A/N : Hi guys! Sorry I've made you wait so long :/.

Anyway, thank you so much for your lovely reviews, and here's the new chapter!:)

*BIP BIP BIP BIP BIP*

The sound of the of Serena's heartbeats, amplified by the tensionmeter, was the only thing breaking the silence of the hospital room. Dan was sitting next to the bed, staring at the girl asleep in it. Serena's hair was spilt all over the pillow, igniting her still very pale face.

Dan had been here all night, waiting, for God only knows what. Serena obviously didn't need him when sleeping, but something was keeping him from leaving. After saying goodnight to her the night before, he reached the door, then turned back. He just couldn't let her there, alone. He needed to be close to her. Especially after what had happened.

After the phone call, Nate and Dan had rushed to the hospital, nearly had four car crashes, and finally arrived. Then the woman in white had come meeting them, and had told them everything.

How Lily, Serena's mum, had found her lying on the floor, unconscious. How she first thought of an accident due to drugs, but quickly realized the truth when sawing her daughter's blood pouring out of her wrist. Lily called to ger help, wondering how did she find herself in this nightmare, praying, crying, crying her heart out. The ambulance arrived just in time. As the doctor had said, 'five more minutes and it was over'. Over.

Now, they were sure Serena was safe and sound. She was going to recover and be helped. So why Dan still had tears streaming down his face ? Shouldn't he feel so much better, now ?

Serena opened her eyes. Dan instantly came and took her hand in his.
'Dan..' she dryed his tears away. 'Dan, it's over now. I'm alright. I'll be alright'
'I know right, I know..' he closed his eyes for a second.

'I'm so sorry Serena. It's all my fault. I shouldn't have told you those awful things. I feel so guilty, I hate myself more than..' Tears filled his eyes again.

'I'm the one needed to apologize Dan.'
'For what ? For not willing to live your life without me in it ? You have nothing to be sorry for.'
'Still I am. I had no right to hurt you all that way'. And suddenly, she gave up trying to look strong, and bursted in tears. 'And you know the worst thing about this ? It's that I would to it all again. Strangely, commiting suicide doesn't make you feel better at all. I WISH I WAS DEAD, DAN !'

Dan grabbed her chin and look at her deeply in the eyes. 'Don't you dare thinking that things would be better if you were dead. Think about me Serena. We may not be dating anymore, but you are a part of me. I will love you forever. Forever. If you had succeed at killing yourself, where do you think I'd be now ? Having dinner with my new girl ? I'd be laying on my room floor, under all the drugs you can imagine, trying to think it never happened. I' be 'aneanti'. I'd be half-alive. I'd be willing to be dead. You were my first love Serena.'
Serena rested her head on his shoulder. 'I'll keep that in mind.'
Dan stroked her hair. 'And imagining my world without you in it made me realise than I actually care about you way more than I thought. I'll be there for you, counting from today. I promise.'
'I guess it's way better than a post-suicide commitment day looked like to me.' she left out a giggle. 'Thank you'

The door opened and Lily walked in, followed by Eric.
'I'll let you with your family, okay ? I'll come and visit tomorrow, I promise.'
He kissed her forehead, said hi to Lily, shook hands with Eric, and left.

What do you thing about this chapter/fanfic? Good, bad ? Let me know :). I'll post the next chapter in the following days(maybe tomorow), have a good weekend xoxo