Today is the day we pick which corps we are joining. I made second in class, right behind Mikasa. I was quiet and watched; I would not speak often. When I did everyone would listen then go back to not noticing me. I'm still gonna join the Survey corps, and by the sounds of it so are a lot of people.
Right no we are cleaning the upgraded cannons in Trost. When a sudden flash of light goes off before my eyes. I look up and the Colossal titan is standing before me. Everyone freezes then the wall quakes as the gates are kicked open. Then a gust of wind sends us all over the edge. I don't waste time looking at the wall. Once Sasha saves Samuel, I make my way back to the top of the wall. I push back the memories of my parents as I land with Eren yelling at the others to fight.
He looks at me and I nod signaling we will do this together. We run towards the edge of the wall as the massiving being in front of us moves his arm down on the wall. Jumping off the wall I just miss the blow that takes out all the new cannons. I fire my wires attacking them to this things arm as Eren swings around it. It seem this monstrosity might have some intelligence. Could it be? I shake my head. Now is not the time to speculate. Right now I have a job to do.
My eyes harden as I look at the monster's weak spot. If we kill this thing then the titans can no longer attack us. It reaches out for Eren as I land on its forearm running towards it's neck. The boy avoids it's hand and starts running up the beast's other arm. We sling past each other as we line up to attack it's weak point. Our blades connect at the same moment on opposite sides. Just as the blades start biting into flesh a cloud of steam flies up around us. After a moment Eren pushes forward trying to get it again, but just as quickly as it appears, it disappears.
I want to scream I'm so frustrated. We lost our chance. I keep my face as emotionless as ever as I return to the wall. Eren is talking to the other cadets about our failure as we climb the wall. A member of the Garrison comes over instructing us to go with the rest of the troops to work on the counterattack. I notice Eren's sea-green eyes hold guilt, worry and pain as we head back to HQ. I have to admit this brings back painful memories for me as well, but now is not the time for this.
My face shows nothing as everyone scramble around. I take a deep breath to calm my raging mind. We have to keep the titans at bay while the citizens escape. If the evacuation is quick enough then we shouldn't have too many casualties. But the rich always muck things up with their things and saving their own hides. So with that into account it will take several hours. Making the casualties skyrocket, and we have no way to seal the hole to stop the titans from coming in.
Looking around at my team faces they seem eager to do well. Some to help others, but most to rise through the ranks of their chosen corps. 'Tch', they have no idea what we are about to walk into. Then there is the way the man in charge was acting. He is obviously scared out of his mind. He just uses the rules so he does not have to think.
"Squad 34 support the vanguard." A man calls out.
We do as ordered moving forward. It is not long before we see many titans. The others are surprised and I can hear the trickle of fear in their voices as they speak. It is obvious the vanguard has been wiped out and they were older than us.
I see the aberrant in front of us as Eren screams out "Stop" we land on a roof about two blocks away from the tower the titan collides with. As it slowly moves its head for us to see I feel a dread feel me to my very core. Thomas is hanging out of its mouth. Everyone is frozen. The cry for help never leaves the blonde boy's lips as he slides down the monster's throat. I stand behind everyone silent as the realization of what they have gotten into hits them. These things were nothing to play with.
The need to chase after the titan as it turns to go eats at me, but I refuse. That will only get my team killed, but Eren could not see past his rage. He takes off yelling at the thing and the others follow. I take up the rear as we watch a titan jump up eating Eren's leg. His momentum makes him tumble and slide against the roof causing more injuries. He lands barely hanging on to the roof. This distracts my teammates. I watch as one is squatted like a fly out of the sky instantly dead. I make a sharp turn attaching myself to the titan's neck and killing it with ease. But when I land in the next moment all my teammates are being eaten. I hear their screams and pleas, but there are too many for me to save. A titan reaches for me snapping me out of it. I easily escape and kill it. I kill the other two titans that kill my teammates.
I look around trying to see if anyone has survive. That's when I see Armin thrown from a titan's mouth. Eren holds the thing's mouth open trying to reach for Armin spouting nonsense. I'm running as quickly as I can to reach him, but I'm too far away. Armin tries to reach the green eyed boy but he is too late. The jaws come down the boy as his arm falls to the ground. I sink to my knees as Armin lets out an agonized scream. Then the titan leaves the blonde boy and walks away.
My whole team, but one, is dead. My first time in the field ended so disastrous. I was suppose to save lives not watch them die. My fist slams against my leg. This is not how it was suppose to turn out. A single tear runs down my cheek for my fallen comrades. Then I get up and make my way to the blonde who has shut everything out. He doesn't even blink when my hand waves in front of him. The shock was to much for him he has shut everything out. I sit down beside him. He will snap out of it soon, and I won't leave him. I will save at least one life today.
Connie, Krista, and Ymir show up a little while later and Connie is bond and determine to bring the blonde back. Once Armin is back to his sense he starts yelling at himself. He runs off and after a moment I follow. Once I catch up to him it has begun to rain and he has curled himself into a ball. I land on the roof beside him, but do not say a word. There is nothing I can say to help him. He just watch his friend, the last family he had died. There is nothing I can say that will ease that pain.
