Hello, here is chapter 3! If you haven't noticed I'm pretty fast updater, but I do have school things to attend to so that comes first so if I don't update it's because I have important things going on. Just as a heads up. Disclaimer, disclaimed.
Sometimes I Hate It Chapter 3: Sometimes I Freak Out
Karkat grumbled yet again awoken by the devastatingly irritating wheezing. He swore as soon as he could stand he'd put the damn derp out of his misery, and then he noticed something different. John was wailing and breathing harder than he should have been, coughing and convulsing at the strain. Murmurs slowly losing their subtly as his mind was summoning far harsher cries. He was obviously having a nightmare, something Karkat was no stranger to. Still, if the kid couldn't even handle laughing too hard what was this doing to him? What should he do? Karkat found himself lost panicking somewhat; he couldn't think he knew he should wake the boy up at the least but it took some times to find his tongue.
"H-hey, dumbass wake up," Karkat said at far too low a decibel to be heard above the pitiful howls. "John," he called softly somewhat flustered at resorting to the other's name so quickly, a silly intimacy to be embarrassed over he decided, he'd call the jerk's name all goddamn day if he wanted. "John, shut up and wake up already," he said loudly. The other continued unaffected.
"No," John whimpered. This pissed Karkat off even though he knew it wasn't directed at him or his commands.
"JOHN, WAKE YOUR FAGGOTY ASS RIGHT THE FUCK UP! I SWEAR I WILL TEAR INTO YOU SO HARD IN THE MORNING IF YOU DON'T WAKE UP, THAT EVEN STITCHES WON'T HELP YOU!" John stirred, Karkat smirked. Now they were getting somewhere. "THAT'S IT DICK HEAD, TRY AS YOU MAY TO ESCAPE ME I AM RIGHT HERE AND I WILL FUCK YOUR SHIT UP. SO HELP ME GOD IF I'M NOT IN PRISON TOMORROW AFTER I FONDLE YOUR PUNY ESPHOGAS WITH A ROCK THE SIZE OF FLORIDA," That out to do it.
"Hah," John wheezed out eyes bursting open as he shivered into the surrounding darkness. He panicked and cried out, "NO, I DON'T WANT TO DIE!" His voice cracked hoarsely resembling the way loud static interference affected a peaceful melody. He covered his face with his hands, clawing for the life that had disappeared in the blackness. Karkat was taken aback, completely unhinged at a display he couldn't even see and somehow that made it worse. Heart racing, and the terror infectious, Karkat called out to John again almost pleading.
"YOU'RE OKAY! YOU'RE RIGHT HERE, IN THIS ROOM!" John paused. Karkat? The hospital. That's where he was, he remembered. He slowly let his hands fall to his side, breathing restlessly. His body was wet and burning, he felt choked like his whole chest was being crushed and torn all at once.
"Karkat? Karkat!" He rasped, horror receding and returning as waves.
"Yes idiot, be quiet now," Karkat whispered, a bit awestruck.
"The black, the black!" John whimpered, Karkat felt embarrassed to witness such a raw display of pure fear. It felt like something he shouldn't be privy to and something entirely human that he wondered if the insanity was so easy catch. He stopped thinking, unease filling him at the idea that the human conscience could be easily pushed. He reached for mutual light mounted on the wall between them flicking it on, suddenly uncomfortable in the shadows. John's wide-eyed and blood-colored face frightened the messy haired boy more than he like to admit, he couldn't tear his eyes away either; control slowly slipping away.
"You are fine." Karkat said slowly to the air. John looked at him in the dim light, once again shoving his hand into the space between them. Karkat, once again squeezed the hand this time looking away as embarrassment took over as the chief emotion, which he was at the moment okay with. "It's okay. Dork," Karkat added and John seemed to respond to him the shaking waning. Fifteen minutes flowed and John began to feel ashamed and childish.
"I'm sorry," he whispered and slipped his hand back, cradling it.
"I don't mind, just don't freak out. You are right here, even though I shouldn't even have to say it," Karkat stared at John, feeling hesitation in the idea that he wasn't going to start writhing in his personal oblivion again. He was having a hard time conversing his typical way and he felt his skin crawl with his stuttering. He wanted to spit and hiss, but the tension had forced his hand; he couldn't find the voice. "You should tell the doctor," Karkat said feeling around for his buzzer.
