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Chapter 3- My Weakness

Namine and I made spaghetti together for dinner. When we were done, we sat down at the dining table.

"So," Namine said twirling her noodles. "How was your date?"

I gave a tiny squeal, "oh my God, Nam. He's the greatest. He's charming, funny, gorgeous, everything you could ever hope for."

"Dang, you got all of that in one date? Did you two get it on or something?"

I immediately blushed and shook my head. "Oh, no. We've only just started to get to know each other!"

She laughed. "I'm joking Kai. Calm down! He does seem pretty great. When are you two going out again?"

"Soon I hope. You did kind of interrupt us."

"Oy, I said I'm sorry. I wasn't expecting to come home to my best friend making out in the living room. I can't even remember the last time you were on a date."

"Gee, thanks!" I replied taking a bite of my dinner.

Namine stuck her tongue out. "So I have a question."

"Shoot." I was really hoping to get off of the topic of my love life.

"How would you feel about another roommate?" Namine looked nervous.

"Hm, well, I guess it'd depends on who and where they would sleep. This is only a two bedroom and I'm not exactly willing to share."

"Roxas?" She looked at me hopeful of my approval.

I laughed. "You're really asking my approval for your boyfriend of four years to move in? I'm surprised you two aren't married yet!"

"So you're okay with it?" It was like she didn't hear a single world I had said.

"Yes, dumb dumb," I smiled.

Namine jumped up and hugged me. "Oh, Kai! Thank you!"

I laughed again. "Of course! When's he planning on moving in?"

"Hopefully next week."

"Dang. Not moving slow or anything," I joked. Namine just smiled.

The next week, like planned, Roxas had his moving truck parked out front. Seifer willingly helped. I had never seen Namine so excited to unpack her boyfriends things.

Nearly a month had passed after Roxas had moved in and Seifer and I started seeing each other. Namine and Roxas seemed to have hardly left the room to the point where you'd assume they were a new teenage couple. Every week, Seifer and I went on at least one or two dates. He still really hadn't talked about his past or much about himself besides current situations, work, or friends. Like he said though, we had all the time in the world.

"I'm glad we met," I said reaching for his hand as we walked barefoot in the sand. It was evening and the sun was getting ready to set. The ocean was calm with low waves. The sky blended in hues of orange and pink before crashing into the blues of the seas.

"Me too," Seifer said kissing me.

"You're too good to be true. How have you not been seeing anyone? I've been to the bar. I've seen how girls flirt with you."

He let out a chuckle. "I'm not going to say I haven't spent my fair time with girls before."

I looked up at him. "What's your longest relationship?"

"Probably a few months. I'm not much of a dater."

"Oh…" Hearing it was a little painful. If he wasn't a dater with a relationship being longer than three months then what was I doing here? Was I subconsciously thinking… hoping… he'd be the one?

"Hey," he stopped and tilted my chin up to face him. "What's the matter?"

I shrugged. "A few months. That's not long. How come?"

He was quiet a moment. "I just have a wall up and I don't like people trying to climb it. It's honestly not worth the risk."

"Risk to what? The chance for something bigger or better?"

He looked toward the water. "I don't like people trying, that's all."

I looked down. We were only six inches apart. "Can I try?"

"Huh?" he looked at me.

"Can I try to climb your walls? I promise, letting someone in isn't all that bad. It's amazing how beautiful the view can be passed your concrete castle." I don't know what made me want to even try with him when he wasn't wanting anyone to.

"How long was your past relationship?" he finally asked.

"Three years," I answered awkwardly. Three month record was nothing compared to a three year one.

"How'd it end?"

"We went to different colleges."

"Did he break your heart?"

My stomach jerked inside. "Well, no, not exactly." This was getting uncomfortable and fast. "We both agreed to end it."

"Was he the guy with the blue-haired chick on New Years?"

"How'd you know?"

"The way you looked at him and her. Your body language said it all. You looked at him like there's feelings lingering between the two of you and you looked at her like she was invading that feeling."

I bit my lip. He could really see all that on my face? I shook my head at the thought. "What does this have to do with letting people in?"

