Ripped
Disclaimer: Not mine never will be. Please note though every chapter will
be a different point of view. One from the boy, one from the girl.
She here. Next to me. Siting. Bold as day. As though she has done nothing wrong. It's all I can do to stop me hitting her. Torturing her like my Parvati was tortured. But I'm not prepared for what she says next.
"I hate you."
"What?" I keep my eyes on the lake because I have a huge urge to hit her. Hard. I just have to think. Never hit a girl, never hit a girl.
"I hate you for what you've to me. You turned me into a boring slob. You've made me give up on life in general. I hate what you've done to the group. You broke us. You did the opposite of what everyone wanted." I was shaking with rage. HER. SHE WAS TRYING TO LAY A GUILT TRIP ON ME. THE FUCKING BITCH. SHE HAS NO RIGHT. She looked into my eyes and continued.
"Parvati would hate you for what you've done."
I went into shock. Parvati. She said her name. That bitch said her name. That little slut, whore.cunt. THAT FUCKER. And before I know it I've hit her. Again. All my anger for months into these punches I'm throwing. She fell down and I stood up. The height helped me feel powerful. She was trembling and weak. This made most attackers stop. It spurred me on.
"How dare you say her name. She is-was better then you can ever be. You can never reach her standard. I hate you. You murderer. You were a very powerful witch. You could have broken free. You could have saved her. I loved-LOVE her. And you took her away from me. I can never see her again. And you, I never liked you anyway. It was all the others. You were always flirting with me when she was alive. And now you stalk me. Do you think I could ever like you again? I see you everywhere. In charms you stare at me. Can't you get it through your thick skull? I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. I HATE YOU SO MUCH THAT I'M AFRAID OF HOW MUCH I HATE YOU. AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED YOU DIED WITH PARVATI, GRANGER!"
I bite my lip till it bleeds. The pain. The pain is real. Unlike everything around me. It's all so fake. It hides the secrets of a thousand years in these grounds. Secrets of pain, betrayal and murder. The ripping feeling returned only this time it was more powerful. It was painful. Not a sharp pain but a heavy, dull throb. Worse then a sharp pain. It sat there throbbing. I could do nothing to stop it. A sharp pain leaves after a while. But this one would stay. Forever. I would be alone forever with this pain. A hollow feeling entered my stomach and I realized it was fear. Then one thought managed to get through my cotton wool brain. Suicide. The fear left me when I thought about it. I knew it was right. And I could see Parvati. My dear sweet Pav. Suddenly dying wasn't so bad. Now that I definitely wouldn't be alone. I looked to the lake. So calm. I hated it. Why should it be calm when I was so fucked up? I'll destroy its calm. I ran into the lake. Ripples spread out round me. Icy water caused goosebumps. It spread out. I ran on till I had to swim. I thrashed about as much as possible to cause more disturbance. The ripples spread out. I thrash harder. They turn into waves. Water. Supposed to purify you. This water is dark. Brown and muddy. This water holds more filthy secrets then anyone could ever imagine. The thrashing gets weaker as my clothes pull me under. The last thing I hear before I submerge is Grangers voice calling. It sounds so sad and alone. My smile widens. I've caused chaos and managed to make her feel how I feel.
"RON."
She here. Next to me. Siting. Bold as day. As though she has done nothing wrong. It's all I can do to stop me hitting her. Torturing her like my Parvati was tortured. But I'm not prepared for what she says next.
"I hate you."
"What?" I keep my eyes on the lake because I have a huge urge to hit her. Hard. I just have to think. Never hit a girl, never hit a girl.
"I hate you for what you've to me. You turned me into a boring slob. You've made me give up on life in general. I hate what you've done to the group. You broke us. You did the opposite of what everyone wanted." I was shaking with rage. HER. SHE WAS TRYING TO LAY A GUILT TRIP ON ME. THE FUCKING BITCH. SHE HAS NO RIGHT. She looked into my eyes and continued.
"Parvati would hate you for what you've done."
I went into shock. Parvati. She said her name. That bitch said her name. That little slut, whore.cunt. THAT FUCKER. And before I know it I've hit her. Again. All my anger for months into these punches I'm throwing. She fell down and I stood up. The height helped me feel powerful. She was trembling and weak. This made most attackers stop. It spurred me on.
"How dare you say her name. She is-was better then you can ever be. You can never reach her standard. I hate you. You murderer. You were a very powerful witch. You could have broken free. You could have saved her. I loved-LOVE her. And you took her away from me. I can never see her again. And you, I never liked you anyway. It was all the others. You were always flirting with me when she was alive. And now you stalk me. Do you think I could ever like you again? I see you everywhere. In charms you stare at me. Can't you get it through your thick skull? I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS. I HATE YOU SO MUCH THAT I'M AFRAID OF HOW MUCH I HATE YOU. AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED YOU DIED WITH PARVATI, GRANGER!"
I bite my lip till it bleeds. The pain. The pain is real. Unlike everything around me. It's all so fake. It hides the secrets of a thousand years in these grounds. Secrets of pain, betrayal and murder. The ripping feeling returned only this time it was more powerful. It was painful. Not a sharp pain but a heavy, dull throb. Worse then a sharp pain. It sat there throbbing. I could do nothing to stop it. A sharp pain leaves after a while. But this one would stay. Forever. I would be alone forever with this pain. A hollow feeling entered my stomach and I realized it was fear. Then one thought managed to get through my cotton wool brain. Suicide. The fear left me when I thought about it. I knew it was right. And I could see Parvati. My dear sweet Pav. Suddenly dying wasn't so bad. Now that I definitely wouldn't be alone. I looked to the lake. So calm. I hated it. Why should it be calm when I was so fucked up? I'll destroy its calm. I ran into the lake. Ripples spread out round me. Icy water caused goosebumps. It spread out. I ran on till I had to swim. I thrashed about as much as possible to cause more disturbance. The ripples spread out. I thrash harder. They turn into waves. Water. Supposed to purify you. This water is dark. Brown and muddy. This water holds more filthy secrets then anyone could ever imagine. The thrashing gets weaker as my clothes pull me under. The last thing I hear before I submerge is Grangers voice calling. It sounds so sad and alone. My smile widens. I've caused chaos and managed to make her feel how I feel.
"RON."
