yeah im not good a waiting before i post the next chapter, ive wrote chapter 4 too. i might post it tonight or i might wait till tomorrow. not decided, anyway this is the action chapter- sort of. this is where we find out Emily's second secret. Please please review.

Chapter three.

JJ dumped her things on her bed and went towards the bathroom. She didn't realise Emily was already in there. She presumed she was next door talking to the Derek and Spencer. She opened the door and saw Emily was only in her t-shirt and pants.

'Oh crap sorry Em, I thought you were next door' JJ said as she looked away while Emily put her trousers on. Something caught her eye. Wait, what the hell is that on her leg.
'Woah, Em, what happened to your leg?' she pointed. JJ looked closer and saw exactly what it was.

'Emily.. did you do that yourself...?' JJ asked her friend sensitively as she saw the tears rolling down her cheeks.

Emily pulled her sweat pants up and brushed past JJ and walked into the room, she was dreading what was about to come. JJ had learned her two biggest secrets in one day. She faced away from JJ but still couldn't stop the tears falling, she let out a sob, then another and another.

JJ ran to her, turned her round and pulled her into her shoulder and let her get it all out. Emily was crying so hard. Her legs buckled underneath her, JJ half dragged/half carried her to one of the beds and pulled her into a hug. Emily couldn't stop crying no matter how hard she tried. She was letting out almighty sobs. JJ wondered how long she had kept all this in for. she held her friend tightly and rocked her slowly and waited patiently for her to stop crying.

After what seemed like hours Emily lifted her head off JJ's shoulder. Her eyes were really red and swollen.

'I'm going to be sick' Emily gasped and ran towards the bathroom. JJ followed her and held her hair back.

Emily slumped on the floor and closed her eyes and thought about how weak she really was.

'Em, I've learned your two probably biggest secrets today, you were raped and you cut yourself...' JJ's voice trailed off as she felt the tears coming into her eyes.

Emily opened her eyes, stood up and grabbed her friends hand. What a mess.

'Em, let me see?' JJ asked, she had to know how bad it was for her.

Emily shook her head but lifted her blazer sleeve up to reveal small cuts all over her wrist and pulled the top of her trousers down and showed JJ all the scars and cuts that were there.

Emily walked out of the bathroom and pushed a minty chewing gum into her mouth. JJ walked to her and put her hand on top of her friends. She couldn't believe Emily was hurting herself.

'Em, we have to talk about this, I'm not going to let this go, your my best friend and I am here for you' JJ said, tears forming in her eyes.

'Okay' Emily took a deep breath 'I'd had an argument with my mother and I walked out of the house, and I just walked around. I went to this park I knew, it was kind of in the middle of no-where and I was just sat on the bench and I thought I saw someone, so I started walking though these tree's and he grabbed me from behind.' Tears were falling down her face, she had never told anyone about this before.
'one guy pinned me down while another appeared and he pushed my skirt up and ripped off my underwear and forced it inside me, they took turns, 5 of them JJ. 5 of them..'

JJ shook her head in disbelief, 'And they got you pregnant?' she asked?

'yeah.. I said the baby was Matthews, it was easier then the truth I suppose. I had an abortion, I couldn't bring their child into the world, I was 15, I couldn't give it what it needed and care for it, it was better that way.' replied Emily. She still felt so guilty from that day, she knew it was best deep down.

As painful as this was, she felt better for telling JJ. she kept it in for so long.

'I was coping alright, then we moved and I kept getting these nightmares, re-living it, seeing their faces every time I closed my eyes. Then one day, I was shaving and I accidentally cut the top of my leg, it felt so strange, but it made me feel better, so I did it again, and again and now I'm here. Still doing it. I'm such a mess Jen. Such a mess.' Tears rolled down her face.

'Emily, I am so sorry, I don't know what to say.' JJ said to her friend, tears were streaming down both of their faces.

'Jen, can we keep this between us? I don't to be treated differently by the rest of the team?' Emily asked quietly.

'Em, you know I have to tell Hotch, but we'll wait till the case is over okay' JJ replied.

'Sorry, I know, thank-you JJ.'

JJ pulled her phone out of her pocket to put on charge. 'Jesus Christ Em, its 2:30, we better get some sleep' she said. How much sleep I'm actually going to get is questionable with Emily's snoring.

Emily nodded and got up of JJ's bed, JJ stood too and pulled her into a firm hug. 'it will be okay Em, I promise.' she whispered into her ear.

If they only knew what the next few days would bring...