Disclaimer: I do not own Fullmetal Alchemist, and just in case, I don't claim ownership of anything other than myself.

Authors Note: Ed from now on will pretty much only be played by me since my friend is having problems with… inspiration. So from here on out, I will be trying to do my best at playing female Ed. Thanks, and don't forget to review.

A More Feminine Point of View Chapter 3

The next day after work, Roy had taken Ed to get a mound of new books for her to read, most of them being more romance novels. Books were nice and all, but Ed wanted a bit more. She started to feel like there was too much that Roy was in control of. At dinner that night, she looked to Roy from her bed and said, "I hate staying so locked up in here."

Roy looked up from his food. "You don't have to stay here if you don't want to. You just wouldn't be in hiding anymore if you left and did things."

"I know," she replied, sighing. "I just hate being so locked up in here all day, everyday. You're lucky, Roy. You get to see people and go about your life."

Her words stung him for a second. "I'm sorry that you're stuck inside all the time. Like I said, you are more than welcome to leave whenever you feel like it; you just won't be in hiding anymore."

Ed was quiet while she thought of what to say next. "Do you like me not being able to go anywhere? To not be able to really have the freedom to just come and go as I please?"

Roy looked confused and answered with a bit of stuttering, "No. Ed, I don't have-"

"For once you have complete control of me, Taisa. You know that I want you, but you deny me. You know that I've always been on the go, always been active, but now I'm stuck here. On my own decision, of course, but I don't hear you complaining."

Roy was taking all this in and sat quietly, listening to all she was telling him.

"I feel like I'm just some special hidden toy that you won't ever bring out of the house. Like a doll that you can just play with. I feel like my emotions are being played with, Taisa. It's not fair!"

He sat still for another minute while he formed a sentence. "Ed, it never crossed my mind to treat you like that. I really never thought that you'd get that point of view from all this. I want you to know that you're not thought of as some doll. In a sense, I am happy to see you stay here and not leave because I never got to actually spend any time with you before now. You were always on some mission or errand or search." Roy looked up toed from the floor and looked her in the eye. "And really, Ed, I deny you because I acted the same way with some I believed so strongly to love and now I regret ever really doing any of it. I feel like I have less to offer for anyone, now. I don't want you to make my mistakes and have me be the responsible one."

"You're talking like you're my dad or something. You wouldn't be responsible, anyways. It'd be my fault as long as I brought us to that point," Ed replied, barely softening her tone.

"No, it'd be my fault because I've been there and I know better. I'm much older than you, Ed. I can't hide behind excuses like 'I didn't know' or 'hormones'."

They were stuck in a moment of silence when Ed spoke again. "Roy…are you…are you a virgin."

Roy blinked from surprise and answered honestly, "No, I'm not."

"Is that why you're so weird about this?"

"Yes."

"Who was it?"

"Doesn't matter now."

"Guess not." Ed looked to the floor. "Do you have any feelings for me, Taisa?"

Roy smiled at the little blonde. "Of course I do. That's why I want to protect you so bad."

Ed looked up into Roy's eyes. "Like hiding me?"

"Yes. That and with anything else you could get in trouble for."

Ed smiled, feeling pleased at Mustang's answer. "Do you have any real feelings for me, though? I say I love you, but you always tell me not to say that or you don't respond."

"I tell you not to because…well… I don't really know, but the more you tell them that, the more you yourself believe it, and it's bad when it wasn't really all that true," Roy said, nostalgia coating his words. "And I don't respond because I don't want to tell you something that isn't true. Right now, Ed, I don't love you, but I do have strong feelings for you. I think of you as a very serious girlfriend. I wouldn't have done any of what we had done the other day if I didn't think so." Roy smiled again at her, blushing lightly.

Ed blushed a bit, too, but felt a little down to hear that her love isn't completely returned. But maybe he is right. Maybe her love isn't full yet. Maybe it's just all physical right now, and she needed to get to know the Taisa not as the Taisa, but as Roy Mustang. What did she really know about him other than he likes to have a drink every now and again? Before she could really get too focused on all that, she needed to ask one more need to know question, "Taisa, did you have any boy-girl feelings with me when I was a boy?"

Roy sat for a minute completely lost in thought. "I'm not gay, Ed, so no. That doesn't mean that I didn't try as hard to protect you and help you the best way fit, though. You've always been something special to me, just in different ways now."

"Was I really just some pawn to get you higher in the ranks?" Ed asked. That had always bothered him.

"No. You did help me get promoted, but that's not why I kept you so close under my command. I knew about your story and I didn't want the whole military to know. To let your brother get hauled off to some lab, maybe something like lab five, if not that, would've been horrible. Sometimes to get you to cooperate with me, I had to do some bribing, but I feel like I've done the best I could to be of use for you while keeping things comfortable for me." Roy felt like he was explaining himself too much, but better too much than too little.

