A/N: I am so sorry. I really don't have any excuses so I'll let you get on with the story. Also someone PM'd me and told me this was too depressive and offensive. I really didn't mean to offend anyone and things will turn around for Jake and Ness but for now Ness needs to deal with her feelings. Give it time please. Sorry about the three different points of views.

Jasper's~POV:

We soon arrived at the hotel Alice made a quick booking for. It was a splendid 5-star hotel. It was to cheer up Nessie some more and take her mind off that mutt but as soon as we got here she just went into her room and looked herself in it.

It was hard to help her when she thoroughly believed that Jacob had dated and slept with Bella when Edward left. Of course she thinks everything else came along with it. That they were in-love, in-lust and happily dating for 8 months. She keeps badgering herself with it. I can't make her think otherwise, neither could Alice, Edward or Jacob. But we can try.

"How is she?" My love asked. I shrugged, "She's still the same, I don't think she's sleeping. She hasn't hunted in awhile, too busy worrying about Jacob and Bella's past. She isn't doing anything, I think she's just sitting down." Alice nodded.

"How's she feeling." This was the hardest thing, she was hurting so much and I could feel all her pain. By the request of Nessie, I don't tell anyone how she's feeling because underneath that hard exterior, is a heartbroken girl who just wants to be loved. I try, I really do try and tell her how much Jacob and the family love her but no one but Nessie and I really knows how she's feeling. But this is important, I have to tell Alice or it might not get better.

"She's heartbroken. She feels like Jacob doesn't love her, she hates Bella. She envies what Bella and Jacob had. She's jealous and lonely, seriously mis-understood. She feels used and unloved. Regrets what she did with Jacob." Alice looked pained, it was hard for both of us too, knowing that our niece is in pain but we can't do anything about it.

"What did she do with Jacob?"

"She forced herself to have premarital relations with him when she didn't want to."

"Did Jacob force or pressure her?" I shook my head. Alice let out an unneeded breath and we both silently agreed to give Nessie some time to deal with her feelings.

~~o.O.o~~

N~POV:

It's been three solid days since I've talked to anyone. I was pretty much going over what Jacob and I had been talking about before I made the decision to have sex with Jacob. It was a stupid thing to do but what's done is done. Wasn't there a saying or something that a girl gets her heartbroken at least once in her life? Certainly this was enough for me. It was enough to last a life time.

I thought back to every single aspect of my life and couldn't find one day that didn't have Jacob in it. We've never been apart for more than 12 hours. Those hours, days, years… they were so perfect. We grew into each other and he told me everything about himself. Little did I know that he wasn't telling me everything and if that didn't push us apart I don't know what does. What happened to 'Let's be honest with each other?' Does all that just float away? Does it only apply to one side of the couple? I know I have lived in a bubble all my life but I wasn't stupid.

I wished so much that he was mine but he spoke in high detail of his life before me. It was stuck in my head like a broken record. I couldn't get it out. I almost missed the part he included at the end over my own heartbeat that was racing at about a mile a minute. "Ness none of it matters compared to the last 7 wonderful years with you" It had hurt so much that something was missing, I couldn't fully understand it but my heart was aching and my head pounded a mile a minute. Only Jacob could fix that.

It was a while before I came to my senses and looked around the room. I was sitting on the floor, blocking the door so no one would bother me. Even though I knew it wouldn't stop them, it was more like a natural human way to stop them. I held my phone dearly to my chest, somewhat hoping he would call or text me that he meant none of which he had said. But that wasn't going to happen. The remains of the make-up I had for Jacob days ago have stained my face from the tears I had surely shed. I can't help falling down like the world around me. My head tried to retreat to a safe place, to protect itself from being torn. It replayed all the great times with Jacob. There were a lot. The main one that kept popping up, like an unwanted ad on a website, was of the conversation that devastated me, I wished I had taken things differently. Maybe understood everything a bit better. 'I'll never get him back' I thought to myself as I did the only thing I could think of that gave me some time.

~~o.O.o~~

J~POV:

For once I wasn't going to push myself onto the girl, not like what I had done with Bella. After all that's what got me into this mess anyway and look where that got me. Heartbroken. Twice.

I was going to let her have complete control over this situation and whatever she saw fit I was going to go along with. Apparently she thought forcing herself to sleep with me was what she saw fit but I didn't know that at the time. Was I that dense or disgusting? Yes. Yes I was.

Everything just kept on going downhill, Bella didn't talk to me because I had made her daughter hate her. Edward would give me short clipped answers and gritted them through his teeth. I called Jasper once to ask him how she was but he handed the phone to pixie and that I would find out in an hour. So I waited and waited. Billy tried to call me to dinner but I haven't been able to eat for the past three days. I think I might have hunted a rabbit once… do you know how low that is for a shapeshifter. To feed on a rabbit. A fucking bunny? The guys tried to make a couple jokes but quickly shot that down when my mood shot down to about -28.

I constantly thought about her and in that one hour everything increased by ten fold. Was she finally going to talk to me? Was she going to let me explain? Was she going to forgive me? But that small glimmer of hope certainly died down when she sent me that text. One text and I thought I died.

New text from Nessie:

It's over. Goodbye Jacob.

She broke up with me in a text!? She couldn't even break my heart with a phone call or wait until it was face-to-face? Was I really that worthless that she could tear me in two with a simple four word text? It certainly felt that way. I wailed even harder and I guess I must have woken up Billy from his mid-day nap because he knocked on my door and ask me if I was okay.

"She broke up with me." I cried out. Dad patted me on the back. "Shh, son it'll be okay. You just need to fight for her." I shook my head arguing with him. "She doesn't want me to…, she wants me out of her life. I'm so tired of-f fighting… I tried dad, I-I really did!" I choked out. The small place that held the tie of Renesmee was just a black hole of nothingness.

It took me a while to recover as I looked around the mess that I had caused. I was in my room, laying on my bed. My phone was off, the television was on but the volume was on mute. I had everything thrown everywhere. Probably from my confusing and upset mood swings. My phone was thrown on the floor across the room. My eyes were red and puffy from all the sobs that racked my body. I had my door locked so no one would bother me. They knew to stay away anyway. I kept replaying the memory of where I stuffed everything up. That I fucked up her life. I kept thinking of all the possibilities, what I could have done, but didn't. I kept thinking so much I thought my head was going to explode. My hands were actually red from hitting things as my mind kept going back. 'What if I really did stuff everything up and she'll never take me back.'