The two hours were going agonisingly slow. Jen had spent the last 20 minutes staring at the beaut in front of her work. Jen couldnt help herself. Tillys face was free of the constricting emotions Jen often saw on Tilly's face, it was relaxed, but her eyes shone with the joy Jen could see Tilly got painting or drawing, but they were slightly squinted as she worked on the fine details of her artwork. It was peaceful for Jen, almost her own therapeutic method. Just then Tilly looked p to see Jen looking at her and was surprised to see a hint on a smile glistening in her eyes. Before she got the chance to look deeper Jen saw Tilly had seen her and quickly looked away.
'Stop being so careless Jen, it was because of this type of behaviour that you broke up with her' Jen chastised herself. She proceeded then, to avoid temptaion at her feet, to walk around checking others work. Some she saw had barely started to she needed to help give ideas. She walked around everyone deliberately trying to leave Tilly till last, so she might avoid her but a that seemed impossible as nearly everyone had now had their ideas down and were painting and some were almost finished. 'im going to have to go over there eventually' Jen thought to herself.
She moved herself over to Tilly's desk and looked down at Tilly's creation. It was breath taking. She had painting a sun setting below the view point and in the shadows gormley statues stood and the silhouette of a womens body was standing by the sea, her hair blowing gently in the breeze and her slightly turned around to face the person above. no features could be identified but it was unmistakably her.
Tilly could feel Jens presence behind her and continued adding detail to the amber glowing sun as it set over the sea. She heard a sharp intake of breath from Jen and knew she must have seen the figure she had added in the last minute deciding to represent the full truth of a moment she would never forget. She had seen Jen walking round the whole class and saw her tentively start walking towards her as though afraid of what she might receive. 'As she's here i might as well make the most of it, i mean she cant completely brush me off, infront of everyone' Tilly thought before she turned to face 'Miss Gilmore'.
"erm, Miss, i was wondering if you could help me add more detail, i dont want it to seem empty... again" Tilly knew it would make Jen nervous speaking of when they first met and spoke properly, where Jen had completely disregarded Tilly's hardwork, but it was worth it, just to get one up on her. To show her she want going to hide behind any false facades anymore.
"Oh, well, it pretty much.. Well perfect if I'm honest Tilly. The way you've captured the light cascading down across the beach, its breathtaking" Jen avoided all comment on the silhouette but she hoped Tilly would understand why and not push her further.
Tilly couldn't believe her ears. Jen calling her work perfect. She didnt igore the fact that she hadn't mentioned the shapes in the backgroud, but was too amazed at the comments. "wow, do you think so?" inquired Tilly.
"of course, most of what you do is amazing" Jen was shocked at her own admission. She hoped Tilly would just take it in just all her work is amazing but she doubted it. Tilly often understood what she meant better than herself. Yet again Jen had let herself slip up.
She just looked up at Tilly to see her slightly red in the cheeks but giving Jen a confused look. She had most probably the same look plastered on her face. Jen quickly recovered herself "Erm just add a few cross hatched to make it more 3D and give it more shading to emphasis the deepness of the setting sun" she explained and took her leave, hearing an imperceptible "thankyou" as she walked back to the desk.
There was only a couple of minutes left before the bell so she told them to pack up and place them on her desk. Many of them had finished and she saw the rush of the eagerness to escape, she couldnt blame them, all she wanted to do was leave yet one student seemed to be taking her time packing up.
As Tllly slowly walked up to the desk, purposefully making sure she was the last student, she saw Jen tense a little bit and it cut out some of her confidence 'is she really afraid to be in the same room as me alone?' Tllys inner thoughts were confirmed when Jen stated "just put it on the desk that will be all, thankyou" she wouldnt look at Tilly and instead pretended to Be interested in an email she'd jus been sent.
"I Was just wondering if you could check over it one more time?" Tilly sheepishly asked.
"im sorry Tilly im rather busy, ill check it over like the rest of them and tell you tomorrow what you need to improve" jen resisted the urge to add 'not that will be anything, your perfect' she thought it wouldnt be fair.
" But Jen I-" Tilly protested
"Is Miss Gilmore,Tilly, now please leave im extremely busy" Jen didnt mean it to come across as sharply as it had but she needed time to think, to clear her head and get away from Tilly. She saw the hurt look flicker across Tlly's face and felt immediately guilty, but it had done the job.
"Fine.. Sorry Miss Gilmore. She walked out calmly not letting Jen see how much it had had and went straight to the girls toilets where she stayed trying to sort herself out. Why was Jen acting like this, surely she hasn't forgotten all we had? Or she never truly liked me! I need to get away from this place, away from her!
'oh what have i done, she'll never forgive me now, like i had a chance anyway' Jen placed her head in her hands, exhaling a sigh of frustration over her choices. She was hurting so much without Tilly. She was trying to remember all the reasons why she couldnt be with Tilly, but seeing her hurt left her mind at a blank. i cant let her think i hate her, its not true, but what else cold she do, Tilly would never take her back, she wouldn't understand why Jen had to do it. Not just for her, but for Tilly's future as well, if it got out shed be tormented for the rest of her life, Jen wouldn't be able to live with herself knowing that. But right now living knowing Tilly hated her was worse, she had to sort it out!
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