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"Wait, Today?" asked Tanya. She leans in with a disbelieved look on her face.
"You said not until the end of the week, you aren't supposed to leave for another 3 days!" She yells looking very angry.
"That's why you called to meet up here, right? The plan was to go out tomorrow, spend the whole day together." She says accusingly like it's my fault I'm leaving today.
"Now we only have a couple of hours." She added.
My mother finished with her last chemo session yesterday and Charlie saw no other reason to stay any longer. As a result we were all over the place yesterday, Emmett and I went to his school and got his transcripts then we went to mine so I can get pulled out and a refund for the classes I had already paid and signed up for this summer.
My parents were busy as well. They canceled all our water, gas, light, phone, cable and internet accounts. They went to the Post Office and changed our mailing address; thankfully everything else can be done through phone or online so we didn't have to do a lot on top of everything we were already doing.
As soon as Charlie said we were moving today I called Tanya to spend some time with her, I talked to Jacob and Sam and we agreed that it would be more painful if they come over and say their goodbyes. We agreed to just not say anything and in 3 months when Renée has her doctor's appointment, we would meet up.
"Please believe that I am not happy with this either." I said as I reached across the table and took her hand.
"How do you think I feel? I am leaving everything I know, people, places, memories. I'm not just leaving the city but the goddamn state! I'm going to a place I don't know, a place that I've only visited twice in my life. What the fuck am I going to do over there?" I ask bring my hand back, knowing she doesn't have an answer.
"I'm even giving up my education. I was set to transfer to UCLA on the fall if I passed the classes I was planning for this summer. What about if Forks doesn't have the courses I need or better yet what about if Forks doesn't even have a fucken community college?" I say, starting to get angry too.
"All these things and more I thought about every day this week. So many things that were at my reach, goals that I've set have gone to shit now. But then I start thinking of my parents. They don't want this either. They blame themselves." I say. My eyes start to water.
"Charlie mainly." I continue. "He and Renée are giving up things up too. My brothers; Emmett who is not going to graduate with his class. Jasper who is heartbroken that Alice has to stay." I say, tears falling.
"It's nobody's fault. Life is a bitch and that it. We have to pick ourselves right back up. I have never been more proud of Charlie, Renée, Emmett, Jasper and Alice." I say as I smile through my tears.
"They could have argued or fought. They could have been little shits about the whole thing. I could have been too but we didn't. We all understand, even Emmett who is just 16 understands. Every single of us are giving up our lives but instead of being angry or bitter about it, we take it with stride."
"I might be miserable over there but at least I'll have my family, that's all that matters." I added after a time.
Tanya smiles as she now reaches for my hand across the table.
"You're right, sorry for acting like a bitch. I don't want to pile on. I'm going to miss you like crazy baby girl." She says squeezing my hand a little.
I wave my other hand, waving away her apology.
"Don't worry about it. I'm going to miss you too, so much baby girl" I say using the nickname we gave each other years ago.
That's when the waiter comes and brings our food. Olive Garden is a favorite hangout for Tanya and me to get together. We try to do this at least twice a month.
She is always busy working and I'm busy with school and Jacob but we always make sure to have enough time to hang out.
"Would you like a refill?" The waiter asks Tanya when he noticed her glass of wine was empty.
"Yes, thank you." She replies. She always teases me for the fact that I can't drink yet because I'm 20. And I joke that she has a problem drinking this early in the day but that doesn't stop her from giving me sips when no one is looking.
As he pours her red wine he turns to me.
"You ma'am, would you like a refill on your raspberry ice tea?"
"Sure." I say downing what's left before placed another filled cup in front of me and taking the empty cup.
"So Alice isn't going with you guys?" Asked Tanya when the waiter left.
"No, she has her grandfather to look after. Even though she lives with us, she visited him every day to make sure he was fed, washed, and gives him everything he needs." I say shaking my head.
"She is the only family he has. They only have each other." I added.
Alice has had a hard life. When Alice was 4, her mother was committed to a psychiatric hospital and was deemed unfit to take care of her daughter; as a result Alice was sent to live with her estrange father that left her before she was born. There Alice discovered she was her father's ninth child.
Most of the time she wasn't fed, her brothers and sisters picked on her, telling her she is going to in up right with her mother. Her father didn't give a shit about her, the only reason he took her in was because of the Welfare check he got for her every month.
Despite the way she lived, she thrived in school; always top of her class and every intelligent, taking extra courses and work. Her teachers adored her and they started noticing the cuts and bruises.
