Chapter 3: Everything To Me

What seemed like forever, the wonderful, breath taking kiss lingered between John Cena and Torrie. Their arms were around each other, loving every moment of being in each other's arms. In a way it was everything they had been waiting for, secretly underneath.

Torrie always wondered in the back of her mind, what would the kiss feel like? What did John's kiss feel like? How would she feel once she had been kissed by him? Would it be everything she wondered and hoped for.

Judging from the light shining her natural face, yes it was everything she had ever wondered. His kiss had not left her disappointed in the slightest. She had loved every second of the kiss, so much she didn't want It to end. But of course, just like all good thing come to an end….it did.

Torrie kept her arms around his neck, as she stepped forwards to him. Cena ended up stepping back, he stumbled back into the wall. Back first. Torrie continued to kiss him, but noticed he hadn't continued to kiss her back.

"Okay…oww.." John groaned, before he softly chuckled looking at Torrie.

Once they were looking back at each other, what had happened just came flashing back to them. Torrie had the image of herself leaning down, kissing John once on the lips then when she pulled away slightly, thinking if it was the right thing to do. Cena crushed all that doubt in her mind, by kissing her back.

Torrie's eyes met John's, her head lowered down with a soft giggle.

What just happened sunk in to them.

"Emm…."

Torrie fiddled with her fingertips keeping her eyes on the concrete floor, the rain had stopped for the time being. John and Torrie never noticed the rain had stopped, god knows when the soft raindrops stopped from coming from the night sky.

"Err….right…" John rubbed the back of his neck, while his mind registered what had just happened with Torrie.

"Yeah" Torrie said in the same tone. Both of them were shocked at what had just taken place but neither of them regretted it.

"What…just happened?" John asked.

Torrie stared at him before she ran her fingers through her blonde brittle hair, thanks to the rain.

"Well you had a break down, I helped you up. The next thing I knew, we kissed until you fell back into the wall and yelped out in pain" Torrie explained.

John slowly nodded his head, while he understood what Torrie was telling him.

"Ummm…okay, that helped"

Torrie shrugged her shoulders, "You asked" she then lowered her eyelashes down to the floor, her lips were still tingling from the beautiful kiss she was given. Torrie bit her lip gently while she looked back up at John's ocean blue eyes.

They both were kind star struck at what had just happened. Was more to come? Was a relationship and more kisses on the horizon for them. They didn't know, but Torrie hoped there was.

"So….shall we call continue this inside?"

Torrie heard his words, and a wondered expression spread across her face. "Ummm…"

"Not like that, I mean talk" John answered.

Torrie's lips slide apart, while she giggled nervously. "Oh I see, yeah sure…lead the way" Torrie told.

John nodded his head while he walked up the steps to his hotel. He checked in, and opened his hotel room door. He opened the door for Torrie, as she walked she gave him a sweet smile before she stepped in. walking a few steps in to the room, she turned back to John. She had an image in her head, that she ran forwards, and kissed John so he would fall back into the door.

Torrie had shake the vision out of her mind, it seemed after sharing that kiss. It was her fantasy, it was all Torrie could think about right now. As she thought about it, she turned around to face John.

"So everything okay with you?" John asked.

Torrie nodded, "Yeah…you?"

"A lot better," John said, he then looked back at Torrie. "I mean, yeah everything that has happened, I'm not about to fall to pieces"

Torrie smiled back at him, "Good, that's really good you're stronger than that John" dangerous territory once again

John glanced at Torrie, even more was whirling around in his mind after the kiss he and Torrie shared. It felt wonderful, and it lit up his spirits like a firework and brought his strength back in moments. She had given him back his faith in himself, done exactly what he needed. Exactly what he wanted. That was great, but what was the problem is now John had to deal with what he feels with Torrie.

"Yeah, that's sweet of you Tor"

Torrie listened, before her cheeks stretched showing the dimples in her smile.

"So, it…was…"

"Spur of the moment, we both were feeling it. Emotion got the better of us" Torrie spoke as she looked back at John.

