Note: This chapter is really long and it seems like it's Mature at the end, but it's not really mature, so don't think something bad is gonna happen. If it did I would've changed the rating. Thank you.

Kaoru groaned as Hikaru licked the wound on Kaoru's hand. A couple tears went down his face because of the pain.

"I think, it just needs to be wrapped up, Hikaru," Kaoru whined.

Hikaru smirked at the sound of his brothers high, girly voice.

"Hikaru!" Kaoru whined a little louder.

"You need to learn to shut-up," Hikaru giggled, pushing Kaoru down onto their bed. "and let me do the talking."

"...okay."

Hikaru grinned and kissed his brother and let his body relax, laying on top of Kaoru's body. He wrapped his arms around his twins neck as Kaoru put both of his hands on Hikaru's waist and pulled him as close as possible.

They stopped kissing and stared at the door as the twin maids walked in.

"What?" Hikaru snarled.

"Haruhi Fujioka-san is here for you Hikaru-sama," They announced calmly.

Kaoru closed his eyes and clenched his teeth, his throat choked at the sound of her name.

Haruhi... Kaoru growled in his mind.

After the twins left Hikaru kissed Kaoru and their tongues touched.

"I'll be back," Hikaru whispered as he pulled away and walked out of the room.

But Kaoru knew it was a lie from the start, because Hikaru was already gone. He wasn't coming back.

"Just let me hold on a little longer," Kaoru whispered, touching his lips as he sat up. "Don't leave me for good just yet."

"Hey! Wasn't today supposed to be our second date?" Haruhi blushed as Hikaru ran up to her.

"Oh, yeah!" Hikaru chimed, embarassed.

Hikaru grasped Haruhi's hand and pulled her off with him. Haruhi smiled at the smoothness of his hand.

"What kind of music do you like?" Hikaru questioned as he pulled her into a store.

"Oh, lots I guess," Haruhi blushed.

The two laughed and smiled as they browsed the CDs on the racks. Hikaru ended up buying five CDs that they both enjoyed. Then they went to the park. By this time it was one o'clock.

"Haruhi..." Hikaru soothed as he leaned in towards her, holding her hand. "I think I... like you, like you."

"Me too."

Kaoru cringed as he saw the two kiss. Tamaki almost fainted and Kyouya and Mori had to hold back Tamaki's scream.

"Kao-kun?" Hunny whined, grabbing Kaoru's hand.

Kaoru didn't reply, only stared at the two as they kissed.

"Are you okay?" Hunny whined again, tugging at Kaoru's hand.

"Y-yeah," Kaoru lied with a smile.

As okay as I can be, I guess.

Kaoru stared at his brother, wanting to cry and sob and have Hikaru hold him in his strong arms.

"Do you love me, like you did yesterday?" Kaoru mumbled.

"Huh?" The three asked, Kyouya and Mori were holding Tamaki up, Hunny was still holding Kaoru's hand. The three stared at him as Takami regained conciousness.

But all Kaoru saw and heard was what was happening with his beloved twin. His loving brother. HIS Hikaru.

"I warned you," Kyouya sighed. "that the first date might have developed feelings of love."

I know that, but... Kaoru thought. I just wanted to hold on, a little longer.

"You said you'd come back," Kaoru whined under his breath. "You promised this morning."

What do I really mean to him?

"Hey, Haruhi," Hikaru bugged after a while. They were still in the park. "I know the answer to your question."

"Oh, so are you gay with Kaoru?" Haruhi remembered and blushed a bit at how it sounded.

When she phrases it that way, Hikaru blushed.

"Well, I just see Kaoru as a brother, but I think I'm bisexual."

"Oh."

As a brother? Hardly. Hikaru scowled himself. But that's OUR secret.

"Just as a brother?" Haruhi asked, obviously not convinced. It's like she read his mind!

"Uh..." Hikaru mumbled, blushing.

Answer! Or she'll figure it out!

"I won't tell," Haruhi giggled as she got up walked away. Quickly, she stopped and turned on her heel so she faced Hikaru again. "On one condition."

"What condition?" Hikaru whispered.

You just confirmed her question! You IDIOT! Hikaru yelled at himself.

"You tell me what's going on!" Haruhi smiled.

"Nothing's going on!" Hikaru finally defended. "W-we're just brothers!"

"Do you love him?" Haruhi questioned childishly.

"N-no."

The word stung his tongue and his throat choked.

"Oh."

"I mean, I love him as a brother."

