Hello everyone, I hope you are doing well :)
I know most of you weren't really thrilled about Cameron's confession in the last chapter but, trust me, it's kind of important for the plot and the next chapters. I'll tell you were I got the idea for this fic later 'cause now I would be giving out many things about the next chapters. :p Then you will understand why this is important...
So, thanks for staying with me, I'll try not to dissapoint you :) As for the ones who decided to give up on this fic I understand and it's ok.
Just so you know in the stories that I write House and Cameron will always end up together, no matter what ;)
Thank you all for the feedback, I really appreciate it! Any suggestions, questions or anything else are welcome..
Let's move on with the story then...
Disclaimer: I don't own House M.D. and the lyrics are from the song Let's be us again by Lonestar...
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Here I stand
With everything to lose
And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end
Baby please, I'm reaching out for you
Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in
Let's be us again
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Chapter 3: Stay
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They woke up in the early hours of the morning to the sound of rain pouring outside.
His eyes remained closed as her fingers moved over his bare chest. She knew he was awake the moment she opened her eyes but she didn't say anything.
She didn't know what to say really… After everything she had confessed and after everything they had done she was at a loss of words.
She heard him sigh and her hand stilled its movements and rested over his heart. His hand left her hip momentarily and intertwined with her hand that was resting on his chest.
He started moving their joined hands in the way she had done moments ago, encouraging her to continue what she was doing.
She started caressing his chest again and her eyes traveled to his face only to find his eyes still closed. She closed her eyes too and she leaned deeper into his embrace. His hand returned to her hip and they stayed like that for long minutes, neither of them talking.
"I have to go… this is getting much more complicated than it should be…" she whispered and made a move to disentangle herself from his embrace but he wrapped his arms tightly around her body holding her in place.
She didn't try to fight him off. She knew he was much stronger than her so she didn't even try. She just dropped her forehead on his chest and sighed heavily.
"You think that what you are doing now is helping?" she mumbled against his chest but he didn't answer, he just rested his chin on top of her head.
"Greg…" she said his name warningly and he pulled back in order to look into her eyes.
His sad expression pained her and she didn't know what to do to make him feel better. To make herself feel better…
"Don't do this… it's not fair to either of us." She tried to reason but he refused to listen.
"I'm not doing anything." He stated stubbornly.
"Right, and the not letting me go part?" she asked looking intently at him.
"I have to leave Greg…" she said, trying to sound confident but she knew she had failed miserably.
"Oh yeah? Then why does your voice quiver every time you say that sentence?" he questioned.
"You don't want to go, so why fight it and do something that you don't want to?" he continued, looking into her eyes.
"Because nothing good will come out if I stay here." She tried to explain.
"Why?" he demanded to know.
"Because this thing didn't even work when it was just the two of us! Do you think it is going to work now that I'm pregnant with someone else's baby?" she yelled at him and this time he stayed silent.
He didn't know what to answer to that so he did the wise thing and didn't speak.
"It was going to work if you had given me some time…" he finally said in a low tone.
"You were constantly pushing me away. I was done giving you time. I was done having my heart shattered over and over again just because you were too stubborn to let me in." She replied steadily and although it hurt to acknowledge it she thought it was the right time to get it all out because it would maybe be the last time she would have the chance.
"I was a jerk… and an idiot. Happy now?" he asked but she smiled sadly at him.
"That's it?" she asked, waiting for him to continue.
He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.
"Last time I let someone in half my thigh muscle went missing…" he said bitterly making her look intently at him.
"I'm not good at this, never was actually. I'm really good at pushing people away though. I think I have proved that many times." He continued and he opened his eyes again and looked straight into her eyes.
"All I'm asking is for you to stay. I don't regret about many things in my life. But letting you go is one of these things…" he stated truthfully.
The emotion she saw in his blue eyes startled her and she didn't know how to react. She let out a sigh and she brought her hand up to caress his stubbled cheek.
"I love you… I really do. But things have changed and no matter how much I want to stay here, with you, I can't. Because this time I'm not alone in this thing I have someone else to think about too." She said in a barely audible tone.
