"Leo? Leeeeo? C'mon Blue Boy. Wake up." I softly spoke as I stroked the side of Leonardo's face. He was all stitched and bandaged up very skillfully with Donnie's expertise, but he was still out cold. Hopefully, he would heal quicker than predicted. Hopefully we all would.

I continued to speak to Leo as Donnie hobbled around on a crutch to support his fractured ankle. He didn't talk or even glance at me and Leo, but then again Donnie had stopped talking since Raph left. We were all kinda messed up. I could still see tears creeping down Don's face as he put the purple, orange, and blue masks in a hamper. He then sat down on his 'rolly' chair and took a deep breath.

Don had been non-stop since we got home. Stitching deep cuts, wrapping smaller ones, applying ice to bruises, and not to mention fixing himself up. 'Poor Donnie...' I thought to myself as I motioned him to come sit by me. He took me up on the offer and pushed up a chair next to mine. We both sat in silence as we waited for Leo to wake up and listened to the TV Mikey had on in the other room.

The lab was quiet. No one said a word until I couldn't take it anymore.

"Donnie?..." He raised his head a bit when he heard me say his name. "Why do you think Raph...you know….did what he did?" I questioned softly as I stopped stroking Leo and looked at my brother gently. He lowered his head again and shut his eyes, trying not to cry. He probably wouldn't answer anyway. To my surprise though, a minute or two later, he spoke very quietly and looked right into my eyes. "I honestly have no idea….Raph has beat us up before but only in training and joking around….he's-...he's never….hurt us like that before…" He looked at me and waiting for me to say something. I was honestly in a little shock. That was the longest thing Donnie had said in two months and he had avoided every conversation about Raph. 'Why did he answer me?'

Our attention then shifted to Leo, who had just turned his head and groaned. "Uuuuuugh….Guys?" he moaned as his soft, beautiful, blue eyes revealed themselves. "Leo!" I cheered quietly as Donnie got up from his chair to grab pain killer. He must have known exactly what Leo was gonna say next. "How are you feeling Bluey?" I questioned. (Blue Boy and Bluey were the nicknames I had for Leo. A little sappy, I know but, he is my boyfriend. Plus, right when I met him, before I knew his name, those names were what I called'm because of his eyes…..and mask….. Don't judge me.) "Ah!" he winced in pain when he tried to sit up. I gently pushed him back down. "Hey. Take it easy."

"It hurts…" he whined

"I know. I know. Donnie's got pain killer for ya."

He moaned again and flopped his head back on the pillow. "Whats the damage D?" he questioned.

"Well…." Donnie started as he filled a glass of water and and clenched a small box of pills in between his chin and neck. I ran over to help him carry the medicine as he did his best not to spill the water on his unstable feet. He didn't really answer his brother.

When we made it to Leo, Don sat on his chair again and propped his older brother up with a few pillows. Leo sat up and took the cup of water Donnie handed him. "Take this. It'll help…..and FYI, it taste horrible." he warned. "...Thanks Donnie. Now I'm so much more willing to take it." Leo sarcastically groaned. "Just thought I'd tell you before you spit it out all over your girlfriend…" Don whispered as he handed Leo the pain killer.

After the leader gagged and forced the medicine down his throat, the lab grew quiet again. The only sound was Donnie's possessions being moved and shifted as the genius put away his equipment. Leo layed back down again and tried to drift back to sleep and when he was done cleaning up, Don hopped on his computer and started working on whatever to avoid conversation. Me, I sat at the end of bed Leo was resting on, by his head. I started to stroke Leo's face again as he slept off some of his pain.

As I sat there, my thoughts started to travel. They landed on the first night Raph didn't come home. My mind started to replay the story, all events that had happened in the past two months. Mikey growing mean and angry, Donnie growing silent, Leo's, now daily, panic attacks….everything. We were all seriously messed up but, we had a very good reason to be.

