Chapter Three

A/N: Now I've come to realize that I've been away for such a long time and I went a long time without updating and I truly apologize for that. I wanted my main focus to be on making my dream of publishing my first book , and I did that, and I'm proud of that accomplishment, but now I think I've kept you all waiting long enough, and I'm going to try to update my stories more often. Much loves… Xoxo

Ada

P.S. This is unedited so please excuse my mistakes, as I'm sure there are plenty.

"Welcome home, baby." Christian chanted excitedly, placing Ana on the floor of their home. Two days had gone by since she'd begged him to hold her and ever since, Christian did his best to make all his wrongs up to her, and for the most part it seemed to be working. Of course, Ana wasn't all forthcoming and forgiving, and he understood that. He betrayed her in the worst possible way, he broke her trust and visited the one person in the world that Ana despised the most, and Christian understood why she was as distant as she was, he did this, and he would spend the rest of his life, if that was what it took to make it up. All he wanted was for Ana to be happy, and for him to be the reason behind her smile again. Even if it took the rest of his life, he would make up for all the pain he'd caused her.

She felt the tears streaming down her face before she could respond; her body began to shake when the recollection of all that happened in the past week came rushing to her. Flashes of Jack, and the misery he'd put upon her went blazing through her mind, and no matter how hard she tried to stop it, she couldn't. Even though the timing wasn't perfect, Ana was becoming excited about the idea of becoming a mother, but she wouldn't have that anymore because Jack took that away, and though rationally she knew the blame was all upon her, a small part of her, a really small part couldn't help but to blame Christian. She couldn't help but wonder how the turn events would have gone had he just talked to her rather than storming out.

"Hey." Christian's soft voice spoke, breaking Ana away from all her bad thoughts. She felt him wrap his strong arms of comfort around her, and just like that all felt right in the world. Even with all that happened, and everything that was spiraling in her mind, Christian was her husband and she would fight for him until the very end of time. Not to mention, despite everything, they'd already been through so much, this was nothing; they'd make it through this just like they made it through everything else that had been thrown at them since the moment they met. "Shh, its okay. I'm here baby, and no one is ever going to hurt you again. Not ever. I'll protect you with all that I have."

"I'm sorry, Christian." Ana spoke through the tears, "I'm not sure how to pick myself up from this emotionally, all I can think about is the pain that lingers inside of me, its consuming me and I don't know how to stop that. I hate it so much, all I want to do is let the darkness take over and give into all that I'm feeling, but I know that I can't. I know that we were far from ready, especially with all you've been through in your life, but from the moment I found out I was pregnant, there was always this little bit of hope of having our own family." Ana said to him, wiping her eyes as Christian lifted her from the floor, and brought her upstairs and didn't stop until he reached the bathroom, setting her on the counter.

"Sweetheart, I know that I was cold, I acted like a complete dick and I can't tell you how much I hate myself for it. I regret everything I said to you since finding out you were pregnant, how I accused you of doing this on purpose, going to see Elena, everything. If there's anyone to put the blame on here, its me, and I'm so sorry I wasn't there to protect you, It wasn't fair. Nothing is fair. I can honestly tell you that even though I wasn't ready, I wanted to have a family with you, Ana. I was willing to try my best to be the best husband to you, and the best father to our child. You make me want to be that better man, from the moment I met you, you always made me want more, and I'm sorry I couldn't give you the more you wanted this time." Christian spoke in honesty. There weren't any word to excuse all he'd done, but with all that happened, and almost losing his life, he was beginning to want so much more than what he and Ana had right now. He wondered to himself what it might be like to build a home with a family with Ana. He wondered what their first child would look like, if it would end up being a little boy as stubborn as his father, or if it would be a little girl as smart and beautiful as her mother, but because of his actions, he wouldn't ever know. At least not right now.

"Christian, It's going to take time for me to be able to believe that. When I told you that I was pregnant, the loving, caring, Christian that I love so much, disappeared and you became irrational and cold. Something I can't ever forget. I understand why you reacted the way you did, minus going to see that God, awful woman. You didn't have a good childhood and you don't think much of yourself with parenthood, but at some point you have to face that fear, I do want a family. Its something I've always wanted. My point though is that, I know that we can get past this, and I will forgive you, but I'm going to need time . I love you Christian, and that won't change. I'm sorry that I put our baby at risk, and I'm sorry that I lost him, but small, irrational part of me still blames you, but I know that isn't fair to you. And I'm trying.

"I solemnly vow that I will safeguard and hold dear and deep in my heart our union and you.I promise to love you faithfully, forsaking all others, through the good times and the bad, in sickness and in health, regardless of where life takes us. I will protect you, trust you, and respect you. I will share your joys and sorrows and comfort you in times of need. I promise to cherish you and uphold your hopes and dreams and keep you safe at my side. All that is mine is now yours. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love from this moment on for as long as we both shall live." Christian recites his vows from their wedding day, taking Ana's face between his hands. "I spoke those vows to you on our wedding day, and I stand by each one to this day. No matter what it takes or what happens, I'll be here. If time is what you need, Anastasia, then I'm willing to give you that. Anything as long as I don't lose you."

"You're not going to lose me. I love you, Christian."

"I love you, too."

No matter what it took, Christian wouldn't ever give up. Ana brought something into his life that he didn't think he'd ever have. A heart. He wasn't going to let that go.