He agreed, "Yeah You're right, it got a little…too much" his voice trailed slowly when he found himself staring at Torrie once again.

"So….we'll just…carry on as normal…after being caught up in the moment" Torrie spoke while her eyes came upon his blue eyes. They tried to make excuses, and have some kind of rules for what had just happened. The reasons slowly faded, the moment they came upon each other's colourful eyes.

"Yeah, that…sounds…" John and Torrie leaned back to each other, and kissed each other again. It was like they couldn't help themselves. The chemistry in the air, was just out of control. They couldn't hold on anymore, they had no strength to fight the temptation. After the kiss they shared in the rain, it just wanted them both wanting more of each other.

Torrie felt John's lips massage against hers, she felt his fingers back on the back of her head, touching her silk, mirror shine hair. She had her hand on his muscular forearm. She couldn't believe how much she wanted, and loved being kissed by John. She had never experienced it before, even when she was part of the Diva's Division. She had never had the pleasure of it.

She was going to on RAW once, she was going to feel his kiss on National Television. But fate ruined that…for Torrie instead they put Maria Kanellis instead of Torrie. She remembered when she had found out she was being replaced, and instead put in a heel role…she was not happy at all, Torrie was disappointed, she remembered that night, she was jealous and did not speak to Maria for weeks after that.

She was not happy, she remembered doing some Kiss Cam thing with Victoria, she was not happy at all. Saying Maria was going to get her ass beat tonight, and let down everyone.

She kissed John, wondering if she felt that way years ago, how come it had only come to light of her feelings towards John. Torrie knew she always had some kind of crush on John? I mean come on? Who didn't in the diva's locker room. Everyone she was friends back in the day, had a crush on John Cena and Randy Orton. They were like the two cuties of the WWE locker room. Randy was RAW's and John was Smack down.

Torrie always knew she had a attraction to John, she adored him as a friend. Everything he does for charity, was a blessing in itself. She had forever respect for him for that alone. But for being a friend to her for so many years, she had considered him one of the closest if not the closest superstar she ever came friends with.

How she came to this conclusion because even after she left, he still kept in contact with her. Time had driven them apart, they may have apart but their friendship would never fade away. She also knew that she would miss him when she felt herself moving on, and letting go of WWE. She knew that she would have John with her wherever she would end up, wherever she'll go, he'll be right there somehow with her. She would always lean upon him, being the true, honest friend he is to her.

John would stand by, and always defend her. We'll be her defender if she ever needed it. She didn't have to ask him, he would be right there defending her corner.

That shown her that she would never be alone in this world. Someone in the this big wide world would always give her that shoulder to talk too, or cry on. She hoped that they would still be friends, and they were. Years of talks, memories, good and bad were living proof of that.

Torrie was there for John, and he was right there for her. When they needed someone to turn too. It was would be each other they would turn too, no matter the case or the problem. They would always stand by each other, and see through the storm. And keep their friendship the same, before the storm hit.

All these feelings were going through her mind, as she continued to kiss John. What felt like hours, it was only seconds they were stood there, kissing. She couldn't believe all these feelings were always there, and she never noticed.

They risen up on the night where John needed someone, and now it was always going to be there lingering in the back of her mind. After all those years, being friends? How can she had not realised it….how could she have just denied and ignored it.

She built a life, she had been with other guys….and none of them worked. Not even with Nick…it just crumbled at the middle of August.

"How can it just be so sudden like this? How come I never realised? What the hell do I feel? It's strong I know that much…wow, his kiss. Wow….I can barely breathe right now. Oh he looks good to me" Torrie thought in her mind..

After everything they have been through, all the memories. How can they just resurface like that? Or was they always lying underneath the lying, denying feelings. Were the feelings buried so deep, that Torrie never thought about it. Whatever reason they had risen back up in her heart, she can not forget or move on now.

Torrie felt John give her one last kiss on the lips before he pulled away. Once he saw Torrie standing there. He realised it had just happened now. "Okay, this is weird" he ended up turning back, feeling the stress suddenly get the better of him.

