The song is Pretend by Tinashe ft ASAP Rocky
A love that never ends
You
Yeah, it's almost like
Can't nobody do it quite right
Like I do it, right?
Give it to you how you live
9:07 am
Hearing the constant ringing of my cellphone I just wanted to kill the person on the line. Lifting my head out of my pile of pillows on my bed, looking around my pitch black bedroom. Searching my room for my phone I was relieved to see the brightness from the screen showing me where it was, but what I wasn't happy about was seeing who was calling...it was Roman. When I answered the phone I had no intention of being on the phone for more than a minute.
"What?" I growled onto the other line hearing him chuckle.
"Well good morning to you too, gorgeous." I was just so exhausted and jet lagged. I wasn't trying to be rude I just can't deal with him this early in the morning.
"Sorry Ro, good morning." Getting up with the phone pressed to my ear, I pulled open my heavy black and grayish curtains letting sunlight into my room.
"That's better." Letting out a sigh I got comfortable in my bed again listening to this smart ass.
"What do you need Ro?" I was just so tired and wanted to go back to sleep. "Well I wanted to stop by on my way home and check on you." I immediately denied him but clearly he was up for a fight.
"Why not?!" His replies were quick like they were planned. This man could be so frustrating at times it hurt.
"I don't want you here and around me anytime soon unless we're at work. I need to get over you Ro because I don't want to be with you or someone like you ever again." If I learned one thing it was that you had to be honest and straight forward to get your point across.
"You know what Nay, your a real bitch! You always want to do everything yourself and pretty stupid how you push everyone away thinking you're fine by yourself but here's the reality, you need me just like I need you!" Ugh he is being such a dick right now. I remember when he would drunkenly call me after we broke up talking about how he missed me and it was a mistake and soon as I denied him he would call me all these names to make me feel bad.
"Roman I'm over it because we're done and there is no fixing it. I'm ready to get my life back together and only worry about me." I needed him to know that what he did was unforgivable and that I gave him multiple unnecessary opportunities to make it right before we crumbled but he chose not to so fuck him.
Can we pretend
That everything is like yesterday?
What if I just wanna feel you touching me?
Ain't nobody perfect
So if you take a while I'll make it worth it
I wanna pretend
Let's pretend that we 'bout to break up
To catch the feelings that I want we make up
Legs up, suicide, north side
We never count points when we court side
Night after break up
It hadn't even been twenty four hours before Roman was on the run looking for Naomi. He couldn't believe she just up and left him. He spent the day driving around Tampa looking for Naomi and was flipping out. He thought after she had left she was trying to give him a wake up call and it was just a joke but it was all real.
Instead of driving back home, Roman drove to Dean's place hoping to see Renee but there was no had grown extremely close to her when her and Roman started dating.
Sulking into the bar into a dark booth Roman drunk as much as possible in a short period of time. Calling Naomi for the billionth time he felt victorious when she answered.
"Roman, please stop calling me! It's hard for me as it is for you just STOP! Please!" He heard her sobs over the phone but only worried for himself. "When are you coming home Naomi? I learned my lesson baby, just please come home. I promise you I can make it all better." He said as soft as possible trying sweet talking her.
He was such a idiot! "Ro that's not my home anymore and I'm not coming back! I need you to stay the hell away from me!" She tried to sound so brave but she still had that little bit of anxiousness telling her he would come to her.
"You BITCH! YOU STUPID BITCH!" He snarled into the phone sounding evil and nasty as ever. "You need me,I'm Roman FUCKING Reigns and I get what I want ."
"Not this time Roman, I'm really sorry, we should've never been anything because now I'm starting to regret it all." Hearing her voice choke out sobs once more before the line went dead, Roman chucked his phone at the wall hearing it shatter.
Back to present...
Let's pretend I ain't your friend
So we can get it on again
Let's pretend we never met
A good excuse to play forget
Let's pretend you never lied
So I can give it up all night
Swallow my pride and learn to forgive
When I'm looking for love I pretend it's you
A love that never ends
I pretend it's you
That I'm in love with
"You know what Naomi? How many times do I need to apologize?! I know I fucked up but..."That's the last I heard from him before I hung up on him. Hearing him call several more times I simply just put my phone under my pillow and went to get ready because I had several appointments today.