I remember the day Raph left. He had acted weird the entire day. He was really clingy and on edge. His face was downcast the whole day and thats why Leo let him go for a walk without argument.

"Of course I'm worried about him but he obviously needed to get something off his mind." Leo answered Donnie when he ask him why he let Raph just walk right out and wondered if he was even worried.

We were all anxious for him to get home. After the movie ended, Mikey went to bed, Donnie went to work in his lab until Raph got home, and Leo and I stayed on the couch. (I'll spare you the sappy, lovey dovey details of our conversation.)

Anyway…...After almost TWO HOURS of flirting, normal talk, and snacking on stuff in the kitchen, Leo realized Raph still wasn't back from his walk. I remember that he had his arm around me as we sat at the kitchen table drinking tea and eating leftover pizza. All the sudden a shock went through his body. (I felt him jump.) He stood up and peaked out of the curtain entrance. "I'll be right back Ana." he told me without looking back. "Ok." I answered as I sipped on tea.

A few minutes later Leo rushed into the kitchen, breathing heavily. I stood up quickly and met him halfway to the table. "Leo! What is it?! Whats wrong?!"

"Its Raph! He's not home yet and he's not answering my calls! Its been two hours Ana and we haven't heard a word!"

I gasped. "Oh no! You don't think he's in trouble do you?"

"I don't know….But I'm gonna go look for him!"

"I'll come with you!"

"I knew you'd say that….Ana, I need you here. It's late, you're tired, and all you're wearing is a pink, spaghetti-strap, tank top and plaid pajama pants. You need to stay here and get some rest."

"But Leo-"

"No! Not this time. I'm sorry….Tell Donnie what's going on and then you get to bed."

"Why doesn't Donnie have to go to bed? Look! I wanna go look for Raph!"

"I know. But you were up late last night and again tonight. Donnie is use to staying up late. He can keep an eye on things and let me know if Raph comes back. Ok? Please Ana! Get some rest. Do if for Raph. You know he wouldn't want you to hurt yourself."

"...Fine….Just for Raph thought."

"Thanks sweet heart." Leo smiled as he kissed me on the cheek and pulled me into a hug. "Be careful Blue Boy." I whispered in his ear as I hugged him back.

A few minutes later, Leo bolted out of lair. "See ya Donnie!" he called behind him to his little brother, who had just emerged from his lab. "Wait! What?!" he answered. "Ana? What's going on?"

"Leo is going out to look for Raph. He's not home yet."

"Well I realized that but why is he going alone?!"

"I don't know. He would let me go either but he wanted me to tell you to look after things while hes gone."

"And you are to….?"

"Ugh….go to bed."

Don chuckled a bit at that. "Good!" he giggled.

"What? Why is that good?"

"Cuz you should see the bags under your eyes right now. Sis, Ha! You're exhausted!"

"Ha. Ha. Thats not funny Donnie."

"Is to me!"

I stuck my tongue out, playfully, at him. Donnie and I never had real fights. All Playful banter. We acted like five years olds sometimes. "Haha! Well I better get to bed before you tell Leo I didn't obey him and then he kills me!"

"Hahahaha! That does sound like something he would do!"

"Ugh! Shut uuuup!"

Donnie laughed again as he hugged me good night. "Ok well see ya tomorrow!"

"Night Don!"

I layed in bed for a long time just thinking about things. I wondered where Raph was and I hoped that Leo would find him and get home safely but…..something told me that my wishes were not gonna be fulfilled. I felt like this was not gonna be a small situation. Despite the feelings I got, I shrugged them off. I told myself that everything would be ok and the Leo would bring Raph home, safe and sound soon. Boy, was I a fool.

The Next day:

I walked out into the family room at about 9:00 am. I had slept pretty well but the good feeling melted away when I saw Leo and Donnie fighting in front of the TV.

"What do you mean 'You didn't find him'?!"

"I meant what it sounded like Don! I. Didn't. FIND HIM!"

Mikey walked up behind me and we both stared at the two brothers fight. My little brother finally had enough.