By the time she started middle school her father start beating her and when it wasn't her father it was her older brothers.
The breaking point was when she was in 7th grade. Alice showed up to school with a bruised eye and hand marks around her neck, social services were called, her father was arrested, her siblings went to either homes or correctional centers and they discovered she had a grandfather from her mother's side.
Paul took her in right away. He has shown her love and a better life. By the time she started community college she met Jasper on their history class they shared. She approached him introducing herself as his girlfriend and they have been inseparable since.
After dating for a year she moved in with us but still takes care of her grandfather.
"Jasper must be taking it hard." Tanya guessed and she is right. I have never seen Jasper this depressed.
"Yeah but there's nothing they can do, I feel so helpless." I say. Tanya nods as she sips her wine.
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"I guess we can't pull this off any longer." Tanya says with a sigh. We have been sitting here for over 5 hours talking about nothing and everything.
As I look at her I can't help but feel despair. I wouldn't be anything if it wasn't for Tanya. We had plans, dreams together. We always joked that we were going to end up marrying each other because we are impossible to please.
Jacob is very important to me too and I love them both very much but Tanya is different. Tanya is my go to person, the one who knows me better than anyone maybe even better than myself; she knows my goals and dreams, my greatest fears, my darkest secrets. She sees things in me that I would have never discovered on my own.
And now I'm leaving.
"Hey, you know you can't get rid of me right?" She asks me with a smile.
"Yes I know. I've been trying for years now." I joked in a frustrated tone.
We laugh as we head out towards our cars.
"Remember, every Friday night at 9:30. No matter where you are or what you are doing, grab your phone or computer and we are going to ooVoo alright?" she asked as we stand in front of my family's car.
"I won't forget." I say hugging her tightly.
We part slightly as she grabs my head with both of her hands against my cheeks. She looks into my eyes before she leans in and gives a ravishing wholesome kiss. I grab both of her arms that were holding my head and pull her closer.
As we part both of us panting she starts to speak.
"If anyone gives you a better kiss than the one I just give you, you marry the bastard. Never let him go." She tells me seriously.
I laugh, I doubt I'll be doing any kissing in Forks but I nod and agree anyways.
We give each other one last kiss then jump in to our cars. She honks, waves and drives off.
My heart is still pounding as I drive the last time to the apartment complex. Tanya has to be the best kisser I've ever kissed. Even though it's never anything more than friendship and platonic love, she always leaves me breathless and my heart pounding.
When I pull up to the apartment I see Charlie hauling the stove up the ramp onto the huge Moving Truck.
"Hey dad, almost done?" I ask as I walk towards him, Emmett sticks head out inside the truck where he was holding the other half of the stove and flips me off when Charlie isn't looking.
"Yeah, only the heavy stuff is left, we are almost done good thing too, I want to hit the road before it gets any later." He says wiping sweat off his forehead with his red handkerchief he always has in this left back pocket of his pants.
I look down on my phone to check the time. 2:30pm.
"You want to leave at 3?" I asked.
"Yeah, we have a lot of driving to do, the sooner the better." He says.
"Alright." I say nodding. "I'm going to go check on Mom." I add.
He nods and goes back to shoving the stove on the right next to the standing couch.
"Mom!" I call out in the empty apartment.
"I'm in your room Bella!" She yelled out.
"What are you doing?" I asked. Renée is inside my empty closet looking around.
"Just making sure nothing gets left behind." She says.
"Where is Jasper?" I asked. He wasn't with Dad and Emmett and not at the apartment.
"He went to the corner shore and loading up on junk food for the 18 hour drive." She says leaving my room and going towards Jasper's checking everything.
"Cool." I say.
"Renée?" called out Charlie.
"In here honey." My mom answers as she steps into Jasper's closet looking around.
"Everything is loaded. I just handed over the keys of the apartment to the manager downstairs." He says as he walks inside the empty room.
"Alright, let's get going." She says as she walks all over the apartment seeing it for the last time.
Once the apartment is locked, we all are waiting for Jasper outside the complex next to the Moving Truck.
"Hey." Jasper calls out. Once he is standing with us Charlie lets us in on the plan.
"Alright guys. I'm going to drive the Moving Truck with Renée. Emmett, you are riding with Bella who is driving the Infiniti and Jasper, you are going to drive the Suburban. I'm still not sure when or where we are going to stop but if you, Bella or you, Jasper get sleepy then we'll find somewhere to rest, alright?" He asked
"Got it." I say
"Yes sir." Emmett agrees.