"The future is always unknown. People work so hard to be a huge factor in each others lives but then what happens when life gets in the way? For example, you probably thought you and Mr. High School Sweetheart were future husband and wife but then one day- poof- life happens. You go your separate ways and then what? You're strangers before you know it. A complete stranger now has total access to your past and to hurt you."

"He'd never hurt me," I answered defensively, shaking my head.

"Anyone can hurt you, Kairi. Even people you don't think could or would, do. Life is a shitty place."

His words were hurtful. I fought back some tears. How could he think the world was so awful? I shook my head pleadingly. "You need to believe and trust people or you'll never be able to move passed whatever you're trying to hide from."

Seifer sighed, "can we please not talk about this anymore? This is all upsetting you and I just want to have a good time with you. Please?"

I took a deep breath in and nodded slowly. We continued to walk hand in hand in silence. I wanted so badly to know what he was hiding and why he wouldn't let me in. I stopped and pulled back.

He turned to look at me, "what's wrong?"

"What am I doing here?" I asked. I couldn't just move passed everything he said. We date people to find future mates, not to just have a fling here or there- at least that's what my intention was. I wanted a happily ever after, not a one night stand. " I don't want to get hurt if I end up falling for you when you don't plan on falling back. I'm in everything I do for the long run. Our first date made me realize I want to be with you. I want to be your girlfriend and you claim we have all the time in the world but how long is that for you when you don't plan on making some sort of future with me?"

His eyes washed over my face like he was trying to analyze a secret code. "I've dated a lot of girls Kairi. I'm not a saint and my past is pretty fucked up."

I swallowed. Such harsh words. "I want to be in your life. Fuck ups or not. I need you to let me in."

"You don't get it," he shook his head. "I never let a relationship get far because every single girl I've been with- every time we get 'closer', she wants to know my past and 'be with me'. My past is literally a fucked up nightmare and I hate even thinking about it. My previous life is ghost of who I am today. I've done God awful things to try to erase the memory of it. I've fucked girls lives up with them thinking I'm some sort of angel on earth, that they'll be able to change me and help me. I'm not someone who can be helped. I'm a twenty-six year old with demons on my back."

It was a lot to take in. "The past is in the past for a reason. Let me in now, in your current life. I want to be with you Seifer. I'm not trying to save you from your past. I just want the you now," I nearly whispered.

He ran his hand back through his hair and looked at me. "Please don't ask about my past," he pleaded.

I leaned into him. His heartbeat was pounding in his chest. "I promise."

There was a lot to think about and take in. I wasn't sure what I was getting myself into or why I wanted to even try so badly, but there was something telling me to just take a leap of faith. He wrapped his arms around me and we stood in silence as the sun dropped into its bed.

x.o.x.o.

"How's everything going dear?" My mom was a fifty-year old version of me. I was over for dinner after a long day at work.

"It's going." I watched her maneuver her way around the kitchen from the bar stool.

She glanced at me from the stove as she added some spices to the chicken seasoning. "Nothing new or exciting?"

Being an only child, especially being the only female relative to my mom besides my grandma, my mom was curious about my life. I supposed she lived vicariously through me. "Not really." I hadn't told her about Seifer only because she'd want to know how we met. Not like it was the best thing to tell your mother that you got wasted and kissed the bartender.

Her eyes didn't leave me as she stirred the broth. "I haven't seen you since Christmas. Something has to be new."

"Roxas moved in." There, that's your update.

"Oh, really?" She stopped stirring and turned to face me. "How's that going?"

I shrugged. "Good, I suppose. Namine and him have been attached at the hip during their spare moments."

"So what have you been doing then? You normally spend time with Namine or you're here if you're not working."

Oh mom. "I've been keeping busy."

"Are you at least going on dates?"

"Mom!" I groaned burying my face into my hands.

"Oh, Kai," she said moving to the sink to wash some lettuce. "I just don't want you to be stuck on Sora after all these years. Maryanne says he's very serious about Aqua."

