ok so I'm so glad you guys like this it means a lot :) I know this is more of a sad heavy beginning but I promise it will have smut in it. So this one will be a roller coaster of emotion but I did put a spin in it so I hope you enjoy. Please r&r and feel free to write me any suggestions you may have. Any criticism is fine I can take it. Now here is the next chapter

I close my eyes not wanting to see her reaction." Oh Emma." She says in a whisper " I have to go." I say and I turn to leave I walk out the door in a rush to leave. I run down the stairs crying. Why would I do that? Why would I say it like that? What the hell was I thinking. Deep into thought I didn't hear Regina call me let alone stand in front of the door. When I look up I take a step back in surprise. " Emma you can't leave its 12 am. Your dad called and I told him you were staying the night. He said he did not mind. I'm not letting you go out this late let alone upset." She said looking me in the eye and I can't tell how she's feeling so I avert my eyes looking at the floor. "I'm sorry Regina i just..." I try to finish but my throat clenches as my tears fall freely. "Did you mean it?" She says in a soft choked voice making me look up and I see she's crying. "Yes. I'm sorry Gina. I understand if you never want to see me again. I never meant to tell you like that." I try to get to the door but she block me and I step back again."Em what was that about . You scared me. And not much scares me." She says placing a hand on my shoulder causing me to flinch. " I... I can't Regina. I didn't mean to. I didn't know where I was it was just a bad dream. " I look down at the floor and shift from foot to foot. I know she doesn't believe me but I don't want to tell her the truth it's bad enough she's seen me so vulnerable. I don't want her to get hurt because of me and I don't want her to look at me any different. Regina steps around me walking back upstairs. I go for the door but before I get to it she tells me to follow her. I sigh not knowing what to do. I hear her say it again in a more stern voice and I follow her back up the stairs.

We walk back to her room and she sits on the couch not even lookin at me. I can't help but feel like running. It's what I'm good at every time things get hard. But she's still crying and I can't help but stay knowing I caused it. I walk over and sit on the other side of the couch giving her space. "Emma please tell me." She says in a soft tone that makes my heart melt. " Regina look its a long story. I don't even know what's going on here. I just told you I'm in love with you and I don't know where we stand. I don't even know if you hate me." I say in a soft choked voice. She places a hand on my knee and I look away."I could never hate you Em. You just surprised me. But this...what you said..." She tries to find the words but I shake my head ." I don't expect anything Regina. I never have but I promised Neal I would tell you. That I would open my heart to the possibility and hope for the best. I know you will never feel the same and that's something I will have to deal with but you don't have to pity me. You are the only person who has never pitied me please don't start now." We both stay silent for what felt like hours and she finally removes her hand. I feel her move and I feel like I've lost her. But before I know it she's in front of me on her knees placing her left hand under my chin forcing me to look at her. My breath hitches and I search her eyes not knowing what she's doing. She gives me a soft smile and leans in kissing me softly. My eyes go wide and it takes me a second to close my eyes and kiss back. Her lips are so soft and I savor the moment. She pulls back and I keep my eyes closed. "Emma I could never hate you. I'm glad you told me. I want you to know you can tell me anything...Emma look at me." She cups my cheek and I lean into it slowly opening my eyes and she's smiling a genuine smile. "There are those beautiful green eyes."she says and drops her hand. I immediately miss the contact and frown a little. "I...wow..." I say speechless trying to calm my racing heart. Regina laughs softly." Yea. Wow. I've wanted to do that ever since I laid eyes on you." She says and I swear If I was about to faint. This can't be real I must still be dreaming. I think to myself. I stand up leaving Regina confused as I walk to the bed."no. This has to be some kind of cruel dream or something." I say shaking my head in disbelief and I hear Regina walk towards me. " Emma you are very much awake. Sweetheart I love you too...Will you please look at me?"