"Alright." Jasper says as we all start walking to our cars.
"WAIT!" called out a voice.
We all turn around looking for the source when Jasper starts in a dead run.
Alice starts running too, dropping her bags to the floor and meeting in the middle of the street.
Jasper and Alice have been together for years and they are very private people when it comes to their relationship.
Not once in all the time they have been dating did I've seen them kiss. I've never seen them hug intimately or cuddle on the couch so when Jasper grabs Alice by her waist, picking her up and hugs her, it was a sight, and when he plants a very passionate kiss on her lips, Charlie, Renée, Emmett and I are shocked beyond belief, all mouths fall to the floor as they kiss like they are the only people in the world.
"Alice!" I scream and run towards her when they walk towards us after picking up her bags off the floor across the street.
"Bella!" she says and when I reach her we hug tightly.
"What are you doing here?!" I yelled
Everyone gathers around and hugs Alice asking the same question I am.
Once everyone hugged her, Jasper comes next to her and wraps his arm around her waist like if he doesn't she might leave us.
"Well, once I reached Grandpa's house and told him I was staying, he throw me out." All of us looked at her in shock.
"What?!" Jasper yelled looking her angry. Alice put a hand on his chest and continued.
"He says I need to be with my new family, with Jasper." She said blushing slightly but looked at us then at Jasper and smiled sweetly at him. He smiled back and pulled her a little closer.
"I try to argue with him that he needs me and that I wanted to help him when he waved me off and says that Amy agreed to watch over him from now on." Alice said.
Amy is Paul's neighbor, the young woman sees Paul like a grandfather; she cooks and cleans for him Alice doesn't, Alice and Amy developed a system; she rotates duties with Alice.
Paul is in great hands.
"Wow, that's amazing! I'm so happy you could come with us." My mom says as a tear rolls down.
"Yes, Jasper was going crazy without you." Dad adds.
Ain't that the true, I was getting concerned.
Alice smiles shyly and says, "I was going crazy too." As she looks up at Jasper.
"I'm so happy you're here Alice." I tell her reaching for her hand and squeezing it.
She nods, agreeing.
"I couldn't plan it anymore perfectly, Alice you ride with Jasper." Dad says wanting to get on the freeway already.
"Alright people, let's move it, we are losing light." Emmett says walking towards the Infiniti passenger door.
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One thousand, two hundred and twelve miles.
Eighteen hours and twenty-six minutes.
At least that's what Google Maps said. What Google didn't know is that we took a detour to San Francisco. So a little more than one thousand, two hundred and twelve miles.
The longest I've ever been inside a car was on a trip to Vegas and that was only 4 hours. I thought it was the longest ride of my life.
I was dead wrong, but this trip had its fun and memorial moments.
4 hours into the trip and heading down the I-5 N,, I had the brilliant idea to go to San Francisco first.
We were only any hour away. So that's what we did; Jasper and I followed the Moving Truck.
By the time we arrived at San Francisco night had fallen. We decided to park somewhere and enjoy the night life. Only Jasper and Alice got to truly enjoy it though, they hit every 21 and older bars they could.
But it was fun.
We had a dinner picnic along the shoreline at stayed the night.
We woke up with the sun, took our pictures with the famous red bridge as the background, had a quick breakfast and headed off towards the I-5 North once again.
Emmett was the perfect riding mate. He kept me laughing all through Oregon until we arrived to our soon-to-be home.
As we moved through the tiny town, we couldn't see anything clearly. By then it was 10 o'clock at night and we were all dead tired and cranky, I know I was.
I have to give Aunt Sue a big kiss when I see her tomorrow, not only did see offer Charlie employment but she also arrange the house we were going to be renting. She had made sure it was big enough and that the utilities were installed before we arrived.
The house has 4 spacious rooms, a huge living and dining room. The kitchen is big and is already fully stocked with food and also with top-notch appliances. It has a fairly big front yard with two huge trees and the big yard that has enough room to build an entire other house.
We were never poor in Los Angeles but with rent so expensive, we learned early in live to think small, but this house is gigantic compared to anything we've ever lived. The best part is that it's half the amount we paid in LA and we only had two rooms back then.
Here everyone has a room. All of us were super excited about it and if it wasn't for the fact that we have been on the road all day we would looked around but no one was up for it, even Emmett who has energy for days just wanted to sleep.