Torrie brushed back her blonde hair, while she stood there looking at John. She stepped away from him, touching her lips gently, thinking of the second kiss they just shared. What the hell was being expectedly thrown at them? All these sparks? All this attraction….it had them kissing twice in one night.

Her body was tingling all over, she felt herself breathless from the second kiss. Her heart was racing, being in John's arms, she couldn't help but feel the racing in her heart. She couldn't get enough of it, if John kissed her again, in seconds…one split second, she would kiss back.

John rubbed his temple, while he tried to think of what was going on in his life. "Okay so let me get this straight…..your marriage…..okay train wreck…..you're been fired….and hours later, you've been kissing your best friend, not once, twice" John thought in his mind.

He then blinked at the wall, thinking of what he just thought. Lied it all out on the table. Something so sudden, so unexpected had just landed in his life. John wasn't quite sure what it meant.

Torrie stood there, still with her heart thumping almost out of her chest. Her eyes were on John, and the floor every few seconds. What had just happened, was an echo through his mind. What did he feel for Torrie? Was it love? Was it a attraction? What!

John rubbed his fingertips on his face, while his mind started to go around and around with what is going on at the moment. He then looked at Torrie, as she stood looking at the wall.

"Oh she looks good to me, could be amazing for me….got everything want, everything I need…I can barely breathe right now…" John thought in his head, while his eyes wondered at Torrie, while he felt his heart pounding in his chest.

He had never felt this way before, with Torrie. John knew she was one of the most beautiful women on the planet. He knew she had such a beautiful presence, a sweet smile, funny girl, can be a little over caring, considerate….and she was a real type of girl. Ordinary girl, the glitz and glamour didn't change who she was at all.

She knew she was successful, she knew she had a wonderful life but that didn't make her have a bad attitude, Torrie didn't love herself, in a shocking way, Torrie didn't even think she was that pretty.

Torrie is exactly he had always wanted, his type of woman. Could it be the woman he's been waiting on? Could she be that diamond in the rough that has finally beamed.

Torrie turned back, she and John had fallen in silence. She hated the silence, it was like they both were worried about what was going on? The brink of silence just drove Torrie crazy, she wanted someone to speak. She didn't care what about, just someone end the silence that had filled the room.

After the kiss they shared, could they be exactly what each other needs? That special someone. After all no one in wants to be alone in this world. Everyone wants to feel like someone cares. What do they say? There's gotta be somebody for everyone. There's got to be a soul mate out there for everyone in the world. Maybe they just found it. Finally found everything they ever wanted and more.

Torrie looked at John, brushing her blonde hair with her fingertips nervously.

"Can someone…at least say something please?"

John guided Torrie to the couch, she sat down and he took a seat next to her.

John gulped down the lump in his throat, "I think….we should just forget what has happened tonight"

Torrie nodded her head softly. "Yeah, it's been a long, emotional night"

John nodded, doing everything he could for them not to kiss again. "Yeah you're right about that"

"I should get…going, that way nothing else will happen" Torrie explained.

John looked at her, he stood up from the couch. He must have sat up too quick, with everything that has been happening lately. He felt some kind of dazed feeling succumb his body. The stress of tonight, and the broken pieces of his personal life had suddenly taken a physical turn for the worst.

Torrie stood up, "Right well I should go" John nodded his head while he closed his eyes for a moment. He felt a hard weight on his body, that was weakening him.

Torrie took in a breath before she turned back. She went to say something about what had just happened. "John I just want you to know…that…I didn't mean any of this to happen, internally I am not taking advantage of you in any way" Torrie explained.

"I know, don't worry"

"But, you're in pieces right now. I just wanted to help you like you helped me a lot before. When my life was in pieces, and I was broken….you were the one that saved me." Torrie softly spoke.

"Tor, it's alright" John tried to get his vision back to normal.

"No I mean it, what happened. With…the kiss…or kisses…I never meant…for that to happen. It's just when I felt you kiss back, I just let it all go" Torrie explained.