"No!" John frowned heavily "I don't want them to know, they'll tell my dad and then I might be here longer and he'll worry. He'll try to miss work and we can't afford that!"
"You could have seriously fucked up your insides with all that shit, you need tell them or you will be here longer. Besides you probably need, like mental counseling or some shit," Karkat said with a furrowed brow.
"No! NO! I'm fine, I just had a nightmare. Please, don't say anything!" John begged forcing his voice to stop sounding rough, while trying to control his breathing made him feel light-headed.
"Don't be a jack-ass, just let them take a look at you," Karkat said but wavered hitting the button.
"Please Karkat, I'm okay. I promise, just don't," John's eyes shook.
"grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrra GHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! FINE!" Karkat threw the buzzer down against his better judgment. "ONE FUCKING CHIRPY ASS PEEP FROM YOU AND I'M CALLING THEM!" Karkat pointed a finger at the nodding boy.
"Thanks Karkat, I'll be quiet," John said smiling, adjusting the sheets. Of course that'd be because he wasn't going to go sleep.
"I mean it Egbert," Karkat felt suspicious but laid down and closed his eyes, he probably wouldn't go to sleep just yet to be safe.
"Goodnight," John said grinning. Neither turned off the light between them.
Karkat hissed at the bright light coming through the window, he hadn't slept well. Again. He looked over at his roommate and noticed his eyes drooping as well. He adorned his typical scowl ready to face the fucking day.
"Hey fuck face, you didn't sleep did you?" Karkat hadn't heard one single wheeze the whole night, something was up.
"Yes I did sleep," John said rolling his eyes, trying to be convincing. He almost bit his lip but he knew that was his biggest tell from experience so he was able to stop himself.
"Bullshit, you're breezy ass is busted there is no way I slept that long and didn't hear you," The darker –skinned boy narrowed his eyes, noticing John lick his lip. He fucking knew it. "Give me one good reason I shouldn't rat you out?"
"Because, please?" Karkat stared incredulously. "Because uh- oh look a distraction," John said flinging his phone while Karkat actually looked the way he had pointed at the wall. Idiot.
"WHAT THE FUCK!"
"You can use my phone anytime you want if you don't tell, I noticed you didn't have one and you must want to tell someone you're okay," John stared as he watched Karkat pause mid-rant. He raised one side of his lip, looking at the phone considering. He had been dying for one, for days.
"FINE." He huffed and logged onto his guild's chat almost immediately. Egbert had him cornered. He pretended he didn't see that smirk.
carcinoGeneticist opened a guild memo- 612 Alternia-:
CG: HEY FUCK HEADS DON'T THINK BECAUSE I WASN'T ONLINE, YOU'RE FREE TO DO WHATEVER YOU WANT! I AM IN THE HOSPITAL, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M SLACKING OFF! I SEE WHO WAS TAKING A FUCKING VACATION AND BELIEVE ME YOU'RE ABOUT TO BE DOING PUSH UPS ONA MOUNTAIN OF GRAVEL AND SANDPAPER UNTIL YOUR ANUS BURSTS FROM THE ATTENTION ITS GOING TO BE GETTING FROM THE SHAME-FAME I'M ABOUT RAIN DOWN ON YOU!
grimAuxiliatrix began responding to memo:
GA: I Assume You're Current Condition is Due To The Accident That Has Been On The News Recently Are You Alright? I Must Admit I've Been Trying To Contact You Since School Started And Your Absence Became Prolonged And Apparent To Even The Most Absent Minded Of Us.
CG: YEAH I'M FINE, I'LL BE BACK SOON. IF I SURVIVE THE BRAIN HEMMORRAGE THAT HIS MY ROOMATE, BUT I GUESS I'M IN THE BEST PLACE FOR MY BRAIN TO RAGE QUIT ALL OVER ITSELF AND SQUIRT SLUDGE OUT MY EARS.
GA: It's Interesting That You Mention A Roommate Issue, My Acquaintance Also Alluded To A Friend Experiencing Similar Boarding Issues.
gallowsCalibrator began responding to memo:
GC: OH OUR F34RL3SS L34D3R HAS B33N 1NC4PC1T4T3D, LOOKS LIK3 1TS T1M3 FOR ON3 OF 4R4D14'S CORPS3 P4RT13S!