Renée and I grabbed thick blankets we put earlier on both cars trunks and laid them on the living room floor. As so as we laid them down, Jasper, Alice, Emmett and Charlie were already snoring away. Renée and I locked up the cars and house and we too were snoring as soon as we felt the blankets.
"Did you see the woods beyond the back yard?" Emmett asked.
"Yes Emmett, I was with you." I say distractedly as I hang my clothes on the walk-in closet.
Yes you heard right, Bella Swan has a walk-in closet.
"Oh yeah, I forgot." Emmett responds scratching is neck.
"You almost done? You said we were going to drive around and get a feel of this place remember?" He asked. He is itching to explore.
"Yes, almost. I'll meet you downstairs." I say, trying to kick him out as politely as I can.
I think Emmett is the most excited one. It's a new place with new people; he is so friendly he will make friends in no time.
Jasper and Alice are happy anywhere we move as long as they are together.
Charlie is loving the big yard; he is a grease monkey at heart so he is already planning to build a shelter to work on his cars on the shade when it's sunny or rather a cover when it rains.
Renée is in love with the kitchen. She is testing all the appliances and arranging and rearranging everything, talking to herself about new dining tables, drapes for the windows and everything else she can think of.
As for me, I'm alright.
I love my room. It has a three-way window with a sitting bench, a walk-in closet and black carpet, I didn't think they made black carpets but I have it and I love it. The house is beautiful.
I just wish the house was in Los Angeles.
I sighed, I feel like I'm a grey cloud in a beautiful sunny day. Everyone is adjusting nicely and I'm here feeling bitter and angry and shitty because I feel this way.
Am I the only one that is sad?
Why can't I enjoy Forks like everyone else?
I can't wait to put dark drapes and shut them. That way when I'm in here, I'll pretend I'm still in LA.
I breathed out a laugh, I'm so melodramatic.
I can't help it though. I miss my home.
"I might be entering the first stages of depression" I muse as I at last finish hanging all of my clothes.
Once I head downstairs Renée calls me from the kitchen.
"Hey Bella, Emmett tells me you guys are about to head out and explore the town." She says rearranging the plates for the 4th time.
"Yeah, what about it?" I ask leaning against the wall across the big windows that give a clear view of Emmett chatting up a girl with long blonde hair that lives across the street.
I shake my head scowling, Emmett doesn't waste any time.
"Sue told me there is a Wal-Mart at the other side of town and I want to go buy curtains for the windows." She says finishing up with the plate placement.
"You want me to take you?" I ask looking back at her.
"Yeah, if you don't mind, we can go after you explore if you want" She adds.
"Nah, we'll go now, I'll take Emmett exploring later and now I don't think he minds not going." I say as I point with my chin towards the window.
Renée looks at me funny before walking over and checking. The girl with blonde hair throws her head back and laughs while Emmett laughs with her staring at her face the entire time.
Renée smiles shaking her head.
"Let me put on a jacket so we can go." She says walking to the closet down the hall.
"I'll go tell Alice if she wants to go and meet you outside." I called out, looking for Alice.
I found her outside sitting on the floor watching as Jasper and Charlie take measurements for the shelter.
"Hey Alice, Mom and I are going to Wal-Mart, apparently Forks has one, want to come?" I ask standing in front of her.
"Yeah, sounds fun." She says standing up and brushing off dirt.
"I'll meet you out front, alright?" I said walking back to the front.
"Yeah, I'll put on some shoes." She says.
"Jasper! I'm going out with Bella, see you later." She yells out at Jasper direction.
"Alright Alice!" He replied and started talking to Charlie again.
When I walk to the front I notice a women standing next to Emmett and the girl so I made my way other there.
"Hey Bella. These are our neighbors, they live across the street." Emmett said excitedly.
"Hi Bella, welcome to Forks. Emmett tells us you guys are from Los Angeles." The women says reaching for my hand and shaking it, I send a side glance towards Emmett's way.
Big mouth.
"I'm Esme, this is my daughter Rosalie." She says pointing at the girl.
"Pleasure to meet you both." I say with a smile as I take in Rosalie.
I am very protective of my brothers; it took me half a year to warm up to Alice.
I don't like girls messing with my brothers.
I made sure the girl knew I was keeping an eye on her.
Yes bitch, I'm watching you. I think looking at the girl.
She frowns slightly before looking down.
Messaged receive I think smirking, Emmett then decided to shove my shoulder trying to get me to stop.