"HEY!" Michelangelo screamed. Leo and Don snapped into silence. "There's no need to get all crappy with each other! I don't exactly know what you guys are fighting about but I'm sure we can work it out without yelling!...Now, what's going on?" he finished. 'Mikey has grown up too fast for my liking the past two years.' I thought to myself when I heard him settle everyone down. He stood in the middle of his two older brothers now and waited for them to answer. "Well, is anyone gonna tell me what's up?"

"Ummmm." Leo rubbed the back of his head. "Raph didn't come home last night and when I went out to find'm….I…..I didn't have any luck…." he finished. Mikey's face became very concerned and down cast but he didn't say another word. Instead, it was me.

"What?" I hesitated as I came down the steps from the hallway with all our rooms. I walked right up to Leo and looked into his worried eyes. "Y-You didn't find him?"

"...No…."

I backed up in disbelief. "W-what do you think happened? Did you call him? Did you text him? Did you check with April and Casey?!"

"I did all of the above Ana. I can't find him!"

"We should tell Splinter." Donnie added. "He needs to know."

Leo nodded and started walking to the dojo. When he disappeared through the entrance, Mikey spoke up. "Is anyone hungry?"

"Really Mikey? You're doing this now?" Donnie spoke in a very annoyed tone.

"Hey! I haven't eaten since dinner! I was just wondering if I could make something for anyone else…..I could maybe help the situation….."

"Mikey. There is no helping the situation! There is nothing but the situation! Our brother is missing and all you can think about is your STOMACH! DEAR GAWD! CAN'T YOU TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY FOR ONCE?!"

"DONATELLO!" I interrupted. I flung my arms around Mikey to comfort him. You could see he was hurt by the harsh words. It was all over his face. "What the heck? There is no reason to yell and scream at your little brother just cause you're worried!" I looked at my little brother after I hushed Don. "I would love some breakfast Mikey." I spoke gently. "O-Ok…" he answered and we walked into the kitchen, leaving Donnie behind.

I kind of felt bad for excluding Don for breakfast. Especially when Leo walked in and there now two empty seats.

After a very, very quick breakfast of cereal and a muffin, if you were lucky enough to get one of the last ones, I got changed and ready to go. Everyone was prepped to look for Raph. All excepted Don.

I found Donnie in his lab, with a cup of coffee, messing with an invention. "Hey." I started. He nodded his head without looking. "We're all ready to go look for Raphael."

"Ok." Don answered at he got up and grabbed his bow staff and followed me out the lab doors. Before we left though, I stopped him and looked up into his brown eyes. "I'm sorry I kinda...left you out at breakfast Don…."

He revealed his gappy smile. "Hey no worries. It was good for me to be alone for a little bit and calm myself down."

I smiled, we hugged, and made up. Thats how we did things. If Donnie and I ever did have a real fight, we came clean right away.

We all exited the sewers and made our way to the roof tops. Leo said it was better to search on foot than going in the shell raiser. Something told him the locals wouldn't react well to a big, armed subway car driving down the busy road.

Hours went by. Nothing. We had covered almost every inch of the city. Raph was no where to be found. We all started to worry more and more. When the sun set, we took the shell raiser out. We searched every road, every alley way and still found nothing.

Finally, Master Splinter called and told us to come home. Of course no one wanted to stop looking, but Leo hated arguing with Sensei. So, we obeyed.

No one spoke at our late, very late, dinner and no one spoke after. Nobody wanted to watch a movie, and not even Mikey turned on video games.

Donnie shut himself in his lab, Mikey locked himself in his room, Leo went to bed early, and I claimed to be heading to bed myself, when I really wasn't, and locked the door to my room as well.

It was a quiet evening which never happened. Granted, we did get home at like 3:00 am, but there was never a night when we didn't watch cartoons or just hang out and talk. It was different now that there was only four of us.

