Chapter 3:
"What about it? I don't ever really plan to go back, so, if you tell me more of those oldie Vampire guys are hanging around there, I'll send some one. Hey, I have someones I can send to do my dirty work; I am like a mob boss… Okay, really what is it?" I ask and like I usually get off topic. He pauses, I should really get some pants on this room has a draft and I am starting to get cold, while he is trying to think how to phrase whatever he wants to tell, which knowing Angel it is probably doom and gloom. I find old pair of sweats that I think was once Riley's but I don't really care.
"Buffy… Spike," he starts but I immediately cut he off, and say, "Spike… he died, Angel I don't know if they told you but he died, because the amulet, you gave me, to save us. I am with you now, forever and always, nothing will change that. Right?" I ask but I see his eyes fill with doubt.
"Yes, forever, I never want to leave your side. From the moment I saw you, I wanted to protect you and be with you forever." He says, which still a little weird is because I was like 14 or 15 when he saw me. Still not as gross as when he said he wanted to warm my heart with his. "But," he continues, "I may want to be with you but you may not want to be with me." He states and I look at him like he is crazy because I have no idea where this is coming from. "Angel, what are you talking about? I just told you that I wanted to be with you forever and you say, that I don't want to be with you. And what does Spike have to do with anything." See what I mean with the doom and gloom. I'd wish he would just get to the point, he always does this. There is the happy go-lucky Angel and then there is the doom and gloom Angel, I both hate and love the doom and gloom Angel, i just wish sometimes instead of saying anything he would just kiss me.
"Spike's, alive, well dead technically, but never the less he's walking and talking, with is little accent." I almost don't trust want my ears have heard.
"Spike is alive," I exclaim in utter disbelief, "and no body told me. Why?" He starts to speak but I get up and say,"Wait, let me break this down in my head, to much has happen to day, You come here and you go into the sun and don't burst in to flames, this makes a summer wedding much easier to accomplish," I add in not really noticing, "then you say that some prophecy made you human and then you say Spike is alive/dead, and you expect me to be all honky dory and kiss you?" I look at him, but instead of seeing him all upset about my rant he has doughy-eyes. "You want to have a summer wedding?" he asks as he comes over to me and kisses my forehead and hugs me, I melt because he so warm and I just could never love anyone more. "Yeah, I want a summer wedding." I say into his shirt. He whispers in my ear, "Me too." We kiss passionately, and I push him away, we still need to talk. "Why didn't someone tell me?" I ask. He is a little dazed after our tender moment but his back after a moment. "Because he didn't want you to have to choose." He says reluctantly.
The emotions I was feeling was a mix of happiness and madness and a hint of the feeling you get when you are about to cry and your eyes hurt. It was odd to hear that he was alive. My mind was racing because of everything I had heard today. I had sex with Angel and I found out that someone I thought was dead was alive again. That person just happened to be someone I loved, well sort of, I loved him but differently, in between a friend and a lover.
"That was nice of him, but now I have to choose." I say. He looks down at me and I try desperately not to kiss him. I whisper in his ear, "I just want to tell you that, that summer wedding has a groom who is completely human and is Irish." I kiss his cheek and face him. He grabs me and we are in another passionate make out session.
Since I was sixteen, I have dreamed of a wedding with Angel, no that I would tell anyone but I did. I had white lilies and Black roses, my dress is flowy and my veil is long and Angel stands up at the alter, not bursting in flames. Willow and Dawn are my maids of honor and Giles walks me down the isle. Everyone who loves me is there and everyone is glad to see that finally Buffy ends up with the man of her dreams. I loved Spike but not like I loved Angel. Angel is the love I could never have and I now I get the chance to have for forever, why in the world would I give that up. I want to wake up everyday to his dark brown eyes, and know that his man is mine, forever and always. that dream just never seemed possible.
Sometimes love isn't perfect, well, it never is, but that doesn't make you stop wanting it does it. I've wanted Angel, since the first day I met him. I wore his jacket everyday for almost 2 years. He might be the one thing that I get to keep for myself and forever.
Sometimes the perfect moment can be ruined by a knock on the door, especially in movies and right now. Knock, Knock. The door to my room. I open it to find Wesley and Guess who? Spike.