Ed felt relieved. All of Roy's answers really helped her and made her understand their connection better. "That bastard Taisa," had become a sort of antonym for who she saw him to be now: a real person of affection and respect. She loved him

Roy got up and stretched after finishing his dinner and put his plate by the door. "I do understand how you feel," he said going over to the bed where Ed was sitting and sat next to her. "About how you don't like being so cooped up. So how about this: tomorrow I'll come home early from work and take you shopping for a nice outfit, maybe a dress if you want. This weekend I'll take you to any restaurant in East City that you want to go to. Call it a date if you want."

Ed's eyes lit up with excitement. She squealed with joy, "Really, Taisa?"

Roy nodded. "Really."

"Thank you!" She wrapped her arms around the man's neck and kissed him on the lips.

"Taisa, what are you doing?" Ed laughed from outside the door. Roy had brought her in from the inside instead of the fire escape. "No! Put me down! Ah, Roy!" The door to the study, now Roy and Ed's apartment, opened with Roy carrying Ed in bridal style. "Hold still or I'll drop you." He teased to the wiggling blonde in his arms. "You wouldn't dare!" she replied, shooting him a dirty look. "Oh, I wouldn't?" Roy asked, jerking his arms down and scaring her like he was actually going to. Ed yelped and wrapped her arms around the colonel.

"Taisa!"

"I was joking! I wouldn't drop you."

"I hope not."

Ed was still in her dress from having dinner with Roy at one of the nicest places in town. She dropped her high heeled shoes on the ground, with the dark haired man still holding her and sighed. "Much better. I never knew heels were such a pain."

Roy laughed. "I can only imagine." He was dressed in nice civilian clothes, too. A red collared shirt, nice matching black jacket and pants, with black dress shoes, and a black leather belt. He looked around the room as he managed to turn on the light with one finger. The small bouquet of white roses that he brought Ed earlier that day was in a vase on the desk along with some chocolate candies. After a quick kiss on her lips, Roy put Ed on her bed.

"I'm going to go change into some pajamas and wash off the makeup." Ed stood, grabbing a change of clothes, and walked into the bathroom.

Roy watched the door shut and he moved over to the paper bag he had snuck in earlier, and started to pull out it's contents quietly. Fat red candles, red rose petals, and a bottle of wine he bought for them on another occasion. Roy sat the candles all over the room, most near the bed, and scattered the petals from the bathroom door to Ed's bed. Next, he needed to light the candles.

Ed was unaware of the happenings outside the bathroom door. She slipped out of her dress and hung it on the hanger she left in there earlier. Undoing her bra, she let that fall as she reached for her pj's and pulled those on. Casually, Ed brushed her teeth and hair.

Roy put on his ignition cloth gloves from his pocket and made a little spark with his fingers by the wick of the candles until they were all lit. He smiled as he waited for Ed to be finished in the bathroom.

Ed yawned at her reflection and opened the door, making sure to turn off the light behind her.

Roy waited for Ed to turn off the bathroom light and open the door before he shut off the bedroom light to the "bedroom". He paused for effect. "Surprised?"

She stepped into the room, blinking at all of the beautiful candles and feeling the soft petals under her feet.

"Do you like it?" Roy asked as he moved over to Ed, wrapping his arms around her waist.

Ed nodded, her mouth still slightly agape in awe. She leaned into the man, resting her head on his chest.

He smiled, enjoying the odd sensation that ran through him like a warm shower. Roy leaned down and kissed Ed sweetly on the lips, pulling her as close as possible without making anyone particularly uncomfortable.

Ed raised herself on her tip-toes to reach him better. She pressed her body closer to him, running her tongue along his bottom lip.

"Mmm." Roy kept their lips locked as he bent down to pick her up bridal style again. With a small smile through his lips, he carried her to her bed, laying her down again gently.

Ed gripped the dark haired man's shoulders when he picked her up, partially fearing that she might fall if she didn't. One hand found its way up his neck on into his hair. Her eyes slid shut.

He climbed ontop of her gently, moaning at the feel of her hands running through his hair. His tongue slid into her mouth as he kissed her passionately. Roy let his weight down on the blonde slowly.

Ed smiled lightly against his lips. She moved her hands along his body before opening her eyes.

Roy shivered at the feeling of Ed's finger tips along his body. He moved down and claimed her neck with his mouth, gently sucking and nipping at the tender skin.

Ed moaned in response as she felt Roy move down to her neck. Her fingers lightly gripped his hair.

He fumbled with Ed's pajama collar until he pulled off his own to make things a bit less hot for him. Roy's black jacket slid to the floor from the bed and his lips went right back to Ed, now playing with her ear.

Ed let out a little gasp as her eyes opened and widened. "Roy…" a barely audible moan escaped from her lips.

The heat of their bodies intensified, making Roy remove his red collared shirt and the belt that was pressing into his middle.

Ed watched all of this through half lidded eyes. Her pupils were slightly dilated from pleasure. She didn't know how much longer she could take this before she just lustily attack the man.

He ran a hand over her breasts before fiddling the buttons of her top. Her skin looked smooth and inviting from the candle light that warmed the room.

Ed bit her lip and narrowed her eyes with pleasure. Her hips bucked up slightly.

Roy had undone one button, then another until her top was undone completely, but still attached. He kissed her exposed breasts and ran the tip of his tongue and nose around them.

