My bad it's not a rated M at all it's a T still...sorry. It is only spanking, swearing, and self-harm so you can read it if your underage and like the story. My bad, Peppybigbang.
It took almost all night to sort everything out right, it was obvious all three people where very distraught, Mrs Wolowitz had took it upon herself to pick up all the glass, plates and knifes carefully so they would not hurt themselves and took a little while convincing her son she'd be fine to drive to Bernadette's house explaining what had happened...just not in details as that really wasn't fair for Raj right now.
Howard knew Raj had done this for a reason and he did not want it to happen again, but he just couldn't believe what he had witnessed, what on earth had he been thinking.
Raj looked away from his best friend in shame as he bandaged his arm carefully, sniffing he tried to lay his head on Howard for a little comfort. But Howard moved away quickly and ignored him concentrated on his bandage but was pissed as hell.
"Raj, what the fuck was you thinking!" Raj gasped in surprise he had never heard Howard swear before and never thought he would be the first person he'd swear at either.
"Well! What were you planning to do eh, kill yourself?!"
"I-I...do not know..."
"Why!? Why!?" Howard was trying hard not to cry himself; Raj started crying full on again hiccupping when trying not to and failing miserably. Howard could see that Raj was getting more and more upset but he didn't know what to do he was angry at himself, he almost lost his best friend and...shit had broke basically.
"Howard...please..."
"I thought...I thought you were dead...what do you think would have happened if I saw you dead in a shower, what would I have told the guys...Penny, Bernadette...Amy." Howard put his head in his hands and tried to calm down and think more logically. How could Raj do this such an innocent and kind soul, was it because he had to go out without him...was this his fault? He knew what his mum would say and what she'd do if he scared her like that but could he do it to a grown man...to Raj...his Raj.
Raj tried to hug him again but Howard pushed him away this time, ignoring the pleading look he was given. Yes he could, he was going to spank him and as quick as possible he had hurt himself and he wasn't going to do that EVER again.
Raj gasped in confusion as he was guided over Howard's knees, he was careful not to hurt his arm anymore than it already was.
"W-What are Y-Y-yo-u D-doing?"
"Spanking you, I need it to be clear that I'm not mad but upset and can't let you do this to yourself...and that I care about you a lot Raj"
"U-um-m o-ok..." Raj was touched but scared he'd had a spanking before of course but never from his friends...
SPANK! SPANK! SPANK! SPANK! SPANK! SPANK!
SMACK SMACK SMACK! SMACK! SMACK! SMACK!
Howard never missed a beat as he lectured his best friend while spanking him un-mercilessly, a whole minute went on and Raj started wriggling and yelping out of the pain burying his face on Howard's right knee. Howard bit his lip as he carried on spanking.
(Hold on little buddy...hold on! Howard thinks holding Raj tighter in his grip trying to stop his own tears from falling. Come on buddy talk to me! I can't keep this up much longer without crying myself, and I'm not the spankee this time!)
"OW! Howard m sorry...j-just stop-p I snapped o-ok i-i s-snapppped!"
(Howard sighed from relief as Raj talked to him finally, of cause it was far from being ok but he needed to stop soon himself because he just knew he was going to start crying. But the worst was coming and he knew it so taking a huge deep breath he pulled down Raj's pants and boxers ignoring the embarrassed complains coming from his friend and remembered being in position more than once with his mother and knew exactly what this felt like)
SPANK SPANK! SPANK! SPANK! SPANK! SPANK! SPANK! SPANK...
By the time it was all over the men were both in tears, "M sorry H-Howard I-I I sorry!" Howard just shushed him kindly and stroked his hair just as his ma did to him. Raj cuddled into Howard finally able to stop crying...how could something so horrible make you feel so better afterwards...? he gripped hold of Howard's shirt tight unwilling to let go of him, he felt very safe right now...even though his best friend had laid into him like an angry bull but he liked to feel safe.
Howard lifted his friend up the right way on his knee as he was showing no sign about moving and this time let him hug him, knowing he truly needed the physical comfort right now. There was no doubt in either of there heads he was going to stay for a few days to check Raj was really ok and Raj wouldn't want it any other way.
