Hi, so this new chapter will be focused on the talk between Hotch and Derek and I'm still considering if I'm gonna add a chapter four. We'll see!

The only thing on his mind part 3

Hotch sat quietly on his leather chair behind his desk.

The overdue paperwork resting on the other side of the desk was being giving little attention as his mind continued to wander over to the raven-haired woman as it did every single day. Only this time, every thought of her was interrupted by a strong guilt hovering over him. How could he have ever left her there? He knew that he was just protecting both their jobs and careers, but right now that just felt like complete and utter bullshit.

When he kissed her… it was like something he never experienced. Like they just belonged together, you know?

He didn't know how he was ever going to pass the rest of his life without the feel of her lips on his again, without the feel of her skin underneath his fingers, without that beautiful smile of her directed to him. Way to screw it up Aaron! He thought to himself. There was no way she was ever going to forgive him for what he did. He knew how much it had hurt her. It had hurt him too…

Out of the blew he heard someone open his door abruptly and barge in his office. He looked up from his desk to a very angry face of one Derek Morgan. He was about to comment on him barging in his office when Derek started shouting.

"Look Hotch here's the deal either you get out of your high horse and make up your dam mind or I will knock you dead Hotch, I PROMISE YOU THAT!" Derek yelled with all he had in him. For all he was concerned no one and he meant NO ONE would play with his best friend's feelings and get away with.

As for Hotch, he just froze. For a moment there he had no idea what to say. He had the sneaking suspicious of what Derek was talking about, but that was a personal issue, and at the moment they were at work. So, he brought himself to relax a bit and calmly start talking Derek into reasoning.

"Morgan, this is neither the time nor the place to discuss this and who are you to…" Hotch was completely cut off by Morgan's even angrier voice.

"I AM THE FRIEND OF THE PERSON WHO JUST BROKE DOWN IN FRONT OF ME AND GARCIA BECAUSE YOU HURT HER! THAT'S WHO I AM! AND YES HOTCH, THIS IS THE PLACE, BECAUSE THIS IS OBVIOUSLY GETTING TO HER AND YOU DON'T GIVE A DAM! AND NOW IT'S MY TURN TO AKS WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO HURT HER LIKE YOU DID?" by the end Derek had fume coming out of his ears and was more pissed off then he ever was.

Hotch was again at a loss of words. How was he supposed to answer that? I'm only protecting her? Yeah like that wasn't going to elicit more screaming!

Derek used this to his advantage to warn Hotch one more time.

"And if you EVER, and I mean EVER make her think you have some sort of feelings for her just to rip her heart out, well I guarantee you you are not walking out of here unarmed, and it won't only be me who will arm you! And before you ask, yes, I AM making a threat!" Derek clarified, and turned on his heels walking towards the door when Hotch's voice stopped him.

"YOU THINK I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER?" Hotch asked, with a stunned and disbelieving look plastered all across his face.

"No," Derek replied "I don't THINK you don't have feelings for her, I KNOW you don't have feelings for her because if you did you wouldn't have walked away!"

"I did it to protect her!" Hotch exclaimed, desperate. "I couldn't let her risk her job over me Derek! Not after all the crap she got from me right from the beginning! I did it because she WILL regret this eventually and she might have risked her whole life by then! I love her too much to let her do that!" Hotch spilled everything that was on his mind. He completely exposed himself.

There was a flash of a comprehensive look on Derek's mind. It didn't mean he approved of what he did; only that he understood the reasons behind it. That's why he only spoke one last time before he left his office.

"Why don't you let her decide that hotch?"

Derek closed the door behind him, and Hotch was left alone with his own thoughts, trying to search in his mind for a way to fix this…