Chapter 3- Lily's Son
'If you have any questions Severus I feel that I owe it to you to answer them as truthfully and as accurately as possible.' I shrugged. The only question I have right now was why was I talking to Dumbledore and not relaxing under a tree with Lily. Suddenly a question did pop into my mind,
'Am I remembered as a death eater forever?' Dumbledore smiles as my question, though I can tell it was not one he expected,
'No, Harry makes sure your name is cleared, and even has a portrait done up in the office for you.' Dumbledore waves his hand and a vision of an older Harry and who evidently his son appears. My head snaps back when I recognise Lily's eyes in Harry's son.
'His name is Albus Severus.' I look up at Albus in shock,
'Severus?'
'Yes, Albus Severus. Named after two Hogwarts headmasters and two of the bravest men Harry ever knew.' I am wordless. I look again at Harry and for the first time, instead of seeing solely James in him all I can see is Lily. I can see her. I can see her in his eyes, in his thoughts, in his actions. Tears sprang to my eyes. I have been so close to her for years, and not even really realised it. I need to see her; I turn to Albus to tell him this and he nods in agreement, before frowning,
'It was important that you realised what Harry has and will do for you Severus, before you went on. He is Lily's child as well as James' after all. I also have to tell you how this arrangement will work,' my head snaps up again,
'What do you mean arrangement?' I spit, anger suddenly contorting my face, 'There is no arrangement needed! Lily will meet me under this tree and that is all!' Albus gazes sadly into my face, and I knew that somehow, Potter has compromised my heaven as he's compromised most of my life.
'You see Severus, lying under a tree with Lily for the rest of eternity may be your idea of heaven,' Albus looks up at me, his eyes a mixture of sadness and regret, 'but it is not hers.' A lump rises in my throat. I'm not a part of her heaven? Dumbledore then goes on,
'You see Severus, Lily's idea of Heaven is with James in his country house, surrounded by their close friends, with a huge library in which every book in the world can be found and so on. To put it bluntly, it simply doesn't include you.'
Each word is like a weight. They all pile on my chest, making it hard to breathe. I then realise that I don't need to; I'm already dead after all. I bury my face in my hands as tears escape and caress my face and my hands, much like I dreamed Lily would, as Dumbledore looks on sadly.
A/N I don't own any of the characters- they're all JKR
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