CG: SHUT THE FUCK UP I AM SERIOUSLY INJURED HERE! DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH MY CHARACTER WHILE I'M GONE, I SWEAR IF I COME BACK AND I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FUCKING SPACE AGAIN I WILL BAN ALL OF YOU!
GC: 1F YOU B4N 4LL OF US TH3R3 WON'T B3 A GU1LD STU1P1D! :D B3S1D3S 1 TH1NK YOU'R3 4V4T4R SM3LLS SO GOOD WH3N H3 TURNS TH4T R3D COLOR! OH! OH! 1 B3T YOU SM3LL GOOD WITH 4LL YOUR BOOBOOS YOU SHOULD L3T M3 T4KE CAR3 OF YOU!
CG: HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO BE THE CREEPIEST IN SITUATIONS WHERE THAT SHOULDN'T BE POSSIBLE LET ALONE APPROPRIATE? I MEAN REALLY I'M ON MY DEATH BED AND YOU'RE JIZZING YOUR NOSEGASM ALL OVER ME LIKE IT'S THE FUCKING NATIONAL PASSTIME AT A FUCKING FREAKY BLIND SMELLING PERVERT PARADE.
terminallyCapricious began responding to memo:
TC: Oh MoThErFuCk No! BeSt FrIeNd ArE yOu OkAy, DoN't WoRrY bRo I'lL bE tHeRe BeFoRe YoU kNoW iT. hOnK :o( dOn'T gO mOtHeRfUcKiNg DyInG oN mE.
CG: I'M NOT ACTUALLY DYING YOU IDIOT, YOU DON'T NEED TO BOTHER COMING TO THIS GERM INFESTED SMELL HOLE.
TC: dOn'T wOrRy I'm On My MoThErF-iNg WaY. ;o)
terminallyCapricious has stopped responding to the memo.
CG: NO YOU INTOXICATED IDIOT! UGH!
twinArmageddons began responding to memo:
TA: oh man kk are you ok. that acciident looked pretty bad. hey can you bring me my cd when you come back? You know when you're better
arachnidsGrip began responding to memo:
AG: So, since you're clearly too 8usy healing from your already 8unched up your ass panties surgery, I will 8e taking over as leader for you. As I'm clearly the only person capa8le person for the jo8.
CG: FUCK. YOU. BOTH. YOU KNOW WHAT SINCE YOU ALL THINK THIS SITUATION IS SO FUCKING PISS-YOUR-DIAPERS-FOR BABIES FUNNY I'M MAKING ERIDAN TEMPORARY LEADER.
GA: I Think You Are Being A Bit Unfair Not To Mention Rash.
TA: seriiously kk wtf
AG: No! Y8u Can't 8e Serious!
caligulasAquarium began responding to memo:
CA: a wwise choice for once I wwill exceed your farthest expectations as your replacement.
CG: AHAH! SO YOU FUCKS ARE PAYING ATTENTION NOW AREN'T YOU! AND DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT GETTING TOO COMFORTABLE YOU PHILANDERING FISH FUCK, I'LL BE BACK BEFORE YOU KNOW IT.
CG: I HAVE TO GO; THIS DOUCHE WANTS HIS PHONE BACK. DON'T THINK I WON'T BE BACK TO CHECK UP ON YOU ASSHATS. HAVE FUN~ HAHAHHAH!
carcinoGeneticist stopped responding to memo.
Karkat's smirk soon turned to a sigh when he remembered Gamzee was making his high ass across town right now just to check on him. He definitely didn't want to explain him to John and a bunch of scared-shitless nurses.
"Hey my friend is going to be here later, just a warning he's pretty weird but don't say anything or I'll punch you in the face," Karkat said quickly, folding his arms defensively. He threw John's phone back to him who had asked for it when it buzzed from a text he'd received.
"Oh cool! What's his name?" John said wondering what kind of person Karkat's friend would be, he couldn't quite get a full picture.
"Gamzee," Karkat found himself more nervous with John's curiosity. John was about to respond when the door flew inward making both boys turn startled.