I sat up in bed for a while, playing computer games to try and get my mind of things. Nothing changed though. I couldn't even get past night one on "Five Nights at Freddy's". "Oh you STUPID, FRICKIN FOX!" I raged at about 5:30 in the morning. Right when the word exited my mouth, I slapped my hands over the sorce. "Crap!" I half whispered and half squealed. 'I probably just woke up the whole city! Ana, you're such a loud mouth!' No one came to my door though. Not even Leo. I waited a few minutes and then continued to play. (I had finished the game about eight times before this but I liked to replay stuff and see if I could set a new speed record for getting it done…..yeah I'm a pretty big gamer.)

As I tried my darnedest to keep the game from defeating me, I kept thinking about Raph. It had been twenty-four hours since we last saw him. I was worried. 'He couldn't have died! We would have found something to prove it!' Despite the odds, that same thought was running through everyone's head. 'What if Raph is gone? What if we never see him again?' This thought torchered all of us and during the next few days the boys and I sadly witnessed how much it damaged and changed my family.

Three days and still nothing. Donnie had done everything in the means to tracking Raph's T-phone and trying to pick up its last signal. One time he thought he had it! But, the trace only lead him to Raph's room. He found the phone on the night stand. After a huge rant, Don went back to working.

Leo and I had been checking the insides of the buildings and not just the outside. We doubted Raph would be in any of them, but we investigated anyway. We still came home empty handed.

Mikey had taken the stealth bike out a bunch and looked in areas that were 'classified' to us. They were apparently hidden spots in the city that Raph went to be alone in. Mikey only knew where they were because he had found his big brother in these spots more than once. He was sworn to secrecy, even in the current circumstance. No matter how many times we pleaded for him to tell us, his answer never changed. Unfortunately, Mikey changed instead.

Five days and nights had passed. Despite our wishes we woke up later that day. Master Splinter had said he wanted to find Raphael as much as we all did, but we were going about it the wrong way. Donnie had caught a scratchy throat from the early mornings and late nights. Thats when Sensei told us to stay home till noon during the day and to come home much, much later if we choose. He wanted us to stay healthy.

I walked out into the main room and saw my little brother watching the morning news on a bean bag.

"Morning Mikey…"

"Hi."

"Um...is breakfast ready already?" (It was about 8:00 a.m. and he usually made breakfast right when he got up. Which was always about an hour later.)

"No. Why?"

"Oh! I just thought you made it….you know, like usual…"

"Well I didn't this morning. Is that a problem for you?" he snapped as he turned to look at me.

I backed up a bit. 'Where did that come from?' "No! Mikey, that's fine. I was just wondering…"

He nodded his head and turned his gaze to the TV again. 'What the heck was that? That wasn't Mikey!'

I made breakfast for myself and everyone else that morning. It felt weird not having our extratic little brother with us and instead having this short tempered, morphed version of him. It worried us. Especially when he was this mean and angry all the time. Mikey became permanent.

After several, failed attempts at trying to track Raph down, Donnie started to change as well. Two weeks had gone by. Don started to lock himself in his lab. He seemed to lose all hope. He even stopped searching with us. Don was still working on stuff though. You could tell from the consent noise coming from his lab. Other than that, he was a wreck. He never ate, never slept, never said a word, and never showed his face unless he was absolutely STARVING. Even then, he would just grab a pop tart or something and head back to his lab. Our Donnie had turned into a hermit. He wouldn't even let me in to see him which was extremely abnormal.

Donnie wasn't Donnie and Mikey wasn't Mikey anymore. Even Master Splinter grew more quiet than usual. He spent most of his time meditating and would occasionally check in on us. Then, on top of all of this, Leo got sick.

Three weeks of rage, silents, and no results had passed. It was about 2:00 a.m. and I was giving into my gamer side by downloading "Slender". I remember it was the newest version and I didn't know what to expect. I was a little tense as I was sucked into the dark forest with a tall, faceless, murder coming after me. You can imagine how I reacted when a scream came from the room beside mine. I let out a screech and slammed my laptop shut. I then realized that the scream didn't come from my game. I took my headphones off and leaped out of bed.

