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Chapter 3

Desperation

Shinichi ran non-stop into the snow. He had to find her. He had to explain her everything. He had to tell her everything himself. He wanted to embrace her and tell her what he kept secret so many years. How much he loved her. How much he regretted everyday looking at her and not telling her how beautiful she was and hiw much he loved every bit of her.

With all these thoughts in his head he finally arrived out of the house who hosted him for the last two years. He tried to open the office door but it was locked. He climbed the stairs and rang the bell of the house but no one answered. He didn't have the keys anymore as he lost them during the last three months.

'Strange' he thought. 'She is usually home by this time!'

He sat and waited outside the office. The café below Mouri's agency was closed. The time was 10pm and still no one of the Mouri family had showed up.

'Where is she? I am four hours here and no one is back yet... Nah, Ran maybe stayed at Sonoko's and uncle is still playing mahjong.', thought our protagonist and retired to his house because he was too tired from the trip and the wait outside the door of her house.

His house was empty. His parents were still in America. Journalists and editors were chasing his father, Yusaku Kudo, to finish his new book. He walked through the hall and began to climb the stairs to go to take a hot bath and sleep. The next day he had a job to finish.

The next morning

Shinichi woke up late in the afternoon around 4pm. The sun's rays entered the room from the half-open window. With this little light someone could see a room cluttered and dusty. Shinichi remembered the times when Ran came and snuggle despite his complaints. 'Good times' he thought and got out of bed. He got dressed and left again for the detective agency. He arrived outside of the office door and rang the bell. No answer. ''Again?'' he exclaimed.
He descended the stairs and entered the café that was under the agency.

Once he entered he approached the counter. There a familiar face to Conan welcomed him smiling. "Good morning! Are you alone or are you waiting for someone else?"

"No, I will not stay. I just want to ask you something. Do you know where Detective Mouri is? Because I can't find him anywhere. I am a client you see and I need his services.'' he lied so he won't be susspected.

"Ah! Mouri-san left on holidays with some old classmates two days ago, I think. If I remember correctly, they were classmates from his college days." she answered willingly.

"Oh... and his daughter?"

"Uh... I don't know... I haven't see her here for a week now but I don't know anything about that.", she replied sadly. "If you do not need anything else I got to go back to my work."she said and left. The youngster thanked her for her answered and left disappointed the cafe. He decided to take a walk around the blocks when he remembered Professor's words from the day before.

-Flashback-

-But you haven't said anything to the police right?

-No, I explained everything to them when we closed the case. Why!?

-Because her parents may have heard something and told her! Remember? Her mother is a lawyer and her father a private detective!

-END Flashback-

He began to tremble. ''If Ran learned about all these and not from me then I lost her forever... I must find her!'' He stayed for a while where he was standing to think to whom he had to go. Ran would be with Sonoko and no one knew where. Her father was out and the only person left was her mother who didn't like him at all. He took a deep breath and started to run towards her mother's office hoping he will learn where Ran was. A few minutes later he found himself knocking the office's door. The secretary opened the door smiling.

"Hello, you have an appointment with Kisiki-sensei?" she asked gently.

"No, but I have to talk to her now!" Shinichi said loudly. That tone wasn't appropriate he thoight afterwards but he had already screamed. No apologizes accepted anymore.

"I'm sorry sir but you cannot do this! Currently Kisaki-sensei has a client and-"

"I don't care!" Shinchi interrupted her loosing his grip. "WE NEEED TO TALK NOW!" he continued to scream at the poor secretary. The woman tried to change his mind without any success and with his every response the more angry he was making it impossible to communicate with him peacefully.

Then the door of the inner office opened and he lawyer appeared. "What is this fuss!? Sir, you are in a law firm, not in the field!" said the lawyer turning to Shinichi. As soon as she saw him, her eyes opened wide and her face darkened and with harsh voice continued. "What are you doing here Mr. Kudo?"

"Kisaki-sensei we have to talk!" said the bewildered detective.

"We have nothing to say and I will ask you to leave right now otherwise I will call the guards" the lawyer wasn't joking. But that didn't stop Shinichi from requesting to see her.

