A/N: Thanks for the reviews! So here is the next chapter. Hope you enjoy it.
Dani walked into the infirmary to get Dean's cold medicine. It had only been two weeks since they had come to Atlantis and Dean already had a cold, which made Dani's job a little harder. She had barely spoken to John, but Sam seemed to be settling in nicely. But she wasn't worried about Sam; it was her son she was more worried about. She noticed how attached Dean was getting to John, which melted her heart, but at the same time it broke it. After all she was always the one constant thing in Dean's life, but she couldn't deny John or Dean the right to bond.
"Hey, doc. Do you have Dean's cold medicine?" Dani asked after walking up to the doctor.
"Hi, Dani. Yes, I have it right here." Doctor Jennifer Keller said.
"Thanks. See you later." Dani said before leaving the infirmary.
"Dani, how do you feel?" Teyla asked as they met for breakfast, for the third time this week.
"Like a whale. But the babies are doing fine. How is everything with you?" Dani asked as they walked to the Mess.
"Things are well. Are you planning on leaving before the births of your children?" Teyla asked.
"I'm not sure. Daniel and T will want to be at the birth which means I will have to make a decision soon on what I will be doing." Dani said as she took a drink of her water.
"Your Earth friends worry for you?" Teyla asked.
"Sometimes. They just worry that something will happen and that I will have no one to turn to. But I have Sam, I have you. I have friends here. And maybe John would be there for me as well." Dani said honestly.
"Colonel Sheppard worries for your health and that of your children." Teyla told her.
"He does?" Dani asked surprised.
"Yes. Have you not talked to him?" Teyla asked as Rodney sat with them with his big tray of food.
"Not very much. He's been spending a lot of time with Dean, so I have been getting into my work." Dani said honestly.
"Sheppard really loves that kid." Rodney said.
"It is his son, Rodney." Dani said.
"I know that, but the kid seems to be a lot smarter then the average two year old." Rodney said.
"Dean takes after Jack. But his father is also a very intelligent man, otherwise he wouldn't be here. I'll see you tonight Teyla." Dani said as she got up and left. Her breakfast was only half eaten.
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"You two have fun?" Dani asked as she came into John's quarters.
"Yeah, we had a lot of fun. How are you doing?" John asked her.
"I'm just tired. But I didn't feel like making two trips just to pick him up, so I figured I would come and get him now." Dani said as she yawned.
"He has a lot of energy." John stated.
"I wish he would share it with me." Dani said with a small smile.
"You don't look like you are going to be able to stay awake long enough to watch him." John stated.
"Excuse me? I'll have you know I have been up with him every day and every night. It is hard, especially since I am carrying twins this time and it hurts me a lot, to see you and not be able to talk like we used to." Dani said.
"I know. We have both made a lot of mistakes, but I am sorry for what I said and suggested. Why don't you go and lay down for a little while and Dean and I will continue to hang out here." John said taking her hand in his.
"You have had him all day, you have to be tired." Dani said as she yawned again.
"I took a nap earlier with him. Go on. We'll wake you for dinner in a little while." John said.
"Ok." Dani said as she gave in and let him lead her to his bed so that she could rest.
"If McKay radios for me-"Dani started.
"Wake you up, I know." John said.
"I was going to say shoot him for me." Dani said as she lay down on the bed.
"I will." John said as he took off her radio and let her sleep.
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"So he's sleeping?" John asked as Dani came back out from the room where Dean slept.
"Out like a light." Dani said with a smile.
"That is good. He sure does have a lot of energy." John said as Dani sat at her computer desk.
"He does. Can you sit down? I want to talk to you about something." Dani asked him.
"What's going on?" John asked as he plopped down on her bed.
"I want to know something." Dani said looking at him. "What happened to us, John?"
"What do you mean?" John asked as they both took their ear pieces out so they wouldn't be interrupted.
"Why are we like this? We used to be so close. Before we got married, after I had Dean, then before I knew I was pregnant. And then after Carson was killed, it was like it went downhill. It was like you didn't want anything to do with me anymore and I guess I might have taken it the wrong way and just stayed on earth, but can you blame me, honestly?" Dani asked him as her eyes started to water.
"Dani, please don't start to cry." John said as he sat up.
"I have the right to cry. Can you please just answer the question, John?" Dani asked him.
"I left; we never knew what the other one did. We were supposed to be honest and be there for one another till death do us part, remember? We didn't do that." John told her as he ran a hand through his hair.
"We were never perfect while we dated, why would you think we would be when we got married? How was I supposed to tell you about what I did? It was classified, you didn't have the clearance. I would have told you if I could have, you know that. You didn't have to see the things that I saw. I thought you were the lucky one." Dani told him.
"My wife was keeping secrets from me. How is that lucky? Tell me, how was I lucky?" John asked as he started to raise his voice.
"Keep your voice down and tone in check, John. You remember my friend Simon Wells? And Janet Frasier? I watch along with Daniel as she died. He lived, but she didn't. I couldn't talk to you about it and I wasn't about to go and see a shrink when you would get paranoid about it. I was hurting John and the one person I wanted to go to I couldn't. Do you know how much that hurt?" Dani asked him.
"I have seen my fair share of horrors as well Dani." John said.
"I couldn't save her. I went to school to be a doctor, I trained with the damn Air Force, and none of it mattered. I watched her die. How was I supposed to react to that? I wanted so bad to tell you, but you should understand the classified part. You have had enough missions that were classified, before you got to come here." Dani said as she put a hand on her stomach.
"I never stopped loving you." John said quietly.
"You never let me know. You were pulling away from me. How was I to know that I wasn't the only one hurting? I am not saying neither of us was right, because we weren't, we will always be us, but that is okay with me. I don't want Dean and the twins to grow up with parents that hate each other. Well one parent that hates the other. So this is what I will do. I want to be with you John, but if you don't want me and your kids here, then Dean and myself will go back to Earth and I will see my attorney and get the divorce papers signed and I will have them sent here. I think that is fair. I will let you think on it as well. But if you don't mind I am going to get ready for bed." Dani said holding back her tears at least until John had left with his radio, heaven knows he can't go anywhere without it.
"I guess I will let you know." John said as he left, and after he did, Dani sat on her bed and just cried.
A/N: Another chapter done! YAY! Review please!!!!