"Nothing more?"

Something about Haruhi's attitude bugged and hurt Hikaru. Almost like she was TRYING to make him feel guilty.

"N-not..."

"Why are you hesitating?"

Hikaru growled and cursed under his breath. Where had hi and his brothers years of acting and defending gone to? This intruder had stolen it.

She couldn't find out, not after how hard Kaoru and him had tried to keep their secret for years. She just couldn't. Haruhi couldn't know what happened between Hikaru and Kaoru.

"It's none of your business!" Hikaru defended.

"As your friend I do deserve to know. It is my business," Haruhi replied almost arrogantly.

Hikaru recoiled as he thought it over. Haruhi did have a point, she did deserve to know their secret. But she couldn't know. Hikaru didn't have a reason, Haruhi just couldn't know.

"Haruhi, you're hurting me," Hikaru admitted quickly.

"Oh, I'm sorry," Haruhi responded quietly, blushing. "I didn't realize."

"Well, it's a touchy subject!" Hikaru shouted.

Haruhi laughed. "okay. I get it, Hikaru. I don't see why you're so touchy about it though. You act like the way you do at school at home, too. Right?"

Hikaru blushed.

I don't kiss him at school. I don't hold him like that at school.

I don't love him the same way at school.

"Let me at 'em!" Kaoru and Tamaki grunted at the same time.

Kyouya snarled as he held the two back.

"Mitsukuni? Takashi? Help, please."

"Aye-aye, Kyo-chan!" Hunny chimed.

Hunny and Mori held Kaoru back while Kyouya dealt with Tamaki. Tamaki's face was filled with jealousy, but for some reason Kaoru's wasn't. Kaoru's was filled with rage and embarassment. They were two new emotions to him.

"He's mine..." Kaoru huffed, fighting back tears.

Tamaki relaxed and stared at him. His face turned remorseful and looked at Hikaru and Haruhi again.

Just a brother... the thought rang throughout Kaoru's mind. Nothing more, not really.

"Kaoru..." Tamaki winced as he whispered the boys name.

Kaoru trembled as he stared at Haruhi. What was this feeling? Hate? Shame? Love? Guilt? Jealousy? All five?

"Kao-kun?" Hunny whispered.

Kaoru tried to ignore them. He tried to look at his brother. He tried to let go of his brother. He tried to forget. He tried to pretend he wasn't in love. No matter how hard he tried, it wouldn't work.

"Get him out of here," Kyouya finally ordered, realizing Kaoru's situation. "before he blows our cover."

Tamaki got out of Kyouya's grasp and put his hand on Kaoru's shoulder and smiled lightly. Kaoru tried to look at him. But he couldn't. He couldn't take his eyes off of... this-this... girl.

Why?

Kaoru trembled even more. Hunny and Mori let go and Tamaki carried him off. Kyouya, Hunny, and Mori only stared as they left. Then they got back to observing the other two. The two who'd just broken delicate hearts. The two who were probably breaking themselves.

"Hikaru!" Kaoru finally broke down in a high-pitch whine.

Tamaki sat him down on a bench and rested next to him, his hand on Kaoru's knee. He stroked his thumb on Kaoru's knee.

"You'll be okay," Tamaki attempted to comfort.

"That's what I'm trying to tell myself! I'm trying to let go, trying not to love, trying not to hate-"

"You're trying too hard!" Tamaki scowled scornfully.

Kaoru grabbed Tamaki's shirt by the collar and slammed him down on the bench.

"It won't be okay!" Kaoru scowled.

Tamaki stared inot Kaoru's pained and crying eyes.

"How'd you hurt your hand?"

"Shut-up!" Kaoru snarled as he put head onto Tamaki's chest, his grip loosening. He sobbed and whined again, "shut-up..."

Tamaki sighed and stared at the dark sky. A raindrop landed on his cheek.

"It's crying for you."

"What?"

"The sky, it's crying for you."

Kaoru slowly picked himself up and stared at the sky as well. As the rain began pouring on his face, Kaoru broke into long mournful sobs.

"I-I have to... let go," Kaoru choked through his red, wet face..

"No," Tamaki objected as he sat up, he hugged Kaoru lightly. "You're both so childish."

"Shut-up," Kaoru tried to laugh.

Tamaki smiled as he gazed into the sullen, alone, dying eyes of a soaked young man. In the cold loneliness Tamaki thought he looked like a child.

"Don't go," Tamaki whispered under his breath. Kaoru choked, but didn't say anything.