Maryanne was Sora's mom and she was one of my moms closest friends. I looked up at her. I swallowed the small lump in my throat. "Good for him. They're a great couple."

My mom tilted her head letting her long brown hair cascade off her shoulder. "You're just saying that."

What if I was? It's not like it changed how he felt for her or what was happening with me. "I'm happy for him. Simple. He's a great person and we're still friends."

"And my beautiful daughter deserves for him to be happy for you when you end up with someone else."

"Moooom," I sighed.

She put her hands up in defense. "Okay, okay. I'll stop." She continued making dinner as I watched. I really hoped for the same thing, honestly. Life isn't about living for someone else to be happy but I so badly wanted to share happy moments with someone. Seifer still hadn't talked about our discussion on the beach but maybe if I could show him how great it is to let someone in, he could finally open up about his demons. I wanted to be his person- his someone to share happy moments with.

Neither my mom or dad asked about my social life during dinner. My dad mentioned how crazy college students made him when he's teaching his lessons during lectures. My mom had all the neighborhood gossip- like Mrs. Adams, a neighbor down the street, hitting on the new pool boy. I missed my parents and being home with them in their two story home. Namine and I would spend hours on the roof top watching the sky change colors. A lot of my time was with Sora too.

We were that young couple other's envied or talked about. We were each others first kisses, our parents were friends, we've gone on family vacations together, we never fought. We were even each others firsts. It happened when we were seventeen and my parents were out of town visiting a family friend. It wasn't bad or painful like everyone told me it'd be. If anything, it brought Sora and I so much closer.

My phone buzzed interrupting my thoughts. I set my fork down and pulled my phone out. "Kai, really?" my dad asked staring at me.

"It's Namine," I replied opening the text.

Kai, will you come home? I need you. Please hurry.

My heart sank. What could it be? I looked up. "She needs me at home," I said sliding back from my seat.

My mom got up too. "Would you like to bring some extra food home for all of you?"

I smiled, "sure. Thank you mom." She disappeared into the kitchen and moments later, she returned with a bag of Tupperware. I hugged and kissed my parents before driving back home.

Once I arrived, I ran upstairs. I unlocked the door and hurried inside. "Namine," I called setting the food in the fridge.

"In the room," I heard from the room across the hall. I wandered to her bedroom door and opened it. She was sitting on her bed with tears in her eyes.

I ran over and kneeled in front of her. "Nam, what's wrong?"

She looked up with her bloodshot eyes and reached behind her. Her hands were shaking when she showed me. "I'm pregnant."

My heart stopped. She had two pregnancy tests- both with two positive lines. I couldn't believe it. "How? When?"

She wiped away some tears. "I think it happened the week Roxas moved in. My period was supposed to be last week."

"Does Roxas know?"

Namine shook her head. "Not yet. He's at work."

I leaned in and hugged her. She started crying again. "It's going to be okay. We're all going to make it work. You're so mature, Namine, and Roxas loves you so much. You have a stable job and your finances are in line. If anything, you're more than ready for this baby. You have so much support."

She hugged me tighter. "I love you, best friend."

"I love you, too," I answered. I waited with Namine for Roxas to come home. Once he arrived, I told them they had food from my parents in the fridge before I left them to talk alone.

I got in my car and sat in the dark for a moment. I stared at the light up in our apartment and hoped Roxas wouldn't be upset about this change in their life. I pulled my phone out and began to text the one person I could rely on.

I miss you. I hope New York is still as great. How's Aqua? Tell her I say hi. Text back when you get the chance.

I tucked my phone away and pulled out of the parking lot. It was eight at night here on a Tuesday so Sora wouldn't answer with it being eleven there. I had to face my facts because none of us were teenagers anymore. Namine and Roxas are having a baby, Sora and Aqua are as serious as ever in their Radiant Garden love story while I was lost in a so-called relationship with someone who would probably end it in a couple of months like his long running statistics.

I drove to a secluded beach to listen to the ocean. I walked along the sand and found a good spot to sit down and take it in. My fingers started digging in the sand. Someone suddenly sat down besides me causing me to jump back and yell.

Seifer laughed, "I'm sorry."