"LEO?!" I yelled in conceren when I bursted through his bedroom door. I couldn't explain the emotions I felt when I saw Bluey sitting up in bed, shaking uncontrollably, and drenched in sweat. I ran to his side and shook him, gently, till he finally snapped back to reality and flung his arms around me. I grasped him tight in return and tried my best to calm him down. "Shhh. Its ok. It was just a dream. It wasn't real." I assured. "Yes it was. It was r-real. It-It happened." he sobbed back. I knew it was a dream about Raph at that point.

A few minutes later I was bringing Leo tea on the couch. He was wrapped in a blue blanket, maskless, and still trembling. I handed him the mug and sat next to him.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" I questioned.

"No…It'll just make everything worse…"

"Oh. Ok."

"Sorry…"

"No no. Its fine! I understand. Sometimes those things are hard to talk about."

"Mhm."

We sat in silence for while. I hugged and loved on him. Nothing seemed to calm him down. Something was up. I knew that for sure when the same situation happened for three nights in a row and then started to happen randomly during the day! (Not the nightmare but the freak outs.)

I finally got Donnie out of the lab to look at Leo. "I have taken his temperature and it seems normal but his heart rate is fast and his breathing is making him hyperventilate." I explained to him.

"Is that like 24/7 or…"

"Well, its very spread out. It happens a few times a day and its not like a routine. The freak outs are not repetitive of the time the day before."

"So what exactly happens?"

"I don't really know. He could just be sitting on the couch, watching "Space Heros", and he'll start to sweat. Then his breathing gets heavy and quick as if he's been running. He then stands up and try to calm down but then he starts to shake. When he tries to walk it off, it gets worse. He's tried tea, he's tried to take a warm bath, he's tries to sleep it off and nothing works. He just ends up curled up on the couch, rocking back and forth, just waiting for it to stop."

"...Ok...Well, lemme check him out." he motioned for me to bring Leo into the lab.

When we walked in, both our jaws dropped. Donnie's once clean and organized work space was now crowded and cluttered with gadgets and wires. He had made a mess! 'So, this is what he does at midnight.' I thought to myself.

So, after a body scan, a blood test, and a freak out, Donnie found what was up. Leo was diagnosed with Panic Attack. Which is a disease that all the syndromes Leo was experiencing matched and he had to take a special medication twice a day to keep the freak outs at bay. Things couldn't get worse.

A whole month went by. Patrols were useless. Nothing happened despite my instinct that told me Raph was watching us. I just led the three of us on a wild goose chase which made Mikey rage. We would always go home and tell Donnie the same result and get the same response. Silence. Time just kept passing with no luck.

One night I needed to get into the lab for Leo's medication refill. The door was locked and Donnie wasn't opening it. 'Thats weird.' He had been opening it since Leo started needing medicine. I ended up going out the front exit and turning the corner to try and open the garage door. When I got there though, the door was already wide open. I stepped inside cautiously. "Donnie?" I raised my voice into the cluttered room. There was no one in the lab.

After I grabbed Leo's refill and shut the garage door, I unlocked the sliding door entrance to the lair and peeked out. Mikey lifted his head and looked at me strangely. "What the shell are you doing in there?" he questioned in a short tone. I had learned to cope with his crappy attitude the best I could.

"Uh...I just was getting Leo's meds…..Did Donnie come out here?"

"Ha! You kidding or something? Ana, Donnie hasn't left that god forsaken lab in a month. You seriously think he would show his face now?"

"No. Well I mean….he might have."

"Is he not in there?"

"No. He's gone!"

"What?"

"Come see for yourself! Dons not is not in here."

Mikey ran from his place in front of the TV and shoved me aside to look in the lab. His eyes grew wide when he saw the cluttered, lifeless room. He then turned around and yelled Donnie's name. "This isn't funny Don! Get out here!"