He looked at her pleadingly, begging her with his eyes to rethink about it and stay but she smiled sadly at him.
"What do you think will happen if I stay? You will probably freak out with all the things that will be going on in my life and you will run away. I don't know if it's going to be before or after the baby is born but eventually it will happen. And then it will be much more painful than it is now…" she tried to explain to him and to herself but a little voice in her head continued telling her to give him another chance.
"You are forgetting one thing. I can't run…" he said, his eyes locking with hers.
"Greg, you know what I mean. Don't play with the words." She said and he sighed.
"So you are just going to walk away…"
"If I stay we are going to get hurt… And it's going to be worse than last time." She replied.
"How do you know that?" he asked, his voice rising again.
"I just know it…"
"No you don't know it Allison!" he yelled and pulled a little back.
She closed her eyes and rubbed her hand over her face.
"Give us a chance…" he whispered, pulling her hand away from her face and entwining their fingers.
"I don't know if I can…" she replied in the same tone and before he could close his eyes she saw his hurt expression.
He pulled her into his arms again and she rested her head on his bicep, her hand on his lower abdomen.
"Please, let me move on…" she said trying to stop the tears from falling.
"I don't know if I can…" he replied using her own words and she sighed.
They stayed unmoving for several minutes and she thought that he had fallen asleep again when she felt his hand moving.
It glided from her shoulder, down her arm and it stopped at her hip for a while before it started to move again and it rested on her still flat stomach.
His fingers run over the skin there and she looked up at him only to find him looking back, an unreadable expression in his eyes.
"Greg…?"
"Three weeks…" he stated and she looked at him in confusion.
"Three weeks earlier and it would have been mine…" he clarified and she then understood.
"Yeah… but it's not." She said, sadness evident in her voice.
"But it could be. It's good enough for me…" he said in a low tone and if she wasn't so close to him she wouldn't have listened to him.
"Please don't say things like that…" she said, trying to suppress the hope she started to feel because he couldn't really mean it.
"Why?"
"Because I will believe it and then it's going to hurt even more when you take it back."
"What if I don't take it back?" he asked, his hand stilling and resting on her stomach.
She looked deeply into his eyes and she was surprised by what she saw in them. She wanted so desperately to believe him, she wanted to give him a second chance but at the same time she was scared to do so. Something was bound to go wrong if she did it, she knew it…
She needed time. Time to think everything over in her head and decide…
"You don't know that you are not going to take it back." She whispered.
"What do I have to do to make you believe me?" he asked in frustration and he dropped his forehead against hers, closing his eyes.
"I need time…" she replied.
He let out a breath and squeezed her hip with his hand.
"I just came to see you and say goodbye and then you go and say all these things and… God, I don't know what to do now!" she exclaimed making him open his eyes and look at her.
"You do know what you want…" he said tilting her head with his hand.
She smiled weakly at him and she caressed his cheek with her thumb.
"Yes… I want you and I want this baby. And, honestly, I think that I can't have you both." She whispered the last sentence.
He kissed away the lonely tear from her cheek and he hugged her close to him.
"Just three weeks…" he said in a low tone and she buried her head in his chest.
"Are you going to work at the hospital again?" he asked, trying to change the subject for a while.
"I don't know… I have a meeting with Cuddy on Monday." She replied and she felt him nod.
"So, where are you going to stay for the weekend?" he asked trying to sound as casual as possible.
"I don't know…" she said.
"Stay with me." He blurted out before he could stop himself.
"I need to think what I'm going to do and if I am here with you I'm not going to think."
"Maybe you could stay at Wilson's…" he suggested with a shrug.
"Right… not with you but at your best friend's place."
"If you don't want me around I won't come at all…"
"It's not that I don't want you around. You have no idea how much I want you… But it will be much more difficult for me to make a decision if I have you around." She clarified.
"Then stay at Wilson's… please." He said looking at her.
Just the look in his eyes made her nod. She started moving and he immediately got alarmed, thinking that she was leaving and he tightened his arms around her body.