I put my hand to my heart. "What the heck are you doing here?"

"I was coming to see you when I saw you driving away, so I followed you. I wanted to talk."

"What do you want to talk about?" I looked at his face. He looked like he had a lot on his mind.

"Us."

I was actually pretty surprised. "There's an us?" He looked up at me and frowned. "I'm sorry. I just didn't know what to expect when it comes to us. You're closed in, protective of yourself. I want to be with someone who will let me be apart of their life. I know we hardly know each other. We've really only known each other for two months. Seifer, I like you. I really do. But if you can't let me in, I don't want to keep waiting. I don't want to be invested and have you let me down. You said letting people in is what gets hearts broken, but honestly, it's the same no matter what. I'm falling for you and I'd rather have a broken heart now then keep waiting and investing my time, only to hurt more later."

Seifer reached for my hands and ran his fingers across my skin. "I've thought about everything you said last week. And what you said just now, it's true. Kairi, you're gorgeous, sweet, loving, head strong, a great friend, and I can't stop thinking about you. My past is a darker side of life most people only read about which is why I try so hard to avoid it in conversation. You're unlike any other girl I've met. I want to be with you. I can't promise you I'll be able to open up right away or be everything you hope for. I don't date. I've been with girls but I wasn't in it to date. The girls I've been with were all sexual, no romance. When their feelings started getting involved, I'd move on."

I held my breath. Sexual relationships? He wants to be with me and try to be in a normal relationship. This was a lot to take in. "So you want to be with me?" I asked.

He nodded. "Yes, I want to be with you."

"A sexual relationship?" My insides shifted.

"No, not just a sexual relationship. I want to do this right. I want to take you on dates, I want to give you a normal relationship."

I reached up and caressed his cheek. "Are you sure this is what you want?"

He leaned into me and brushed his lips against mine. "With you, yes. I want you to be mine."

My heart fluttered. I pressed my forehead to his. "Let's make this work then." My first relationship since Sora was with a twenty-six year old who loved sex and had a secret past. Who would have thought.

Seifer leaned me back onto the sound and began to kiss me. He trailed kisses along my collarbone and ran his hand down my side causing me to squirm. I was getting turned on by him. Seifer pulled back and looked at me. "Tomorrow, after you're off work. I want to take you somewhere."

"Where?" I asked eagerly. His room maybe? I knew his past was sexual but now I understood why. I haven't had sex in three years and I wanted him. My mind was spinning.

He smiled. "It's a surprise."

When he smiled at me, my nerves seemed to disappear. I had one thing on my mind. "What should I wear?"

"A dress."

I bit my lip. "Should I wear matching underwear?" My felt suddenly felt warm.

Seifer laughed and sat up. "I told you, I want to try a normal relationship."

I sat up too. "Sex is normal in relationships."

He tilted his head. "Not to me. I want to savor your innocence."

At least I knew he meant it. I leaned forward and kissed him. "Okay."

"Let's get you home. I'll follow you." He pulled me up to my feet and held my hand to my car. I drove him with a huge grin on my face. Seifer Gushiken and I were official as of March 2014. I had a boyfriend.

Once I arrived to my apartment, I walked over to his car. He rolled down his window. "Thank you."

"For what?" I asked.

"Giving me a chance." I leaned in and kissed him. "I'll see you tomorrow at seven."

"Sounds like a date." I waved and went upstairs. It was quiet in the apartment. The light was on in Roxas and Namine's room. I wondered how the conversation was going. I went into my room quietly, hoping I wouldn't interrupt their private conversation, and peered out of my window. Seifer's black car was idling outside before driving off. There went my boyfriend. Oh how I loved the thought of it.

A/N: So just cause I'm me and I usually have song intentions in my head as I write one-shots and chapters, I'll start writing who sings the title of each song. Chapter 1 (Once Upon A Time) was literally just a title. Chapter 2 (Classic) was obviously by MKTO as stated through the whole chapter. This chapter (My Weakness) is by Kris Allen. Amazing songs! So I have the next few chapters ready for posting whenever you guys are ready!