Thanks for all the lovely comments guys – I really appreciate them. There are some hints to 4x20 here so just be warned. Obviously I'm ignoring bits of it otherwise we know Olivia wouldn't be with Rollins – but I'm just taking a few bits for continuity. Enjoy!

Chapter 3

As they sat down to dinner on Friday night at Olivia's place the distance was palpable. Amanda was a million miles away. She was dwelling on the heartache of the week gone of the young woman who had lost her life, the young woman she knew wasn't alright, but who she couldn't do anything for. It was an experience Amanda was all too familiar with, knowing what was best for someone but having it thrown back in your face because the person had other ideas.

"Mand?" Olivia knew she had been talking to herself. She wanted to get the blonde out of this destructive train of thought.

"Hmm?"

"The Gala, what do you think?"

"What?"
"Sorry, horrible week I know where your head is, don't worry. God one of those idiots called me Ma'am – I almost hit him for that alone"

Amanda chuckled. "Would have liked to have seen that alright".

"Mand you couldn't do anymore than you did"

"I know, I just…" She couldn't finish the sentence and she didn't really need to, Olivia already knew. She moved her chair closer to Amanda's and pulled her in gently to kiss her on the cheek. "I'm here when you need to talk, any time you know that?"

Amanda nodded and pulled back. "Sorry you were saying something. What's up?"

"Captain asked, sorry told us all, to attend this charity gala in aid of officers injured in the line of duty on Saturday night if we're not on. You were there but you weren't – bit like a few minutes ago"

"Sorry Liv"
"It's ok hun, just let me know yay or nay on whether we are going so I can get back to Cragen. Huh, actually, that's weird."
"What"
"Well the Captain told me to ask you tonight what you thought. Why would he presume I'd be seeing you tonight?"
"Well don't look at me, I can control my hands unlike you Feely McFeelerson with your hand on my ass at the photocopier where half a dozen people could see."

"Me?" Olivia looked at her indignant and reiterated "Me?" What about you and your total inability to allow me to leave a room without having your eyes follow me, don't think I haven't noticed. The Captain probably did too". Amanda laughed but she realised Olivia didn't join in.
She looked panicked for a few seconds and Amanda reached beside her to touch her arm. "Liv, calm. Did he say anything else?"
"No"
"Well he probably just meant to tell you to tell me whenever you saw me with my head out of the clouds but got confused, or thought we were heading to Maguire's after we were done"

"Hmm maybe" Olivia wasn't convinced but she wasn't going to labour the point. "Anyway now that your head is out of the clouds, do you own a dress?"

"Eh no I think my so-called sister took them all" It was taking Amanda time but she was slowly but surely building her wardrobe back up.

"Ah ok yeah. Well this thing is black tie. So we might have to have a little shopping expedition"

Amanda groaned. The reason her wardrobe was building up so slowly was because she hated shopping. It brought her back to the bad days when she used to lose so much she couldn't make rent and then win so big she'd buy so much stuff, including clothes, that she didn't have enough to make rent again. Either way she lived in quite a few dives.

"Ok, only if we can stop half way for lunch at that bakery on W59th though"

Olivia laughed. Amanda had fallen hard for the chocolate éclairs that they sold in this particular bakery. Olivia had made the mistake of a detour there one morning before work to get cakes for the squad and she was now a regular. Amanda ran them off of course, the rest of the squad weren't so lucky.

"Ok deal"

Amanda's fingers were drawing circles on Olivia's wrist and she slipped her hand down to intertwine her fingers.

"Show me what you're going to wear"

Olivia frowned "Why?"
"I just want to get a preview before everyone else"

Olivia nodded. If it was going to make Amanda happy she was more than willing to do it. She stood and kissed her quickly on the lips and then headed towards the spare room after making the blonde promise she wouldn't peak.

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When Olivia came into the lounge area twenty minutes later Amanda was sitting patiently, eyes closed, on the sofa.

When she saw a shadow in the corner of her eye line she knew the Detective was standing there.

What she saw when she opened her eyes took her breath away.

Olivia's hair was brought up in twist at the back a few stray curls falling down, she hadn't re-done her make-up but Amanda knew it really only added a bit of colour to an already naturally beautiful face. And the dress; Amanda followed it with her eyes, from the wide straps of the shoulders to the small v that hinted perfectly at those breasts Amanda loved to lavish attention on. The waist was synched in with a red band of sheer material that you could almost see through. The dress continued on its figure-hugging trail over her curves to calve length where it stopped and some black tulle had been sewn along the bottom - a similar style to the red, slightly see through.

Olivia stood there, and on hip, right toe pointed showing off red heels that were a perfect match for the material in the middle of the dress.

Amanda's mouth was open but no words were coming out.

Olivia was secretly proud she could cause that kind of reaction in anyone. She questioned sometimes who in their right mind would find her attractive. But seeing the look in Amanda's eyes right now made her think she was desirable and beautiful. Amanda made her feel beautiful. She chided the blonde to hide the embarrassment; "Close your mouth or you'll catch flies Rollins. So you approve?"

"I… eh… hmm"

Olivia smiled "Cat got your tongue detective?"