"Uh huh"

"I feel so guilty, like I took advantage of your vulnerable state" She just can't let go. She tried to hide away from the feelings but they were just there. Her friendship feelings were fading like a flower, like a rose…the rose was blossoming into love. She can just tell from how she looks at John. Her eyes are just sparkling like diamonds in the dark.

He just lit her up, every little part of him. Was part of Torrie. He was truly everything to her. There was nothing for John to fear or feel anymore, everything he need and want is right here, lying in the heart of Torrie. She hoped to god, one day he would see that, he's is everything to the honey blonde.

"Torrie, it's okay"

"I want you to know, you mean so much to me as…a friend…you're everything to me as a friend goes" Torrie quickly changed her words.

John looked at her, "You're everything to me too"

Torrie glanced at him, a sparkling light of a smile came across her face "Really?"

"Yeah…the best friend I'll ever find in the Diva's past, present or future"

Torrie's smile faded slowly "Oh yeah" she kept a grin across her face.

"Is anything else you want to say?" John spoke as he kept seeing like 4 Torrie's at the door.

Torrie looked at him, "No it's fine. Good night John"

"Night Tor"

Torrie turned on her heel, she took a step but she turned back. "No…..actually there was something I…" her words suddenly faded when she saw John's face had lost the colour.

He looked quite pale.

Seeing the pale colour in his face, Torrie's eyes grew in concern. "John, are you okay? You look pale"

"I'm okay, just tired"

"No you look really pale, I mean the colour in your face is gone" Torrie explained, the worry was in her voice while her eyes flooded with concern.

John didn't answer, he breathed out before he collapsed back down to the floor gaining a soft, but high scream from Torrie.

"John, oh my god! John!" Torrie screamed horrified, once he fell down. The man she had kissed tonight, just collapsed down to the floor in front of her eyes. That terrified her.

Torrie felt herself start to freeze on the spot, but her legs moved not letting herself be frozen in a moment. She ran over at John's side, immediately she kneeled beside his frame. One knee on the floor, and both of her heels were digging in the carpet.

"John, oh god are you okay" she asked, but didn't get any kind of response, he didn't even move.

He lied there face down, with one of hands on his wrist, and the other lying on the carpet of his hotel room.

Torrie leaned down, closer to his body. "John, come on wake up. You're scaring me" Torrie felt her body start to shake with fear. Tears were coming to her eyes when she realised he wasn't waking up.

He just lied there face down on the floor. She had to turn on his back. Torrie reached out her hands, on his shoulder and did all she could to gently turn on his back. John's arm lighted up, but it fell down silently on the carpet lying on the floor.

Since she had moved him, his t shirt had rolled up to his ribs area, so Torrie could see his midsection rising in and out due to breath he had in his body.

Torrie watched closely, checking to see he is still breathing. Thank god. He was.

His abs shown, when he breathed in and out still lying unconscious. Once she saw John's back was lying on the floor, she saw his eyes closed. His chest and stomach was rising rapidly, so thankfully he was still breathing.

But he was still unconscious, everything that had happened lately finally got the best of him. Obviously he is not immortal, he falls down just like every other person. That's exactly what had happened to John.

Torrie flicked back her blonde hair, moving her head as she tended to John. "John, wake up please, you're scaring me" Torrie softly told, but he remained unresponsive.

Seeing him like this, a motionless body. It brought her feelings to a conclusion. Her heart told Torrie, she's indeed in love with John.

Torrie wrapped her hand around her mouth, while her eyes kept on the image of John. She leaned closer, and touched his cheek. Tears were forming in her eyes, while she looked at him. He meant so much to her, and to see him like this, pierced her right in the heart.

She ran her fingertips on his cheek, with her other hand on his chest. She felt so close right now, she could feel him breathe. Her hand on his chest, felt to rise in his body.

The softest touch of her fingers, brought John to move. His head slightly titled, his eyes didn't open but his arm bent, so he could massage his head with his fingers.

"John, oh god are you alright? Do you want me to get you a doctor? Glass of water, anything? I'll do it" Torrie's voice brought John completely around after he suddenly fainted.

