I can't believe I did that. I can't believe I lied to him about something so- huge. And got away with it. What the hell was I thinking?! He knows me, he will know over time that I'm hiding something… and then, when the guilt takes over me, when it's time, to tell the truth… God I don't even wanna think about what Eddie will do. Or what he'll say. Or how he will give me that disappointed look of his, the one that makes anyone cringe who is in the same room as him.
Someone shoot me now.
Walking down the gloomy hospital corridor, Janet was shaking. Her body was literally shaking by itself because of what she did to the most fantastic man in the world. The whole story of not wanting to go to Hannah and Ray's engagement party was bull shit. Yeah, she was a little disappointed that Hannah was still with Ray, let alone going through with the marriage, but like Eddie said, she supported her friend because she loved her. It was the first thing to pop in her head when Eddie asked what she wanted to tell him, so she just went along with it. There was no way in hell that she could tell him the truth about how she screwed up their relationship. Not yet anyway. She needed to deal with Rooster first.
Janet hated Rooster now, hated. In her eyes, he doesn't even deserve to be given the chance to see the light of day. Since homecoming weekend, when Eddie declared his feelings for her in front of everyone, Rooster was convinced that Eddie was just using her and tried to convince Janet as well. From that moment till now, Rooster never acted like a true friend towards her. He did not support anything when it came to Janet and Eddie; a true friend would support you and be happy for you that you finally have that special someone. Guess Rooster wasn't such a great friend like Janet thought after all.
Ever since they were kids, Janet and Rooster hit it off well. Being the outsiders growing up, they had a special bond like no one else. It was like they were born to be friends; but certainly not lovers. They helped each other through hard times and pushed one another to reach their goals. But Rooster did not push Janet towards Eddie, if anything; he tried to push them away. Not only by saying that Eddie was using her, but by bringing up high school… talking about all of Eddie's former girlfriends/bed buddies... not to mention the non-stop gossip about Rory when she came back in town.
"Eddie Latekka only does two things to women Janet, number one: he sleeps with them. Number two: he throws them away like the afternoon trash. You are not trash. You deserve better." Blah blah blah.
Yes Eddie has a history, but who doesn't? Janet saw Eddie for years hanging at Sully's, night after night, picking his next girl to bed. She quickly became aware of his game: the sweet talk vs. the aggressive talk, ordering beer vs. shots, cologne vs. no cologne. One thing that never changed throughout those nights- his smile. Sure he had a smile that would make any girl who had eyes melt, but it was fake. So obvious sometimes, Janet was sure that eventually, one of his "lady friends" would notice the pretendingness to it. Yet, they never did.
And now, when Eddie smiles at her… it definitely is not that fake smile. He never was or had to pretend with her, she was different. And on numerous occasions Eddie made sure that knew it too.
As for Rooster, he did not understand. And he certainly did not try to push her back towards Eddie that night. No, Rooster took advantage that night. Janet only called Rooster in the first place because she thought he was working at Sully's and could bring by some hard liquor. She would have gone to Sully's herself, but she was not exactly in the best mood, so to speak.
By the time he showed up at her house, she had already been crying non-stop for a half hour. Rooster was there, comforting her, saying all the right things, making her feel wanted again. It kind of reminded her of the old times... But they only reason Janet and Rooster had sex was because she was heartbroken and drunk; neither of which pertained to Rooster. Okay, yes, she kissed him first, but he did not pull away. Knowing full well Janet belonged to another man, he slept with her anyway. He was not drunk, he was not hearbroken, and he was tired of being jealous. He wanted Janet back, all to himself. But for what? To prove to everyone, including himself, that he could get the girl? To have something in common with Eddie Latekka? Or did Rooster actually think that Janet would choose him over Eddie…
Just the thought of being with Rooster, like actually having a relationship with him, made her want to throw up green vomit.
Before she knew it, Janet was outside the hospital doors; the bright spring sunshine hit her skin and made her relax a bit. She let out a sigh, headed to her Jeep and was off to her best friend's engagement party. Dealing with Rooster would have to wait till later.