Slowly a crowd of people start to build around us. Everyone is running low on gas and the HQ has become surrounded. They have no way to refuel. Personally I have over a half a tank, but I'm not going to leave them. They are all just as depressing as the clouded sky, that finally stopped raining. At the rate we were going we will all die, but I keep my face neutral.
When Mikasa shows up Armin finally speaks saying that our teammates died. Everyone seems shocked. Mikasa eyes a void of any emotion as she tries to comfort the crying Armin beside me. She stands and walks over to Marco.
"Marco, if we get rid if the Titans gathered near Headquarters, we could refill our gas tanks and everyone could make it up the wall. Isn't that right?"
"Yeah," The boy answers nervously. "But even with your help there are two many of them."
"We can do it." The raven haired girl interrupts him. Everyone just stares at her shocked. "I am strong. Much stronger than all of you." She turns to face everyone with her blade raised. "I can kill those titans, even if I have to do it myself."
I push off the wall I was leaning on.. "You will not do it by yourself. I'm going with you." I walk to stand beside her as everyone watches me.
"You guys are cowards and wusses without fighting skills. I feel sorry for you stay here and twiddle your thumbs. Watch us do this." she continues.
"You two are crazy what do you think you are saying." One girl cries out.
"You plan on taking on that many titans with just the two of you?" another boy yells.
"If we can't do it we will die, but if we win we live. If we don't fight we will lose." Mikasa says turning around.
"We are the ones who placed first and second in class. We are strong enough to do it." I say then follow Mikasa.
There is a battle cry behind us and I know that they are following.
"We have to make this quick before we run out of gas, or it's all over." I hear Jean call out behind me.
"Use your weight as momentum, only use gas for quick turn and escapes." I yell spinning to take out a titan.
Mikasa and I take out the titans that we come across since we are in front. But I notice that she is using to much gas to get her speed. If she keeps it up she will run out too soon. The very next moment she falls as she runs out of gas.
"Mikasa" Armin yells as he goes after her.
"Connie, go after them. We can't lose Mikasa." I call out.
"Sir" Then Connie goes off doing as I told him.
"Jean, you are now in the lead with me. Everyone stick close to me or Jean. Don't try any heroics. Use as little gas as possible."
"What? I shouldn't lead." Jean yells out to me.
"Jean, trust me. You are the best for the job, and there are too many of us for me to lead by myself."
With a nod Jean moves so there is about two roofs in between us. I continue with my group of about fifteen. We run into a group of titans and I see Jean's group is the same. I hear the cries of a few being killed by titans and the long faced boy shifts his eyes to me. I give him a nod and raise my blades.
"Remember what I said. Stay close to me. Gas is only used for sharp turns and escapes." I yell to my group as I take off killing two titans at once ruining my blades.
Quickly I shed the blades and set a new pair. We continue through until we reach HQ. We go flying through the windows shattering them. I turn to see my whole group made it and then Jean group starts coming through the windows. I do a quick check and see that he lost five people. He looks really upset but it is better than I had thought would make it. He did a great job. Just as I was about to say that though he sees the supply team and attacks them.
The very next moment a titan sticks it's head through the wall. Everyone is running to get further inside. The long faced boy Just stands there staring at the two idiotic faces of the titans about to eat him. I try to fight through the crowd but my short stature makes it difficult. I reach him and pull on his sleeve to run, but he continues to stand there. I refuse to leave him and let another one of my comrades die in vain. My hand is to my lips when a giant fist hits on of the heads sending the titans flying. I see a titan with elfish ears, unruly dark brown hair and sea-green eyes. It roars at the others.
"What the hell?' Jean asks no one in general as Connie, Armin, and Mikasa fly through the windows.
Connie stands up and points at the strange titan. "Listen everyone, that titan is an aberrant that kills other titans."
I walk to the edge of the room where the hole is. There is no such thing as that kind of aberrant, but. I look at it closely as I think. It kinda reminds me of Eren. My eyes open wide for a moment. Dr. Jaeger didn't. I watch as it fights the other titans until a hand is placed on my shoulder. I look up to see Jean looking at me.
"Come on we have to make a plan" I nod then follow as he heads towards the inner room.
I stand against the wall as everyone else sits in small groups talking. Some are working on the lift as Jean and his group come in with the guns from the MPs. We get into our groups I'm with the group on the lift. The air is tense as we are lowered into the room. I'm against the wall with others above me since I'm so short. I hear the quiver in Marco's voice as he tells everyone to be calm. The girls beside me is shaking hitting my arm occasionally being annoying. The titan turns our way with its silly sick expression. Slowly, step by step, it makes it's way towards us. Leaning in its eye is only an inch away from my gun.
"Fire" Marco yells.
The guns go off simultaneously around me as I pull my trigger. After the titans are blinded the seven chosen jump down and attack. Sasha and Connie miss their mark though. I drop my gun pulling out my blades. The titans have turned to face the two that attacked them. Sasha is spouting nonsense trying to talk to it. I put my foot on the wall of the lift pushing off. My blade makes contact with the monster standing in front of Connie as Mikasa saves Sasha.