He was knocked off his feet for a moment, it must have been all the emotions, feelings, past, present, memories all came bouncing at once, it had just knocked him senseless. He had to have a moment to breathe, he wasn't given that….so his body shut down for a few moments.

"What? Happened?" John found himself on the floor, with Torrie leaning closer his face.

"You collapsed, sweetheart are you alright?" Torrie's concerned voice told.

John gazed at Torrie, he felt weight gone that he felt before. His vision was slowly returned back to normal, he didn't feel like he had just been hit over the head with something hard. Torrie's words were quick, and full of worry…he didn't quite understand.

"Wait?….who…what?" he mumbled.

"John, you collapsed about 5 minutes ago….how do you feel now?"

"I fainted?"

"Yeah, how do you feel now?" Torrie moved from her spot, and went above his head, so she could see the look in his eyes, make sure he was okay.

John continued to lie down on the floor, his eyes closed and opened a few times, his head tilted to the left side, feeling still a little dazed. He could feel the air between his lips, and his body rising up and down while he lied there. His chest kept on rising up and down softly breathing. His stomach rose rapidly with his chest, with his body recovering from the sudden shut down.

His lips moved, with his mouth closed before they slid apart once again, letting a breath release.

"How do I feel?"

"Yeah, do you want to get a doctor or anything?" she was right there by his side.

John opened his eyes, he felt his body finally take control. "No, No I'm alright. Just need a moment to breathe that's all" John told, he didn't want Torrie to worry. He hated a fuss, and he knew Torrie would be fussing over him for hours.

"I'm fine, Tor"

"You just collapsed a second ago, how can you be fine" she saw him start to sit up, so she went behind his back and helped him so he could lean with his back on the couch.

"I don't know what happened, one minute I was fine…then it just went all black"

Torrie stared, "You went white as ghost, no kidding"

"I looked like Sheamus?"

Torrie nodded, while she kneeled there beside him. "Yep, you went from colourful to really, really pale"

"Great, all I need" John rubbed his temple, he felt his breathing start to return to normal, it wasn't as rapid as it was when he was standing there then he was on the floor.

"Probably just got too much for you" Torrie spoke.

"Yeah probably" John agreed.

Torrie looked back at him, with the concern still lighted up in her eyes. "Are you sure you;'re okay?"

"Yeah I feel a lot better than I did" John answered, he took a moment before he stood back on his feet.

Torrie stood up, and smiled seeing him standing tall again "It's good to see you standing John"

"I have no idea what happened, I really don't"

"The stress of everything that has been happening lately, got to you in a bad way. You didn't give your body chance to breathe, so it just shut down for a moment. When it gets too much, you're body can switch off like that" Torrie spoke with a snap of her fingers.

"Ohh, okay. Hope it doesn't happen again"

"It won't, if you don't bottle so much inside" Torrie said with a nudge.

"When you are too proud, you tend to do that"

Torrie agreed, "Yep you do, anyways I better get going. It's getting late"

"Do you want me to take you?" John asked.

"I'd rather get a cab, then be in a car where the driver has just collapsed thank you" Torrie said politely.

John nodded, "Yeah okay, I can understand that"

"I really do care about you John, so never do that to me ever again" Torrie giggled gently.

John came forwards, grinning handsomely. He put his arms around her so he can hug her. One of Torrie's arms went around the back of his neck, with her hand resting on the back of his neck, with the other on his back. John's hands both were on her back keeping the blonde closer.

John let his arms go, Torrie's fingers touched the material of the t shirt. They parted for each other's arms, after one final embrace.

Torrie giggled sweetly, while she stepped closer, "I'll see you around John"

"Yeah you too, take care Torrie. As always, you need me you know where I am. Well not in WWE in anymore….I mean, well you've got my number" John spoke.

Torrie nodded "Yeah, take care yourself and good luck with everything" she gently placed a kiss on his cheek, and the look in his clear crystal blue eyes, wanted her to move a kiss to his lips but she had to do all she could to walk away.

That is what she did, she gave him that beautiful, bright smile she always had before leaving through the door.

