I'M A FREAK, SHERLOCK!

(NESSIE'S POV)

Since last two hours, I'm in my room. Half of the time, I spent pacing about thinking of some way to stop myself from going and the other half, crying in my bed. I heard some heavy footsteps up the staircase coming towards my room and then there was a…

Why am I even expecting a knock when I know it's Seth?

"Nessie, what the hell is that I hear?" I heard him say.

"I don't know what you hear. I'm not a mind reader like dad, am I?" I replied, from under my pillow.

"Oh, get out of the bed. I gotta talk to you." He said.

"Let me be." I answered. He thrust the covers off me and then my pillow. He pulled me up and made me sit. I would've been looking really beat that is why he was totally concerned.

"Hey, kiddo. Don't cry." He made me lay my head on his shoulder and held me tight.

"I don't wanna go. I don't wanna be the reason you guys will be hurt." I answered. "Isn't there way that I could stay here and no one is hurt?"

"Look, everything's gonna be okay after some time." He said.

"Will you promise me something, Seth?" I said.

"Yeah?" he asked.

"You won't tell Jake anything over your life till I don't say anything." I answered.

"But?" he exclaimed.

"Please, Seth. Don't phase for a few days with Jake or with anyone for that case. Don't spit out anything in front of him before I tell him. I will tell him as soon as I can." I replied.

Seth finally promised me to keep it a secret. Finally, I decided to get over it. I walked downstairs to hear Brady and Collin cheering for something or… someone. I didn't get the exact but still. I found out that Emmett and Seth were arm wrestling.

"Arm wrestling? Cool." I said, turning on my happy mode and went to sit beside Seth.

"So, which side you're on?" Brady asked me.

"Why?" I questioned.

"We're betting five bucks. Both of us are with Emmett winning." Cole replied.

"And they're supposed to be your brothers, Seth?" I told Seth. "I'm with Seth."

"He's losing, Nessie. And you're losing your five bucks." Brady said.

"Well, you know what. He won't." I said assertively. Seth fist pumped with me and in that matter of the moment, Emmett pushed down Seth's hand on the table.

"That just happened." Emmett said in a swaggering voice.

"That's unfair." I shouted.

"Everything's fair in love and war and this…is World war 3." Emmett replied.

"Ness, take out the money." Brady said. Seth had taken out the money and I stopped him finally.

"No, Seth. If they're unfair, we'll be unfair. I'll take a chance, if I lose then we're giving you your five bucks plus five bucks." I replied. They all began laughing hysterically. What did they think of me? I know I'm not really Emmett's competition but still I am a hybrid. You know what, they shouldn't underestimate to me. "You three are gonna regret this."

For a long time, I tried my best not to get my hand down which was nearly impossible for me but I realized it was vain, I was losing anyway: my self-respect and my money too. I wished if I could only make him feel instead of just making him watch something like when Kate (my Denali cousin). I remember how once when she was going to try it on Emmett and I accidently took the challenge. Boy was it painful.

"NESSIE! WHAT THE HELL?!" he shouted and just in a matter of half a second, I pushed his hand down. He fell down holding his hand.

"Oh, Emmett, don't be such a drama queen." I said, tasting my victory against him.

"No, he's in real pain, Ness." Rose came in, trying to hold him up. "Edward's facing the same."

"Why?" Seth asked.

"Edward's inside…he was kind of reading brains so…" Rosalie answered.

"So, how's this actually happening?" I questioned.

"Gifts are and can be developed over time." Grandpa Carlisle came in. I gave him a confused look. "You know, might have been that your are projecting yourself more these days."

"I don't know. I think it was just a shockwave like you have earthquakes." I said.

"We'll see. Your dad and I could check it. We've met some projectors like Zafrina, Kate and Natalie. Why don't we talk to them about this?" grandpa asked me.

"I don't get this. How is this happening all of a sudden?" I questioned. So, grandpa decided to call the Denalis and talked to Eleazer. He had met a lot of vampires who had different kind of gifts and he had been the one who discovered mom's gift. So, he told me not to touch anything till a couple of hours because this situation could worsen. If I slipped something at some random time like this, it was possible I might slip something else any other second.

"So, I am not even allowed to touch anything?" I asked grandma.

