Something's never change. English still sucking majorly is one of them. I've been writing this paper for the last 2 hours when basically everyone is partying or on a date.

Yep, this is college. Woo Hoo.

I am trying something new, since the last two days I have also been writing this paper, but got lost in music or on the slap. So I have no music, no anything other than my books and my head, which apparently is filled with sawdust or all the lyrics from Cat's favorite songs.

On the subject of Cat, I just want to make one thing clear. Tonight has to be the worst night yet, which is odd since I couldn't sleep the week after we broke up, but it is. I'm getting my work done, but it seems like with every word makes me miss just her presence. She's kept kind of an invisi-barrier between any kind of anything really since school started. This whole friend's thing lasted maybe 5 minutes, and now I haven't talked to her in a week.

And it just makes me miss her more, if that's even possible. I want to text, but I know she won't respond. Call? No, she'll just let it roll to voicemail. And in person she just hides behind Jade, who she has taken with her into her turtle shell of shyness around me.

The whole Jade thing really angers me. Now that she's taking her too, she has taken away both of my life boats to talk too, leaving me and my stupid head, which research has CLEARLY shown that I will have a meltdown if I don't talk to someone!

Then it hits me.

Tori

I quickly snatch up my phone and shoot off a text.

Hey Tor, plz text me back when you have a min to talk. Thx- Robbie.

I try to concentrate on the last few lines of my paper, which is about the "importance of word choice in 'The Chronicles of Narnia' by C.S. Lewis."

I love the books, so this wasn't that hard to write, but it's LONG. Plus the fact that I really would rather be—

Buzz, Buzz.

Sure, I'm at home if you want to talk face to face.-Tori :)

I'd like to do that if you don't mind. I replied.

Go ahead, I'll just quickly clean the living room ;) - Tori

I'm surprised that she said yes so quickly. I type out the two remaining words for the paper and dash to Tori's.

"Knock, Knock."

The door swung open to reveal Tori looking cheerful and oddly enough awake.

"Hey! How are you?" She greeted peppily, moving aside so I could come inside.

"Confused honestly."

If she was worried, she didn't show it. "Cat?" she guessed.

"Yep."

"Why?"

"She said she wanted to be friends, but she hasn't spoken to me in a couple of weeks, and has now dragged Jade away from me."

She blinked and sipped her water. "That's not fair of her. I would be surprised, but she's done this before." She said plainly.

Movie date: Part One.

"I know, and I shouldn't really want her around so much since I did break up with her and all, but…I still do."

"Robbie, this isn't your fault. This time, yeah, you had a gigantic fight and she said that she didn't want to date you sometimes. Last time, she didn't say anything and let you twist in the wind. The time before that, she dated another guy behind your back. There is one common theme here. You may have messed up, but this is not your fault. It's all her doing. If she hadn't have said that, then could you have patched things up?"

"Yeah…" I admit. "It would have taken some time, but we could have."

"But she said what she said and look where you are now. Robbie, I…wish I could fix this, and make her stop saying and doing things that break you two apart. I think…" She opened her mouth to say more, but quickly shut it and grabbed her water and went to refill it.

"Tori, what? What do you think?" I asked, getting to my feet and followed her into the kitchen.

"Nothing. I shouldn't say it." She deflected, looking away.

"Tori…"

"Fine! I don't think she deserves you! She's screwed you over one too many times to get away with it. She needs to let you go and allow you to thrive."

"Ok, I've heard that before. Why shouldn't you have said it? It's nothing really new." I asked.

She looked away again. "It's not something a friend should say about someone's ex-boyfriend."

"I don't mind, you're just—"

Being honest.

I swear I was going to say that.

But she whipped around, grabbed my neck and pulled me into a deep kiss.

I instinctively grabbed her waist, not actually thinking. By the time my brain caught up, she had already pulled away, but hadn't let me go yet.

WHOA! What on earth is going on!

"Wha—I mean…why?" I sputtered out.

Tori blushed, and then put her head onto my shoulder.

"I'm sorry. She really doesn't deserve you. I'm just trying to put my feelings aside and do what's best for the both of you."

We are not doing this thing again. I have already done it once with Cat.

"No." I said, causing her to look at me funny. "Putting yourself out of the way isn't going to help Tori. You can't always be selfless. Sometimes you have to do think about you before anyone else."

"I…shouldn't. You guys were happy together. And will be at some point again. I don't want to be a road block"

"Tori…who says we're getting back together? Nobody."

She looked conflicted, then glanced at me.

"Are you mad?"

"Mad about what? There isn't anything to be mad about." I said. She sighed and hugged me.

"I…I don't really know what to think right now Robbie, and you always know what to say and…"

"Well, will you tell me when you get your thoughts together?" I asked.

"Promise." She said, sounding miserable.

"Ok then. I'll see you in class tomorrow?"

"Definitely. Can I sit by you?"

"You don't have to ask, just do it." I smiled.

Apparently she twisted my words and decided to kiss my cheek.

"Ok, see you tomorrow. Hope I helped out with Cat and all."

Yeah…up until you lip locked me…

This is going to be a looooooooong night.