I smile sweetly at him faking innocence.
Esme didn't seem to notice the silent threat I gave her daughter and smiles.
"I'm so glad a family moved into that empty house." She says.
I smile but I think the opposite.
"Oh, you must be our neighbors! I'm Renée and this is Alice. She is my son, Jasper's love." She says.
I roll my eyes as Alice blushes.
Really mom, your son's love? I think laughing silently.
Esme smiles.
"So good to meet you!" Esme says with the same excitement.
I guess in a boring ass town like this one, new neighbors are a goddamn holiday for them.
I smile a little at the joke.
"I would love to stay and get to know each other better but we are heading out." Renée says with a frown.
"Would you like to come for a cup of coffee later today when we come back?" Renée asked.
"Sure! I'll love to, I'll bring my husband too, he is just as excited as me to make new friends." Esme says.
I like Esme, she seems genuine, her daughter though has me on alert but that's just me when it comes to my brothers.
"Perfect. I'm sure he and Charlie well get along nicely." Renée says.
"Great, see you guys later." Esme says "Come on Rosalie."
Rosalie looks at Emmett. "Bye Emmett, see you later."
I give her my best glare, walk away bitch.
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"Shoot, I forgot my wallet in the Infiniti, Bella can you go get it?" Renée tells me digging through her bag.
"Yeah, Alice, go with me?" I say, walking backwards. She nods and follows me.
This by no means is a Super Wal-Mart I was expecting by its big enough I guess, at least it has all the necessities.
"You saw the girl eyeing Emmett?" I ask Alice as we walk towards the parking lot.
"You are seeing things Bella, remember you thought I was the devil itself because I was with Jasper?" she says laughing.
I laugh too, I told Jasper that Alice was the devil and bad for him, he just laughed and told me I was just jealous.
"Yeah." I say.
"And remember the other time when…"
I didn't hear anything after that.
I have never in my life seen a more beautiful man than the one who is walking towards me.
He was tall, maybe 6'2, taller than Emmett. His hair looked to be cut short from the sides of his head but I couldn't see the rest because he had an army hat.
He had on dark sunglasses that were covering his eye but I bet they are gorgeous too.
His nose is straight and perfectly proportioned with his face.
His lips.
Jesus Christ those lips. They look so smooth I could just run my tongue over the bottom one, I shivered.
His jaw, so sharp I can bite it.
My mouth waters.
My stomach is doing flips and my fingers start to tingle and shake.
He looks well built, lean and hard. His thighs look thick and his legs long as he strides towards me, at least I think he is walking towards me.
I have never had a reaction quite like this.
I think I'm going to faint.
How is it possible for someone to look like that?
He is perfection.
I adjust my glasses making sure I don't miss anything.
"Bella, are you listening to me?" Alice voices sounds so far away.
I can't take my eyes off him.
"Alice, that man is what dreams are made of." I say dazed.
He walks closer.
I can just reach out my hand and touch him he is that close.
My fingers twitch.
"Just lock me in a room with him and I will become your slave for eternity." I say quietly as he passes.
He even smells delicious, so good.
I close my eyes and take in a deep breath.
When I open my eyes, for a second our eyes met and I swear I saw a small smirk on his beautiful lips.
Once he moves out of my vision I can breathe easier.
What.
The.
Fuck.
Was.
That.
I feel like I just experienced God himself.
"Oh my god Bella! He is looking right at you!" Alice whispered yelled.
"WHAT?!" I whispered yelled back at her.
I turn and sure enough he is looking right at me. He took of his glasses but he is too far away to see the color of his eyes.
"I think he heard what you said about being locked in a room with him" Alice says as she looks from me to him then back to me.
The blush that rushed to my cheeks was faster than the speed of light.
When he sees the blush the smirk I've seen earlier gets bigger.
As he walks to the entrances he looks back one more time taking off his hat and disappears inside the store.
"I think that has to be the most intense experience I've ever witnessed." Alice says shaking her head with a look for awe on her face.
I stop dead.
I reach inside my pocket and pull out the keys to the Infiniti.
"Here, get the wallet please?" I say, handing her the keys.
"Why, where are you going?" she calls out as a walk towards the entrances.
"I am not going to do anything crazy, I just have to see him. You can't experience something like this and act like it never happened!" I yell out.
I hear Alice laughs but I pay no attention.
I must follow. I say as I enter looking around for the sexiest man alive.
Nurse Sexy has nothing on Commander Sex-God.
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