Chapter 3
Author's Note: Again, I'm overwhelmed and so happy with the response to this story. I'm writing it as fast as I can and am constantly inspired by your comments =)
Blair and Chuck will be slightly OOC in this story because we are seven years from where we last saw them. They have had a lot of time to reflect on what went wrong, how they could have done things differently, and what they would do if they ever saw each other again. That and as the story progresses you'll learn more about their years apart.
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"Morning," Blair said cheerfully as a half-asleep Dan opened the door.
"Do you have any idea what time it is?" Dan asked as he rubbed his eyes. "I know you're on London time but you've been here for 48 hours now. This is unacceptable."
"I brought coffee, your favorite," she said a half-smile as she handed him a cup. "And hot pastries, fresh out of the oven."
He eyed the bag before grabbing it and taking out a donut, "Fine, this gives you a reprieve. Why are you even here? It's barely 7:30 in the morning."
"It's Saturday," as if he needed reminding, "And Chuck is asleep in my hotel suite. I panicked and left before he woke up."
"Don't tell me I told you so," she begged as he looked at her while stretching out on the couch. "I know you warned me. And as amazing as last night was I just couldn't face him this morning."
"I want to start by saying no more details of your sex life," he told her as he took a sip of coffee as she nodded in agreement. "Now tell me how are you dealing with this?"
"Honestly, I don't know," she said as she sat in the chair.
"I'm going to ask the obvious question here. Why did you sleep with him if you didn't want him back?" he asked. "You had to know this couldn't be a casual fling."
"Dan, I never planned on inviting him up to my room," she said. "But when I saw him all I could think about was how much I wanted to be with him again. Something primal within woke up and I was more than happy to let it take over. But I know he wants more."
"How?" Dan asked, still waking up as he finished his coffee.
"He told me he never stopped loving me as I was falling asleep, and I told him neither did I," she winced, feeling like a cold-hearted bitch.
"Okay," Dan said as he sat up and moved closer to her. "So what now?"
"I think the only thing I can do is find him and talk to him," she concluded. "But I don't even know where to start or if I even want to. Can't we just leave it as what it was, great sex with an old friend?"
"You could," Dan started, "If said old friend hadn't driven you out of the country before trying to destroy the both of us."
"Are you still mad about that?" she asked, curious as they hadn't spoken about it in years.
"Not really," he said, "My dad and Lily were able to do damage control. That and Chuck backed off when he realized you weren't coming back. But we aren't discussing me at the moment; we're talking about you. And the only way we are going to be able to talk through this at this hour is with caffeine, lots of it."
Blair didn't mention Serena because she knew it was a sore point for him, her as well. The blonde had been off the grid for almost six years now and no one knew what happened to her. Blair hoped her old friend was doing well but she tried not to think about it much.
"Make that pot as strong as you can," Blair said as she walked over and took a seat of one of the barstools. "I need all the help I can get in figuring out this mess I'm in."
"It'll work itself out," Dan said as he sat next to her a put his arm around her. "Tell me how things with work are going. How is the New York office shaping up?"
"It's great really," she told him. "The transition couldn't go any smoother. There were no layoffs so that's helped. The only setback we're facing is training the Manhattan office in British law and the London office in American law. Other than that it's mostly paperwork and meetings for me. We're throwing a party at the end of the month to celebrate the merge. You and Nate should be getting your invitations any day now."
"Wouldn't miss it," he smiled. "You happy?"
"With my job, yes. With my personal life, not at the moment," she shrugged. "But I have great friends that help me get through."
"I'm going to go," she said as she stood up, "I need to clear my head and figure this out on my own."
"Thanks for listening to me," she said as she kissed his cheek.
"You sure you want to be alone," Dan asked. "I could come with you if you want."
"I'm sure, I'll talk to you soon," she said as she made her way to the door.
"Wait," he called, "At least take a thermos of coffee with you."
She left with her coffee in hand and her friend even more worried about her than he already was.
XOXO
"What?" Nate yelled as the banging on his door continued.
"I need a drink," Chuck stated as he walked straight past his friend and grabbed the bottle of scotch off the bar.
"Dude, it's 8am," Nate exclaimed, "A bit early to be knocking them back, don't you think?"
Chuck merely glared at him as he downed the glass and refilled it, downing it again. Before he could have a third glass, Nate took it and the bottle from him. "Tell me what happened."
"Blair," he hissed as he tried to get the bottle back.
"I thought things were good," Nate said. "You two were going at it like jackrabbits yesterday."
"We were," Chuck let him know, "But it seems that's all she wanted. I woke up this morning and she was gone."
"Oh," was all Nate could get out as he handed the glass and bottle back to Chuck.
"This is your solution for me," Chuck stated incredulously. "What kind of friend are you?"
As much as he tried, Nate couldn't suppress his smile. "Blair's using you as a sex-toy and you're hurt by it," he laughed.
"Not funny, Nathaniel," Chuck snarled as he took a swig of scotch from the bottle. "Even monsters have hearts."
"I'm sorry, you're right," Nate told him as he patted him on the back. "And you're not a monster. I know how much you love her. I mean, when was the last time you got laid? Before Blair came back," he added.