What does that mean?

"D-did you hear that?" Haruhi shrieked, moving closer to Hikaru.

"Thunder?" Hikaru questioned.

"Y-yeah. Did you hear it?"

"No, but I don't fear it, either."

Hikaru grabbed her hand and heard voices.

"What?" Hikaru scowled, looking at the trees.

"You idiots!" Kyouya's voice scolded.

"Does that mean we can see Hika-chan now?" Hunny's voice seemed to rejoice.

No! Tell me Kaoru's not with them!

Hikaru ran and glared at Mori, Kyouya and Hunny. No Tamaki or Kaoru in sight. Hikaru sighed in relief and let go of Haruhi's hand.

Rain began pouring on their heads.

"Let's go," Hikaru chuckled.

For some reason, he didn't hold Haruhi's hand. For the same reason he walked through the other end of the park. As they walked on, something Hikaru's eye and stopped his heart.

"K-Kaoru?" Hikaru winced as he witnessed Kaoru and Tamaki embracing on a bench. Hikaru didn't notice his twin sobbing.

"Hikaru?" Kaoru blushed, turning his head to look his twin in the eye.

How could you?

It's not-

HOW COULD YOU?

Hikaru turned and darted off.

"WOULD YOU LISTEN TO ME?" Kaoru yelled. He jumped up and stood, staring.

Kaoru's hand began bleeding again as it ripped on the bench as he scrambled up. Everyone stared at it.

"What-" They all started.

Kaoru's hand tensed and he clenched his teeth. His muscles strained as he clenched his fist even harder than his teeth.

"Kaoru," Tamaki whined quietly. "your hand."

"Like it matters," Kaoru mumbled again, too quiet again.

"Kaoru!" Haruhi yelled as she stomped over. "Stop acting like a child!"

"Shut-up!" Kaoru snarled glaring into her eyes.

Haruhi winced back, hurt.

"What happened?" Haruhi asked Tamaki.

Tamaki shrugged. "He finally snapped, I guess."

Haruhi looked back at Kaoru and slapped him hard. Everyone, even Kaoru, held their breath for a moment. Then Kaoru turned and glared into Haruhi's eyes. Haruhi wanted to cry suddenly as she witnessed the pain in his eyes.

"You think you know me! I'm sick of it!" Kaoru snapped at Haruhi, looking like he was gonna sock her. "I'm tired of you thinking you know Hikaru! He's MY brother!"

Haruhi pulled him close and stroked his back, trying not to cry. Kaoru didn't try hard enough again. He began sobbing, making Haruhi want to as well. The trembling just seemed to get to her.

"Only I know Hikaru." Kaoru sobbed. "He's my brother."

My darling brother.

"Do you... love him?"

"Of course."

"As more than a brother?"

Kaoru didn't even have to think. "Definetly yes."

Kaoru calmed again. There was something about Haruhi that always calmed him. He laughed and buried his face into Haruhi's shoulder.

"Don't let them see me," Kaoru replied absent-mindedly.

"Who?" They all wondered.

"Just don't."

You can see me, just don't tell them. They'd hate me. They'd kill me. Don't let them see me.

The remaining four Club members attempted to bring the broken twins together.

"He's heavy," Haruhi laughed.

"Why are you treating me like a criminal?" Kaoru finally whined as he dropped his shirt to the floor.

Hikaru stared out the window at the lightning and deafening, pounding rain. He was attempting to drown out his brother.

Kaoru sat next to him, he was stripped down to his boxers. Kaoru stared into his eyes. Anger grasped his thoughts.

"Dammit, Hikaru!" Kaoru shouted, pushing Hikaru onto the ground.

Hikaru was forced to look at Kaoru now. He was a little startled at how rash Kaoru'd been that day.

"Why..."

"Why what?"

"Why were you with the Lord like that?"

"It wasn't like THAT!" Kaoru scolded. "But someone didn't want to listen to me!"

"Like you care!" Hikaru growled.

"I do care! More than you!"

Kaoru sighed and layed his head on Hikaru's chest, letting their bodies collide, melt together. Kaoru matched his breathing rate to his twins.

"We're disconnected."

Hikaru wrapped his arms tightly around Kaoru.

"No," Hikaru sobbed. "No we're not!"

"I'm just a brother after all."

Hikaru sobbed and cried as he imagined his day so far. Kaoru had seen all of it.

"I love you."

Kaoru attempted to get up and smacked Hikaru across the face.