John watched the door close, he blinked at the door wondering if he should walk away or open it. John kept staring at the door, wondering what his heart was calling him out to do?

While Torrie walked down the corridor, palm of her hand on her chest while she continued walking away. "Just keep walking, forget it all. Friends that is what you will stay.." Torrie thought, as she walked.

She had the missed, the brunette that walked down the same corridor that she just came from. The woman with two sparkling rings on her hand, knocked on the door in front.

John heard his door being knocked. He thought it was Torrie so he went to the door. He opened, and his grin faded when he didn't see Torrie. It wasn't the honey blonde that was here only minutes ago, it was someone else

His heart still took one beat, with his blue eyes coming upon the image of something he really didn't want to see right now.

His wife.

"What are you doing here?"

"That's not usually how you say hello to me" She spoke back.

"Oh okay, so shutting the door in your face wouldn't be a way to greet you would it?" he sarcastically spoke.

"Do exactly what you want, but I'm not going anywhere until you hear what I have to say" Liz spoke back.

John looked at her, before he let go of the door, letting her step into his room even if he liked it or didn't.

"What is it you have come to say to me?"

She looked up at him. "Sorry"

"Sorry for what?"

"For everything, and I'm sorry for what happened tonight"

"You expect me to believe that? When you have me an ultimatum. I either leave or you leave me?"

"I…"

John suddenly laughed "Oh look at that, you left me anyways"

"I wasn't thinking straight okay, I….don't like WWE. I hate you're always the centre of it. I hate what it stands for, and I hate that I can't have a relationship with the man that I love so very much…."

"I'm not listening to all this again, take your lies and games somewhere else" John spoke.

"John I'm not lying, I still love you. I still want us to be together"

"What? Are you kidding! You're the one that left me! You throw our lives away on the day of our anniversary, wonderful timing isn't it?"

"Well now you're in the WWE, we can try again"

"I don't think so, been there, done that a thousand times"

"You left, you decided to get fired because you still want us"

"No I decided to get fired because it was the right thing for me to do,. It had nothing to do with you"

"Why are you making this so difficult" She snapped.

"Because I'm not going through this again with you? I gave you everything I had. I did everything I could to make you happy. Whatever you wanted, I got it for you. I tried everything to make you happy"

"You could have brought me a palace! I didn't want any of that! I wanted you! You never gave me that! You always put that place first, I had online marriage! You didn't have a marriage John, a life. You had a schedule.. I was tired of having a relationship with your answer phone" She let out.

John rubbed his temple, he didn't needs this right now. "I don't need this right now" he opened the door, and left. Liz followed him, she was not going to let him walk away from their marriage without a fight.

…...

Torrie was staring outside the window silent, while she was in a cab on the way back to her hotel. While she sat there, she brought her coat closer to warm herself up. Her mind was full of thoughts of John and new love she had found and felt for him.

It was special alright, she now knew how she felt is love.

She's in love with John.

"Listen to your heart.."

Torrie suddenly stepped closer to the driver. "Hi sorry, can you go back? There's something I need to do. I need to tell someone something I should have told them a long time ago"

"Sure" The cab driver turned the car around.

"Thank you, I'll pay double" Torrie spoke, she watched the car go down the same journey.

A anxious but excited smile came across her face.

She's on her way to tell John exactly how she feels.

"Is this person someone special?"

Torrie nodded her head, still smiling naturally. With all the hope of new love sparkling in her eyes.

"To Me, Yes. He's Everything To Me"

…...

Torrie climbed out of the cab, she paid the driver.

"Would you like picking up?"

"Emm I'm not too sure right now, if I do. I'll call you"

"Alright darling" The man closed the cab. "Good luck"

Torrie waved him off, she was standing on the sidewalk. All the hope in the world, she almost felt scared of what she was going to do. She was ready to tell him everything, the feelings. All the love she had for him. She was ready to declare.

"Okay I'm gonna do it. I hope he feels the same way. Please, please feel the same way" Torrie breathed in softly, taking a second to brace herself to what she was going to do.

