Annex II:
God
FujitakaI have never felt like I have had any kind of control over my life.
Things simply happen.
I don't know what's going on. I only know I feel like...something terrible is coming. I feel so helpless, like things are spinning out of control and I can't do anything but watch as they...she...slips through my fingers.
Nadeshiko.
She's gone. She's just...gone now.
Nadeshiko...
I can only feel, in some way I've never felt before, that everything is going horribly, horribly wrong. And I'm afraid. I'm very afraid, and I don't even know what it is I'm so afraid of.
I hate being so powerless. And so helpless. I hate suspecting something is happening, but not knowing what or how to stop it.
It is worse than not knowing something was happening at all.
There's nothing that I can do. There never has been, and there never will be.
I'm just me, after all.