Amanda didn't have an answer. She wasn't thinking in a coherent pattern, she just needed to act.

Amanda got up off the sofa and approached her and grabbed the red clutch that Olivia was holding from her hand, throwing it on the sofa behind her. Olivia had 4 inches on her in the heels but it didn't matter, there was that much force behind the pushing Amanda did to get her up against the nearest wall, Olivia didn't have time to resist. Almost simultaneously she felt Amanda's lips on hers and her hand beneath the dress pushing it up to her waist. Amanda used the other hand to pull the clip out of Olivia's hair.

Amanda said in a low husky voice "You cannot wear that to any gala because I won't be held responsible for the whole of NYPD seeing you naked when I rip it off you with my teeth". Olivia loved how Amanda's accent became more pronounced when she was turned on. It made her aroused in response.

Amanda turned Olivia around and pinned her against the wall. The dress was now riding up around Olivia's hips and Amanda smiled into the back of Olivia's neck when she realised she had no underwear on.

"Pretty sure of yourself aren't ya?" Amanda moved Olivia's hair aside and bit down gently on her neck leaving a mark her hair would cover the next day.

Olivia could only moan in response as she felt Amanda bite her and slip her finger slowly forward and into her wet folds. Amanda pushed the dress up slightly more so it was resting on Olivia's hips and turned her around again.

"I need to see that face while I do this"
Olivia smiled as the kissed the blonde frantically hands running through hair, finger nails digging in, breasts being squeezed through clothes. Amanda however, had only one destination on her mind.

She pulled away from the kiss and dropped to her knees in her tight dark jeans, her pale pink top riding up slightly to show off her flat stomach. Olivia caught a glimpse of that small bit of skin and made a mental note to mark it later so that when Amanda's top rose up tomorrow if she stretched she'd see it and remember what they'd done the night before. They'd started leaving little marks on each other here and there as a reminder and to cause a smile when glimpsed in the mirror,

Olivia's eyes closed tight, her breath hitched in her chest, her hands stroking through blonde hair.

Amanda knelt there just looking at Olivia for half a minute, enjoying the look of arousal on the beautiful brunette's face. She barely touched her and Olivia was already wet, Amanda couldn't resist anymore and had just request as she moved forward "watch me Liv"

Amanda's tongue ran the length of her lover's folds, circling her outer lips and moving to the inner ones. Making one long line from the entrance of her vagina to her clit she stopped and took Olivia's clit into her mouth and sucked it so hard Olivia tensed and grabbed her hair much tighter

"There Mand, ah fuck there, don't stop" Olivia's heart was beating a mile a minute and she was gasping for air.

"Mand, inside please" Olivia wasn't above begging when she was this turned on. And she'd been turned on since half 2 this afternoon when Olivia had whispered in her ear about how she was going to 'fuck her hard' when she got her home.

Amanda opened her mouth and took the skin surrounding Olivia's clit into her mouth, her clitoral hood causing friction. Amanda was playing a game with Liv. She knew this wasn't the inside she was talking about but she wanted to hear her say it"

She continued sucking and when she looked up she saw a spark in the older detectives that told her she was in trouble later for prolonging this agony – Amanda couldn't wait to feel that trouble.

When Olivia caught her breath again she clarified

"Amanda Rollins… put your fucking … fingers inside… me now" she panted it out eventually

Amanda smiled and rested her head against Olivia's pubic bone to catch her breath

"Your wish is my command"

Amanda inserted the tip of her index finger inside Olivia, gently circling. Olivia cried out in frustration and Amanda relented.

She slipped two fingers into the mounting wetness and slid them in and out with ease. She was amazed at how wet Olivia was. They sometimes used lube because it took some time for either of them to get aroused when they were stressed, which was often in their line of work. Right now Amanda was able to slip a third finger in with ease and she felt Olivia push herself hard down on the three fingers, trying desperately to cum.

She knew what was needed and she wanted to hear Olivia scream. She had just one request again "Liv look at me"

Olivia pulled her head away from the wall and opened her eyes to look at the blonde between her legs. She watched as Amanda moved in and took her clit into her mouth again, swirling her tongue around, her subsequent sucking mirroring the speed of her fingers.

"Oh oh fuck Amanda, I can't, yes…" Olivia kept her eyes wide open as she felt herself fall over the edge into orgasm, felt the fingers inside her curl and hit her g-spot, eventually feeling the mouth sucking on her clit withdraw to be replaced with a tongue lapping gently, easing her down.

Olivia was finding it extremely difficult to stand. She had put her hand on Amanda's head to steady herself while she was taking her, but now as the orgasm wracked her body she couldn't find her balance. She started to bend over but just as quickly she felt an arm across her hips and stomach holding her upright. She felt Amanda's fingers slide out of her and Amanda began to stand up slipping her hands around her waist and feeling Olivia's head fall against her shoulder.

After a few minutes she felt Olivia move off her shoulder, her breathing calmer.

"You ok?"
"Eh I can't walk, other than that I'm fine"

Amanda kissed her gently on the cheek and whispered into her ear
"Well if you can't walk maybe we should go lie down?"

The only response she got was 'mmm' as she guided the dark haired detective to her bedroom.

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