"Whats going on?" Leo questioned as he emerged from the kitchen.

"It's Donnie Leo. Hes not here." Mikey answered.

"W-What?!"

"He's not in his lab! And Mikey didn't see him come out." I explained.

Leo stood there for a second. I could tell he was thinking and trying not to get worked up. "Ok." he finally said. "Mikey, you stay here in case Donatello comes back. Ana, you're with me. Let's move."

As Leo and I ran across the roof tops in search of our brother, I saw tears starting to creep into his eyes. I knew he was thinking about Raph and now the thought of Donnie in trouble packed up onto his load of stress and worry.

About twenty minutes passed by. "Where could he be?" I spoke out of breath. "I don't know!" Leo answered out of breath as well. "I really don't."

Suddenly a loud, alarming scream came from behind us. "RAPHAEL! WHERE ARE YOU?!"

"Was that D-Donnie?" I questioned.

"Oh God I hope so!"

We ran in the direction of the scream and finally found it's source. It was indeed Don sobbing there, on his knees, into his hands. "Donnie!" Leo screamed. He and I flung our arms around our balling brother and cried with him. "Don't scare me like that! I can't lose you too!"

"We'll find him Donnie. We just need to keep looking. He's out there." I tried my best to assure him despite my personal feelings.

I remember while we sat there, I felt we were being watched. I turned my head to look but there was no one, as usual.

No big deal but that small incident gave me an epiphany. The Foot watched us a lot so that feeling was normal but this time it was different and it reminded me that we had overlooked one place. A place that we refused to look into because no one expected to find anything except a fight. Plus, Raph hated that place so it was unsuspicious. As I sat there though, that place became more intriguing. Shredder's Lair. I didn't expect to find anything there but it was worth a try in my mind. I mean, what if Raph was being held prisoner there?

"Thats it." I spoke softly while letting go of my grip on Donnie. I stood up and looked in the direction of that horrid place.

"What?" Leo sniffed a bit and wiped a tear away.

"Thats it! Guys! What is the one place we haven't looked for Raph?"

"Ana, no where. We've touched every inch of the city. You guys have anyway….." Donnie calmed himself down enough to talk. Infact, that was the first time I heard his talk, voluntarily, sense Raph left.

"No. There is one place nobody had touched."

"What's that?" Leo questioned.

"...Shredder's lair."

"What? No way! He couldn't be there!"

"But Leo, he could. Don't you see? Like Donnie said, we've looked literally everywhere! Except there. Bluey, we have to try! We have to find our brother. He is out there. We can't give up on him."

Leonardo sat there for a minute. He then got to his feet and helped Donnie upon his own. "Ok. We'll check it out BUT, we need some time to plan. It's not gonna be easy. Around every corner in that place there's someone waiting to kill us. And we need to run it by Splinter."

"YES!"

"Right now though, we need to get home before Mikey ruins the place."

"Hey! He hasn't done that in ages."

"Yeah, but I don't know what he'll do if we're not home soon and his temper snaps."

Two weeks went by of constant planning. Master Splinter gave us the go to investigate Shredder's lair. Finally the night came. Tonight.

Tonight was the two month mark sense Raph disappeared. Everyone was ready. Including Donnie. We left at about 9:00 p.m. and went straight there.

When we got to our destination, We entered through the broken, stained glass window and leaped into the middle of the room. Right when we landed, an alarm sounded. We all jumped when we heard it go off. "Huh. Well thats new." Leo said as he stared up at the flashing, red light above him.

All the sudden, the entrance to the main room flung open and a Foot ninja entered. One extremely different than the others though. Shorter, more buff. Our breaths were all taken away when the fact hit us that we knew this Foot. There he was, wearing black pads, wraps, and a black mask stamped with the Foot Clan logo. Our brother Raphael stood in front of all. He must not have expected us there because he turned pale when he saw us.

