The right side of my head throbbed painfully as I sat up in bed and found myself in my cluttered room. I glanced at my watch lying on the bedside table. The time read that it was midnight.

Crap. What was I supposed to do now? Apparently sleep would no longer come.

I was suddenly aware of a tapping sound on my window and I tiptoed over to investigate; my movements stiff and slow.

When I drew back the blinds, I froze in place as yesterday's (or last afternoon's) events flooded back into memory.

"May I please come in Bella? I promise I'm on my best behavior."

I was powerless against the blonde god before me, so I nodded stupidly, gaping as I let him in.

"Thank you" he whispered.

"W-what are you doing here Jasper?" I asked timidly.

His face bore solemnity but his eyes were deep with remorse "I owe you an apology".

"No" I contradicted "Its me who should apologize. If I weren't so freakin' clumsy none of that would have happened."

"Bella-" he started, but I cut him off.

"Don't make me feel worse by saying that this is your fault Jasper, please, lets just put it all behind us."

"What I did is unforgivable and I can never live with myself if you throw the blame on you" disgust colored his tone.

My hand automatically reached for his perfect sculpture face and he closed his eyes, "You can't imagine the pain…the regret I feel right now for almost destroying something so beautiful and so pure…your human heart could never hold the mountain of hate I feel for the monster within me…."

I wanted to hit something so bad. It hurt me to see him miserable.

I threw my arms around him and pecked his cheek. In my head, Edward's voice protested angrily "Bella! Stop this at once! You know how dangerous this is!" But I didn't care, Jasper was in pain and I had to do something.

"See?" I said triumphantly when I pulled back "you are strong. You won't hurt me."

He was absolutely shocked. I folded my arms across my chest, waiting patiently for him to speak.

"I have to go" he breathed "I'm so sorry Bella"

My heart sank as I watched him leave. Biting my lip, I realized that I just made everything a hell lot worse.