Torrie took a step into the road, she walked over the road to get to the hotel entrance. Something caught her eye in the place where she and John were standing before. Torrie's eyes looked on, she waited for a moment to make sure it was him, and she wasn't going to say "I love you" to a complete stranger.

The colour of the night didn't help matters, so once she had made the connection. Torrie took in a very deep breath, she took the risk by stepping closer to John. A smile was beaming on her face as she walked but that smile was going to be fading in the next few minutes.

Torrie took steps closer, her smile still across her face. Bright and beautiful. She ran her fingers through her hair. She was ready, her heart was finally ready to let out all the feelings. So much love she had for John.

Torrie's smile slowly faded, from the moment she saw what was in front of her in the distance. John was standing there talking to a woman. She knew exactly who that woman was. They looked quite close. They didn't look like they were arguing and shouting at each other. Torrie continued to look on, the wind was blowing gently in the night. Her locks were coming across her face softly, but her eyes still saw the image. The moment her heart broke, is when she saw John and this woman share a kiss.

It broke her heart, she went from total happiness to complete devastation in seconds.

"No…" Torrie's lips slid apart. Her head shook in heartbreak. Her facial expression told the story how she was feeling.

She didn't want to fall to pieces, but she had no choice. Seeing the kiss, the same place she and John shared their first kiss, just put a dagger through her heart. It tore through all the possibilities of happiness.

What she had seen tore Torrie to pieces, all the chances she felt. It was too late. She knew that, she was too late. The chance was there and she let it all slip by her fingers again. He was going to walk out of her life once again.

She had returned. It tore straight through like a storm. Torrie couldn't stand any longer, her eyes were full of tears. She couldn't stand there looking any longer. Torrie turned on her heel, and ran away from the hotel. Her hand was in front of her mouth as she just ran away, to a point of nowhere. No direction.

Everything she knew, everything she tried to hold on too….was now gone, out of her reach. Now she had to say goodbye.

"I don't want to see Goodbye To You John…" Torrie thought, in tears.

Torrie continued to run away, as far as she could. Once the tears were risen up to the point of falling. She stopped, and just got back in the cab. No words, just paid the money. She ran to her room, closed the door. And the moment she saw she was alone her hotel room.

She slid down the wall near the door, with her hand on her mouth and nose. Tears fell down from her eyes. Her eyelashes lowered before her head perked up at the ceiling. Her eyes gently closed again, the lashes from her eyes let go of the tears that were falling down.

The heartbreak tore through her. It wasn't fair for this to happen, she had realised…the moment she was going to reveal all to John. All her love, everything she felt for him…..

It was too late. His wife came back like a silent storm. Torrie had to deal with the fact she was in love with a married man…that was too much for her to handle. She was hurt badly, deeply from what she had seen before her eyes. it wasn't fair, she wanted it to be like a nightmare she can wake up, and it wouldn't have happened. Torrie still had a chance. She wanted it so badly to be just a dream, that it wasn't happening to her.

Torrie gained some strength, bringing herself back to her feet. She climbed on her bed. Kicking off her heels. She saw her phone was flooded with messages from her friends, asking how it all went? Torrie didn't answer a single one.

Torrie lied down on the bed, resting her head on her elbow. All she did, was lie her head on the pillow. Tears came down from her eyes while she softly cried to herself in a dark, silent room. Too much for her bare right now, so all the Boise Beauty was cry her heart out thinking everything she could have had, she just lost it all.

Slipping through her fingers, leaving her with a broken heart. All the stars had faded away in Torrie's skies. She can only hope she sees them again someday. Until then, tonight she would cry her heart out.

You never know what you've got, until it's gone.

Exactly how Torrie felt, she had John in the palm of her hand and now…he was gone.

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Awww No! That isn't good at all. Poor Torrie :( but was it exactly what she saw? or is there more to it. Maybe It's not what it seems to be.

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Next Time: Is what Torrie saw exactly what she think it is? does she still have a chance? A secret comes out that shocks John, it's not Torrie's declaration.