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Sara's Pov

I am speechless; Tegan has never been so distant. How could she? Why? I'm so confused, Is it my own fault for always pushing Tegan away? Always yelling at her, always bad mouthing her? But…..but… I never meant to hurt her. I was just having fun. I love teasing her and making her comeback with one of her smart remarks. I don't understand why she doesn't want to be my twin. That's really bad. What did I do to make Tegan not wana be my sister anymore. Fuck! It must have been all the bullying. All the " don't touch me" and the "ewws" but I don't do that to hurt her. It's just…..it's just….

"Fuck" what is going on?

I go to my bed, into my empty bed and let my tears come out and dry.

No one's Pov

Tegan in the other hand couldn't sleep that night. She just tossed and turned, she couldn't handle it. Couldn't handle hurting Sara, but she had to. There was no other way out of this. No other way to get Sara off her brain. No other way to stop wanting her so badly. No other way to stop herself from wanting to kiss her sisters soft plump looking lips. "fuck" Tegan whispers. She needed to sleep because when she slept Dark came in, blocking away all the dirty thoughts she had of Sara, Her Sara.

2 Weeks Later

Tegan's Pov

It's been two weeks and Sara and I have barely talked to each other. She tries to start a conversation, but I stop her by making some excuse like me being tired. Then I try to start a conversation, but she doesn't respond. I know she's hurt, but this is what is best. "Fuck" I miss her stupid ass jokes, her smile every time I make my smart remarks. I'm so glad we are headed home; I can't stand being so close to her and not being able to talk to her, touch her, and kiss her. I miss her so bad. I know I can just go up to her and talk to her, but I can't.

I walk slowly towards my bunk and stop myself. I hear sniffles, Sara? Is she crying? I turn around to face her bunk and my heart breaks. I see Sara facing her wall and holding her pillow so tightly pouring her tears out trying to hide herself.

I can't handle this anymore! I step closer to her bed and whisper her name "Sara?" "Sara?"

She doesn't respond. I go into her bunk and slowly slide my hands around her waist and hold her closer to myself. She begins to shake, fuck! What did I do to her? If only she understood. It's not her fault; she shouldn't be suffering like this. I grip my hold on her a bit tighter.

"Don't" I hear her whisper, as if I was to be hurting her. I loosen my grip on her waist, but don't let go.

"Sara?" I whisper back. "Please don't cry."

I hear her sniffle a bit and she slightly turns to face me, her eyes staring directly into my own.

"Why are you here? Talking to me?" She looks at me questioningly.

I look at her knowingly. "Sara you are crying, how can I not be here."

She looks away dissapointedly.

"So you still want to leave?" she whispers and slowly turns back around to face the wall again.

I'm quiet. I don't know what to say to her. If I stay I'll go crazy and if I go her heart breaks, I'll lose my sister, I'll lose Sara, my Sara. I remain silent for what seems to be an eternity.

"Just go to bed Tegan" she pulls the blankets over herself, as if trying to push the inevitable, trying to push aside the fact that I'm not responding, because she just knows I'm not giving in.

I slowly remove my hands from around her beautiful slender waist, not wanting to but having to. As I slowly linger at the edge of her bed getting ready to leave, I suddenly feel her hand on my shoulder. She turns me around softly. I look into her eyes and wait.

"Tegan" I see her struggling to talk.

"I'm sorry" she's sorry? Why is she sorry? What the fuck?

"Sorry for always bad mouthing you, always putting you down, always shouting at you, always getting back at you, and always shoving you off me. I'm sorry for being such a bad fucking sister. I didn't think it would cause you to leave? I didn't mean to push to your limits. I know it's my fault that you want to leave. My stupid attitude finally annoyed you "I'm sorry Tegan."

"I know it's my fault!"

I can't handle this. She's wrong so wrong. Why would she blame herself? I can't take it anymore.

"STOP IT SARA!" I snap her out of it.

"Sara don't blame yourself, stop it, it's not your fault, it's not your fucking fault. So stop it, please!"

I feel tears coming out my own eyes. Fuck this hurts so bad. I want to tell her what I'm feeling and why I'm leaving, but I can't.

"Then why?" she pleads.

"I can't Sara, just trust me please."

"Then I'll just keep blaming myself Tegan" she yells.

"That's the only possible reason I can think of."

"I just know it's my fault Tegan! I shouldn't have bullied you so much, shouldn't have made fun of you, scream at you all those times."

"I, I just shouldn't have..shouldn't have…"

I suddenly shut her up by pressing my lips onto hers.

I feel her tense up but then slowly relax when I rap my arms around her waist.

She's not kissing back. Maybe I should stop, but before I can stop I feel her lips slowly beginning to massage mine.

Oh my god she's kissing back. Sara is kissing me back!

My heart just fainted.

I quickly picked it up and began to lick Sara's bottom lip asking for entrance to her mouth. She quickly let me in. I begin to feel her warm tongue on mine making me slightly moan.

I feel her putting her hand over my shoulders; her chest is beginning to press against mine. Fuck I think she can feel my heart beat against her chest.

Then just when I got used to her body heat against mine she shoves me off.