake was bitching Leah out...again which made me laugh. Leah caught my eye and glared but soon broke and laughed too which got Jake going again. I mouthed to Leah 'watch this' as I walked down the steps were Quil and Embry sat I slowly straddled Embry's lap rubbing my hips against his. He was shocked but then I felt how I affected him as something hard hit against my thigh. I smiled sweetly giving him my best pouty look while I played the the buttons of his shirt. "Embry since Jake is staying with Leah will you stay and keep me company...I don't wanna get bored" his face was pure joy as he nodded his head yes. I glanced back at Leah who had an devious grin stretched on her face. I leaned into Embry grinding against him as I reached his ear then in my best sexy voice said "I'm sure we can think of something to do" then I nibbled on his ear. He shivered under me and I mentally patted myself on the back for getting this reaction.

Leah tugged on my arm "Come on slut lets get a drink". I looked up at Embry threw my eyelashes and gave a sly grin "We'll just have to finish this later" as I hopped out of his lap. Me and Leah linked arms laughing while we walked to the opposite side of the room to meet our dealer. I looked back over my shoulder to see Embry shrug to Sam as one of his hands scratched the back of his neck. Leah laughed "You know you shouldn't tease him like that but...Damn was it funny". I grinned as we reached Carlos(our dealer) and sweetly said "Who's teasing". She smirked as she said "Bout time you get some" I just rolled my eyes and paid for our normal 20 X-pills. I put 2 in my mouth immediately as I looked up I saw Edward glaring at me from a booth no more than ten feet away but he wasnt alone his family was there (minus Carlise and Esme) but there was someone new a girl hanging on Edwards arm. Rage took over and the monster in me was trying to claw out "Hey Leah I'll be right back" she did a half wave too engrossed in her conversation with Carlos. I started walking towards their table until I was standing in front of Edward.