Okay meanie-heads you expected way too much of me! It's my first fanfic! GIVE ME A BREAK WILL YOU? GOSH! So this will be my last chapter of this story. ENJOY.

I woke up to an empty bed. It was around 10:00 pm so Freddie must be at work, obviously. I got up and took a shower, primping myself to go see my lover Ryan. I locked the door and jumped in my Mercedes Benz.

"Ryan, you man whore open up" I shouted through his glass window. "Oh, babe you up for another round" he said in the most cocky voice. "Maybe later" I said walking into his messy house.

"So, why are you here then" he raised his eyebrow. "What? A girl can't visit her lover without having sex or something" she said in a mocking voice. "Whatever" he said going into the kitchen. "Catch you on the flip side" I said walking out the door.

9:34 p.m

"Freddie, that was the best sex I ever had" Sam said as she got up from their bed. "Best sex you ever had, you mean the only sex you ever had" he said getting up also and putting on his boxers. "Yeah" she lied. She felt guilty. Very Guilty.

10 months later

So Freddie and I had a baby, her name is Larissa Riley Benson. She's 1 month old and has Strawberry blonde hair and brown hair. I'm still with Ryan and I'll always be with Ryan, he keeps me sane. Freddie has no idea what's going on, I feel he lost in a fantasy world. I make obvious to him all the time. He just smiles and acts as if everything is hunky fucking dory.

"Freddie, you remember Ryan my ex-boyfriend' I ask knowing he'll say yes. " Yes, I remember him" he says looking down at his paperwork "Well we're going to go out, you know" I took a breath and added "Have some fun"

"Oh, well I could call Wendy and have her watch Larissa" he said with a genuine smile the added "And then I could come to"

"Uh, no" I say bluntly. "Oh your right, I have to go to work tomorrow" he said trying not to sound hurt. "Gosh Freddie! Don't you see I'm having an affair with Ryan" I say annoyed. "I-I, think we should get a divorce or something."

"What? No way" he screamed " I love you, and –and if we could get counseling and you can stop this affair with Ryan" he says with tears in his eyes "It'll be alright"

"Dude, I'm standing here saying I've been having an affair with Ryan, and your saying we can work this out" I ask confuse. "Yes, I'm happy Sam, j-just tell me what would make you happy" he said tears starting to drop. "Want me to act like Ryan, well I will, I'll dress like him, shit I'll even change my name to Ryan, just don't leave me" he says bawling out.

"Ok, Freddie let's just get consoling, a-and I'll be happy"

We consoled for a year and I made Freddie believe I was happy. He believed I was happy. I continued my relationship with Ryan and deep down I knew Freddie knew.

But he just put on a smile and kept pretending.

Because he needed me….and I need Ryan…to keep me…me.

Okay mofos, for all the people that don't understand the

"Because he needed me….and I need Ryan…to keep me…me."

This is what it means….it means that Sam needed Ryan because she felt he kept her alive. Like they did spontaneous shit and all that. But the "new sam" has to do all that adult shit and stuff so she need Ryan to keep "old sam" alive.