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Chapter Three
Insanity
By Cindra
A/N: Now you get to see Jake's side of things, as he finally arrives home after six long years away. It's been years since Jake's pulled the Alpha card with the younger set of his pack, so a summons doesn't necessarily mean that they instantly shift forms and go to his side. The three of them have developed stubborn, independent, persona's. But the do respond using their means of communication in spades.
FYI- Billy and Lily have a five-year-old daughter, Sara Lily Greywolf-Black.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything except the characters and story line that I created. This has turned into an obsession of mine. You could say that the story sings for me now.
:: Telepathic communication
** or italic is character thought
La Push, WA
(Jake's arrival an hour before it all hit the fan. A little off order wise but that's how it came out when I was writing it.)
Jake had never been so happy to see the Rez in his life. The smell of the waves crashing against the rocks stung his desynthesized nose as he parked in front of his parents' home.
Ranger. One of Rad and Lady's kids rounded the backyard and straight for him with his charge on his back. The pup of two years was the size of a small Shetland pony, so the little pint sized five-year-old bundle of energy stayed seated on his massive back.
Sara Lily Greywolf-Black had been a welcome addition and joy to Billy and Lily's lives.
"Jakey!" Sara's blue-grey eyes lit up with glee and she leaped from Ranger into her big brother's arms.
"You're getting so big." He cuddled her close, laughing when she scooted around to his back and scrambled up onto his shoulders. "I missed you so much, little bug." He kissed her tiny fingers.
"Missed you more," She kissed his cheek. "Nessie misses Jakey too. She sad. Big brother stay now. No go away long time again."
"Yeah, I know, little bug, but I'm back to stay now. I'll make things better. Promise." He swung her upside down and blew raspberries on her belly, making her squeal in delight.
"Sara Lily Black, what part of bath time did you not…" Billy stepped outside in search of his baby girl. "Jake! Welcome home, son. We weren't expecting you for a few more weeks." His face broke out in a surprised, but happy smile.
"I didn't want a big homecoming deal, so I changed my schedule. I'm still getting used to the new title on the end of my name. Doctor of Veterinary Medicine doesn't seem real to me yet." He grinned at his father when he rolled his eyes at him.
"Hey, I'm not the cap and gown kind of guy or into giving speeches, so I bailed on the whole pomp en circumstance and graduated a month early. I'm not gonna miss taking Renesmee to the Prom."
"Renesmee's under House Arrest for…"
"Nessie gots in big, big, trouble…"
"Cutting class. Blackmailing Bells into helping her. Stealing the Zagato. Yeah, I know. It was me she came to see. She's been leashed and has told me all about it using every means technologically possible when Edward and Bella are reining in the boys. It's not like she hasn't already graduated, but jacking Edward's Special Edition Aston and blowing off class every Friday for a little over a month was bound to have it's repercussions…like the two of us being estranged from each other on and off these past years…" He locked eyes with his father.
"Don't even go there with me, Kid. That's your puzzle to solve. I'm staying clear of it." He plucked Sara out of Jake's arms and headed inside.
"C'mon, Dad! I'm walking on razor blades here!" Jake stalked after him.
"Well, you should be! That female fan club of yours has Ness tied up in knots." He shot back as he took the stairs two at a time.
:Dad, I'm not cheating on her! She's it for me! I'm broken, alright! I can't respond to any other female except for her! I can't help it of the Alpha in me drives females crazy! And they sure as hell are not my fan club, try stalkerratzi! They never give up, nothing deters them! Not even Dori's full proof plan, at least not the cut throat ones of their cult..: His face flushed crimson under his bronze skin. It didn't take Billy long to fill in the rest of the blanks.
"You didn't!? Jake, it couldn't have been that bad!" Billy threw back his head, roaring with laughter.
:Dad! It's not funny! I was being attacked wherever I went by crazy, hormonal, females! No to them means come and jump me!: Jake snarled darkly. "Desperate times, Dad…"
"Did Nessie see any of these, uh…" Billy handed Sara to Lily.
Lily stood in the bathroom doorway, curious as to what was going on.