...
After Naomi walked out of her last appointment of the day she felt relief flow through her system. She had doctor, nail, and dentist appointment in the morning and now she had finally finished up in the hair salon with a Brazilian blow out and trim with some new extensions. Now her main task was going to see her parents. Naomi loved her mother more than anything on the planet but just seeing her pain caused her pain.
Her mom has been fighting breast cancer for the longest time since she was a teenager and it hurt her so badly that her mom was in pain but she made Naomi feel even stronger showing her that you can fight through anything and be there for her family.
Pulling into her moms driveway, Naomi climbed out of her truck and grabbed the white roses she had bought for her mom.
If we pretend that I'm happy when I'm really not
Pretend that I give you everything I got
Pretend that I'm there when I ain't there
Pretend that I care when I don't care
Once upon a time I did
Now I admit that I was fucking with a kid
Now I pretend that everything's straight
When everything ain't just covered up like paint
Naomi POV
I don't know why I was so damn nervous to see her but I was. I always get nervous coming to see her and to me it only matters that we spend as much time together. As I approached the door I seen majority of the lights were on so she was probably cleaning or cooking .Letting myself in I greeted her part time care taker I hired just because with my dad working just felt comfortable knowing someone was here with them for anything.
Walking through the house I smelled the most amazing thing ever. There was nothing better then a home cooked meal to me. When your basically on the road twenty four/seven takeout is your new bestie. I heard laughter when I walked into the kitchen but when I saw who it was coming from I wanted to die. Roman?! Why is Roman here? He was cooking alongside my mom as my dad had his head in his news paper sitting at the breakfast nook.
"Hey you guys." Alerting everyone I was here I ignored Roman and the stare he had on me. Walking up to my dad I gave him the biggest hug I could cause I missed him so much. "Hey daddy, are you ?" He just nodded and ask me how was work and I gave him the same exact answer every time.
"Well you know w..."but he cut me off this time and hopped to the good stuff.
"Work is work I get it, I know and God is fair so what is going on with you and Roman?"
"Well what do you think is going on with me and Roman?"
"I THINK Mr. Reigns is trying to earn back into the good graces of a certain little lady, I almost didn't let him in. Sweetheart it's up to you who you spend time with but let me be clear when I tell you nothing will make happy if you can't forgive." Putting his mind back on his newspaper I instantly heard my mom scold me for not greeting her and Roman..Not like he deserved one.
Let's pretend it's my first time
So you can really blow my mind
Let's pretend we never met
A good excuse to play forget
Let's pretend you never lied
So I can give it up all night
Swallow my pride and learn to forgive
When I'm looking for love I pretend it's you
"Sorry ma, me and dad were just catching up but I missed you so much mom." I said as I approached the countertop putting her roses on display. "Mom I got these for you today while I was out."
"Aww thanks baby, They're wonderful! Come help us finish up." She continue to gush to Roman about how it was a family secret. Stripping off my leather jacket I put it neatly on the chair, put my hair in a ponytail, and walked over to them to see what they were working on.
"That smells so good..." It had been one of my many childhood favorites, Cajun chicken pasta. I was so stuck on him being here like who wouldn't. I specifically told my mom after the break up I was done with him and yet he's in my parents kitchen cooking dinner like shits Gucci with us and we're all cool.
"Alright mama, you guys are almost done with that so I'll start the garlic bread."
"Oh ok Roman sweetie, do you mind helping her out there? I can handle it from here." This was a complete set up. I know it everyone's acting normal like nothing's wrong but you know what? I'm not going to play along.
Grabbing the loaf of fresh bread and knife I looked out of the corner of my eyes as Roman stood next to me watching her movements. "Are you just going to stand there or are you going to help? Might as well make your stalking worth it."
