A/N: Alright and here is the final piece of the story.
Part 3
"No, please. Please tell me you're wrong. Bailey, please," Arizona begged. She wasn't ready for this. She wasn't ready for this at all. She had spent all these years with hope that someday Callie would wake up. She didn't want to let that go.
Bailey turned sad eyes to her friend lying there on the bed before looking back at Arizona. She did the one thing she always said she didn't do and pulled the blonde into her arms. "I know it hurts, but you need to let her go. Don't let her suffer."
"I can't. I can't," Arizona responded as she pulled herself away from Bailey. "I can't do this."
Before Bailey could attempt to stop her, Arizona was running out of the room and down the hall. She had informed the chief beforehand of the need to speak with Arizona, so he was already aware the other woman would probably be done working for the day. He'd already approved some time off for her, so Bailey just let her friend go, knowing there was little she could do to comfort her now.
~CA~
Arizona wasn't sure where she was going. All she knew was that she needed to get as far away from the hospital as possible. She couldn't stay there and know that Callie was slowly dying before her eyes.
So instead she ran. She flew out the ER doors and kept on going down the street. She pushed her way past people and kept on going. Nothing was going to stop her. There was only one place she could think of to go right then, only one place her mind was telling her to find.
The path was mostly deserted so she made her way easily down the concrete slabs. Her feet slowed as she began up the hill, but her motivation never wavered. By the time she reached the top of the incline she was losing her breath. She bent over at the hips and gave herself a few moments to allow the air to fill her lungs once again before crashing on the wooden bench that overlooked the city.
This was the only place that could begin to lessen the pain in her heart. The one place that at times she could swear she could still feel Callie there with her.
"Where are you Callie?" she asked the wind. "Why are you leaving me? Don't you know that I can't be without you? These last five years have been tough, but at least you were still there. Please don't make me make this choice. I don't think I can do it. I can't let you go.
"And what about Sofia? She needs her Mama," Arizona bargained. "She hasn't known any other life but this one. What am I supposed to tell her when you're gone? I can't bear to see that sad look in her eyes knowing that we will never see you again."
Arizona sniffled as the tears rained down her cheeks. There was no sign of her signature dimples today, as the pain inside her made it impossible for them to appear. "How am I supposed to go on without her? Please don't take her from me," she begged anyone who would listen. "Callie is the love of my life. It took running away to Africa to realize that and I'll spend my life proving my love for her, but I can't do that if she's gone."
Time ceased to exist as she sat upon that bench working through every thought within her mind. She wasn't sure where to go from here, what she could do from this moment on. She never thought she'd have to have to think of a future without Callie in it. This wasn't supposed to happen."
~CA~
She wasn't sure how long she'd been gone, but the sun had set long before Arizona finally stood up and wandered back out of the small park. As much as she wanted to stay there all night and forget the world, she knew she couldn't do that. Not to Sofia, never to Sofia. So instead she made her way back to the hospital to retrieve her car and make her way home.
As soon as she stepped through her front door, Jenny, Sofia's nanny, instantly knew something was not right. She'd seen a lot of moods come from the blonde the last few years, but she'd never seen that look in her eyes.
"I need to make a couple calls. Are you good to stick around for a little longer? Depending on how things go, I may even need you to stay the night," Arizona asked softly, no emotion left in her voice.
"Of course," Jenny agreed quickly. She was forever grateful for this job, Arizona paid her more than she probably needed to just so that Jenny could get through college without any outstanding loans. She'd do anything to repay that.
Arizona only nodded that she heard before making her way down the hallway and into the small study, closing the door behind her. She had two calls to make, and she wasn't sure how she could get through either one of them.
She desperately wanted to call her parents first, to feel the sense of comfort she knew they'd offer her, but she knew she needed to speak with someone else first. It wouldn't be right to do it the other way. So as she picked up her phone, she dialed the familiar number, feeling the dread with each push of the button.
"Hi, Carlos. It's Arizona…"
~CA~
After talking to Carlos and her own parents, all promising to be there as soon as they could, Arizona was thoroughly drained. And yet there was still one person she needed to talk to, and this one was going to be the hardest one of all.