:Fill ya in later, hon. Jake and I need to have a father/son talk…that, uh, packet that we thought was a mistake on support groups and reassurances that WSU was a safe campus with a strict policy on supporting everyone's rights and all that Fall of his second year at WSU wasn't entirely that far off the mark…:
"I see…so you were that desperate were you…" Lily's lips twitched, eyes dancing with mirth, yet she remained serene. "Welcome home, Jake. I assure you that we will endeavor to keep those who are…causing you such duress… at bay and such drastic measures will no longer be necessary." She walked over and kissed his cheek.
"Look, yeah, it was desperate, but I need a deterrent that was full proof and it worked…" Jake shot her a desperate look, anything to change the subject. "So, can I crash here or what?"
"Wouldn't you prefer your own place?"
"Yeah, the, uh, garage apartment at Castle Cullen, nope not gonna happen. The Den's out too. It's now teen central …"
"I meant your new place. They finished it last week. Two weeks ahead of schedule." Billy fished a set of keys out of his pocket.
"My place…you mean…"
"Yep, Esme and Lil's had Tyler design ya a new den. The site is one of your favorites, only now you'll have a roof over your head while you brood." He tossed him the keys.
"I've always wanted a place there, but it was only a dream. I never said anything…how did you even…" Jake was speechless, touched beyond measure as he stared down at the keys in his shaking hands.
"Renesmee wanted you to have your own private lair to come home to, a place away from everyone, where you could do as you pleased without being under constant watch from the family." Lily smiled.
"She calls it your 'Fortress of Solitude' it's a cliff side design all redwood, stone, and glass, as is the family tradition. You've got a front row seat to watch the storms roll in from your back deck. Ness had a major hand in the build, nothing but the best for her Paris. It's really something to see…" Billy gave his shoulder a reassuring squeeze.
"She created a Bachelor Pad for me, because she thinks I've moved on with someone else?!" Jake ground out through clinched teeth, his eyes darkening to midnight. "Is that what all of you believe too?!" His shaking hands shoved the keys into his jacket pocket.
"Nessie loves Jakey. She say so lots. Wants Jakey be happy. All that matters. She patient. She waits. They no ever like she be." Sara was all too aware of what shaking meant. Change.
"No confidence at all that the reason I busted my butt for six years was for her! I had to resort to…No! Dori started that bombshell by telling my stalkers that it was pointless to even try and catch my eye. I played for a whole other team and that was just to get them to back off! The Alpha curse gives off a pheromone that attracts them like bees to honey! That and Lycan's a piece of work and set his sights on Ness and me! That's beside the point! I used the guys as buffers between us because she Sing's for me! Ever since she sent me that sign…the I don't know Dark Jacob side of me isn't reined in anymore and she's Ness. I need those fail-safe around us to keep that side of me leashed after being dormant for nearly ten years!" He needed to go cool off before he phased right there in the upstairs hallway. He didn't wanna trash his parents' house or terrify his baby sister, so he stalked down the hall, vaulted over the railing, and stormed out the front door.
"She's like Bells! I'll go fricking insane trying to battle her inferiority, low self-esteem complexes!" He roared up at the sky.
*My god! She made Angelina Jolie look like a hag and didn't even have a clue that she was Perfect just as clueless and naïve as like Leeloo, in that classic The Fifth Element!*
He glowered darkly at the forest. Now that his goal was met and he was home to stay, all he'd wanted to do was focus on slowly getting Ness acclimated to this next phase of their relationship. Test the waters, see if she was ready or not. That had been the plan, now he felt like taking off and brooding for a month.
No trust. Zero confidence in him not to stray. No belief in the unbreakable soul bond that they shared. She was it for him and kissing anyone else left a repulsive taste in his mouth. Lidia was the worst of the bunch and he knew what her game was now. The thing was that Ness always fled the scene before he could give her his side of the story that was until a few days ago when she nearly opened up her feelings to him.
He kicked off his sneakers. Pulled off his sweatshirt, a gift from his princess last spring, tossed that into the front seat of his Jag, along with his watch, and the promise bracelet that Ness had made him before he left for WSU.
Her music had darker tones, but then she drew off of life experiences when she wrote. He'd figured the tone of her music mirrored her true feelings about being apart from him. That had been his guess and he hadn't been off by much on that score.
She was like her parents, a master at hiding her feelings. She could be miserable on the inside, yet convey a bubbling, happy, teenager to everyone around her. Her mask was flawless. She was a premiere actor, going through the motions as if everything was fine when she was screaming inside.