"I don't know. Eleazer says you might as well break something if you slip something wrong." She replied.

"Now I know what a hand grenade feels like." I told her.

"Who feels like a hand grenade?" I heard Jake's voice. He was already inside and I hadn't smelt him for the first time. Weird. "So, what's up? Seth told me you defeated Emmett in arm wrestling."

"Yeah, it was a victory." I replied, holding my hand up for high-five.

"Jake, don't!" mom called but it was too late. We had high-fived.

"Why? Something wrong?" Jake asked.

"So, nothing wrong? You feel fine?" I questioned him.

"What? You wanna become a doctor or something?" he asked me. "Oh, right. The answer. I am fine, doctor. Nothing wrong."

"Jeez, no. actually, I shocked Emmett, literally and even dad. Both of them are resting and that's why grandpa called Eleazer. He thinks he knows the situation." I told him.

So, it so happened that Eleazer came after a few hours and asked me to test my developed skills on him. Nothing happened.

We tried a few more times but nothing happened. Now this drove me crazy and finally, the next time when I touched Eleazer's skin, he was shouting.

"WHAT HAPPENED?" I asked.

"It pained. Near to what Jane does but it lasted for a short time." He told me.

"I'm sorry. So, am I like…dangerous?" I questioned.

"Well, we'll control it, Nessie. Kate and Alice should've been here by now." He replied.

"Kate's here? And you sent her with Alice for shopping?" Dad asked.

"Isn't that like that biggest mistake ever?" mom filled in. I laughed.

"So, how am I supposed to control this?" I questioned finally.

"The way I do." We all heard Kate from our back. She and Alice were finally back home. Both had thousand shopping bags in their hands.

"Hey, Kate!" I said from my place. I was really tired and I didn't want to a) get hurt myself or b) hurt her. "So, how do you do it?"

"My mother was a burn sense conductor. So, when I slipped, she would give me a burn shock. She did it till the time I didn't get a control on myself. It was kind of training." She told me. "Let's go to the woods. Esme won't like it if we break anything here."

"What do you mean? You're not hurting her, get that clear Kate!" Jake retorted.

"Don't worry, Jake. It'll cause just a …little pain. But you must've heard: No pain, no gain." She said.

So, here we were standing in the woods while she was trying to provoke me to do something. I came back with a combat reply and it was a burning sensation. She hit back with her electric wave and I fell down.

"Ness, you okay?" Jake tried to help me up.

"I'm…I'm okay." I answered. It really hurt though.

So, finally after a few hours, we got to stage one. I discovered I could not only project my thoughts but my senses and feelings. Next day, we took to stage two which was controlling from slipping. I had tired myself really badly and I need to feed more now. I decided to go and hunt with mom and I even had something to talk to her about. We kept our speeds down and I decided to break the silence now.

"Mom, when you met dad for the first time, what did you feel?" I questioned her. She stared at me.

"Why did you ask this all of a sudden?" she questioned me.

"I…uh…just like that." I replied.

"It was kinda like a curiosity to know him. I knew I was a freak before but I wanted to be perfect with him." she answered. Has anything like that ever happened?

FLASHBACK…

I know it's not the first time Jake and I are going out for a drive but still. I don't get why I want to seem hotter than those sexy waitresses who give Jake their numbers at the back of the bill.

END OF FLASHBACK…

Okay, it has happened.

"What?!" I asked, laughing.

"Yeah, it happens. You know, we've never had this talk, have we? I know I was pretty late with my love life but…when I fell in love, it was my last love." She said.

"Hmm. I kinda get it. So, ah, who smells an elk?" I said. Thank god, it came at the right time. We went back home after done feeding.

"Someone's tired?" Jake's warm and sexy voice rung in my ears.

My heart skipped a beat and then, redoubled. My cheeks turned red. Mom gave me a look that said, clearly; "Are you okay?" but the truth was, I wasn't. I had to do something to get rid of this. I had to push Jake away from me. I don't want it to be hurting for me when he imprints. I know I don't have any chance with him. I mean c'mon! He's an alpha male and I'm a hybrid who's the youngest and least experienced in her coven. He's incredibly hot and I look like…a freak. I know I'm a hybrid but why am I not perfect as everyone else in my family is? Look at mom and Rose. They're both just models. Alice is pretty in a cute kind of way, like a baby but me…I stand nowhere. I don't even really understand my feelings for him. Do I just like him? Is it just infatuation? I mean considering that Jake is like 16 and a half years elder to me. He can get any girl in this world. He's that good looking.