"I don't go anywhere until we talk!" Shinichi replied ignoring her threats.

"I SAID LEAVE!"

"NO!"

Kisaki saw that Shinichi was not meant to shake and finally after a long time she surrendered.

"Okay if you want it so much we'll talk as soon as I finish with the client!" she said and walked back into her office.

Shinichi sat on the couch behind him trying to calm down. 'But what happened? I knew that she hated me but I didn't expect that much! That had to do with Ran! I so sure of it! What will I do now?' he asked himself the same question again and again until he decided to just tell the truth and bet on it even though he knew that his luck was always against him.

After half an hour the client left and Shinichi walked into the office. On the other side of the office a distraught lawyer was ready to explode. He proceed and stood across her.

"Tell me what do you want!?" she asked coldly.

"First, why are you talking to me like this?" Shinichi asked trying to understand what was going on.

"You dare to ask me the reason?" Kisaki started shouting. "After all you did to my daughter, you dare to show your face in front of me and ask me the reason?"

Shinichi hearing these words fell from the skies. That made him want to see her more than before and to explain to her everything himself. It was unfair...

"Where is Ran?" he asked in a serious tone.

"You don't need to know! I don't want you near my daughter! All men are the same! You think only about yourselves! No one else! You know how much you broke her heart? How betrayed she felt? She cried for days when she learned that you were Conan! Her little brother! The boy to whom told her secrets and pain for her love and her desire to see YOU again! And you were simply listening and watching her cry but you never opened your mouth to tell her that you were with her all this time! How arrogant are you? Who do you think that you are anyway?! Huh?"

Kisaki turned red from her voices but she felt relieved because finally she said what she kept inside her for so long. Shinichi was stunned from what she said. He started to get all those guilty feelings back. He thought that he had got rid of them once he finished with that organization. That now he could come out clean. The questions were always the same. What has he done? How all this happened? Why did he follow those guys in black that day at the amusement park! Why? Why? WHY?

"It is not like that..." the disconsolate detective finally managed to answer.

"What?"

"It's not LIKE THAT! I did everything to protect her! All of you! From this organization! You would be killed! If they had learned that Kudo Shinichi was still alive we'd all be dead! I had to find them and stop them before it was too late. The last months Heiji and I were trying to catch them and we finally did it! And now... and now..." He stopped for a while and then continued "...now this happened! Ran learned from someone else the truth... not from me... and... and..."

"Wait wait... What organization? Who was under threat? " asked the bewildered Kisaki.

Kudo remained motionless while staring at the Kisaki surprised.

"You don't know anything about the whole affair?" he asked unwillingly.

"No… only that you were Conan and that so long you were the one who had been solving all cases for my husband...",answered calmly Kisaki.

"Are you kidding me?"

"Nope."

Shinichi began to smile. Ran didn't know anything yet so that was good. He had still a chance to save the situation. He walked a bit and sat in the chair in front of the office. "Okay then... I'll tell you everything from the start!" and he began to talk. After quite a few hours when he finished, Kisaki was looking at him as if she saw an alien.

"Okay... Thank you very much for your complete update, but I still don't forgive you! This is something that my daughter will decide! And as for my husband I will talk to him! Don't worry!" she ensured him with a smile.

Shinichi stood up from his chair and asked again. "Where is Ran?"

"On vacation with Sonoko in Hawaii... Do not try to call her because her mobile phone right now is at the bottom of the ocean! And Sonoko changed her number who is unknown to me. Sorry Kudo..."

"No, never mind! I'll find her! I promise! And I will clarify it all!" he said and walked out of the office.

Kisaki stood up and walked towards the window. "Good luck Kudo... My daughter is stubborn! It will be very difficult to change her mind... And especially now that she is together with Sonoko... ooohhhhhhh"

Shinichi headed for professor Agasa's house...

He had to talk to Ai Haibara...

Ok that was the end of this chapter! Hahahaha I made her mad...Kisaki-sensei...

I really hope you liked it! bye bye! see ya next chapter!