When she finally left the study, the house was quiet of any noise downstairs. Which she took to mean Jenny had probably taken Sofia up to get ready for bed. The girl definitely deserved a bonus, or a raise, or maybe both.
Sofia was just about to climb into bed when Arizona entered her room.
"You going to tuck me in mommy?" Sofia asked upon seeing her mother
"Actually munchkin, you and I need to have a talk first," Arizona told her, trying with everything in her to not choke on her words.
"Do you want me to leave you two alone?" Jenny asked.
Arizona reached out and put a hand on her arm to stop her from leaving. "No, stay. You need to know what's going on too." She didn't say it, but Jenny knew that whatever Arizona had to say wasn't going to be easy on her daughter and Jenny needed to be prepared as well.
Arizona sat against the headboard and pulled the little girl onto her lap. She wrapped her arms around her tightly and breathed in the smell that was uniquely Sofia. It was a comfort to her in that moment. She wasn't even sure where to start.
"Sweetheart, you know how mama is sick?"
Sofia nodded her head. "That's why she lives in the hospital, so she can get better and come home."
Arizona felt a pang in her heart at the innocence of her daughter. And how she'd have to now crush that belief that someday they'd be a family like they were always meant to be. "That's right. All the doctors have done everything they could to help your Mama get better, but she's not getting any better. Dr. Bailey told me today she thinks maybe Mama is ready to go live with the angels," Arizona explained, trying to make it as not scary as possible.
"Like Uncle Tim?"
Arizona let out a whimper and pulled Sofia even tighter into a hug. "Yes, sweetie. She's ready to go live with Uncle Tim now."
Sofia knew what that meant. She'd never met her Uncle Tim because the angels lived so far away they couldn't visit. The tears filled her eyes when she thought about never seeing her mama again.
"Your Mama loves you more than anything in the world. There was nothing she wanted more than to have a little girl of her own. She was so happy you finally came to us. I know even when she leaves us, she'll always been watching you, even if we can't see her," Arizona cried. Mother and daughter clung to each other as the tears fell down both their cheeks.
Knowing this was now a private moment and she needed to leave the Robbins girls to grieve, Jenny quietly slipped out of the room.
~CA~
It was barely twenty-four hours after Bailey had crushed Arizona's world, when Callie's small hospital room was filled with people. Carlos had immediately scheduled a flight after hanging up with Arizona and picked up the Robbins on the way. Everyone wanted to be there for Callie's final moments.
Arizona hadn't consciously decided to let Callie go, but she couldn't bear to see the woman she loved suffer, not even a little bit. Their parents too, have been expecting this as a possibility in the back of their minds, so as much as it pained them, they all gathered to say goodbye.
The hardest part was Sofia. Arizona didn't bother to send her to school. She called and explained the situation. And while she'd never deny her daughter the chance to say goodbye to her mother, she didn't want her to be in the room when it all ended.
Alex was a saving grace, promising to keep her preoccupied while the rest of the adults kept their attention on the comatose woman on the bed. Sofia cried as she hugged her Mama. Little tears ran down her cheeks and landed on her Mama's blanket. She screamed and cried when Alex finally pulled her out of the room, but he didn't let it deter him, knowing how badly she was hurting.
Each of Callie's colleagues took a turn saying their goodbyes. Those that had been a teacher to her whispered words of how talented she had been. Those that had been her students whispered their thanks for all that they had learned from her.
Barbara and Daniel went next, each pressing a kiss to Callie's face. Whispering words of love and comfort to a woman they'd never really had a chance to know, but still loved for all she'd brought into their lives, including the beautiful grandchild they'd never thought they'd have.
Carlos, much like Arizona had the day before, begged and pleaded for several moments for his daughter to just open her eyes. Give them some small sign that she was still in there. There was no response, however, nothing to give them even a glimmer of hope.