"Nessie, I asked something. 'Member?" he asked snapping his fingers in front of my eyes.

"Oh yeah. I was listening." I replied.

"Cassie was having a sleepover. You wanna go?" he questioned me. "It's not gonna be an exact sleepover. We're all going to watch a movie or two."

"Who all?" I asked, falling on the couch.

"Cassie, Brady, Cole, Katelyn, Quil, Embry, me, Seth and the others. What say?"

"Uh…mom, can I go?" I asked her.

"Yeah, you need some time off the training session." Mom said.

So, I went upstairs and changed into my movie pajamas. Well, the imprints usually have these kind of movie nights which I (I don't know how), am usually invited to.

So, when we went there, everyone had their own spot in couples. Leah and Seth were sitting together because it none of them had imprinted. We usually have this kind of a meet at Paul's house since the living room is pretty large and enough to fit about twenty five people at a time to watch a movie, out of which 16-17 are wolves and the rest, are imprints (excluding me of course). Jake and I got our corner at the end which is usually the best to scare the shit out of Quil, Danny, Mike and a few others. Cassie loves to tape in horror movies because it's always fun to hear them scream. She is much of a pretty badass like me but she's really beautiful and in all ways, she is something a guy would regret to lose. I mean she's got long brown hairs till her waist that form ringlets and large, clear blue eyes. She's smart, confident and knows how to talk. She's not a native since Paul and she are step siblings but still they have a pretty real sibling like relationship. So, by the way, where were we? Oh, yeah, our corner. Jake and I were having fun in scaring Quil who actually threw the popcorn on Danny's face almost thrice. We both didn't have any idea movie was going on but still…I loved being with him. What was happening with me? Soon, they switched to the next movie which was pretty boring. So, I fell asleep with my head in Jake's lap.

Later in the morning, we all went to the beach and I had no mood to go back home. We had our breakfast at Uley's and lazed about on the beach. Maddie, Cassie and I were sitting on a log that was somehow kept on the beach while the others were playing football. Even though Maddie was a shape shifter, she wasn't a tomboy. She was more of a miss prissy. I saw Jake, playing crazily, yet laughing. He hadn't been wearing a shirt, no shape shifter was and his hair was laced with sweat. My mind was so occupied staring at him that I had no idea what Cassie or Maddie were saying. Just then, something happened. Jake's team lit up and he smirked at me. My heart, just like the previous day, skipped and then, it ran as fast as 100 miles per hour.

"Nessie, you okay?" Maddie asked me.

"Yeah, have you been listening to anything I said?" Cassie added.

"I'm fine. Yeah, I was listening." I told them both.

"No, I heard that. What's wrong with you?" Maddie questioned.

"Heard what?" I tried to act innocent.

"Your heartbeat when you saw Jake." Maddie said.

"Uh…what? Nothing's wrong? You might be hear-hallucinating?" I lied.

"No, seriously. Something is pretty much wrong with you. Whenever you see Jake since like some months, you seem as if you're drugged." Cassie told me.

"I have not been acting that crazy." I said assertively and paused. "Have I?"

"Of course, you…wait. You…you like Jake?" Cassie almost screamed.

"Shut up! Would you? Who else is noticing this?" I asked.

"Katy and I, mostly. Maddie a bit but we haven't told anyone yet." Cassie answered.

"Please, don't tell anyone about this. I mean, right now, I'm not sure of this and…I don't want it to go all messed." I said.

"You can trust us. Maddie, do not slip this, okay?" Cassie ordered her. "Aw…our little girl's in love."

"Oh, c'mon!" I protested. In a few minutes, I heard the song 'Burn' playing somewhere as if a ringtone. I too had that song as a ringtone, didn't I? Oh, it was my phone.

"Oh, great. It's Alice." I told Maddie and Cassie. I guess I was going back home.

"Hey, morning!" I greeted her.

"So, fun time's over. Get your butt back, Nessie." It was Kate.

"God, I am getting good at this. Can't I please have fun a little longer?" I asked. (Translation: can't I stare at Jake a little longer?)