"Thanks" the boy says as he rubs the back of his neck. I simply nod my head then go to refill my tanks.
Everyone is happy as the refill their tanks. For some strange reason Jean and Marco come sit on the table with me facing the other way, as they refill.
"I don't see myself as a leader. Don't try to patronize me. I allowed people to die." Jean states out of the blue.
"I want you to listen to me without getting mad." Marco says to the long faced boy. "You're not strong Jean. That's why you understand how the weak feel. You are adept at properly assessing a situation, so you know exactly what has to be done at any given time. Your orders were appropriate. That's why I was able to jump and why I'm here alive." Jean has a surprised look on his face when Marco finishes.
"I picked you to lead with me because you have a good head on your shoulders. You only lost five men and three of those was because they tried to play hero. Yes your hot headed, but when it comes to a serious situation you make sure to think things through." I say than get off of the table and walk away.
It's true if I had picked someone who could not see the big picture a lot more people would of died. Everyone starts to leave for the wall. I wait for a moment in the building to make sure everyone leaves before me. I want everyone gone before me. That way if they get into trouble I can help them. As soon as I walk out I see a small group of people gathered on the roof. I join them just in time to see the titan that ate Thomas. Suddenly the titan that helped us push the ones eating it off running and losing it's arms. It grabs the one that ate Thomas in it's mouth killing it. Then it swings the body around at the others that come near. The body drops from its mouth and a primal growl escapes it's throat then it falls to the ground.
"See it doesn't need our help. Ally my ass. A titan is still a titan." Jean says.
But we all just stare in shock as a body comes out of its weak point. His face is pulled from the muscle revealing it is Eren. Mikasa goes down beside the body and runs to embrace the boy. After she cries a moment we all go and drag the two of them up to the roof. I watch as Armin gose and hold the hand that he did not reach in time before. How could Dr. Jaeger do this to his own son. This is completely different than doing this to save someone.
We make it back over the wall and the Garrison yells at us ordering that we keep this quiet. They try to take Eren, but Mikasa and Armin won't allow them. In the end the three of them are dragged away. I go with the others and grab water and food quickly then go find out where they have taken Eren. The idea of them trying to kill the boy and his friends won't leave my mind.
"Shit, I should have realised it sooner." I say to myself.
As I'm looking I feel my mind going back to training and how Eren was always okay the next day no matter what we went through. How his stamina seemed higher than the others. I was so blind. I find the three teens in the corner by the water system. They are surrounded by at least two dozen soldiers, and no other than scaredy cat rule follower is in charge. They are so screwed. I look at Eren and feel the memories of the the boy's father come to mind.
The pain is the first thing I remember. I was sick in bed. I was not going to live much longer. Dr. Jaeger had been coming around for months trying to save me but nothing he did seemed to work. I wanted to keep fighting. I wanted for the pain to be over. I wanted to stop hearing my mom cry in the middle of the night. At this point I could not even lift my head by myself. My voice was soft, and speaking for just a few minutes would wear me out. Dr. Jaeger had closed the door behind him. When he turns to face me his normally friendly eyes are cold.
"Alexa, I have something that will save you." He comes up to my bed and looks down at me. "But what I give you will have to stay between us. This medicine has a big side effect. You will not be the same if you take this. If you decided you want to take this I will have to show you things and they will have to stay a secret."
I look at the man standing above me and six year old me could not see a downside as long as I get better. "I want to take it. I want to get better." the words are barely above a whisper.
"All right," He sits down in the chair beside me, and digs through his bag. He finds what he is looking for a fixes the syringe. "This is going to burn." I nod as he finds the vein in my arm.
After a week it was like I was not even sick. Dr. Jaeger came back for a visit then told me to meet him outside that night. I do as he said and he shows me the side effect that he had told me about before.
"This is not to be shown to anyone. They would not understand. You can not even tell your parents."
"But won't this help people?" I asks
His stern look fades away and he gives me a kind smile. "Yes child it will, but not yet. Now is not the time."
"When will it be time to show people?"
"You will know when the time is right. If there is any doubt in your mind about it don't do it. Now I will meet you once a week to make sure that you can control it."
I'm snapped back to the present when Eren yells out that he is human. All that meets him as silence and I realize what is to come. I drop to the ground . The right time is now, there is no doubt in my mind. Walking forward I push the people out of my way. There is a murmur going through the crowd. A man several inches taller than me puts his hand on my shoulder, but I shake him off and continue.
"I see. Don't hate me." The scared man raises his arm to give the order to fire. I don't have much time. "No one can prove that they are not the devil,"
I start to rush towards them as Mikasa grabs Eren to run. At the last second Eren hits the ground and drags Mikasa back to Armin. I reach him just as the man hands drop and we bit our hands at the same time. A burning heat surrounds me as a partial titan body forms around me. Once the shell has been blocked I pull myself out of the body and join the three that I just tried to save. Eren looks like a complete mess. There is no way he can transform again.
The three of them just stare at me, until Eren speaks. "Whhat, whoo are you?"