Ed's back arched upwards as she moaned out. "Roy…" she was louder this time. She felt her underwear wetted as she bit her lip harder. (TM: sorry, a bit graphic)

An erection started in Roy's pants as he heard Ed call his name for the second time. He pressed his lips on hers, and moved to under her jaw, down her neck, along her shoulders and collar bone, down her breasts and finally to her stomach where he stopped at her navel, licking it sensually.

Ed could do nothing but whimper helplessly. She was so turned on, it almost hurt. Every movement reminded her of how turned on she was. "Please…" she trailed off. She needed some sort of release. She was desperate. Her hips started squirming unconsciously.

Roy felt and saw her desperate movements as he pleased her. She wanted more. Licking from her navel, up to her mouth again, he locked lips with her as he slowly started to unzip his pants, an erection still building.

Ed heard his zipper and grew more excited. She was so eager for him, she totally forgot that it might hurt if he penetrated her. She didn't want to stop. If he stopped, she might get pissy for the next few days.

Somehow he pulled off his pants and put them on the floor. His erection absolutely pulsing now at the familiar feel of heat and air through his boxers. He started to mess with her pajama bottoms, running a finger under the elastic.

The thought of pain rushed suddenly into her mind. It was a faint thought, but not enough to want to stop.

As he started to pull off her bottoms, he kissed her stomach again and stopped when her got to her underwear, being able to pull off her bottoms completely from that position. They both knew what was next to go.

She felt a sudden panic set in. Ed really wanted a release, but didn't want the pain. She just continued to watch as Roy moved. She was so afraid to say "no".

Roy stopped there before going any further, knowing that what they were doing next was the next step. He moved up to her mouth again and kissed her softly, running his hand down her cheek. Pulling away, he opened his eyes and looked into hers. "Are you ready to do this?" He asked quietly, his eyes completely penetrating hers.

"I-I…I don't think so." Ed admitted. Buzzkill. She felt so bad for getting so worked up. She sighed slightly.

Roy smiled warmly and forgivingly as he kissed her forehead. "Good girl." Getting up from on top of her, he handed her a blanket and pajamas.

Ed watched the taisa sit on the edge of the bed, feeling bad that she probably got him all worked up, too. She started to feel a little emotional so she hugged the man from behind after covering up. "I'm sorry, Roy."

Feeling her arms wrap around him from behind, the dark haired man turned to hug her right. "Don't be. It wouldn't be right unless you were ready."

"But I got you so worked up and I kept acting like I wanted it. Ed argued, a lump in her throat.

"You just got worked up, Ed. As long as you can find the courage to tell me no, I'll keep stopping. It makes me proud of you." Roy said, petting Ed slowly.

"Colonel? Can you get pregnant from the first time having sex?" Ed asked after a minute of silence and thought.

"Mmhmm." The taisa hummed as he nodded against Ed's head. "Even when women hit their menstrual cycle they can get pregnant, even though the egg is being expelled."

The blonde listened and asked, "how do you know so much about that? Have you ever got a girl pregnant?"

"No. I've been lucky, but I've only had sex with two other people, so I'm not quite the womanizer everyone acts like I am." Roy admitted. "I've dated a lot of women, but that's only because I can never find what I'm looking for. It's always like she's too clingy, or she just wants to have sex with me, she's too shy, she's too obnoxious."

"What am I?" Ed asked, looking up to the taisa.

"Hmm? What do you mean? You're perfect."

She smiled. "Does that mean that you love me?"

"I think I do, but I'm not 100 percent sure yet." He answered warmly in hopes that he didn't discourage Ed.

"Then you would've had sex with me without knowing whether or not you love me?" She darted seriously.

"Well, uh…"

Ed watched his expression to see if he would dare lie to her. Her golden eyes just started cruelly.

Roy looked into Ed's eyes and sighed. "I'm pretty sure I do love you, Ed. Honestly. I just…" he trailed off as he tried to find the right combination of words to say. "I'm just scared. The last thing I want to do is hurt you or put us in a awkward situation again."

Ed continued to watch him, suddenly feeling emotionally and physically drained. She rubbed one eye and yawned. She looked as if she'd sleep sitting up. "But I love you, taisa." She sighed.

"I know," he answered, bringing her close again. "I'd just feel horrible if that ever changed." He pulled away after a minute, kissed her cheek, and moved his way over to the futon, blowing out the candles as he went. "Goodnight, Ed."

After the candles were out, Ed felt wide awake again. "'Night, taisa." Ed made no moves to settle down

The air smelt lightly of smoke, calming the Flame Alchemist's senses. Burring himself deep into the blankets and cushions of the futon.

Ed wasn't quite satisfied with tonight so she got up as quietly as possible and climbed onto the futon with Roy.

Roy felt the weight of the futon shift and pressure on his chest before he opened his eyes. The little blonde was snuggled up against him over top of the covers. "Alright," he said, pulling the covers from under her to over her, and pulling her close. Her head resting on his chest again, him on his back, they both fell asleep together quickly.