"A while," he said, "I gave you my black book, what, almost a year ago?"
"I still can't believe you gave me that," Nate said. "I've coveted that thing since high school. Wait, are you telling me you, Chuck Bass, have been celibate for almost a year?"
"Things have been busy at work," he said defensively. "And when I found out about Blair possibly coming back to the city I didn't want anything or anyone to complicate it. I spent most of my life whoring around and none of that compares to when I was with Blair."
"Wow, you really have grown up," Nate said, still in shock at his friend's revelation. "She needs to know this."
"I thought we could talk when I saw her and I would have the chance to tell how sorry I was for how I reacted all those years ago," he said as he swirled the glass around. "Never in a million years did I think she'd proposition me immediately. There's no controlling myself when she's concerned. I'm just as in love with her as I was ten years ago and all she wants from me is sex. Would it be wrong for me to give her what she wants?"
"Yes," Nate said immediately, "That will only end in pain, for the both of you. You really waited a year just to have sex with her again?" He was still amazed at his friend's control.
"When you've been around the block as often as I have, there comes a time when you know nothing but the best will give you the release you need," Chuck told Nate. "No one comes close to Blair, no one ever has."
"Do you want me to call her? Tell her I want to talk with her," he suggested. He really felt for Chuck and knew that he and Blair were meant for each other. As a friend to both of them, he felt a duty to help them overcome their issues because he knew neither of them could be happy without the other to complete them.
"No, but thanks," he said. "I have to do this on my own. Thanks for the scotch, and the talk."
He was out the door before Nate could stop him.
XOXO
"Hey," Dan said as soon as Nate answered, "We have a problem."
"I know," Nate sighed, "Chuck just left to find Blair. Do you know where she is?"
"No," Dan said, "She just left the loft, said she needed to clear her head."
"This isn't good," Nate stated, "We need to do something."
"What did you have in mind?" Dan said, "I think we might be out of our league with this."
"Blair left Chuck before he woke up. She left him alone the morning after not being with him in seven years," Nate said twice for emphasis. "If that doesn't warrant help I don't know what does."
"What do you suggest we do?" Dan relented.
"Let's think on this," Nate said before turning serious, "See if they find each other before we step in. But really, I don't want to see either of them hurt. Chuck wants more from Blair than her time in the city. He's ready to put himself out there and I don't know if she is."
"I think she does, too," Dan said. "But she's scared, can you blame her?"
"She can't be that scared if she jumped right into bed with him," Nate said with a tinge of bitterness.
"You do remember who we're talking about?" Dan asked with a laugh. "Sex is their language."
"You're right, it is what they do," Nate reasoned. "I've got to go, let me know what our next move is."
He hung up before Dan could argue it. He knew everything would work out between Blair and Chuck but he wasn't sure how much carnage they would leave in their path as they found their way back to each other.
XOXO
Blair found herself in Central Park purchasing a few pretzels to feed the ducks. Even her old ritual wasn't enough to soothe her anxiety. When she had no more pretzel left she sat on one of the benches, watching the happy couples enjoying the beautiful day together.
She was lost in her thoughts when she saw Chuck walking towards her. She stood up as he approached her, unsure of what to say.
"Chuck," she smiled as she felt herself getting hot all over, and not with desire but shame. "How did you sleep?"
"Better if you were there when I woke up," he said as he looked at her with his hands in his pockets.
"About that," she started nervously, "I needed to," but was cut off by him.
"Needed to what," he accused, "Get to an early morning meeting on a Saturday? You couldn't even kick me out yourself, you had to leave before I woke up?"
"I learned from the best," she retorted icily before she had time to censor herself.
"That was low, Blair, even for you," he said as he looked at his feet. "I thought we were past that."
"Apparently not," she sniped as she found herself unable to say anything else.
"That's it," he asked incredulously, "That's all you have to say?"
"What is there left to say?" she asked. "You've always been a great lay and I wasn't about to pass that up. Don't tell me you didn't enjoy it as much as I did."
"What do you want me to say, Blair?" Chuck asked with sadness written all over his face. "That being with you again didn't mean the world to me, because that would be a lie."
"Chuck," was all she could get out, his raw emotion too much for her to process.
"You know how I feel," he sighed, "But I won't be made a fool. It was good to see you again."
He disappeared into the crowd as she stood there, frozen and unable to move.
Blair spent the rest of the day walking around the city in a daze. The heartbreak she saw on his face was devastating for her. She always knew that he still cared for her yet she didn't want to admit it was true. However, the look on his face made it all crystal clear to her, they couldn't be together unless it was for good.
If Chuck felt even half the heartache she did during their years apart, which she knew he did, she owed it to them to try again. After all, they did find their way back to each other after everything that happened between them.
It was starting to get dark when she made her way to the Palace Hotel. Nate mentioned once that Chuck moved into one of their apartments a few years back. She was able to sweet-talk the concierge and was in the elevator, heart in hand, finally ready to talk with Chuck. She knew he was home and prayed that he would be alone.
She stepped into the hallway as Chuck rounded the corner.
"Can we talk?" Blair asked quietly as he stared at her.
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