Adommy: Duet of the Rose

by RainbowSheltie

When Adam died, he had been taken to the Realm of the Dead (Hell) without judgement, but is eventually granted a second chance to choose between life or death (Heaven). The price to return (to the world of the living) is steep, but no sacrifice is too great when it comes to the people you love. Adam Lambert/Tommy Ratliff

3. The Cannot

BETA: TheSupernova

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Chapter 3: The Cannot

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But this is also a story about how I was saved.

In my heart, the only thing that is more powerful than this lasting damnation, is the strength of my love. Through time and space or Heaven and Hell, there is only one name on my lips, one heart beating in tune with mine and the image of one man who will forever walk with me throughout this non-existential eternity I've found myself in.

Even Hell is not powerful enough to suppress that. It has broken me in every way; everything that I once was, am or will be now belongs to the whims of a Master beyond my imagining. My body is not my own; it's a puppet, a toy, a prostitute and a killer. Defiled and ugly; my nightmare and my dream. I am no one and everyone.

I will continue to be turned inside out and devoured whole. I am nothing and everything.

I am.

Only Tommy prevents that last shred of my soul from being consumed by shadows. My soul was a diamond to be chipped away at until nothing but a single shard remains. It's a spark so small, it's become an impossible event; it doesn't exist and by all law and nature and rules of Hell, it is the Never. The dark fears it, because it cannot own it. My spark cannot die, it cannot live, it cannot exist and it cannot leave my body. It is the Cannot.

And it will be the Cannot that will save me.