The Wrong Kind of Glory Part 2
Disclaimer: I do not own anything from Big Time Rush.
Quote of the Day: "Poverty is the mother of crime." Marcus Aurelius (Roman Emperor)
Logan was in his room just thinking about how much he had failed himself over the last few months.
Logan was always the type of person to beat himself up over the little things that he would that he considered major failures to himself rather than minor failures to others.
Little things also made Logan happy like people saying a simple thank you to him.
Most people take for granted these small things, but with a messed up past like Logan's those small things were the ones that really made the difference in your daily life.
While Logan was sulking himself into a void of unhappiness Kendall was busy confronting James.
"James, open the door." Kendall said. "The door is unlocked." James said back.
Kendall was expecting it to be locked since James loved to lock the door when he was pissed or upset, but Kendall went in anyway. "What do you want?" James asked.
"I want you to apologize to Logan today. I know your mad and I don't want you two to interact until you calm down, but I still want you to make things right." Kendall stated.
"And why would I do that?" James questioned.
"Because you yelled at him for no good reason and insulted rather meanly I might add." Kendall replied.
"I don't regret what I said. I spoke the truth Kendall, and you have to accept that." James said simply.
"The truth? James, I think you need to get off your high horse. You made a point; he messed up. I know you care about this BTR thing a lot more than any of us could ever care about. But, it is just a band dude." Kendall said.
"Just a band Kendall? We've devoted two years of our lives to this band and I think that you should at least consider caring about it." James shot back the tension starting to rise.
"James, it is just a band. We are going to end it sometime and then pursue our own careers." Kendall said back.
"At the rate this is going Kendall we shouldn't end it, but rather change it for the better. I think we should kick Logan out of the band." James said reiterating his old point.
"James stop with that nonsense." Kendall said.
"It is not nonsense Logan is like an anchor that is dragging us down and we need to elevate in order to get higher in the ratings and the downloads. Without Logan that is possible and with him it is impossible, so there." James said angrily.
"James, what is going on with you? Don't you care about Logan's feelings? We grew up together; he's one of your best friends. You shouldn't treat him like this." Kendall said raising his voice to match James's tone.
"Kendall, I don't talk to Logan the way you do. I don't associate with him the way you do. And I down right just don't plain give a shit about him. Whoopdiedo, he had a mommy and daddy an issue everyone has had issues Kendall. It's time he got over it." James said back sarcastically.
"Fine James if you want to feel that way go right ahead. But don't insult my younger brother he's been through enough in his life, he doesn't need anymore trauma." Kendall said trailing off at the end.
"Whatever Kendall, you can't do anything about it. I'm going to say what I say when I want to say it!" James exclaimed.
"Cool it James." Kendall said back as he clenched his teeth.
"What're you going to do about it Kendall." James shot back.
Carlos has been watching this thing unfold and knew that it was time to step in before one of the two got injured.
Sometimes James and Kendall were just like two bulls ready to clash horns at any time and that is what worried Carlos at the moment.
"Whoa you two calm down before someone gets hurt." Carlos said getting between the two boys.
"Get out of the way Carlos." Kendall said forcefully.
"No, I don't want you guys fighting. Kendall, think of the example you are setting for Katie. James, if you want to fight him then you're going to have to go through me." Carlos said trying to make them both realize what they are doing.
Kendall and James stop when they realize how stupid they are acting, but they are still fuming at each other.
They each storm off leaving Carlos somewhat happy that they did not brawl right in front of him, but still upset because they are still fighting.
"Go, that guy has some nerve." Kendall said to Katie as he sat down at the kitchen table.
"James is just prissy sometimes you have to get over it. I know you protect Logan like there is no tomorrow, but just give James some time and try to help Logan instead. He needs his big brother right now." Katie said.
"Thanks Katie. You sound like mom." Kendall replied happily as his mood was elevated.
"I do, oh crap not again." Katie said as she scrambled out to find a way to cure her motherliness.
Kendall just went into Logan's room and found him just staring off into space. "Hey Loges." Kendall said.
"Oh hey." Logan said weakly as he snapped out of his bubble of misery.
"I tried to talk to James." Kendall stated. "How'd that go?" Logan asked.
"Not well Logie, not well." Kendall replied.
"Oh well, I expected it." Logan said.
"Logan, you know that James did not mean what he said." Kendall said.
"Then what did he mean with 15 minutes of constant bombardment." Logan questioned.
"James can get upset over things that are out of his control. He just has to realize that people make mistakes, but they will recover from them and get better." Kendall stated using his wisdom with words.
"Kendall, do you think that I have let myself go over the few months?" Logan asked suddenly.
This was a question that Kendall really did not want to answer as it was something that he could end of regretting.
"Well Logan, I don't really care what you do, it is your decision." Kendall said.
"Kendall, just tell me the truth. Am I fat or not?" Logan asked again.
"Not really Logan. But Yes, you have gained weight over the past few months, but who cares. You should just be you because that's all that matters." Kendall said back.
"You don't understand Kendall I have to be good at everything or I'm a failure." Logan stated.
"You're not a failure Logan. You have been through so much in your life and you have come away alive and around people that love you for who you are. You are the bravest person I have ever known." Kendall said pouring his heart out trying to make sure Logan gets through this tough time.
"I appreciate the effort Kendall, but I'm not going to change." Logan replied.
Kendall sighed, "Alright, but just promise me this. That you won't take this weight issue seriously." Kendall pleaded.
"I promise." Logan said, but in the back of his head he knew that he had to take it seriously because if he didn't he would be a failure just like everyone said he was.
Author's Note: Logan is Kendall's adoptive brother just to let you guys know. They adopted him after they took him away from his evil parents. Just to let you guys know. Logan is going through hell inside, so how will it let itself out, stayed tuned for the next chapter. Review if you want.