"Don't you EVER say that to me!" Kaoru growled.

Hikaru pulled him down and kissed him deeply, feeling him up and down. Kaoru teared up and gave in. Tears streamed down Kaoru's and Hikaru's faces. They struggled to breath; they didn't want to stop kissing.

Kaoru sucked Hikaru's lower lip while Hikaru licked Kaoru's upper lip. They switched and licked eachothers tongues.

"They can never know," both agreed quietly.

"But they do, the Club does," Kaoru pointed out.

"As long as no one else knows, they'd kill us," Hikaru agreed with the words spoken in Kaoru's eyes.

"Do you hate me?" Kaoru asked randomly.

"Maybe in public," they both laughed.

"What should we do?" One maid whispered to the other nervously.

"Tell the Mister and Mistress, duh," The other scolded as they began walking to the living room.

"Well?" A feminine voice asked as the two maids walked in to the living room.

"We have news."

"Do tell, please."

"Well ma'am... the young masters..."

"What about my sons?"

One sighed and shook her head slowly. "We caught them kissing again."

"This is becoming serious!" A male voice argued.

"I know, I know," The female sighed. "but Kaoru's been... suicidal? Yes, suicidal lately."

"My boys won't be homosexual," Mr. Hitachiin snarled.

"I don't want them to be either, but they seem to love eachother," Mrs. Hitachiin replied. "Anything else?"

The maids cleared their thraots, "the two hold eachother closer than normal. Their hands... wander." The two blushed.

"Wander?"

"Well, see, sometimes..." They sighed, visually flustered. "Their hands are in... inappropriate places for brothers, I guess."

"I don't want them together." Their father announced.

"Oh, come now," Their mother protested.

"You come now! Next it will be sex!"

They were all quiet and finally agreed.

"Maybe you're right."

Kaoru held Hikaru's burning, naked body against his almost naked body. Hikaru winced as Kaoru held him close, but he didn't object.

"Are we virgins?" Kaoru tried to remember.

"Shh, no. Don't you remember that one night?" Hikaru whispered, Kaoru trembling at Hikaru's breath on his neck. "But we can't tell them."

Hikaru blushed deeply as he felt the full effects of Kaoru's trembling.

Damn hormones! They both cursed to themselves.

"You know Sex Education, Kaoru?"

"Yes."

"Remember hormones?"

"Hell yes."

"I'm... having..."

"Me too."

They both blushed and held eachother closer. Hikaru grinned devilishly.

"I can solve both our problems," He laughed.

"Not while mom and dad are home!" Kaoru whined as Hikaru pulled off his boxers.

"Oh, shut-up," Hikaru snarled.

Hikaru kissed Kaoru deeply and pressed their waists together tightly. He grinned.

"How're your hormones, now?" Hikaru giggled.

"Hhiikkaaarrruuuu!" Kaoru moaned pulling his brother nearer, his face burning red.

Hikaru sighed.

"Nevermind, mom and dad might hear you groan."

"Or you be loud and obnoxious and perverted!"

"Because it gets your hormones going!"

"You do it at school too!"

"You think mine aren't raging there too?"

Kaoru gazed into his eyes. "How badly?"

"I just wanna get you right then and there."

"Forget mom and dad," Kaoru giggled moving his hands farther down Hikaru's spine, making Hikaru groan. "Please me."

"Screw you!" Hikaru whined.

"If you must," Kaoru laughed.

"You'll regret that!"

Kaoru kissed Hikaru and ran his hand from Hikaru's leg up to his hair. Hikaru trembled and made Kaoru whine.

"We shouldn't," Kaoru admitted.

Hikaru laid his head on Kaoru's stomach and snarled. "You got my hormones raging too much. You can't tell me, 'no' now, young man!"

Kaoru grinned and moved his legs, forcing Hikaru to cringe and blush. They heard shuffling in the hall and they pulled up close under the covres.

"Nevermind," they both sighed.

They fell asleep then, but not without stroking the others body. This was only the second time Hikaru ever felt Kaoru naked after they hit teenagerdom.

I REALLY wanted to... they both thought.

"Tomorrow?" Kaoru whispered, his hormones trying to control him. He was already moving his hand up and down Hikaru all over.

"Hell yes, maybe even later tonight," Hikaru grinned.

Kaoru closed his eyes.

Or maybe never again. Dammit, I'm trying to let go. Kaoru thought.

They didn't know that the adults knew more than they were given credit for.