Finally it was Arizona's turn. Knowing this would be the last time she'd have the chance to do it, she kicked off her shoes and climbed into the bed beside the woman she loved. She wrapped her arms around her girlfriend and pressed a kiss into the side of her head. "I love you so much. I hope that wherever you go, you remember that. You'll never know how thankful I am that you gave me a daughter. It was a dream I didn't even know I had and you made it come true. I love you, Calliope Torres."
A silence fell upon the room for several minutes. Each taking the time to gather themselves and let their hearts really say goodbye.
"Are we ready?" Bailey asked softly. While no one actually nodded their consent, no one told her to stop. So she watched each of their eyes as she went through each step to cut off all remaining life support. Their grief in their eyes grew, but their words stayed silent.
The only thing that could be heard in the room for the next half hour was the beeping of the monitor as Callie's vitals slowed down. Arizona watched from the corner of her eye, a part of her still wishing for Callie to just open her eyes, for this to not be the end. So when Bailey called time of death, Arizona lost it.
"No, she can't be gone. Come back, Callie. Please, Calliope. I need you. Sofia needs you. Come back. Come back…"
~CA~
"Ari…zo…na…" a labored breath called out. It wasn't enough though, so the voice tried again "Ari…zona," this time the voice was a little stronger. It finally broke through the fog in Arizona's brain.
The blonde's head flew up off the bed. And she tried to figure out what was going on. Last thing she remembered she was laying on the bed, not sitting beside it. And she was crying because Callie was gone. Lost to her forever.
She put a head to her forehead, trying to figure out what was going on. The sting of her finger hitting the cut on her forehead confused her. When did she get a cut?
It was then she noticed the hand in front of her trying to move, to touch her. Her eyes shot along the body, making their way up to the head of the bed. What she found was deep brown eyes looking at her. The head was all bandage up and there were cuts all over her face, but it was Callie and she was alive and awake.
"Yeesss…" Callie tried to talk again.
"Callie?" Arizona all but cried with relief.
"Yesss…" Callie repeated again, but this time stronger.
"What?"
"I'll marry you," Callie finally got out. Her words were hoarse and painful, but it was worth it to see the look on Arizona's face. There was nothing but pure joy there.
Careful not to hurt her, Arizona crawled up on the bed as best as she could and laid beside Callie. "I love you so much," she told her, as tears fell down her cheeks.
"What's wrong?" Callie croaked out.
Arizona kissed Callie's cheek and laid a hand on the other woman's stomach, wanting to feel her breath as it went up and down. She needed that reassurance right now that everything was alright. "I had the worst dream," she told Callie. She knew now that's what it had been, but it had been so real. Those five years without Callie had felt so real and she could still feel the pain in her heart from saying goodbye.
But it had all been a dream. Seeing the time and date on one of Callie's monitors she knew she must have dozed off sometime after they'd brought Callie up from surgery. "You never woke up. You were in a coma for five years and then Bailey told me I needed to let you go because your body was shutting down. I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to lose you. And I didn't know how I could ever raise Sofia without you."
Callie gave her a curious look. "Sofia?"
Arizona smiled. It was only then she realized Callie didn't even know about the baby. "Our daughter."
Callie reached down and put her hand over Arizona's. She realized then she no longer had a baby bump. "We have a daughter?"
Arizona nodded with a smile. "We do. She's one pound, one ounce, but she's alive and she's a fighter. I can tell. And if my dream is anything to go by, at least for her, she's going to make it and she's going to be amazing."
Callie smiled. If Arizona had faith, then she would too. Their daughter was going to make it. "So Sofia huh?" They never could settle on a name before. "I like it," she admitted.
"Sofia Robbin Sloan Torres," Arizona responded with certainty.
As she watched Callie's eyes droop again, the pain meds doing their thing, she couldn't help but smile. It had only been a dream. Callie was still here and so was Sofia. She had her family and she couldn't wait to start a life with the both of them.
The End
A/N 2: So yes it was all a dream because I didn't have it in me to really kill Callie, but I did like the idea of exploring what it would have been like if Arizona was left raising Sofia.
I haven't decided yet but I'm thinking about doing a story that's an alternative of this one. I don't want to really say much and give away what I'm thinking. Guess we'll see if my muse decides it likes the idea.