I muttered under my breath so only he can here. As I began cutting Roman moved his hand out to touch me so I cut down on the cutting board enough to send him a signal not to.
"I would like it if you showed me some respect Naomi. I'm not the bottom of your shoe." He hissed at me coming closer. "What do you want me to do chef?" He said a little louder with a smile for my parents.
"You need Garlic powder, dried parsley, and butter. The butter is in the fridge and the rest is in the cabinet." I said directing him.
Naomi watched as Roman precisely spread the garlic butter over the bread and put it in the oven. She missed the days when they were happy and prepared dinners at his parents home.
...
I was nervous around him still." This was going to be a long night. Throughout the whole dinner I had to sit next to Roman I felt even more of my old feelings surface and just lost it. I just felt so cornered and uncomfortable about like this was all a trap. A few times under the table he tried to hold my hand or rest his hand on my thigh but I shrugged him off.
After dinner my parents went to the living room to watch their soap operas and I on the other hand was staying quiet to Roman as he helped me clean up. I just couldn't understand why he couldn't respect me or my choices.
Roman POV
I couldn't be more pissed off with Naomi! I have never met someone so stubborn in my life. Following behind her into the kitchen I leaned against the counter top watching as she began to clean up. What hurt the most was that throughout this entire night she tried to ignore me and if I didn't say anything to her she would have never said a syllable to me.
"I can finish up if you wa..." Before I could finish she completely lost it and went off on me.
"No Roman! You keep pushing me and pushing me, just stop. You call, you text, God dammit you even fax! I just want to be alone by myself. You keep and kept saying you love me but be honest Ro, YOU DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT LOVE!"
Listening to every word was like cold ice water being thrown on my heart. She just went on and on about how she doesn't want me but the look in her eyes as tears spilled told me different. I just wish she could understand it from my side of it that I'm trying.
"Roman im gonna be straight forward and tell you I don't want to be with you again. You betrayed me and didn't give a damn about my trust. You flirted with girls right in front of me and didn't give a shit. I want someone who can love me the way I love them or more. You can try as hard as you want but I'm telling you now that we both need to move on."
I just wish I could take it all back and be a better man to her but I can't. I made my bed and now I have to lay in it.
"I'm sorry!" Watching as she finished up what she was doing Naomi grabbed her jacket and keys getting ready to head out the door.
A love that never ends
I pretend it's you
That I'm in love with
[A$AP Rocky:]
To never fool around with you was my best deed
Stand up, got a heart up on my left sleeve
When I could find another lover by the next week
Besties turn to ex-ies from a pet tease
Fuck what these other niggas on, I came to flaunt
What's that A$AP, little Saint Laurent?
Probably what you're thinking 'bout, the commas in my bank account
Pretty bitches bring 'em out, jiggy nigga in the house
When I caught her dancing by the couch
With her little booty hanging out
Her blouse sticking something in her stomach
Got her screaming out, "I'm coming," fronting like you really want it
Still my nigga though
"Sorry can't heal a broken heart. You say sorry when you accidentally knock someone over not when you destroy somebody Roman."For the first time I actually heard Naomi. I wasn't just thinking about how I felt anymore it was as if I was in her shoes. Listening to how she was on the verge of crying I felt very like it was really all over for us now and that it was a waste. I just want to start over!
"Ok."
Walking with her we both bid her parents goodbye and head outside to our respectable cars in silence. Walking with her to her car I gave her a kiss on her forehead that I know she reluctantly took and let her climb in. Before I close the door she stopped me.
"Roman how would you feel if while we were together or even now if I slept with someone else or had feelings for another man?"
"I would kill that motherfucker. You know I wouldn't let that happen." I said with a small sad smile because I know she knows better.
"You don't own me, Roman." She was so smug about it but we both knew how dominant I was.
"We'll see, goodnight beautiful." I shut her car door and began to make my way to my own. She was going to be the death of me.
You
A love that never ends
I pretend it's you
That I'm in love with
Can we pretend?
Can we pretend?
Can we pretend?
Thoughts? I really hope you guys like this chapter! All mistakes are mine.
