Bla bla bla bla bla I know some of you are older than me. Get more homework… but I do hang out with friends AND THEY DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE! But anyway I am updating yayness! Voot! Oh ya and I'm stupid so it takes me forever to do homework… that's why they say "omg it's that sped girl" oh and I got kicked off the computer for a while te he. I'm sneaking right now (till 14 years of age…. 8 months)

"So get an abortion." I looked up at him tears streaming down my face.

"What?" my voice was full of hurt and anger. The thought of getting an abortion… I… I was just completely against them. Destroying a life for your own sake, I thought it to be horrible.

"You heard me. Get rid of the thing." his voice was incredibly serious. I didn't know if he didn't want the kid or didn't want me to get hurt.

"Tobi… how… how can you say that. Destroying a life, your own son or daughters life. Why would you want to do that?" My anger was now rising. Tobi used to be so kind what was wrong with him? He was being so cruel.

"I really don't care. It's not the first child I have had." he basically split my heart in two with that sentence. It wasn't the first child he had? "Just get rid of it. It will be a nuisance to us and the organization." I stood up. Drying my tears I had no more, I was sick of it. He was acting like a bastard. My temper was just about to blow.

"What are you?" the pure anger and hate coming from my voice. I could almost taste the venom dripping from my words.

"Excuse me?" he asked. He sounded confused and angered.

"You have turned into a bastard. Tobi you used to be kind and sweet. Now you are nothing, but a selfish man. You want to take your own child's life away. I don't understand. I think I fell in love with Tobi not this…this other man." "Tobi" Laughed I raised a brow.

"There never was a Tobi." I thought I was going to take his mask off right there and slap him, but I reframed myself.

"You son of bitch! I hate you! I don't know why I even fell in love with you. Burn in hell!" those words were the first cruel things I had ever said to "Tobi", he seemed to be as speechless as me. That was until he hit me.

The sting hurt, not my cheek, but my heart. It ached so bad. I wanted to run away and I did. I ran away from him and the Akatsuki. My heart was pounding in my chest and my head hurt. It felt like there was a lump in my throat and like it would never go away. I could feel the sting of tears at the rim of my eyes just ready to burst out, but they didn't. It started to rain and my tears practically sucked themselves back in.

"I would rather stay here then return to that place." I never wanted to return. I knew, though, that if I ran away they would come after me. "Pein needs me." But the baby will need me more. "If I go to the leaf I'm sure they'll help, but it will be to obvious I would be going there. Maybe to the light. They couldn't reach me there anyway and I may find a new friend to help me out." these thoughts were good. I could encourage myself. Maybe being a single mother wouldn't be so bad. I'm going to run away

"No your not." I turned around to meet the ice blue eyes of Konan.

"…Konan…" I said through I pouring rain "You're back." she just stared at me.

"You're not running away."

"Konan I really don't think you should be telling me what to do. You don't know what's going on."

"Heidi, if you run away we will find you and kill you." her voice was emotionless.

"I know this, but-"

"But… your not being mature about this." I raised a brow.

"Mature… Konan Tobi wants me to get an abortion." Konan looked away a bit of worry in her expression.

"You're….pregnant."

"Yes." there was an awkward silence after this. The tension thickened.

"Well you will still have to stay." I cocked my head.

"Konan, Leader will never let me keep this baby. I think that's really the last thing this type of organization needs."

"I disa-" I cut her off

"Konan, I mean no disrespect. But you don't know what you are talking about."

"I know more than you think. Heidi you are 19. Being pregnant at your age is going to be tough. Your child will need to be cared for." her voice was so strict.

"I realize this, but-"

"I don't care for what you have to say. You and Tobi are both incredibly strong. Your child will be strong as well." I smirked.

"Konan… you're persuading me to keep the child." for the first time I saw Konan actually smile.

"Well….yes, I am." I smiled

"Well even if that was possible I doubt that this baby would go over well with the rest of the members."

"Yes well they can manage. I think this child will be of use… if you want it that way." I stared up at the sky. The rain was now lightly falling, it was a light sprinkle. I was soaked through my cloak and my make up was running. My head was full of thought, just running around. My head ache was still pounding, but luckily the lump in my throat was gone. My heart was at a slow steady pace.

"Maybe it will be…"

"I take that as a yes." I nodded my head.

As we were walking back to the hideout I was thinking. Just thinking and when I saw the rainbow through the tress four words suddenly went through my mind.

I love you Heidi

I laughed to myself a bit. I don't count on hearing those words again.

Okay so ya… Heidi is 19... And its kinda funny. I mean Madara is like 100 something… I think. But anyway like I said up top don't count on hear…I mean seeing anything new from me for a while