We shot all kinds of questions at him. Probably overwhelming him in all the chaos and yelling. He remained silent and shaky. Then, to make everything worse, Shredder entered. When he saw us, he evilly smiled under his mask and commanded Raphael to ATTACK US! He argued back about some deal or something. I can't quite remember what he said. I didn't pay attention. I was in shock that we even found Raph but then to find him in the condition we did….I thought I was about to pass out.

The room was silent for a second then Shredder raged at Raph and gave him the same command. When Raph looked up at us and told Leo to run, I knew we were in trouble. I couldn't believe it though. I wouldn't.

Let's just say Raph followed Shredder's command. We ended up a few blocks down, running and fighting on the roof tops. Some Foot joined Raph as we fought. The number was pretty overwhelming. Then my bladed, bow staff was snapped in two by one of them as Raph flung a ninja star and slit my right arm open. I tried not to scream but the number of Foot and shocking pain, both emotionally and physically, ate at my control. I did, indeed, let out a huge yell of pain. Leo tired to get to me, but was held back by Raph. Mikey jacked up a bunch a of Foot, also trying to get to me but failed. I tried my best to fight. I whipped my tail around like crazy trying to defend myself. Everything was happening to fast, It seemed like a blur. Donnie and Mikey finally took out the rest of the Foot. It was just the five of us for the first time in months.

Leo blocked every swing Raph threw at him with his sais but never swung back. He kept asking Raph what he was doing and why. His answer was always "I can't tell you!" or "None of your business!" Finally they backed off from each other. They watched each other intensely while the rest of us stood on the side lines, bleeding, bruised, and hopeless.

Tear streamed down Leo's face. I could see him starting to tremble and shake. 'Oh no! Not now!' A panic attack was coming and he knew it too. He still stood his ground. Not even the bulging pain from bruises on his arms stopped him.

Don, Mikey, and I watched the two brothers. It was unbelievable that this was even happening. What came next though, sent us all, except Leonardo, into even more shock and surprise.

Despite everything that happened in the past two months, the pain, the rage, the silence, the fear, and the suffering Leo stood up tall. He melted out of his fighting stance and held his swords at his side. His voice was groggy and shaky but he spoke loud and clear. "If you won't tell me why you're doing this, then fine. I won't ask anymore. But Raph, you are my brother and I love you. I don't want to fight you anymore. If you have to do this, then go ahead. Do what you must." and flung his swords on the ground.

Needless to say, Raph did what he "had" to do. I tried to run and defend Leo but I was kicked aside in the stomach. Mikey and Don also ran to help their older brother but weren't able to get to him before he was thrown right in front of them. It was brutal.

Raph breathed heavily and said nothing. I finally broke the silence. "Raph?"

He turned and looked down at me. After that he relaxed his body and seemed to fill with regret. I saw tears starting to form in his eyes as I inched my over by Donnie, Mikey, and Leo.

Somethings were said that we all regret but no one could blame us right? I mean, our brother almost killed all of us. Thats why we sent him away to Shredder. Why would we ask him to come home after all of that?

I must have fallen asleep for while but when I was fully awake again, I sat there and remembered the events again. "Ugh. I don't want to believe this is happening." I whispered as I stroked Leo's face once again. 'I won't believe it.'

I looked up after a few minutes. "I will not believe this!" I spoke aloud. I then got up and placed a pillow under Leo's head. I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote a little note on it.

"Went for some fresh air.

Will be back soon. I'll be careful.

Promise.

~Ana"

I left the note next to snoring Donnie on his desk and left the lab. I saw Mikey fast asleep on the couch when I walked out through the main room of the lair. All was quiet and everyone was getting much needed rest. Except me.

It was about 7:00 a.m. when I left the lair. Darkness wouldn't last much longer so I had to get going. What I witnessed/experienced last night couldn't have happened without a reason. He wouldn't just all the sudden turn on us. I'm gonna find out why he did what he did. I had to get my questions answered. I had to talk to Raph.