"I know, I know. It is a tad irritating but remember…"

"No pain, no gain." I filled in.

"See ya at home." She said.

"Fine. Bye." I muttered and hung up. Jake came to me, seeing my face that was off and started tickling me really bad.

"Jake…leave me." I said, whilst laughing.

"Why're you so sad?" he asked me.

"Jake, I swear if you don't leave me, it's not gonna be good." I said. "Fine…fine. Kate's calling me back, now leave Me." he let me go.

We went to his truck and got in. I leaned by the window glass. The clouds suggested that it was going to rain.

"Nessie?" he called me.

"Hmm?"

"You're leaving for Calgary, aren't you?" he questioned me.

"How do you know?" I asked, alarmed.

"Rosalie told me." he answered. His hand moved to cover mine and squeezed it gently.

"I'm leaving this week." I said. "Weekend." I added.

"Can't I like…come with you?" he asked me. I looked at him, his eyes staring into mine intently.

"Jake…" I looked away. "You need to be here for the pack. Besides Rosalie is coming with me. Coming with me is going to be risking everything. Besides, Rosalie is my family and I don't want that the pack loses their alpha because of me."

"Don't you remember that time when the Volturi came for you?" He told me, his voice going a bit annoyed. "Nessie, I was the one with you at that time. I was the one who was supposed to get you out safely. Bella made you promise that you would be with me but…"

"Jacob, it's going to be dangerous and I won't want you in trouble because of me. You know what Jake? I am the reason everyone's in trouble. I am somewhat like a …jinx, okay? So, I should go. It's time you guys get rid of me." I said. I knew I was in tears, so I shut up.

"Nessie?" Jake squeezed my hand again.

"I don't wanna talk about this anymore, please." I said. He drove in silence and I stayed shut. Only the music system featured songs and they were just matching the situation somewhat like 'Gotta be you' and 'Summer Love'. I squeezed in my seat. Soon, he pulled up in front of my place. I jumped out of the truck while he got down after me.

"Nessie, wait." He called after me but I didn't listen and went into the same woodland area where I trained. I had blocked my brain because I didn't want dad to know about this. One thing I had in my head was that if I die, Finn will stop those newborns and it'll be much easier to keep it safe for the people who had nothing to do with this. So, I had to gather myself together and understand each and every part of this and plan what to do.

The training that day went on for long. I had no idea where it was going but still Kate said I was doing well according to me. Soon, I started getting tired and got thirsty. Jake had been sitting there all along and I was trying my best to avoid eye contact but it kept happening that every now and then, when I would fall on my knees, tired, he would come to help me. It was annoying but I wanted him safe anyway. I wanted my family safe anyhow. If Finn wanted to kill me, he was going to fulfill his wish.

When we stopped or to say that even Kate tired herself, Jake tried to help me walk but I stopped him. I walked by myself till I almost stumbled on the stairs.

"Nessie, you okay?" mom sped to me and helped me.

"Yeah, I'm…I'm fine, mom." I muttered. My chest hurt from all the drainage of my energy. I shut my eyes tight.

"Ness, sweetie, are you sure you're…" I heard mom's voice drain and it all went dark and silent.

I felt someone brushing my hair off my forehead. I opened my eyes to see Mom doing the same.

"How're you feeling?" mom asked me.

"I don't know. Cold." I replied.

"Give her to me." this was totally Jake's voice. I wasn't in a condition to say no to him. Grandpa got me a plastic cup with a cover that smelt somewhat of blood. It wasn't some animal blood but grandpa had emptied a pouch of human blood from the blood bank into it. I just knew it was O positive. Jake held me to his chest and made me drink it. I didn't want to talk to him but at least I knew he cared for me. Maybe these were the few moments I would capture with him before I finally die. I think I was in love, finally and with my best friend. I knew he cared for me, I knew he loved me but not the way I did. In a few minutes, when I got even dizzier, he picked me up in his arms and left me in my bed, gave the covers on me, turned off the lights and said something and was gone.

AN: I know, I know...It's been soooooooooo long since I last updated. I know you all hate me but...Oh, and thanx for all your reviews and feedbacks! They mean aaaaaaaa looooooottttttttt to me and hey, don't forget to review me one!