He knew. Hell, he'd put on an act for six years, not that he regretted his choices. They'd made him a better man. Taught him focus, discipline, the experience had been good for him.
It was maddening that she thought he could ever have feelings for anyone, but her.
"Yeah, right, I might as well been a unic."
No one stirred his blood except for his Renesmee.
The rest of his clothes followed and were tossed into his car. In less time than it takes to blink he had phased into his favored form. The russet wolf and was running full burn across the yard and into the forest, howls echoing for miles.
His brothers were overseeing the move, leaving the youngest members of his pack to respond to his emotional meltdown.
Collin, Lori, Brady, Matt, and Gabe were all surfing. Lacy and Lucy were stuck inside finishing off a paper that they'd been putting off for weeks. It was either finish or no Prom. Matt and Gabe had finished it weeks ago, being on Team Lonewolf-Storm meant maintaining a high GPA for all the boys.
"Sucks to be you, Buddy." Matt loaded up his board in back of his Ford Edge. "We gotta bail, later."
"That doesn't sound like a happy welcome home to me. He sounds pissed." Gabe tossed his into the back of his Ford Escape. "Collin, we promise to visit you in the ICU."
The Weber twins beat a hasty retreat towards home.
"Yeah, we kissed…it was when Blake and Camilla were slithering around…it's not like it meant anything… Ness and I are best friends. We look out for each other. It's never bugged big brother before. Nah, this is all about her not trusting him." Collin shrugged it off as if Jake's fury were no big deal.
"The two of them have been circling around each other for eternity. Like one endless Gift of the Magi episode." Lori rolled her eyes. "He had Lidia that cancels that little incident at The Wanted concert out."
"Each wants the other to be happy and so the endless cycle of self sacrifice." Brady had his arms around Lori's waist and his chin on her head. "Brilliant as always, babe."
Jake howled again this time it was an order. He wanted details and he wasn't above pulling rank to do it. :Front and center! Now! Playtime has been canceled!:
:Grow up, Jacob! Nessie and Collin share a strictly platonic relationship. It's all an act for the public eye and means of deterring prats like the Blakes!: Lori narrowed her eyes to slits and gave him a taste of what she and Ness had seen involving him and other Co-ed's.
:None of that was my fault, baby sister! Ness never stuck around long enough to let me explain my side! The Alpha gene attracts females like a pheromone! It's part of my genetics! I can't turn it off! If you don't believe me then go ahead see for yourselves! I took drastic measures to scare them off! It worked for the majority of them, but there were three of Shining One origin that would not take the hint!: Jake focused on reining in his temper. Collin had kissed Renesmee or she had kissed him because of the Douche and his sister pursing them while they'd been at a concert. It hadn't been pleasant for either of them, but the Blakes had given up the hunt at least in the States.
:So that was the big secret?! Why didn't you tell Ness or the rest of us?!: Collin's own temper was on the rise.
:Yes! It would have made everything so much easier! She wouldn't have been so recklessly wild…!: Lori was fuming mad at Jake for keeping them in the dark.
:Leaving us out was cold, Jacob. All it did was make you and Ness miserable going on six years. You focused on school while Nessie channeled her darker side: Brady growled darkly.
:Recklessly wild my ass! Being pissed at me I get! Going and doing a mind meld with Lycan crosses the line into insanity! You knew what she'd gotten from Blake's head and you didn't give anyone the heads up?! Our family there all calls Paris home base or did while you were living there to keep an eye on you! To protect you! Because Europe is Lycan Central! You knew he was meeting Lycan! The worst big bad on the planet and still you followed the Douche bag!?: Jake's fury was off the scales as he prowled the woods on the way to Edward and Bella's place.
:Stop Dark Renesmee? Not bloody likely. Back her up, make sure she followed her original plan, yes, but nothing stops her when she's on a tear about something or someone. She's too much like her parents. It scared us both out of our minds, but it changed her attitude about you. To me it was high time she pursued what was hers. It changed right after her mental chat with Lycan. She got your goodie box and viewed everything on that video camera a zillion times on her Tablet, laptop, smart phone, any and all devices that could play it. It was like a whole new Nessie. We got to truly enjoy ourselves like the trip to the UK. She had those souvenirs personally designed just for you while we were staying there. We searched all over the EU collecting goodies to send to you and everyone back home.: Lori growled back in her defense.