"Where are you going?"
"Nowhere… I'm getting comfortable." She explained and relief washed over him.
"But I will go in the morning."
"Technically it is morning." He replied with a raised eyebrow.
"Yeah… five thirty in the morning." She said, stifling a yawn.
She rested her head on his chest and he hugged her tightly.
"Can we just forget about everything for now?" she asked, turning her head in order to look at him.
He nodded in agreement and then he placed a kiss on her forehead.
Minutes later they were both asleep again, forgetting everything that had happened while they were apart for a few hours…
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Wilson heard the knock on his door and he groaned. He buried his head under the pillow and willed his guest to just disappear but soon the knocking became banging.
He knew who it was of course. There was only one person who knocked like that. He also knew that he wasn't going to go away so he got out of the bed and made his way to the door.
He swung the door open ready to yell at his best friend for waking him on a Saturday morning but what he saw made his jaw hit the ground.
"About time! What were you doing?" House asked and passed by him and into the apartment leaving Wilson and Cameron behind looking at him with raised eyebrows.
"Are you two going to stay there forever? It's cold, close the damn door." He barked out and Cameron moved inside the apartment too while Wilson closed the door behind her.
"What are you doing here? I thought you would be in Arizona by now." He asked ignoring completely his best friend who was now slumped on the couch and he gave Cameron a hug.
"Long story…" she replied with a small smile.
"He is not interested!" said House before Cameron could continue.
"Please shut up for a while, you woke me up you have no right to talk for at least half an hour." Wilson stated, looking at his friend sternly.
"I can make coffee. We did wake you up so it's the least I can do." Cameron suggested and Wilson smiled warmly at her.
"Can I at least ask the question?" he asked hopefully and after receiving a nod he continued. "Are you two back together?"
"We don't know yet…" Cameron replied before House could say a thing and Wilson just nodded.
"I'm going to make coffee."
After Cameron headed to the kitchen Wilson turned to look at his best friend who was surfing through the channels of the TV.
"I know you are dying to say it…" House commented without looking at him.
"Don't screw this up again. 'Cause if you do and you hurt her I'm going to be the first one to kick your ass this time." He warned looking intently at him.
"It's already so screwed up that I don't know if I can do worse…" House mumbled a little distractedly.
"What do you mean?" Wilson asked looking suspiciously at him.
"Long story that we are not going to tell you now… Can Allison stay with you for the weekend? We have to figure out what we are going to do sooo…" he trailed off.
"Sure, no problem. She can stay for as long as she wants." He replied and after that House turned his attention to the TV once more.
Cameron returned to the living room a few minutes later, a tray with three cups of coffee in hands.
"Greg told you anything?" she asked once she was settled on the couch next to House.
"That you need somewhere to stay until you figure things out. And I'd be happy to help with that." He replied with a smile.
"Thank you James." Cameron said with a smile of her own.
"Now that this is settled can you two keep quiet? I want to watch this!" House interrupted making both of them roll their eyes.
Wilson and Cameron continued talking about irrelevant things while House watched TV. An hour later he decided to head back to his apartment, leaving Cameron with Wilson.
Once they were alone Wilson looked at her with a raised eyebrow, waiting for her to talk to him and explain what was going on.
"It's very complicated this time Jimmy…" she said.
"When isn't it complicated when House is concerned?" he asked with a teasing smile.
"Tell me about it… Now, though, there are so much more to the story. I'll explain once I figure everything out myself. Because right now I don't even what's know going on." She explained and Wilson nodded.
"I'll be here when you want to talk." He replied with a reassuring smile and she gave him a hug.
"Thanks Jimmy…" she mumbled and he tightened his embrace.
"I suggest we go shopping because House was here two days ago and there is nothing left! And then we can come back and make lunch." He suggested making her smile.
"Sounds good." She said.
"Ok, let me change and we are off." He said and he made his way to the bedroom.
Cameron sat on the couch and waited for her friend to return. She needed a distraction for a while and spending time with a friend was all she needed at the moment…