I just shake my head again ." No...no I know this is just a dream you could never love me. No one could ever love me.." I say but then It hit me. I turn around and she's frowning at me with fresh tears in her eyes. Fuck it if this is just a dream I will make it a good one. Then i walk toward her with determination and she looks at me ."Emma..." I cut her off placing my hands on her cheeks and placing my lips on hers. She instantly kisses back and I feel like I'm flying. She slides her tongue across my bottom lip. I slide my tongue into her mouth. She tastes like apples and man she tastes good. I drop my hand to her waist and pull her as close as possible as she wraps her arms around my neck never breaking the kiss. I slide my hands under shirt and up her back feeling the goosebumps it causes. Regina moans into the kiss and the sound travels all the way to my core. I slowly walk Regina to the wall placing my right hand on her waist and my left hand wraps her leg around me. I deepen the kiss as our tongues fight for dominance. I slide my left hand up her thigh and slowly place it over her ass squeezing softly. She breaks the kiss throwing her head back with a low moan. I kiss her jaw and make my way to her neck. I bite softly pressing her harder against the wall gaining a moan from her. "Emma" she moans and I grind my thigh against her center. She moans loudly. "Emma we have to stop." She say breathlessly and I immediately stop and lift my head up.i rest my forehead on hers and close my eyes.

I steady my breathing and open my eyes. "Even though this isn't real this is the best moment of my life." I say and she brings her hands up to cup my face. "Emma this is real. I'm here with you. You don't have to be afraid and you are capable of being loved." She says and my head reels with knowing this is real. I step back and just look at her with wide eyes and disbelief. She grabbed my hand and raised it to her lips kissing it softly. Oh my god this is happening. I think to myself. And I just did that and she's here and she knows oh my god. She pulls me to the bed and sits patting the spot next to her. I sit down and I can't help but be happy in this moment." Look Emma I want you to talk to me. And I don't want you to lie because I know it wasn't just the dream that made you act like that so I need you to tell me what that was about." I stiffen up at the change of topic but i knew she didn't buy my excuse so I was expecting it.

I try to relax but I can't. How did we end up on this topic anyway this is too much. I think and my instincts to run start to over power me but Regina placed her hand on my thigh and I instantly relax. I sigh in defeat and look to the floor."when I was with my second foster family it seamed like I had a second chance. When I first got there with my social worker they seamed really nice and the kids looked happy. But as soon as she left things changed." I look up at her and she listening intently. I take a deep breath and continue "they would lock the refrigerator and all the cabinets and barely fed us. At night they would turn off the breaker to every room but theirs. And I was afraid of the dark. I learned that rule the first night. I cried for them but that was a mistake. " I start to fiddle with my fingers trying to keep the panic from the memory at bay. "Anyway after a few minutes barged in the room. He was mad so I told him I was scared but he...he rushed to me and pulled my hair back really hard. I told him he was hurting me but he laughed. He told me no one cries in his house but I was so scared and he was hurting me." I feel the panic start to get the better of me and I feel Regina moving. She sits against the headboard and pulls me to lay down and rest my head on her lap. Once I'm laying she moves my hair out of my face and rests her hand hand on my shoulder. My panic subsides so I continue. "He looked at me and slapped me across my face." I hear her gasp. I sigh knowing I need to get this over with." After that he choked me saying if I'm not a good little girl and go by the rules that he would teach me a lesson. That went on almost everyday. I was the one who got it worse. But a week before I was taken away he came in my room really mad. He would always come in when he was mad even if I didn't do anything. But this time he was worse then ever. He slapped me and choked me again but this time harder I tried to scratch at him but he just got angrier. He let go and punched me a few times. I tried to scream but he choked me again. He told me if I told anyone that he will finish what he started. But his last words before I passed out were I will always find you and when I do I will kill everyone you love because you are mine." By this point I'm crying my eyes out. And Regina is silent but I can hear her sniff so I sit up to look at her. She has bloodshot eyes and tears falling freely. She looks at me and I expect to see pity but all I see is compassion and somehow understanding. Before I can say anything she pulls me into a hug."Oh Emma you are the strongest person I have ever met." She whispers and pulls back to look me in the eye. She wipes my tears with her thumbs and kisses me softly. "You do deserve love Emma. You deserve everything the world has to offer. But right now we both need sleep." She says and kisses my forehead. "Yeah I agree we need sleep. I haven't cried this much in a long time." I say and move to lay down and Regina does the same. Once we are laying Regina faces me." Thank you for trusting me enough to tell me. Though I didn't give you much choice." I turn to face her and give her a sad smile."thank you for listening and not giving me pity. I trust you with my life Gina." With that we both fall into a deep sleep.