:Yeah, well, I was gonna surprise her during Spring Breaks, but always got sidelined by a lab, apprenticeship, or assignment for class. Squeezing eight years into six was a bitch. Zero free time. No time for fun. Becoming a Vet, especially one that specializes in more than one field is hell. It threw me completely when she changed directions in what she wanted to do career wise, but I was supportive when she focused on the arts with a vengeance, leaving her family and strong circle of friends in her wake. Lori lucked out. She's as much of a virtuoso as Nessie, so she got to see her everyday. Watch her evolve into this complex, independent, stunning, charismatic, young woman. You have no idea how much I've envied you over these past six years…: Jake was back in his human form pacing the forest a stones throw away from Bella and Edward's place. He was wearing jeans. Thanks to a delivery from Tosh, Esme and Carlisle's pup, with a note from Alice and Rose ordering him to cool it or they'd dismantle his wheels. Not the Zagato, his Jag the car that he'd rebuilt himself. It was priceless to him.
:Six years of critical acclaim and misery. You checked out first by being the gentleman and humoring your harem instead of sending out a flare for reinforcements. Better yet, Indian tribes have arranged marriages all the time. You could have arranged marriages all the time. You could have used that tactic. You were taken and when Nessie visited she could have been seen as your betrothed. Problem solved. They would have moved on, Nessie would have been less like big sister was after big brother fled the scene and more like a happy content teenager. Not constantly pushing herself to the limit at everything she set her mind to. Music and art allowed her to vent all that violence, misery, and heartbreak into a medium less destructive to humans. I particularly love the piece she named Journey into Chaos it's been compared to Rachmaninoff. By the ending note you've been wrung out like a sponge, completely emotionally spent. Then there's Silent Heart another gut wrenching piece. La Tua Cantante will leave you in tears it's so moving that and More than my Life had over three million hits on Youtube.My Paris had five million in two days. Dancing Moon, Wolves at Play. All of them earned global recognition and prestigious awards. She's never displayed a single one, because it didn't send you running to her.: Lori wasn't kind, but brutally honest.
:Let's clear something up right here and now. She ran not me and because of that I was leashed by Cain, Oberon, and Ian from my sophomore year on. I got reprieves for Holidays and Spring Break, but my schedule was brutal. The guys only saw me in passing. I missed all of your big moments, but cheered for you from my couch, most of the time alone or with the guys. Never with a random girl. I was always a phone call, Text, Email, Skype, or Web chat away. Hell, our link knows no bounds. She shut me out for weeks, sometimes months at a stretch, if anyone is in the wrong then it's Renesmee Carlie for not believing that what we have is forever and unwavering…: Jake remained hidden in the shadows, pacing as he caught himself up on everything he'd missed.
Misfit grumbled her profane take on the matter from her perch on a branch just above his head while Rad and Lady stared pensively at him from their spot underneath the tree.
"Team Ness too, eh, my friends? Well, I've never betrayed her trust, not once in six years did I stray and for what?" He glowered up and then down over at his audience.
"How am I supposed to get past this, huh? She has no confidence in us. No trust in me at all. Hell, that bachelor pad proves that she thinks I've got me a frickin harem. Stalkers yes, by the droves, but that's not my fault. She never once stuck around long enough to hear my side of anything. No, the little coward runs, bolts like a doe caught in a hunter's crosshairs. Relationships can't survive without trust. I mean, what's gonna happen every time we fight or disagree about something? Is she gonna run or are we gonna be a team and face it together? So far all she's done is run…" His eyes narrowed, he was finally getting details. Her side, reasoning for fleeing, instead of standing her ground and it was enlightening to say the least. He owed Edward big time for cluing her in, but for now he had a princess to soothe. Audience be damned. He was gonna finally kiss her. Edward was just gonna have to suck it up and deal.
She was finished and Edward was doing his usual being the peacemaker between the two of them.
:Thanks for the Intel, guys. Ness just cleared up what Lori left out, so I have a clearer picture on what's what. Collin, you are officially relieved of pseudo-boyfriend duty. Best friend/Big brother is all fine and good, but all the rest that's done. I'll handle Blake or any other wanna-be from here on out. See ya in a while at the cookout. I've got a princess to…sorry that's privileged…later.: He let them off leash to focus solely on his Ness.
In less than a minute he was up on the deck with her in his arms and life was good again.
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Chapter four
Up to no good
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